SarahI sat on the floor of the toilet and stuffed my fist into my mouth, screaming till my lungs felt raw. Everything happening was beginning to take a toll on me.I'd lost track of the reason why I was back here, in Nightshade pack, in the first place —to have my revenge on Ryder.Now, I'm saddled with unwanted feelings and dead animals appearing in my bed. I was letting Ryder affect me. I was letting him get to my head and body.I shuddered, shaking off the memories that threatened to cloud my mind.I stopped screaming and began to laugh. I hear the madness in it.I didn't care.I was already mad thinking I could live a lie. I knew sooner or later, I would have to accept the truth. It was useless fighting it.The truth that, I'll never be immune to Ryder. Beneath the layers of hate and mistrust, my heart still ached to be loved by that monster.But first, I intended to burn the bridge that ties us—our past. Every inch of it. And if we're able to survive the aftermath, then my heart
Drako I lurked in the dark, watching from a distance at her house. Only a sliver of moon graced the sky, casting shadows around me. But it was perfect. It offered no light and gave me the perfect cover as I crouched lower on the branch of an oak tree. Everywhere was quiet and still. Just the way I loved it. The cool breeze teased my skin. I've been watching pretty, little Sarah for a few days now. After she appeared on television during their coverage of the burning buildings. Little Sarah has grown so big. She wasn't hard to miss in the crowd of people surrounding the place. I would recognize that face anywhere, anytime. Siea’s face. She had her mother’s face, only younger and without the unruly red hair I loved so much on her. Siea had been my lover, as far as I could describe it. And I had never loved another like I loved her. But she had a greater purpose in my life and she knew that—her blood served a greater purpose. She knew she couldn't have me forever but she lo
Sarah My eyes fluttered open as I regained consciousness. A dull ache was just beginning to take root in my head. I tried to raise my hand to my temple but it was stuck. Slowly, my eyes moved over my body. I took a deep, shaky breath when I realized that my body was wrapped to a chair, with a twine. Subconsciously, I tugged at it, wanting to see how strong it could hold. It didn't give, instead, it dug deeper, biting into my skin. I felt the bite move around my body. I was trapped. Where am I? Why am I tied to a chair? What is that awful smell? It was making me nauseous. Slowly, my memories came flooding back. The hand on my mouth. The attack in the woods. Someone must have brought me here and tied me up. Was it Ryder? Was he really desperate to prove himself? Or was he just plain mad? Has he brought me here to finish the job his beta, Trevor failed to do? A noise in the room caught my attention. Someone was in here with me. The thought of Ryder being here made me furiou
Ryder I was having a play date with Alim in his room when I felt tension crash through my body. It was from my mind-link to my pack’s warriors. They were agitated. I could feel the tension rising and it made me uneasy. It was a warning sign. Something was wrong. Something was terribly wrong. “/Dean/” I summoned the huge man, stationed outside Alim’s room, through the mind-link. “/Take Alim and Alexis down to the den and keep them there, till you hear from me. No one should leave the den till I say otherwise./” The bear of a man nodded his head in understanding. I knelt down and pulled my son close, my gaze resting on his face. “Alim, you've to be good and follow Dean and your mama downstairs,” I whispered. “You'll remain there till I come to get you. You've to be a man now and keep your mama safe, okay?” His head bobbed up and down like a lizard. “Can I rely on you to keep your mama safe?” I asked gently, holding him still. “Yes, papa.” “And you'll do whatever Dean te
Ryder My breathing hitched at his statement. “What has the blood moon got to do with Sarah?” I grabbed his hand, stopping him in his tracks. “What are you keeping from me?” He turned swiftly to me, his gaze burning red, weakening my wolf. I whined and my grip around his hand loosened. “You know better, Ryder,” he spoke calmly, resuming his walk like nothing happened. “I'm sorry,” I whimpered, the aftermath of his gaze still disturbed my wolf energy. “I'm just desperate and feeling lost. The thought of Sarah by herself scares the living daylights out of me.” He turned around. His face softened at the anguish, evident on my face. “All you need to know is Sarah is in dire danger. When the blood moon comes up, her life would be cut short if she isn't found.” He patted my shoulder. “Conserve your energy, son. You'll need it and she needs you. Wait here. I'll summon the council and find out what we can about his whereabouts. Make yourself at home and don't wear my floor with yo
Sarah I felt tired and weak. My eyes slowly opened as the sedatives in my system began to wear off. The cloud in my mind began to give way and recollection of where I was came flooding in. I was lying down. My back felt pressed to something cold. It felt like metal. I tried to lift my head, but I was strapped down and surrounded by machines. “Hey,” I called out weakly, trying to grab Drako’s attention. The beeping from the machine made it hard to hear myself. “The little princess has decided to join us,” he joked as he appeared beside me. “Just a little more time now, little Sarah. It will all be over soon.” “Please, don't do this,” I cried, my throat parched from thirst. I couldn't tell what time it was or how long I'd been out. He raised his hands in false surrender. “It is not my place to stop the work of the goddess. I'm only an instrument. You have to stop fighting it, little one, and accept that is meant to happen.” My sight blurred as I tried to focus on him. Cold
