Caroline and back at me.
"Sweetie I think you're pregnant", she said and it finally became clear."I can't be, I puked this morning", I said and when I repeated my words it dawned on me."OH MY GOD I PUKED THIS MORNING", I screamed and I could see the joy marked on everyone's faces. It became suddenly clear, my ankles were the size of watermelons, along with my tender breasts which had also grown and I smelt everything so distinctively and I had been puking."What are you waiting for?", Avery asked as Caroline and her stood by the door. I stood up from my chair and I followed them out the door."What if I am?", I looked at them as we impatiently waited for the elevator to work faster.Most of our friends knew about my miscarriage, my issues with getting pregnant and I could tell everyone would be happy, but what about if I lose the baby or if something happens."Let's not worry, okay", Caroline calmed me as she directed me in the backseat. She cameHis wandering eyes made me nervous, as I stood right next to the spot for the bride to be, and as Leah traipsed down the aisle throwing her flowers, and the music started playing everyone rose in their seats.The in tune melody reminded me of my own wedding, the second one. It was the happiest day of my life, and I couldn't have felt more special.It was just me and him,like it's always been. And here I was back, with my sister, and a baby on the way. Well a baby, no one knew about. The music as it advanced and the large doors opened and I saw Avery walking through the doors. She was beautiful, as Alison and Clay held her opposite arms. I could tell it was obvious that Alison and Clay, were trying to hold back their tears.Her smile was radiant, and I looked to my left, and I saw Tyler holding back his own tears. It was a monumental moment, as the world shifted and all eyes were on them.She walked graciously, with a smile beaded on her face. As she reached the a
Clay and Alison intervened, sweeping in to dance with Tyler and Avery. Tyler was always so reserved about himself but he spoke mountains of feelings about Avery. Tyler recently had told me about his parents, and he explained the story of how Nolan wondered whose grave I would lay by. He understood it more than anyone ever could, because it was something he went through everyday.Soon all the couples were invited on to the floor and Nolan extended his hand with a sweet smile. I grabbed his hand and he guided me to the floor. His hand slipped to the small of my back and I leaned into his comforting embrace."Somethings different", he said hinting at me and I felt his breath against my ear.I hummed to the song as he asked me what was different. And my mind wandered to what was different, the little hopeful bundle of joy, our bundle of joy in my stomach."Weddings, they're just beautiful, makes me think back to ours", I spoke softly in his ear and he smiled softly.
Three days, it had been three days since I had found out, and it looked as if Nolan had no clue. I was too excited to tell him that I knew if he asked me the simple question I would ruin the surprise.Avery and Tyler had been sending us pictures of their honeymoon, and they had me dreaming about the beach and margaritas."Hey, everything will be okay", Caroline tried comforting me, but I was far from the comforting stage. I nervously checked myself into my doctor's appointment, as I waited.She took a seat next to me and slipped her hand inside mine."Are you sure you don't want me to call Nolan?", she asked and I shook my head, waiting for my name to be called.My eyes scanned the wall, trying to find something to distract me, but I failed. The images were of mothers with their kids and too visual representations of vaginas."Tell me something distracting, please", I asked her and she saw my nervousness against the goosebumps pickled on my skin. She re
It was Daniel that had made me so fragile, an illness had overcame me from the torture he forced upon me. It caused me to have an uptick in miscarrying, exactly what had happened last time."I promise no stress", I said, hoping I could take up yoga, to calm my mind as I started my newest, very stressful venture."Nolan, oh if you run into him don't say anything about it he doesn't know yet. I'm surprising him", I told her and she nodded her head, sealing her lips. She gave me my prescription and Caroline and I walked happily out of the office."I am helping you set this surprise up, just tell me what you want from your bed and I'll make it happen", she casually said and now I had two people watching over me and insisting the bed was the safest option."You know me, I can't be told to stay in my bed", I told her and she grinned happily."Listen I know it'll be hard but if you ever want some extra reading and some fun online shopping I have some lists", she sa
"I'm staying home from work", Nolan announced as I stood over the toilet, trying to hold back the feeling to barf yet again. This early morning, I couldn't keep anything in, everything just wanted to be free, in the form of throw-up.It was two days before Nolan's birthday and a little morning sickness wasn't about to stop me from getting his present arranged."Listen I am fine, completely, fine", I said leaning over the toilet seat, as I felt the urge rising yet again."No you're not", his assertiveness rose in his voice. His hands groped my hair, holding it back as the urge rose and rose."What could you have gotten sick from?", he asked totally oblivious to my secret."I have no clue, but your work, it's very important and you should go I'm okay", I reassured him for the second time, because today Caroline was going to bring over color shades that I was going to pick through for the babies room."I promise I'll stay in bed all day", I told him and he
His eyes traveled down to Caroline, and she took her hands away, hoping the palates wouldn't fall."What are you two up too?", he asked slyly as he gave a hug to Caroline and he seemed to have an idea, it wasn't his special outfit."It is absolutely, nothing", I said and he nodded slowly. He gave me a kiss as he slipped out of the door and we slipped in."I have to get a piece of fabric and call it tiny lingerie", I embarrassedly spoke and she burst out laughing."He asked me and I figured what a better way to make him go, but I kept getting sick while we were trying-... it was a long story". She listened clearly and I saw her spread the colors across the brown coffee table."Well we can get you something, small and even smaller, oh", she laughed a bit and I saw the smile on her face brightly."Alec agreed to the terms", I asked and with her smile still reminding she nodded her head, comparing the palates."We didn't leave the apartment yesterday i
His hand grazed my side, letting me know he had come into the bed. His hands lingered as with little force he pulled me to him. I flipped over and stared into his godly eyes. He leaned into me and gave me an everlasting kiss."It's almost your birthday", I whispered into his ear and he laughed, probably surprised I would even remember. I had spent the rest of today, planning and sorting the room into its perfect spot, it was beautiful and I hoped our future child would love it.Nolan on the other hand had spent the whole day avoiding all birthday mentions, discussions, and planning of his birthday.He had been the least excited about his birthday, for some reason I couldn't understand.I knew there was no reason for everything, but surely he had to have liked one part of it.Maybe for the future this would change his idea on birthdays, how great this one surprise was."I guess it is", he said glancing over at the clock. The clock struck 11:50, and he l
I had been banned to my bed, and made to stay put by my watchers. My watchers were the people who knew and essentially helped me move without actually moving. Avery ran around asking me a series of questions, Caroline and Melody were getting the party supplies ready.They had sent out invitations for tonight and surprisingly everyone was able to come later that night. I refused to take credit for this party.I had a burning need to share my news with people, anyone. Which gave me a grand idea as I ordered the food for the party."So I have something to tell you", I said to the man who was taking the order for tonight. Over the phone I heard the silence creep in."Ma'am this is a restaurant", he said bluntly."I know listen I have some news it's been eating me to keep it in, so here it goes. I'm pregnant", I said and I could finally breathe. It's so exhausting to keep a secret when the secret reminds you of it every single second."So happy for yo