Nikolai Volkov
“Papa” Kira's excited squeal hits me before I see her. She runs up to me, wrapping her tiny arms around my leg like a vine. It's a habit she's developed recently and one I planned on breaking - eventually. Her small, chubby face beams up at me, and her eyes sparkle with the kind of joy that I've become immune to. I let out a breath, resting my head on her curls. “What are you doing here Kira? You're supposed to be with Lydia” Kira giggles, clearly missing the annoyance in my tone. She's made a habit of escaping her nanny at every little opportunity since we got back from Russia. It was a habit that was becoming increasingly worrisome, considering she was a five-year-old child who thought that every opportunity should be seized to play hide and seek. Shaking her head, she grins up at me, revealing a missing tooth that was still intact when I left this morning. I make a mental note to put a hundred-dollar bill under her pillow tonight because the last thing I need is a curious five-year-old on my trail wondering why the tooth fairy didn't come to visit her as usual. “I snuck away,” she says proudly as if that makes it any better. Lydia has been Kira's nanny since she turned two. She's been an esteemed member of the Volkov staff for almost fifty years and the only person I trusted to handle the bundle of joy currently clinging to my pants. “Is that so?” I ask already moving before Kira can respond. I reach down and scoop up her tiny body effortlessly, setting her on my hip. She wraps her little arms around my neck for support, her cheek resting against my shoulder. She's unusually light and warm and I wonder if she's eaten anything other than the pancakes we had this morning before I left. Kira was a picky eater so it wouldn't be surprising if she hadn't eaten anything since I left. Kira catches sight of Ava beside me, and in that instant, I become acutely aware of the woman beside me. She hadn't said a word since Kira called me Papa. Truth is, I expected her to be surprised when she saw Kira, but the look on her face was nothing short of confusion. She was confused about how the image of the heartless killer she painted in her mind had morphed into one of a loving father instead. Kira tilts her head to the side, accessing Ava's confused features before scrunching up her nose in a similar pattern. “Who is she?” Kira asks, her eyes fixed on Ava. Ava shifts awkwardly beside me. She didn't expect this turn of events. Her brown eyes meet mine, and I expect her to start hurtling questions in my direction the way she did while we were in the car, but instead, she presses her lips together. Words failing her, something I didn't know was possible until now. I glanced down to where her fingers fisted the fabric of her wedding dress, noticing how her knuckles paled under the intensity of her grip. She parts her lips as if to respond to my daughter's question, but the words die on her tongue, and she presses her lips shut once more,e, meeting my gaze. “She’s the person I told you about. Her name is Ava” I explain to Kira, hoping she remembers the conversation we had this morning about me going to go get her a new mother. I don't miss the way Ava's brows shoot up at my words. Showing up with Ava out of the blue would only cause my daughter to ask me questions that I wasn't ready to answer. So, in order to avoid that, before I left, I made sure to explain to her that I was going to return with a potential stepmother for her. “You’re really pretty”, Kira announces her innocent voice startling me. I glance back at my wife, whose face flushes at my daughter's compliment. That we can agree on. I would be lying if I said my wife wasn't attractive. She was beautiful, fucking hypnotic, with curves that begged to be caressed under my fingertips. “Thank you” she responds offering my daughter a faint smile, “You're really pretty too” Kira smiles, “I know. Daddy says I'm the prettiest girl in the universe” I can't help but chuckle at my daughter's words. Whether I told her she was beautiful or not my little girl would undeniably strut the runway in a tiara that said "queen of the world." Pride was something that ran in my family and it sure as hell didn't skip my daughter. “Is your uncle Ivan around?” I ask her, and she shakes her head. Ivan was my second in command and the husband to the only other surviving family member I had other than my daughter. We've known each other since we were kids and he's been my best friend since our fathers decided to send us on our first mission together. She shakes her head “No, ” She says. "He left pretty early today" No doubt. He'd probably freed Alessandro's daughter by now and was probably transporting her back to her father's compound. Kidnapping Isabella was much easier than I expected, mostly because she hardly put up a fight. The Moretti's kept their women off the battlefield. They saw them as a liability rather than the lethal weapons they could be. Isabella was a mafia princess, the third highest rank given their hierarchy and you would think that her father would have the common sense to make sure she of all people should at least have some level of training given that she was more prone to attacks But his misogynistic ass refuses