January 15, 2021
With a burgundy glass on the folding table, Elaine poured wine into it once more. She then settled herself on the wooden bistro chair that was facing towards the open shore of Boracay Beach.
It was four in the morning. As usual, she couldn't seem to fall asleep not until midnight falls or the sun rises. It's been one hell of a month of moving from place to place. She stayed at a hotel somewhere in the Visayas; from Iloilo to Cebu. From there, she flew to Panglao then El Nido. She will fly back to Manila on the next day to settle in the condo unit she invested in.
Her real work will start by then. She could not get any more nervous about it even though she had been prepping for it for almost a month.
Elaine sipped her wine. She took her time clearing the glass. She wanted to savor every drop as if it would take her forever to taste it ever again.
After emptying her glass, she looked up in the sky. She could hardly see the moon up there. Even the stars seemed like hiding away from her sight. Perhaps, thick clouds tucked them in, making the night mysteriously darker.
As similar to the poet's belief, Danica Gim, Elaine also believed that people were like the moon. Sometimes, you need to disappear before you can return in full.
Full.
The first and last time she felt complete was three years ago. Unfortunately, it didn't last for long.
The feeling of incompleteness crashed back into her. Something's not right. Something's lost. Looking back gave Elaine plenty of regrets. She wished she didn't do that, she wished she didn't say this, she wished she wasn't born like this. But it was unfair to wish for the latter. Too many wrong decisions have been made that are hard to undo.
Elaine heaved a deep sigh.
She poured wine into the glass for the nth time. When she came back, she missed not only the wine but also missed a lot of things. From materials, places she used to go, the food she used to eat, and people who no longer wanted to see her ever again.
Fate and faith brought her back. There has to be a reason why she was finally here again. She wasn't certain if everything's going to be okay but come what may she's giving it a shot.
A smile crept into her lips as soon she saw the light slowly taking over the dark. Boracay by far has the most striking sunrises in the country. It was a sight to behold as a tourist like her, and for locals, too, for sure.
"Beautiful..." she whispered, her eyes fixed on the amazing view of the sunrise. It was a mixture of fiery red and orange teasing every tourist and beach lover to take a picture or enjoy the view. Too bad, Elaine forgot to bring the camera with her. She didn't think about it right before she went out of her suite early on.
It took three long sorrowful years before Elaine gets to see the sunrise again. It was long and stale years that were rather unprogressive for her to feel.
But the long wait was finally over, her agony had diminished. A tiny string of hope kept her up, so does courage. It wouldn't be easy.
She slid her hand into the robe's pocket and pulled the red purse out. She opened it, drawing out a resealable pouch in hand. She stared at it for a moment.
A sorrowful smile etched her lips. Her hand formed to a tight fist, with the pouch still in hand, crumpling it all at once. Someone from her past gave it to her only to take it back from her in the end. Fortunately, she managed to get it back ¬ against that person’s will, of course.
How was he? For the past three years, he surely was busy hating her. Sadly, he’d probably continue hating her.
TAN'S eyes settled on the envelope that Atty. Ramas, their family's lawyer, laid down on his desk. He had a serious look on his face. It was half-past nine in the evening and he rarely saw him in his office. He was wondering what made him storm into his office this late and could not wait for the sunrise.
The old man called him a few hours ago, asking him to drop by his house tonight. But he replied saying he'd visit him some other day. He was too tired to even drive himself home. He had been slept deprived for the last three nights. He was starting to get exhausted managing his job in the hospital and resolving the DM Textile's current situation all at once.
"I told you I'd pay you a visit," he told him. He continued taking his hospital gown off and hung it on the clothes rack before turning on his feet to face the lawyer. He had been considered as part of their family for quite a long time.
"That is urgent," he referred to the envelope he placed on his desk. "Open it," he urged. He's got a worried look on his face.
Tan followed as told so. Hastily, he opened it and pulled out something there. Basically, they were just photos. A candid whole body shot of a woman who seemed to be coming out from the famous clothing store in the country. A collection of both focused and stolen shots of different angles, which obviously taken from different places in the Philippines.
Different images of the same woman compiled in an envelope. And she looked disappointingly familiar. She seemed happy with her life, Tan realized. In almost every shot in her photos, she looked happy in there, her face always flashing out a wide smile with shopping bags in her hands. She was still the same woman he knew. Her wardrobe still costs hundreds of thousand pesos.
She used the money she received from him and his family well, it was obvious. His jaws clenched at the thought of it. He stared back at Atty. Ramas with his eyes squinting in anger.
"What about this woman?"
