Ever since the launch party, Natalie had barely left the house. She had become too frightened of just how close she had come to risking the babies that day at the launch party. During the part, Natalie had a scare that had everyone concerned for the newly pregnant women. I knew she hadn't eaten much that day or drank enough, she had this overwhelming stress that came over her that day. I knew she had been pushing her limits that day, it was as if she had lost those boundaries that she had set with herself to protect her and the babies.
But during the party, she became squeamish and dizzy, I remembered she had rushed off the stage towards Nolan and tumbled in his arms. Nolan took her to the back carefully, we gave her water and some food and she was feeling better after that.But the aftermath of all of that scared her the most, I think she was still so embarrassed and surprised that she had let it get so bad. But ever since then she took her bed rest the doctor had orderedSunny rays and walks in the town was all Natalie could think about, as she sat on the couch going through the itinerary, yes that was how bored she was. She had time to plan the whole thing. Down to each detail, down to each second. I just knew nobody had this same level of commitment for anything, I sure didn't. "I even made some time where we could do anything you wanted to do", she cheered, going through each item and crossing it off. I knew she wanted to find anything to make me feel included in a sense, but I had to remind her again that I was already going to have a fantastic time without anyone else there with me. "I think I'll be okay", I told her, hoping she would take it off her schedule of things. I knew half of the time I would be out in the city, wandering through the culture that was embedded in the town. We were supposed to be in Aruba in ten hours, and during the time since she had planned this trip Natalie found every opportunity to invite
The plane rocked and shook, waking me up harshly. My head rested on something hard, as I felt someone's hands reach over me, trying to search for something, and as I looked at the 'thing' my head was resting on, I found it wasn't a thing at all, but a person. Dallas's eyes warned me, and finally he made eye contact with me, removing his hands from my body. His eyes were drawn away, and he towered over me again as he grabbed my seat belt, strapping me in safely. With no words he tightened the belt. And sat himself back down in the seat, I still couldn't process this all, I was still confused on how he was even here. "The seatbelt sign came on, we're landing soon", he spoke in a monotone voice, and his eyes distant as ever. He couldn't even look at me, let alone look into my eyes as he talked. The word distant couldn't even describe how he was. I wanted to ask him, if he was okay? If he was upset about something? But as he kept looking back in his seat, as I observed hi
Dallas was more distant than he could ever be, always racing off to check on his phone. Maybe his long-distance girlfriend had been keeping him busy over the phone. Now it sounded like I was bored. How could I be bored? I sat on my chair under an umbrella, looking out at the strong ocean, that was propelling the smell of salt through my hair. My hair had already taken up the smell, by just being here since lunch. "You should get in the water", Natalie shouted, as they played in the open waves, crashing just below their knees. They were splashing water on each other and being all lovey-dovey, I would be doing Cupid wrong if I went and interrupted them, besides they need as much time with themselves before they have children. I should at least give them that. I had opted out of the water knowing my book wouldn't appreciate it and besides the swimsuits, I had bought, per Natalie's request showed too much. The only way I would wear it is if it was pitch black, or I
We walked down the stairs in silence, I was too focused on not tripping over my dress, and Dallas was close behind me. God this place needed elevators. BADLY. We grabbed the many things, Alec wanted us too, and Dallas was just about to load them in the car and I had a better idea. "Let's walk, come on", I motioned for him as he took the bouquet of flowers I had him hold and he walked side by side without any complaints. "So the happy couple is in love?" He asked, almost asking just to spite me. He emphasized the word love as if he didn't believe in it, like it was just something a person wanted, but could never get. "They are, they've been through so much together", I spoke about them like magic, Dallas probably thought it was meaningless. "Good for them", he huffed and puffed. "You don't believe in love?" I asked him, as we walked closer to the river nearing off the street. His demeanor changed as he dug his pockets in his hands just like when I
I sent it under the door, listening for him to pick up the paper against the door. The rustle and wrinkle of the paper sounded from his hands, and I heard his little chuckle echo softly through the room. It was good enough for me. I heard his steps go grab something and he came back, writing on the paper as I could hear the pen tracing over the words deeply into the paper. He sent it under the door, as I grabbed it before it could make its way any further. The paper was just how I had drawn it, except a box had been checked off. And some words that had made me chuckle were left on it. It read' I'm fucking fine, Bambi' I wrote on the bottom of the paper, writing out my question to him. What broke? I sent it under the door, and I heard him pick it up against the wood floors. He tore his own paper, and wrote out his own answer, I had hoped. He sent it under the door, keeping the other note with him. Probably he had trashed it. My phone
I was fascinated that he knew exactly what I was looking for, well what I had come here to do. I grabbed a table, as he went to grab a menu. I set my bag on the ground, as he came back with a menu in his hand and set his own bag on the ground. "This whole island knows Spanish except for me", I said exasperated, as I looked at the menu all written in a language I didn't understand. The words didn't even sound similar to what they were. "Thank goodness you're just a tourist", he said, looking over the menu, himself. He translated each item, after he watched me squirm and get frustrated with the menu. I finally settled on the lobster bisque, by the time the waiter had come by. He spoke fluent Spanish as he ordered our meals and I just sat there in amusement looking as useless as ever. The words he spoke were laced with something special as he said it so strongly, I couldn't imagine him saying something like that into my ear. I would naturally combust, any
Awkward, was the only word I could describe Dallas and I. We had spent all of yesterday, well I was avoiding him. I wasn't sure if he was avoiding me or I was just doing a really really good job avoiding him. After that night he dropped me home, with a single goodbye and took off, back into the city I suppose. But he was right, about his mother. I came back and everyone was worried about me, but Paris could care less about him. She didn't mutter a word about him, I knew the loneliness of the world before I had people that truly cared, the feeling of staying out all night and coming home to no worried parent, that's why I never challenged Nolan's overprotective force. There was a difference between trusting someone to the point of not worrying about them to not even thinking about them. It was a lonely spot to be in, it caused you to act careless, reckless even to make someone finally see you for whatever you were. He was still gone, as I searched through the books I h
The aching pain, people would imagine which would come after you kiss a guy that you like and then he regrets it. But it was not that pain that was throbbing today at least, instead it was my whole body aching from the training I had done over the past couple of weeks. When I had arrived at my perfect escape I had forgotten that I actually had to do something at this camp, which meant 5am runs, a strict diet all protein based and soccer drills, too many soccer drills. I should've picked a more peaceful escape, not three weeks of never-ending exercise.And so as I prepared myself mentally and emotionally for school, which was mainly an excuse to see Dallas, to find out if he has a girlfriend, or something like that. Not that I wanted to be it for him, but just to know, it's nice to know these things.I hadn't seen or heard from him ever since that horrid night, I thought back at it with a look of vulnerability, how did I let myself fall for a complete jackass? I think the feelings I