to see the need to train his daughter. Instead, he much rather preferred to leave her protection in the hands of his men. I almost laugh at the memory of Alessandro's men scampering away once I pulled out my gun. You would think that a man as powerful as Antonio would know better than to trust the safety of his most precious daughter in the hands of men that couldn't even stand the thought of loosing their lives for the one they sought to protect. “Will she be joining us for dinner?” Kira asks, interrupting my thoughts, her gaze still fixed on Ava. Ava blinks up at me, her gaze darting between me and the five-year-old who hadn't torn her gaze away from her since she arrived. "Um.. I... That's" she stammers out, and I wonder where the woman who'd snapped her fingers in my face when I ignored her had disappeared too. “Actually," I begin, stopping her words, "Kira, I think our new friend is really tired. Why don't you go find Lydia while I take her upstairs to her bedroom." I don't wait for her to object before I set her down back on the floor and signal an incoming servant to take her away. A short woman with brown hair walks toward us, a faint smile gracing her lips as she stops infront of Kira. “Yes sir?” “Take her inside” I instruct. She nods and extends a hand towards Kira which my daughter hesitates before taking. It's clear my daughter doesn't want to leave. But I need her gone in order to get Ava adjusted quickly and ready for the next phase of my plan. I watch as the elderly lady leads my daughter to the garden, and once the doors leading outside are closed, I turn my head, facing Ava. “You have a daughter.” She says, surprise twisting her voice. I nod. Biologically Kira wasn't my daughter. She was the daughter of my brother and his wife who died tragically in the fire that was supposed to claim my life. I take a step towards her, watching as the tension in her jaw releases and the space between us evaporate until I'm standing in front of her. “Is that going to be a problem, Ava?” I ask, my voice low and measured. I don't miss the way her body reacts to the sound of her name on my lips. It's the first time I've said her name since we met and the way her body flushes makes me wish I had said it sooner. She lets out a long breath and she unconsciously loosens her grip around the hem of her dress. " I just find it odd that we spent over an hour on the road and you never saw the need to mention her.” I smirk. It would appear she's found her voice again. "Would it have made any difference if I did?" I ask, confused why she is angry. My daughter wasn't a subject I typically brought up in a conversation. It was either you knew about her or you didn't and in the world we lived in, I preferred that only a few people knew about her existence. She opens her mouth, then shuts it, then opens it again but no words come out. I smirk and tilt my head slightly. "That's what I thought," I say, my voice cool as I watched her battle with her unspoken words. Stepping back, I turn away and head inside the house. I don't bother to check if she's following behind me but I feel the heat of her gaze burning a hole through the fabric of the shirt. I stopped and glanced over my shoulder, and sure enough, there she was, staring daggers at me. If looks could kill, the look Ava was currently giving me was enough to send me plummeting to my grave. "Are you coming?" I ask my tone casual but pointed She lets out an exasperated breath before gathering the train of her wedding dresses in one hand and following me inside. The sound of her heels clicking against the hardwood floors echoes through the spacious entryway as we make our way towards the staircase. I paused, gesturing towards the staircase, “After you” She hesitates, glancing at me, a hint of uncertainty in her gaze. When I don't move, she exhales slowly, squares her shoulders and steps forward, her heels clicking against the step. I follow closely behind, my gaze tracing the elegant lines of her silhouette as she moves up each step. My God this woman is beautiful. Pretty with curves that begged for me to worship. Against my will, my eyes drop to her ass, and I force myself to tear my gaze away before I do something reckless. YA tak chertovski oblazhalsya ( I am so fucking screwed) If one kiss from this woman was enough to shatter any ounce of self control I thought I possessed, imagine what tasting her would do. She called me delusional at the alter and maybe she was right because only a delusional person would be wondering what the sound of his enemy's daughter's moans would taste like on his tongue. The plan was simple. Marry her, find out what she knew bout the fire that killed my family and finally, kill her father. This wasn't the plan. Wanting to fuck her was not the plan. Our kiss at the altar had been sparked something within me. A hunger I'd long buried with my family. I knew she was inexperienced with the way she hesitated when my tongue parted her lips back then but that did little to kill my interest in her. If anything it only heightened my need for her. Staying away from her was probably a good idea for my mental sanity but that didn't stop me from wanting to kiss her again. Once we reach the top of the stairs I steer her