Sarah The journey felt like forever as our rescuer drove us straight into the Stormclaw pack, bypassing the clinic and heading straight to Ryder’s mansion. One of the wolves who had rescued us was a healer. She had tried to heal Ryder as the others moved around calling for backup—they couldn't transport us by themselves in good time. But the healer’s powers were only limited. It didn't heal Ryder’s wound; it only helped stable his breathing. I sat beside Ryder, cradling his head on my shoulder as we drove past the Stormclaw’s clinic. News travelled fast. A small crowd of reporters already stood outside the gate, shoving their cameras and mics towards the window as we drove through the gate. Everything felt hazy after that. People clamoured over, separating me from Ryder as they hurried him into the house. I sighed, visibly relaxing when I saw Pauline, my friend, among the people gathered around Ryder. I knew he was in good hands. Her eyes locked on me and she muttered
RyderI watched her chest rise and fall with a steady rhythm, curled up on the armchair, which had been moved from the corner of the room and placed closer to the bed.Weak sunlight filtered into the room through the closed curtains, dancing over her face. She had stayed up all night watching me and only drifted off to sleep an hour ago.Last night was a torture. My body revulsed as the venom left my body, depriving me of sleep. Sarah had held my hand all through, fighting the pain with me.My eyes softened as I gazed at her sleeping figure. She was beautiful. Despite the bags beneath her eyes and the faint purplish marks on her skin, she looked peaceful in her sleep.Seeing her in here brought back memories. I sighed deeply, wanting nothing more than to pull her into my arms and cradle her.I could stay like this forever. The door creaked open and a tiny head peeked through, followed by its little body racing towards me.“Shhh, bud,” I cautioned, trying not to wake Sarah up as Alim
Sarah“Ryder!” I screamed, searching and punching my way through the chaos. “Ryder!”Pain coursed through me as something slammed into my face, knocking me to the ground.“Damn it,” I hissed, forcing myself up. I should have been more alert, but my mind was scrambled— I needed to find him.A lone figure, standing a few inches away from the fight, caught my attention as I struggled to stand on shaky feet.He had his back to me, but I recognized that broad shoulders anywhere. It was Lucas.Adrenaline rushed through my veins, pushing me off the floor and towards him. He was standing, almost like he was in a trance.Strange. But I was about to find out something worse.Almost like he could sense me, he cocked his head, his eyes briefly locking into mine before turning back.But it was enough for my eyes to register the object of his attention.A chill crawled down my spine. The tall, looming figure in front of Lucas has the moonlight on him.Drako.I froze, my breath catching in my thro
SarahI started up the stairs, ready to strip my sweaty clothes off and drench my body in hot water before the baby woke up; a luxury I couldn’t buy.She had her own routine; keep me up all night and sleep all through the day. It was a miracle she was sleeping right now.The house was quiet, just like I wanted. Everyone was still asleep… everyone except Ryder. He was standing at the top of the stairs.“It’s time.” He whispered, as soon as I got close.It took a second for my tired brain to understand what he was saying. “Are you sure?”It had taken countless talks to get him to agree to the plan and he had done so grudgingly.“Positive. The tracker picked up her movement again. And my man on the ground just confirmed it. They are on the move.”About darn time. It’s been a long week holed up in this tiny cottage, trying to act normal while lying in wait for Lucas and Alexis.And my personal monster.“How much time do we have?” I asked, my blood pulsed at the thought of confronting Luca
Sarah“She’s beautiful,” his voice floated through my half-conscious mind.“I know,” I muttered, my eyes slowly opening. “And feisty too. She held my finger in her little grip for so long… I fell in love all over again.”The memory brought a smile to my face. The labour was tough but getting to hold her in my arms, and seeing her tiny body snuggled close to mine, made up for the hell I went through.And the one I was yet to face.“Just like her mother,” Ryder spoke, grabbing my arm.My eyes lazily settled on Ryder, sitting beside me. He was smiling, despite the bruises covering his face… and hand; I realized as I let my gaze travel down his body.“You look like you've been in a fight and came out the worst of it.”He chuckled. “Nothing compared to how you're looking.” he squeezed my hand gently. “You did well, Sarah. She is beautiful and healthy. Have you decided on a name for her?”I consciously scanned my body. “Not yet. I've been playing around with a few. Any suggestions? I'm open
