wedding night

I can't do this. I can't. No. I won't.

My mind started repeating same thing over and over again as Zachary guided me inside his room. My heart raced up and forcefully I clenched my eyes shut. No.
I couldn't let him touch me. I-I.. The only thought of being with him in one room made my heart constricted then how am I going to survive his filthy hands all over my body?