Awkward, was the only word I could describe Dallas and I. We had spent all of yesterday, well I was avoiding him. I wasn't sure if he was avoiding me or I was just doing a really really good job avoiding him. After that night he dropped me home, with a single goodbye and took off, back into the city I suppose. But he was right, about his mother. I came back and everyone was worried about me, but Paris could care less about him. She didn't mutter a word about him, I knew the loneliness of the world before I had people that truly cared, the feeling of staying out all night and coming home to no worried parent, that's why I never challenged Nolan's overprotective force. There was a difference between trusting someone to the point of not worrying about them to not even thinking about them. It was a lonely spot to be in, it caused you to act careless, reckless even to make someone finally see you for whatever you were. He was still gone, as I searched through the books I h
The aching pain, people would imagine which would come after you kiss a guy that you like and then he regrets it. But it was not that pain that was throbbing today at least, instead it was my whole body aching from the training I had done over the past couple of weeks. When I had arrived at my perfect escape I had forgotten that I actually had to do something at this camp, which meant 5am runs, a strict diet all protein based and soccer drills, too many soccer drills. I should've picked a more peaceful escape, not three weeks of never-ending exercise.And so as I prepared myself mentally and emotionally for school, which was mainly an excuse to see Dallas, to find out if he has a girlfriend, or something like that. Not that I wanted to be it for him, but just to know, it's nice to know these things.I hadn't seen or heard from him ever since that horrid night, I thought back at it with a look of vulnerability, how did I let myself fall for a complete jackass? I think the feelings I
I wanted to tell her she was talented, but it didn't seem like she was done yet."Davina, and you are?", she asked, and I realized she wanted to know my name."Melody", I said as something clicked in her and she looked over at me this time."You slept with Dallas, right?" She asked, saying his name with such a familiar touch."I didn't... Do you know him?" I asked her, wanting to know, wanting to know anything about him at this point."Probably as good as you do", she joked, laughing at the idea that I hadn't known him and they had said we had slept together."I just heard some girls talking about it, they are fucking annoying right?" She asked, laughing at it all as I joined it with her, noticing the little drawings against her skin. It felt good to have something to laugh about, with someone else. It felt good to be a part of something at least.The rest of class was really just notes. The school gave us actual work on the first day of school. Da
"So you really do know him?" Davina asked, as I rushed into class just before the bell had rung and I still shook in my seat. Her question was one I dreaded answering, how did I know Dallas again, besides our families. But what were we to each other, was he my friend? Did he even want to be my friend, I knew he didn't like me, that stone cold expression of frozen regret. I never wanted to see that look again.I had only been late this time, because I had to go to the attendance office and let them know why I had been gone for three days, but they already knew. The whole office knew and soon it would slip down the chains, people just assumed it was that I hated being the center of attention. And I did, especially for these reasons. I hated the looks of wonder, the whispering that surrounded you. Some people felt that it empowered them, but I could never be one of those people. But I would never faint from that reason alone, I fainted as a result of the surprise and the message that he
Parties, they were the social invitation of teen years, yet each person went for different reasons. But for me, as the time neared 5:30, and my handy dandy, 'can't say no to me' date was coming at 6, so in other words I was screwed and now sick. I merely had no reasons, not a single one. The anxiety of this night just got to me quicker than I could manage, no amount of painkillers would help me tonight. I was going unmedicated and very very bothered.How was I supposed to go tonight? How was I supposed to face Zeke, let alone Dallas? And so I did what I always do, run from this event, a soul crushing event. So when Natalie walked into my room, I was balled in my bed and clutching my stomach like I was bound to have an alien pop out through the skin. It hurt that much, well that's what I described to her. I couldn't tell her the truth about Zeke, I couldn't crush her idea of me ever finding love."What's wrong, hunny?" She came and sat on my bed, as I hoped she would see th
But it was ruined, just like everything that came with us. Wrong timing, it what we were made for, he was just about to say life changing words."What the fuck are you doing?" He stared in disbelief at Dallas and I. But his question wasn't made for Dallas, it was made for me. His tone was just as he spoke to me that night earlier, I wished I didn't have to experience this in front of Dallas.He pulled my shirt back inside the window, and I moved with him climbing up the roof and in the window, jumping into the house. His eyes were furious, filled with disappointment, it was me who dissatisfied and disappointed him."Don't you dare see him again", his finger was brought to my face, as if he was scolding me. I had a foster mom that would do the same thing she ended up getting arrested for smashing her kids into a vase. I remembered that as if it was fresh on my mind. He brought his finger back into my face, and his voice was so close to where I could feel his breath, no
"Vi always tells me if someone hurts you then they shouldn't be in your life anymore", Dallas said, as he turned to face me in my bed. I had gotten used to the idea of him sleeping next to me, I had gotten used to him just being there.After we had really searched for 'the book', we had come to a dead end and he accepted defeat of never finding it, besides I had only told him a handful of the books I had read. And they were all my favorites and he had checked that section all ready.It was late by that time, nearing 4am. And so I told him he could sleep here, I had hoped he would. He made me feel safer, secure that he would still be there in the morning.But here we were now, I didn't want to tell him the words Zeke had said to me earlier, even though they were burned in my head. I couldn't shake them, I couldn't scare them away, so for tonight he would be here, next to me, as his legs lightly brushed against mine, or my hand would fly close to his and I would
"Bambi, Bambi", was whispered into my ear, as I looked out at someone blocking the sun in my very own bed. There he was, the sun shined on him perfectly as he looked over at me, arching his back."Go back to bed", I pushed him down, grumbling at the brightness."Isn't Natalie going to come check on you?" He asked, and I pushed him back down."What time is it?" I asked him as he got up.I looked for myself and it was a quarter past ten, they were long gone by now."They're at some breakfast thing", he sighed back onto the bed, relaxing in the idea that no one could catch us doing whatever we were doing."Why don't I take you for breakfast?" He offered, smiling that million dollar smile."Just sleep", I begged him, he was weirdly happy in the morning, and I was the complete opposite."I want to thank you for this great hospitality", he said, swooningly as I threw a pillow at him, trying to open the curtains."Dallas please you're killing me