"Aren't you curious why she's back? According to my source, she came back to the country two months ago. I even got her new home address. It's in the file right in the envelope. You can check it out,"
He slammed the photos down the table, giving the old man a bored look on the face.
"I have nothing to do with this woman," he replied almost coldly.
"It has been three years already. I was just thinking what if she might—"
"I don't want to talk about her,"
Retreating, the lawyer drew a deep breath. Tan grabbed his car keys, obviously trying to dismiss the topic fully. All he wanted to do is to get back home to finally get some rest and most likely call it a day.
"Aren't you going to see her?"
He looked back at him. "For what? I don't see any reason why I should,"
"But she's your wife," he answered.
"Ex-wife," he corrected him.
Right after reading the few sheets in the tabloid, Elaine ended up folding the paper and placed it over the piles of untouched booklets on the table. She picked up the other one from her side to tuck them all together. Suddenly, a particular headline caught her attention. Everything shown in both tabloid and national TV news was the same; crime, government, and economic issues, but this one appeared to be more intriguing than anything else. The forthcoming closure of the biggest cotton textile company in the country, the DM Textile. A textile company owned by De Marcos. It was the legacy that was left by Tan's late grandfather, Daniel De Marco after he passed away.At first, Elaine thought that the DM Textile's inheritance would be given to Sean De Marco, Tan’s twin brother. But he was busy acting as the Chairman of The Palace, and at the same time, he was also currently managing the Sean and Tan Teacaf with the help of their friend, Miguel. At the moment, the 35-
JULY 2012Baclaran Manila"SO, your boss didn't hit her at all, is that what you're trying to mean, Mr. Gomez?" The officer-in-charge talked to Jemuel’s staff, trying to get some information that could help resolve the situation. He had the statement folder in hand, containing each of their reports. They all ended up in the police station after the incident."Yes, chief,"The investigator turned to face her, his eyes filled with doubts and questions. Elaine uncrossed her arms. At the other side of the desk were Jose and Jemuel; his head was bandaged.Drew and Macon were fidgeting on their seat next to Elaine. She could not trust their acting power and prowess. On the left side was the meddling guy. She found out later on that he was a fresh graduate of Medicine. His arms were folded across his chest, listening intently at them. He was the one
It was a very good start for her and Tan. The first time they met by chance felt like a scene from a movie. She ruined that perfect start. However, she will do everything she could do to set things right. To compensate for all the things she had done to him. That she had no other intentions but to be ever in his arms again. To make him love her again and love him more than she did before.She startled when her phone buzzed. "I'm almost there," she said, letting out a deep breath before reaching out for the door handle and headed out.She widened her smile as soon as she reached the Ainsdale Boutique. The upcoming days will be hectic for her. At any cost, she will pursue Tan. He had no other choice anyway. For sure, Tan is busy protecting the welfare of the company. And Elaine would use all of her advantages of his textile problem just to get closer to him."WE'RErunning out of time, Tan," Atty. Ramas remin
Tan's attention shifted to his front, pulling his eyes away from the desktop by the time the door swung open, revealing Dr Janine Crisostomo, the immunologist and the Hospital Director's only daughter.She marched her way directly to his spot. As soon as she reached him, she laid down a rectangular box on his desk and stared at him with a broad smile on her face."I spent almost an hour contemplating whether I should buy this for you or not. Since I haven't seen you wearing any single one that I gave you so far. This time, make sure you're going to wear this,"Tan smiled shortly. "Thank you." Even though he hadn't unboxed it yet, he knew it contained a necktie."Are you not going to ask me how the conference went?"Tan went back to his monitor. "I know it went well,"The week-long Medical Conference was held in New York City. Originally, Tan was suppose
"NOBODY was fighting, Ma'am. How much alcohol have you had?"Elaine exhaled deeply. There's a hint of certainty and emphasis on the officer's voice as he said those words to her face. Even the two MMDA officers had the same testimony about it. She wanted to insist but decided not to especially when she saw a taunting curl on the officer's lips. Besides, there's no more energy left for her to argue.She found out that the owner of the sports car she'd bumped into was the officer himself. SPO2 Marco Figueroa.It seemed like he did not want to negotiate. And now she's facing lawsuits; drunk driving and damage to property. However, what's making her see red was this obnoxious cop. Midnight barely fell just yet and she had a very long day today. She just wanted to go home and take some good rest. But unexpected things kept getting in her way and she couldn't get any more pissed."Can I ju