right, heading down the long halls until we stop in front of the room I intended for her to stay in. “This is your room.” I tell her, pushing the door open. The room is spacious, with two large windows on either side allowing the soft glow from the sunlight to bath the space. Ava stepped inside, her eyes widen as she takes in the luscious design. Her gaze bounces from the queen sized bed to the two windows adjacent of it. It's obvious she's taken an instant liking to the room with the way her eyes roam the space. She moves closer to the bed, her fingers lightly brushes the edge of a pillow, feeling their texture. A large bookcase leans upright against the wall, the spine of each book turned so that she can easily retrieve a book whenever she needed to. From the information I'd gathered on her, Ava was an artist. She thrived in the artistic space be it art done by others in any form or hers. “So soft” she murmurs softly, the sound forcing me to return my gaze to her. Shoving a hand into my pocket I tried to mask my delight in the way her breath hitched as she spoke. “Everything you need should be in here, if not you can press that” I point to the red button on her night stand, and her gaze follows my finger “and someone will be here to attend to you. Is that understood” She makes a soft humming sound, glancing at me briefly. “Take a bath and get ready, dinner will be ready in an hour. Fortunately for you, I won't be around so you'll have to get acquainted with the staff without me.” “Lucky me” she replied dryly before turning around and plopping her ass down on the bed. She doesn't ask where I'll be like I expected her to. Instead, she crosses her legs, leaning back slightly on her palm against the mattress. Her posture is relaxed, yet there's a subtle hint of defiance flickering in her eyes as she looks at me. “Is there anything else you'd like me to do for you, husband?” I shouldn't like the way she says that. Hearing her call me the word husband unravels something in me and the next thing I know I'm stalking towards her. Her breath catches in her throat once I'm in front of her. I bend forward, placing a hand on either side of her, my fingers dipping into the plush mattress beside her, caging her in and I don't miss the flash of surprise that crosses her features at my sudden proximity. “What are you doing?” she whispers peering up at me from beneath her lashes. I could ask myself the same damn question but the answer would still be lost to me. What was I doing? Maybe it was the fact that her smart mouth had finally gotten to me. My gaze fell to her lips, watching the way the supple flesh parted open under the heat of my gaze and it takes every bit of restraint I have left in me not to lean in and reminds myself just how docile she could be under my touch. “Tell me, solnishko” I paused, raising a hand to trace an invisible line with my finger down her cheek. I stop just below her bottom lip, brushing my thumb against the delicate skin. I pretend not to notice the sharp exhale the actions causes her and grab her chin between my thumb and forefinger, lifting her eyes to meet mine. She shivers under my touch and a smug smile graces my lips at her reaction. “Would you do anything I asked like a good little wife?” Her eyes linger on my lips, her gaze flickering with something she desperately wanted to hide. Desire. She wanted me too and the thought was killing her. Something flashes in her gaze and the sight is fucking riveting. “You wish” she spat, her voice dripping with venom but her gaze betrays her, staying rooted on my lips. A slow smirk spread across my face as I let my fingers drop from her chin, the warmth from her skin lingers on my fingertips moments after I break the contact. Her lips remain parted, as if she had expected me to do more. And I almost do. Fuck do I almost give her exactly what she needs. What her body so desperately craved. But I don't. Cursing internally, I take a step back and watch as the heat in her eyes dissolve into surprise and then mortification. “Get some rest, solnishko.” I murmured, my voice low and taunting “And the Next time you ask what I want I’ll make sure you're on your knees begging to find out”Ava I hardly get any sleep throughout the night. Each time my eyes fluttered shut, Nikolai’s face would emerge from the darkness, just inches from mine, the words he said yesterday lingering in the space between our barely touching lips. I had spent the majority of the night reminiscing about the events of my botched birthday turned wedding day trying to make sense of my current situation. Letting out a disgruntled groan, I turn away from the harsh rays of sunlight streaming in from my windows. Everything was so confusing. My entire life had changed. Everything I knew had been ripped out from under my feet and without an anchor, I had come crashing down into a pile of confusion and uncertainty. Nothing about my life felt real anymore. In the last twenty-four hours, I had gone from birthday girl to wife-to-be, and now I was married to a man whom I barely knew anything about and trapped in his house. Could my life get any worse? The low rumble of my stomach forces me out o
