The room was huge, there were probably around fifty to seventy members already inside, but we could possibly fit another hundred or so men in here. The tables and chairs were pushed to the sides as the men gathered directly in the centre of the room. I say men because I was literally the only female in this room right now.
Roaming my eyes over the crowd I searched the room for any sign of the Garcia’s or my brothers. I strained my neck and leaned forward on the tips of my toes, it was extremely hard for a woman of a petite size like mine to see past the sea of many tall men but eventually My eyes landed on Lucien’s, a smile flicking at the corners of his lips.
Relief washed over me at the site of him, he was unknowingly my comfort blanket and if there was any time that I had needed one it would be now. I made my way over to him, James clearing and guiding me through the crowd of men, I was not ashamed to admit that I would never successfully reach Lucien in a room full of so many tall and big boned men without the help of a strongly built male.
Lucien reached out, taking a hold of my hand in his and pulling me into his warm embrace. The scent of his cologne enveloping me as he wrapped his arms around me just like a blanket. A content sigh passed my lips as I relaxed into the warmth and safety that was Lucien.
"What's wrong?" He asked softly, soothing me with comforting strokes to my hair.
“nothing” I mumbled into his chest. He didn’t need to know of my encounter in the kitchen nor the one I had with James straight after.
He hummed in response allowing me to publicly cuddle him, to which he had seemed to have no objections too.
I pulled back figuring a display such as this was classed as affection and was not supposed for the eyes of the employed. Although I had intended to create the distance Lucien tugged me back with an arm around my waist. I looked up in confusion to meet his eyes as he searched mine for what I assume was an explanation to my sudden need to be held by him.
“Are you sure that you are alright?” he asked with a worried frown. I smiled, he was genuinely concerned and although it eased my inner turmoil to have him hold me and engage with me like this there was no way I could ever tell him. For one I wouldn’t know how he would react to the mention of Nicolas’s name. and two? I know exactly how he would react to the news of a shared kiss between James and me.
“I'm fine I promise" I lied, seemingly successful at sounding somewhat convincing. I honestly don’t know how it had sounded, but considering I was a terrible liar I had almost convinced myself.
He didn’t look as convinced as I had hoped but to my relief, he didn’t dig deeper instead placing a delicate kiss to my forehead before pulling away.
The lack of his warm touch instantly noticeable across my now goosebumped covered skin. I watched him, my eyes following him as he made his way to stand with Marcel, Diego and Lorenzo, who I was now aware were standing patiently waiting to start the meeting.
With all four of them standing side by side they really did give of this intimidating, strong and powerful vibe. Not wanting to hold up the meeting any longer I followed suit taking my place upfront, standing in the specifically appointed spot to the side of the four where I was visible to everyone’s eye. my bodyguard standing closer than necessary whilst making sure all men follow the rules in keeping a certain amount of distance from me.
I zoned out of the exchange between the bosses and their men. Completely distracted in my own little world of how fucked up my life was really becoming and before I knew it the meeting was over.
With the pile of documented deals needing proofread I decided my office will be my next stop. It's better to get it out the way because if I was to leave it too late, I'll just receive another lecture from Lorenzo on how important my job of sorting paperwork is to this business.
I motioned to James that I was ready to leave. He usually was given strict instructions to not leave my side for the rest of the day. I'm not sure why that was, I never questioned it. I guess I liked the company whilst it lasted. Luckily, we had managed to make a swift exit and successfully stomped out the short distance to my office.
I approached the door and halted as the blonde James was with earlier came speeding towards me with a furious look slapped on her face.
"YOU" she pointed her freshly manicured finger in my direction.
"You stay away from my boyfriend" she snarled, with so much hate directed at me. Hate I didn’t deserve. At least I don’t think that I deserved it, did I?
I looked towards James silently asking what the fuck this one was blabbering on about, he looked just as clueless as I was, if not more by her little outburst.
"Hey, enough" James demanded placing his hand on her arm in a comforting gesture.
She shook her head, still aiming her finger in my direction.
"He is not a toy, you know I watched you both when you left the kitchen" she spat "You will not force him to fuck you like you had forced Nicolas to do, do you understand me" she shot her crazy delusion at me.
I was in utter shock at the actual nerve of this woman. How she can hear gossip and repeat it Asif if it was the truth. I liked Nicolas, He was sweet and kind. I honestly and wholeheartedly really cared for him, and he cared for me.
I feel bad enough as it is that he had suffered the way that he did by Lucien's hands. Why did she assume I had slept with Nicolas, or James for that matter? I really couldn't understand why these people think of me in the way that they do.
“Why him? Will Lucien no longer give you the light of day? you are nothing but a worn-out unwanted whore” she pulled the last straw from the pile that sent me over the edge. And before I even knew what I was doing I let my anger and rage take control of my irrational mind.
I'll give this bitch what she wanted.
I'll give everyone something to fear.
Ill remind them that they are dealing with a fucking Valdez.
I pulled my gun from its belt and without hesitation I aimed it for the woman in front of me. not only did her eyes grow wide but so did his Asif neither of them had expected such a reaction from me. Who could blame them? This was not something I would usually do, this wasn't normal for my character.