Life hadn't given Elaine a lot of happiness and moments to cherish. At the age of twenty-five, she could only count the moment she felt the happiest. One was the day Tan proposed to her.It was on the 14th of February year 2016. Right in front of the fast-food restaurant that she used to work at.She could hardly remember how she reacted or how she exactly said "Yes, I'll marry you!" But she could remember how nervous Tan was in vivid detail. The sincere emotions painted in his eyes while bending on his knees, holding a case in hand with an engagement ring in it.After almost four years, Tan was proposing again. But he was not kneeling this time around. Nor was he holding a ring. No sign of nervousness, unlike before. And most particularly, Tan was not there to promise her heaven and earth. No more sincerity. No more respect. There was no love in his eyes either. His cold gaze held thousands of warning signs. As if she h
"C-can you drive me home, Tan?" Elaine managed to say those words to him while trying her best to stand still.She felt a tear fall down her cheeks, Tan was looking at her but he didn't even flinch. Tan would rather think that those tears weren't real. That those were tears out of too much intoxication or maybe because she was throwing up earlier. Elaine blinked, trying to suppress the threatening tears forming in her eyes.Despite the heavy feeling she carried in her chest, Elaine still wanted to thank Tan for thinking that she wasn't weak. He fell in love with her then because she was tough and resilient. He didn't have to know what her weakness was no matter what."Will you?" she added.She slightly reached her car key to him. If Tan would just look at it, he would probably know by now that her hand was trembling badly. But Tan was looking at her straight in the eyes. He put his hands in his pocke
ELAINE'S jaw dropped. Was she hearing things correctly? She turned to face Tan who was staring straight at her. She tore her gaze from him. His gaze seemed like burning her fully. She decided to shift her look at Atty. Ramas who was smiling at them. But there was a hint of guilt in his eyes as he looked at Elaine."As I said over the phone, Tan wants to get married as soon as possible," he chuckled awkwardly.Elaine bit her lips. She didn't expect that the "as soon as possible" could be this literal. From bed to marriage. Nor was she even able to comb her hair. Judge Costanilla handed the marriage contract over to Elaine. Hesitant, she obliged and took the contract."Attorney...""Ah, yes?" Atty Ramas turned to her, but his eyes could not stare at hers directly. He took a folder out of his case and handed it over to her, which her face still flustered by the unexpected matter. For he
One and a half year laterTan just finished bathing, although he was in his sleeping clothes, his towel was still on his head to dry his hair after he emerged from the bathroom. He looked at the clock. Eight in the evening. He went home on time as usual. He arrived while Elaine was playing with Sean and Thera’s twins. They ate dinner together with the couple.After eating, Jassy Mikaela started throwing tantrums but turned quiet when Elaine carried and entertained her. They decided to bring her to their room while Lucah Gabrielle was brought to the guest room by Thera and Sean to be put to sleep. It was the second time Sean’s family visited them and stayed overnight.Sean has an important meeting and didn’t want to leave his family at the villa. Until now, the two was making up for the time they were apart. Tan was genuinely happy for them. They deserve to be happy after all they’ve been through.
Tan looked back at Elaine who’s catching her breath and leaning her hand on the tree he just passed by. He smiled when she looked at him. She waved and signalled for him to go ahead. But instead of doing so, he went back for her.Tan took the insulated water bottle from his bag’s side pocket, opened it and handed it to her. He took the back she was carrying. Elaine wanted to protest but she didn’t have the strength. She knew it wasn’t heavy because she made sure to put just a first aid kit, one hundred ml mineral water and some crackers in it before they started to climb.Tan hired a guide and porter to carry their bags and tents for them. Elaine brought a lot of stuff... From ready-to-eat food to sleeping gear. While he just brought a survival kit and first aid kit aside from clothes good for two days of camping.The climb was easy, he realized. They had to cross a somewhat deep river with big rocks a while ago but since the current wasn
Handcuffed(Continuation of Chapter Thirty-Six)Tan didn’t remove his eyes from Marco since the time he approached the bar counter to order a drink and even when he went to the two-seater table he occupied. He sighed when the police started pouring alcohol into two glasses served by the waiter slash bartender a while ago.He wanted to refuse the guy’s offer to ride in his car but aside from the fact he left his car in the Fuego mansion when he was taken by the police a while ago, he also wants to hear directly from the police’s mouth what was his real intention for getting close to his wife.They were in The Hub, Marco chose the place which made him wonder. The table they occupied when they came in was for two and in the corner. It was Tuesday and the bar was almost empty.“I’m treating you for a bottle of whiskey. But you don’t even know how to drink,” he said, He pushe