Ava The walls of Nikolai's office are cloaked in a deep charcoal that blends seamlessly into the dark wood design, creating an intense atmosphere. The shelves are filled with all kinds of books, new and old, all turned to the spine. The books are arranged in such precise colour coordination that they look a bit too perfect. The space is much bigger than I expected it to be and I'm almost consumed by its vastness. A large mahogany desk stands at the centre of it all, polished to a gleam with neatly stacked papers arranged on each side, and not a single paper document out of place. A sleek black leather chair stands just behind the desk, its high back giving off an air of authority against the soft glow of the crystal chandelier above the room. Nikolai occupies the chair, matte-framed glasses perched on the bridge of his nose as his pen moves frantically over a document, his brows furrowing in concentration. In the last twenty minutes I've been seated opposite this man
Ava "No" The word tumbles out of my mouth in a rapid fit. I shoot out from my chair, instinctively stepping away from him. A wave of disgust trickles up my spine before sinking its claws around my throat. "No?" Nikolai’s voice is deceptively soft, but his eyes flash with a dangerous intensity as he leans back against his desk. You would think he had never heard the word before with the way he was looking at me. "No" I repeat, firmer this time. "I will not help you kill my father. My God, what is wrong with you? I mean, I knew you were insane, but this? This is a whole new level, even for the likes of you." He leans back against his desk, watching me. He remains annoyingly calm, unfazed by my reaction. "Your father isn't the man you think he is.", My brows furrow as I try to read his expression"What's that supposed to mean?" He steps closer and runs a hand along his jaw, "Your father has blood on his hands, Solnishko, Russian blood to be exact." My shoulders stiffen,
Ava. The devil is real. And he is not a little red man with horns and a fork for a tongue. No, he can be beautiful. A fact I think most people forget. Nikolai was the devil in this scenario, and much like the actual devil, he was the ruler of my personal version of hell. He consumes my thoughts as l lay in bed, tangled in the sheets, our conversation from hours ago - if you could consider it that- replay in my mind. My thoughts drift back to his request in his office and I feel a knot tighten in my stomach at the memory. It was already dark outside, the cool glow of the moon slipped in through my window, casting a dim light across my bedroom floor. I had spent the last couple of hours locked up in here, trying to rid myself of the anger that had now turned to confusion that still burned brightly within me. Nikolai was accusing my father of murdering his brother who just so happened to be Kira's biological father. He wanted revenge for the blood my father spilled and he wa
Ava “Interesting” Kat hums to herself the next day when I tell her what happened with Kira. I shoot her a questioning look and arch my left brow, “What's so interesting about it?” We were currently lazing about by the pool which is something you wouldn't expect two adults to be doing on a Monday afternoon. Kat had insisted that a pool day was what we needed to solidify our bond in best friend-in-lawhood - her words, not mine- and I was too much of a people pleaser to refuse and just sort of went with it. “What is so interesting about it is that Kira doesn't just crawl into bed with anyone after having a nightmare. She only prefers it when Nikolai consoles her and the fact that she went to your room after one is just… odd.” I kick my feet against the water as I listen to her. “There was nothing odd about it.” I tell her, “Nikolai wasn't home, and I just so happened to be the only one awake. I'm sure if she knew that you were awake too she would've gone to you and Ivan’s roo
Nikolai “I need a cell new phone” Ava announces on a sunny afternoon, three days after our last encounter in my office. She looks down at me, determination filling her gaze as she makes her request. I hadn't expected Ava to willingly enter the same room as me after our last encounter. Yet there she was, standing across from me, the sunlight streaming in from the window casting the perfect glow on her silhouette from just the right angle. To say I was surprised to see her again in my office would be an understatement, to say the least, but then again what is life if not full of unexpected surprises and Ava standing before me, dressed in a little red top that hugged her figure, partnered with a pair of black jeans that accentuated her curves would be the most unexpected surprise of the century. We've barely seen each other since our last encounter, and I had convinced myself she was running away from me or, at the very least, avoiding me. I guess I was wrong on both accounts b
