"I'm staying home from work", Nolan announced as I stood over the toilet, trying to hold back the feeling to barf yet again. This early morning, I couldn't keep anything in, everything just wanted to be free, in the form of throw-up.
It was two days before Nolan's birthday and a little morning sickness wasn't about to stop me from getting his present arranged."Listen I am fine, completely, fine", I said leaning over the toilet seat, as I felt the urge rising yet again."No you're not", his assertiveness rose in his voice. His hands groped my hair, holding it back as the urge rose and rose."What could you have gotten sick from?", he asked totally oblivious to my secret."I have no clue, but your work, it's very important and you should go I'm okay", I reassured him for the second time, because today Caroline was going to bring over color shades that I was going to pick through for the babies room."I promise I'll stay in bed all day", I told him and heHis eyes traveled down to Caroline, and she took her hands away, hoping the palates wouldn't fall."What are you two up too?", he asked slyly as he gave a hug to Caroline and he seemed to have an idea, it wasn't his special outfit."It is absolutely, nothing", I said and he nodded slowly. He gave me a kiss as he slipped out of the door and we slipped in."I have to get a piece of fabric and call it tiny lingerie", I embarrassedly spoke and she burst out laughing."He asked me and I figured what a better way to make him go, but I kept getting sick while we were trying-... it was a long story". She listened clearly and I saw her spread the colors across the brown coffee table."Well we can get you something, small and even smaller, oh", she laughed a bit and I saw the smile on her face brightly."Alec agreed to the terms", I asked and with her smile still reminding she nodded her head, comparing the palates."We didn't leave the apartment yesterday i
His hand grazed my side, letting me know he had come into the bed. His hands lingered as with little force he pulled me to him. I flipped over and stared into his godly eyes. He leaned into me and gave me an everlasting kiss."It's almost your birthday", I whispered into his ear and he laughed, probably surprised I would even remember. I had spent the rest of today, planning and sorting the room into its perfect spot, it was beautiful and I hoped our future child would love it.Nolan on the other hand had spent the whole day avoiding all birthday mentions, discussions, and planning of his birthday.He had been the least excited about his birthday, for some reason I couldn't understand.I knew there was no reason for everything, but surely he had to have liked one part of it.Maybe for the future this would change his idea on birthdays, how great this one surprise was."I guess it is", he said glancing over at the clock. The clock struck 11:50, and he l
I had been banned to my bed, and made to stay put by my watchers. My watchers were the people who knew and essentially helped me move without actually moving. Avery ran around asking me a series of questions, Caroline and Melody were getting the party supplies ready.They had sent out invitations for tonight and surprisingly everyone was able to come later that night. I refused to take credit for this party.I had a burning need to share my news with people, anyone. Which gave me a grand idea as I ordered the food for the party."So I have something to tell you", I said to the man who was taking the order for tonight. Over the phone I heard the silence creep in."Ma'am this is a restaurant", he said bluntly."I know listen I have some news it's been eating me to keep it in, so here it goes. I'm pregnant", I said and I could finally breathe. It's so exhausting to keep a secret when the secret reminds you of it every single second."So happy for yo
Especially Nolan's crib in the corner it blew my mind that we were two people that had come from two different worlds and yet here we are, having a baby together."Just wait and see", I whispered into his ear, as I pulled him through the door."So it's better than expanding the garage?", he asked and I released his hands from mine. My hands were on the scarf, pulling at the sides. I held onto the scarf for one second."Way better". I let the scarf fall to the ground and I felt the relief and the anticipation to see his yearning face.He turned around, and starred into my eyes with a single tear falling from his eye. He held my hand and looked down at the ground, but then he brought his eyes back to mine and looked at me to know if it was true, if the thing we had been wanting all this time, was here."We're having a baby", I said breathless, as I felt his hands swarm me in a hug. His arms wrapped around me and I felt the overwhelming feeling of happiness and
1 month later"As much as you don't like it, I am perfectly capable of taking care of myself", I reassured Nolan, which was something I did very regularly, ever since the news of the baby had been let out. I had attempted at going to the office multiple times this week, yet he wouldn't let me.Nolan became an overprotective person, even more than he already was. I was scared he was going to start me on a health cleanse.His newest activity was working from home, he sat by me every morning working from his bed. Every morning. As much as I loved the man, he sure knew how to annoy me, with his constant and persistent meetings that he wouldn't even leave the room for.He had made it his role to watch me, every moment and he had started reading articles and he gave my doctor updates about me every week. He was becoming more worried about this than I was."I know you are", he said tapping away on his laptop, and I rolled my eyes efficiently."I'm going to the
I held his hand, as it squeezed mine profoundly, I wanted to leave and so did he. The doctor shooed the worried mothers out of the room as we waited for the news. I couldn't look at his face, something told me he was disappointed.I didn't want to hear the words I had feared of hearing, I had lost the baby again. I knew Nolan would never say it out loud, but he would be disappointed in me. Disappointed and dissatisfied with the fact that I couldn't produce and create his dream, he wanted a family. And in this moment, I felt like I couldn't give it to him, like my body was against the idea."Do you want the bad news first or the good?", she said softly, studying the scans in front of her eyes. She looked at both Nolan and I's face, he said it for us."Bad news first", he said sternly as he gripped onto my hands, I didn't want to disappoint him. He was my world, my heart and me losing this baby again would be the nightmare that would ruin us. We couldn't survive another
2 months later from last chapter and a very early morning "Nolan", I pushed him a bit as he sleepily moved from his side further away. I pushed his body again and he quickly perked up. His eyes fought to stay awake as he looked directly at me and then looked at the clock. "The babies are awake", I pointed to my stomach as he scooted in closer to try to register what I had just said. He moved in closer as I took his hand and he stopped and got up for a second. His cold hand rested on my stomach through my shirt and I felt the little but visible kicks against his hand. They were there. It was dark, dark as night in the room, but I could tell there was a large smile on his face. We had been through the worlds worst curses and feeling a sign of strength from the twins, or any sign of life from them was the best thing in the world. Feeling it was real, feeling it was something like finally coming to terms with the world around us, and it was beautiful. He pulled
"When the babies are born, I won't have to move or leave right?", she asked, nervously. I knew the life of loneliness and never having a stable home, came with a lifetime of insecurities and issues with trust. I had these same feelings as I got closer to Nolan, wondering about when it was time to leave. "This is your home of course it may be a little busy here when the babies come but that doesn't mean you need to go, we want you here and believe me I will be needing major help, but I couldn't think of anyone better that I would want to have be by my side", she seemed relieved and smiled happily at my words. I knew who had caused these insecurities within her, and it angered me how the marks he had made on her were forever there and wouldn't fade with him being gone."I just thought... I don't know what I was thinking", she said trying to justify her thoughts as I pulled her closer. I nodded my head, letting her know no more words needed to be said. I knew why she couldn'