Elaine felt a slight tightening of her chest while her and Marco’s eyes were still holding each other in a gaze. She didn’t want to lose a friend but she also didn’t want him to keep hurting because of her.The fear and worry she heard from his voice a while ago, wasn’t just concern of a guy for a friend. She wasn’t that stupid not to feel that. And she was not selfish to make him hope only to be hurt in the end. Marco was a good person. He deserved someone who would love him wholeheartedly.Elaine swallowed the imaginary lump in her throat when Marco smiled and started to talk.“Whenever I see you sad, whenever I know you have a heavy burden, whenever you’re crying and hurting but you try to hide it, those were the times I wanted to take you away from your husband, Elaine. But on each of those times, I was a fool who keeps restraining myself because I know whatever I do, whatever I give up, no matter how I try to dry yo
But Elaine's broken smile started to change into a mischievous grin. Along with the intentional hardness in the expression on her face, Elaine slouched a little to level their gaze.“Why not? If you’d come and visit me every day again?” she said in a soft voice but enough for her to hear.Mrs. Crisostomo gasped. She went literally still as if her neck would screech if it turned towards her.Elaine straightened up. Guilt crept into her heart when she saw her slightly shaken. But Mrs Crisostomo needed to taste a dose of her own medicine.Mental health problem was not a character failure just like what she wanted to imply. Sandra kept telling her that and she tried to put that in mind many times. She was glad she was able to voice it out now, unlike before she was scared to admit it even to herself.Perhaps she was a little different but she was still worthy of respect and of dignity. Her painful family background and her past experi
Elaine woke to the penetrating sunlight in Tan’s room. Her eyes opened wide when she realized the time. It was past nine in the morning, said the clock that was hanging on Tan’s bedroom wall.Her original plan was to wake up early so she could prepare breakfast for Tan. But as she was about to get up, she was stunned to find Tan’s huge hand around her shoulder.She looked up to Tan who was still sleeping. She took few deep breaths to calm the beating of her heart. This was her favourite sleeping position. Lying on Tan’s chest and clearly hearing his heart beating.For a long while, it was just last night when she truly felt peace, security and love again. She fell asleep fast and slept easy on his arms. After all the nightmares that passed and tested their life, she felt as if she just truly awakened last night.Carefully, she removed herself from Tan’s embrace. She sat by the side of the bed and watched him sleeping. She was
Elaine stared at her reflection in the mirror. She was glowing, it wasn’t obvious that she was nervous and anxious while parking her car inside their rented house. She could call Tan to let him know she was coming home but she chose to just wait for him there.She has a lot to say and explain to her husband. Sandra called. She admitted everything to Tan. Though the clever doctor laughed in the end saying she doesn’t have the right to file a case against her because she only told the immediate family.Elaine was thankful though. It’s as if a heavy weight was lifted from her chest. No matter how hard she tried to work up her courage, she couldn’t bring herself to admit everything to Tan if not for Sandra’s help.She was always scared that her husband might not be able to accept her. The person she loved might leave her because she was unacceptable- she was lacking and she was not whole.After the terrible things that happ
“Ma’am…”Elaine opened her eyes. Anne was in front of her with an uneven smile. She looked around her surrounding. She wasn’t in Tan’s rented house but inside Ainsdale. Tan wasn’t there as expected. So it was just a dream.“I was hesitant to wake you, but your phone keeps ringing. It might be important.”She moved. Locating the cell phone in the handbag.“Sorry, I must have dozed off. What time is it?” she asked while going through her bag.“I must have dozed off.”Elaine was surprised to hear herself say that. She never once felt sleepy while on the job.“Almost closing time, Ma’am. Seven o’clock.”She slept for almost half an hour. She was waiting for Tan for almost eight hours already. According to Drew, his husband would certainly ask her to eat out. But why until this time, he hasn’t shown
Elaine walked for several minutes while Tan quietly followed on the opposite side of the road. Tan had mixed emotions in his heart and he cannot remove her from his sight not even for a second.The wind softly blew Elaine's hair and the hem of her blouse follows her every step. Just like before, everything she wore fit perfectly to her slender body. The same body he’d adored and worshipped.Tan came to a realization that for the last three years, he had never gone an entire day without longing for her. The yearning was deep and strong it was consuming him. And maybe, he intentionally traded those feelings with anger.Why- it was the question that was too painful for Tan to ask and the answers to that ‘why’ scare him ever since their paths crossed again.Why did Elaine leave him? Why was it so easy for her to forget and throw his love away? Why the span of three years, she didn’t see him even once. Didn’t she miss him