AVA Nikolai’s lips are excruciatingly soft and not at all like what I expected them to feel like. When I tugged him down to my lips earlier I fully intended for the kiss he had requested to be just that. A kiss. I never imagined that this would happen. This wasn’t just a kiss. It was earth-shattering, mind-numbing and nothing at all like the kiss we shared at the altar. Whereas that kiss was for show, this one was to show me who exactly I belonged to. And my God did it show me. The feeling of his lips against mine hits me with such intensity that my first response is to pull away. I bring my hands to his chest, fully intending to do just that, but when he nips at my bottom lip and then swipes his tongue against the sting to soothe the ache, lust fills my veins, flashing through me like hot bolts of lightning. Nikolai grasped my throat in his hand, holding me firmly against his body as he devoured my mouth with one stroke of his tongue at a time. Tingles spread across my skin
Ava True to his words, Ivan arrives at my door thirty minutes before dinner, holding a sleek, brand-new model of the latest smartphone in his hands. He hands the device over to me and I take it, examining the shiny black surface. “It’s brand new,” Ivan explains when he notices my hesitation. “They were able to transfer some of your data into it, so I’m pretty sure you have some of your contacts in there. You might even find a few old messages. But unfortunately, they weren’t able to retrieve your phone number since your phone isn’t accessible anymore,” He says, voice light, but I could sense a hint of seriousness behind his words. I nod and press the power button, watching as the device comes to life in my hand. The familiar logo glows on the screen, accompanied by the familiar welcome tune. Relief floods through me as the home screen displays, and I tap on the contacts icon where- sure enough, the majority of my contacts are still there. I scroll through the names, watching t
Ava "Nikolai" I cry out, just as his phone buzzes in the back pocket of his pants. His lips seers a path of burning kisses into my skin, down my neck and my back nearly arches off the door when nips at my collarbone. One of my legs is slung over his hip and my dress is bunched over my waist as he grips the back of my thigh in one hand, his thumb rubbing slow circles against my skin. "Don't stop", I practically beg, tilting my head back against the door and allowing his lips to work my skin. We are both panting and his erection is pressing desperately against the inside of my thigh, seeking friction. Everything about the way he's touching me sets my entire body ablaze, and I'm mildly aware that his jacket is somewhere on the floor, right beside the little dignity I had when I stepped into his house. His hot breath fans my skin as his lips find the sensitive spot just below my ear, sending shivers down my spine. He rolls his pelvis against my clit, and a sigh of pleasure escapes m
Ava I insist on saying goodbye to Tatiana before we leave. As you would expect Nikolai isn't exactly thrilled at my need to be polite but I tell him that it's rude to leave without at least saying goodbye to the bride and groom Tatiana smiles when she sees us approaching, her expression a one of excitement and pleasant surprise. "Ava," She chortles, standing up from her seat beside her new husband and smoothing a hand down the front of her dress. Even after hours of festivities and celebrations, Tatiana still manages to look as beautiful as ever, rocking that radiant glow all brides seem to possess during their wedding. Except you're me of course. While Tatiana had spent the earlier hours of the evening floating effortlessly around the hall with her groom in hand, greeting close family and friends, I spent my time trying to recall the face of one single guest who attended my wedding. I couldn't. Tatiana was surrounded by people she loved on her big day, while I was surrounded by
Ava “Fucking finally”, Nikolai growls roughly as he grips my face, angling me towards him. His lips slam against mine, hot and utterly consuming. It takes me a moment to recover from the initial force, but when I do, I turn putty in his arms. He pries my lips apart with his tongue then slides it against mine with one quick flick that sends a shiver down my spine. My hand goes to his waist, gripping the edge of his jacket as I tug him closer. My body moves completely on instinct, shutting down all thoughts and pressing myself against him. Nikolai groans low in his throat and a pang of need twists in my gut. His hand moves to the front, sliding between my breasts with deliberate intent until he finds my neck. His fingers wrap around my throat, squeezing firmly but not too hard to hurt A whimper crawls up my throat and my body shudders in response. Until Nikolai, I never thought that I'd be the kind of girl who enjoyed mild choking or any form of choking for that matter, but there's
Ava I'm so fucking stupid. Blood pounds in my ears as my encounter with Faina just moments ago replays over and over in my mind like an endless loop. Tonight I was determined to avoid my husband. Stay away. That was the plan. But apparently plans mean nothing when I let my emotions get in the way. Seeing him with Faina had awakened something inside me. It's one thing to know that they both shared something in the past but it's another to see them so close together. Jealousy claws at my chest, sharp and unrelenting like a knife, twisting until I can't breathe. I hate this. I hate that I care when I know I shouldn't. Throughout the ceremony, I pretended not to notice his heavy gaze watching me. It didn't matter how hard I tried to avoid him; I could always feel him watching me, and for some reason, knowing he wasn't too far away made my heart thump faster in my chest in a way that infuriated me. Images of the way Faina looked up at him flashed in my mind. They'd been so close; h