LucasIt felt stupid, standing here, staring out the window while my whole world was falling apart. But that has been my routine for the past week, except today was different.“About time,” I muttered, my eyes trailing the pickup truck that had just pulled in.“I’ll see her in the study,” I spoke to the guard standing at the entrance. “Don’t let her take a step to any other part of the house, except it leads to the study.”I caught his silent acknowledgement as I walked passed.There was going to be a lot of explaining and screaming and I wasn’t going to be the one doing either. She’d betrayed me and this time, she was going to serve as an example to anyone who might be harbouring thoughts of that nature.Especially, her worthless father!The door creaked open, jarring me from my thoughts.“Lucas.” My name rolled off her tongue like a plead, much to my annoyance.But her appearance caught me by surprise.“Alexis. Welcome home,” I replied sarcastically, my eyes slowly taking her in.S
Ryder My lips quivered with disgust. “Tell me again, Zane, when did you come up with this speech?”“This isn't a speech. For the safety and growth of this pack, it is in everyone's best interest that you step aside for someone more capable to take responsibility.”I laughed, although it held no humour, it held traces of my anger. “Everyone? Who have you been talking to?”“Everyone… including the people of this land who you seem to have so confidently forgotten about, because of your heart. Tell me, Ryder, is she truly worth it?”I clenched my fists, fighting to keep my anger on hold. “You think I’d risk everything for her if she wasn’t?”Zane took a step closer, his eyes narrowing. “Love isn’t enough to lead a pack. You need to be able to make tough decisions without letting your heart cloud your judgment.”I did that once and where did it land me? Right here, in this mess. But I couldn't blame Zane. He knew nothing about it.Still, I won't let him tear my pack apart because of ignor
RyderIf I could ask for one thing right now, it would be the chance to go back in time and correct my mistakes.That night with Alexis was a mistake.Trusting her father was a mistake.Hurting Sarah and pushing her away was a mistake.Too many mistakes made already. And I was about to make another if I let Sarah have her way.I had stayed awake last night and yet, I could only come up with the lamest plan, involving the one person I hated and couldn't even afford to trust.I paused on the front steps, taking in deep breaths before uncorking my water bottle and gulping down.“Where have you been?” A voice startled me.A shadow emerged and the light from the porch cast a warm glow on my unexpected companion.It was Ava.I cocked my head at her in confusion. Her question was unexpected, bizarre even. Slowly, I continued my ascent to the front porch, ignoring her.She blocked my path. “She is gone.” Flatly.What was she talking about? And why was she waiting for me, out here in the fark
SarahI sat upright. Another painful ache above my pelvic area.“Why?”“Truthfully?” I nodded, eager to get him out of my room. “I'm doing this for the safety of our pack. Ryd—Alpha Ryder seem to have forgotten his duties to the pack… he is like a man lost in love.”Ryder wasn't in love. He felt guilt. There is a difference.“He won’t listen to reason…” his voice was low like he was ashamed of himself for talking. “He has th—this insane need to protect you, even if it means destroying the pack. And I can't sit back and let it happen.” No, you can't. You don't regard me and my existence isn't worth a dime to you, talk more of the lives of your pack members.“So… I’m not worth it?” I admit. More like an angry statement.He didn’t flinch nor bat an eyelid, which annoyed me the more. “You suggested it… didn’t you?” His cold eyes mocked me. “I’m only granting you what you asked for… or are you having a change of heart?”I swallowed. “No.”“Good. I have got a plan already laid out.”I lis
“SarahThe attack was all Lucas’ idea. A backup plan to get you if you failed to marry him.” I heard Ryder's voice but my gaze was locked on Alexis.“The man I killed… their leader, hinted at a woman, being behind the attack.”I saw something flash through her eyes. It was too fast, I couldn't put a name to it.“Are you sure about it?” Ryder’s voice was laced with disbelief, which I found strange.Was he trying to make excuses for her? Ignoring his question, I pushed my body forward, letting my legs drop to the ground. “You owe me that much, Alexis. If you tried to kill me and failed, you owe it to me to answer my question.” I said quietly, my face barely inches away from hers.“I don't owe you anything,” her foul breath filled my nostrils.What was I expecting? That she would admit to sending rogues to kill me? That she would apologise for ruining my life? That I would find fulfilment when in her misery?I pushed my chair back and stood up. I needed to be done with this part of my
RyderThe meeting tonight had yielded no positive results. Instead, all the advisors had sided with Sarah and Zane, to my annoyance.What they thought was best for the pack, was never going to happen. Not when I was still the Alpha of the Stormclaw pack.But, still, I was running out of time. I had less than 48 hours to find another plan that didn't involve Sarah putting herself in danger.I kissed a sleeping Alim before I got out of bed. He was recovering fine which I was grateful to the goddess for. But he was still wary of me. Pauline had assured me everything would be fine with time and I believed her.Draping my nightrobe, I left the room quietly, not wanting to wake Alim up.I had one more business to take care of before I called it a day. The house was quiet and dark as I made my way down the stairs.“For fuck sake!” I cursed as my feet collided with something on the floor.“Who is there?” I heard Sarah’s frightened voice. It was coming from the living room.“Sarah?”“Ryder? Y