Nikolai I'm unable to pull my gaze away from my wife throughout the entire ceremony whereas she has no trouble avoiding my gaze. Even now, at the reception, she flits around the room like a vision, effortlessly charming everyone she encounters. Everyone loves her, even Tatiana's grandmother which is a rare occurrence. The old hag hardly takes a liking to anyone but she can't seem to not laugh at everything my wife says. To be honest I can't blame her. We're supposed to be doing the charming together but my wife drifted off my arm the moment we stepped into the chapel and hasn't spoken to me since. She's still angry about our conversation in the car, and to be honest, her little avoidance trick is getting old. I miss my wife, and yes, I'll admit, I shouldn't have listened to her that night. I knew it then, and I know it now, but I'd come out from my bedroom hoping to get a glass of water from the kitchen when I heard her. At first, I thought I'd imagined it, but then it happened a
Ava Today's episode of awkward car rides with Ava features Nikolai, my very sexy, very scary-looking husband who, with a single glance, has the ability to unravel me from the inside out. It's been five minutes since we left the house and my body still hums with delight at the memory of his lips pressing against the back of my neck like he only just did it. I'd been shocked, to say the least, when it happened, but immediately, I felt if the brush of his lips against my skin, any resolve I had evaporated into thin air. I steal a glance at him, admiring his sharp jawline and the way his shoulders flex beneath the fabric of his tux. He looks extremely good today and it took everything inside me not to maul him when I saw him standing outside my bedroom. "Are you okay?" I blink once then twice, trying to regain my composure while simultaneously hoping he hadn't noticed me ogling him. Nikolai decided to drive us to Tatiana's wedding. His hands grip the steering wheel with the kind of c
Nikolai I can't stop thinking about my wife. Her hands on my body, the way her skin flushed with desire when she saw me get on my knees before her in the kitchen. How she looked desperate for my touch. I never considered myself the kind of man who got down on his knees for his lover, but for her, I found myself wanting to worship every inch of her. This need I had burning inside me whenever she was near was maddening. She controls me in ways I'm sure she hasn't even discovered yet. Sure, I've slept with other women, but never in my twenty-nine years on this planet did I ever consider ruining a woman the way I want to ruin my wife. I want to dirty her up, watch her beg, hear her moan my name until she can't take it anymore. I want to break down every wall she has, stripping her bare from the carefully crafted armour she wore around her heart. I need her raw, vulnerable, and craving me the same way I crave her. I spent last night wondering what would've happened if my daughter h
AvaI want him.The realization dawns on me as I lie in bed hours later staring at the ceiling of my bedroom like it holds all the answers to the questions running through my mind.The air conditioner hums softly in the far corner of the room, cool air spilling in from its vents. My room isn't hot by any means but yet a single bead of sweat rolls down my temple, a testament to the inferno burning deep inside my chest as the weight of my thoughts bear down on me, too heavy to ignore. After my little self-pep talk in the kitchen, I slipped into my bedroom where I’d been for the last couple of hours.The events of this afternoon with Nikolai in the kitchen still haunt my mind, and as much I wish I could keep myself in check around him, every semblance of self-control I possess goes fluttering out the window the second he spares me a glance.I turn over, clutching the pillow tightly to my chest. It's dark outside, and if I had to guess, it's probably a little after ten. I didn't bother
Ava You learn a lot about yourself the first time your five-year-old stepdaughter is about to catch you spread out on the kitchen counter with her father on his knees between your legs, Seconds away from eating you out. For instance, I learned how many seconds it takes for me to shove my husband away while simultaneously yanking down my dress and hopping off the kitchen counter all the while pretending that nothing out of the ordinary had taken place. In total, It takes me five seconds. Nikolai falls back on his ass a few feet behind me, laughter bubbling up his throat as he watches my frantic state. “Shut up” I snap, my voice barely above a hiss as I tug my dress down, desperately trying to smooth over the fabric with my hands. “Relax, Solnyshko” Nikolai says, his voice infuriatingly calm. How he can be so calm when his daughter is seconds away from walking in on us? I have no idea. How did we get here? The last thing I remember is wanting to talk to him, but then he kissed me