"You dare disrespect me" I spat with venom, using my anger as a front mask.
She didn't move, she was still firmly standing her ground.
Her eyes were sizing me almost curious before She began to giggle.
What the actual fuck? This dope giggled while someone held a gun directed at her. She has serious fucking issues and one was now me. if I had felt disrespected before, right now I was humiliated as she only added fuel to a darkness I had never felt before.
"In my office NOW" I demanded switching the aim of my gun between the pair as I gestured for both her and James to enter my office.
James wasted no time hesitating and pulled the blond-haired woman by her arm without a word.
I closed the door. Following behind as I urged them towards my desk.
"Sit" I waved the gun from the blonde to one of the white leather chairs in front of my desk.
"No" she scoffed "Should you even have a gun" She scowled as if the idea was ridiculous. It probably was, I mean I feel way out of my depth here.
But the dis-respect, the dis-re-fucking-spect. I was far from in the mood for her resistance or back chat so with a firm grip to my right hand I smacked the dickhead across the side of her head with the handle of my gun.
She screamed out a cry of pain, her body automatically crouching forward as she clutched her head in her hands.
Holey fuck! Did I actually do that? Shit, I actually did that.
“Now take a fucking seat” I ground through my teeth. This time she didn't disobey quickly placing her ass to the chair with a whimper. This whole time James just looked dazed at the situation that was playing out in front of him, and I’m sure he was thinking of me as the crazy bitch he hates to protect. That thought wiped from my mind as I watched a small smirk tug at the corner of his lips and now, I was the one wondering if he was crazy. I turned my gun on him, the smirk dropping from his face as he covered it with a bite to his bottom lip. "You" I spoke as seductively as I could possibly muster up with the bucket of nerves I was beginning to feel. “Come here" I demanded Sitting down behind my desk and motioning for him to come to me. He bit his cheek in what looked to be an attempt in hiding his smile, I don’t know why but he was enjoying this way more than he should.
"Yo you alright man?" Diego asked patting my shoulder to snap me out of my thoughts.Throughout the meeting María looked sad, Distracted even.
María pull at her arm, trying to pull it from my tight hold.With no success it angered her as I watched her screw her face up
María's pov-I slid my back down the wall, my knees collapsing beneath me, My tears uncontrollably streaming down my face.
I was thankful that no one was allowed on this floor with the exception of me and the four guys.I didn't want to be around people right now, I couldn't muster up the ability to fake a smile.I sat myself on the sofa, my head resting against the arm.Diego put Netflix on flicking through the tv shows.After a ten minute debate about watching the originals I obviously lost but we finally came to a mutual agreement on watching Dexter.I relaxed into the sofa, Diego covering me with a blanket and Shortly after, I had drifted off into a deep sleep.I woke up to the sound of a door slamming and the lights being turned on.I blinked my eyes rapidly in an attempt at adjusting to the sudden light.Feeling a soft pillow and sheets beneath me I quickly realised I was now in my room. Die
My door flew open almost ripping off of its hinges as Diego barged his way in"WTF ARE YOU DOING" he blew up, Narrowing his eyes at his closest friend.
Clenching my fists, in an attempt to freeze my anger, I made my way to Lucien's room.This is completely insane! what the fuck is he thinking?How could he do this to a woman, María of all people.I was angry.Lorenzo is going to flip his lid when he finds out about this.I knew Lucien was possessive of María but jeez he's fucking nuts.When he said everyone would know she was his by the end of the night, I had assumed he had meant by making it official with her again, You know be a couple?. I never could have imagined this outcome.Coming out of my thoughts as I approached his bedroom door.Without a knock I walked into the room.He wasn't there. The only other place I could think he would be was the bar on the rooftop or the gym.
Lucien's Pov-I made my way down the balcony stairs. My emotions were everywhereMy mind s
“Mom” Marcus yelled in panic as my head was lifted from the cold floor. “Get some ice for your mother she hit her head” I heard Lucien, he sounded so close, I could smell him, he smelt just like I remember. “This is your fault asshole” Marcus fired “Or maybe it was your unique way of introducing yourself. SON” Lucien defended. “Maria, can you hear me?” his voice was so close yet so soft like a whisper. I didn’t dare open my eyes, maybe it was a nightmare? If that’s the case than I’m stuck in a dream state. His touch feels so real. I was being a child, hoping that the longer I keep my eyes closed the higher chance of the possibility of it being nothing more than just a dream. “Maria” he called the touch of his fingertips to my skin as he brushed them gently across my brow and along my check. “Fuck, shit! mom?” Marcus’s panic snapped me forward and I flicked my eyes o
Epilogue Eighteen years has passed since you both took your leave. Every day I miss you both. Diego too, when you guys made your leave from this world and I made mine from that hell, I had made the sacrifice to leave him behind. It was a painful sacrifice, but he had the right to choose his own path just like I did mine. I don’t know if you can hear me, maybe its wishful thinking but I pray every day that you watch over him for me. I have had no contact with him or any other from that life in eighteen years, but I did it, I finally got out. I faced those struggles with you all in my mind, through the good times and the bad. Sometimes I let my mind wonder in imagination, with the what ifs and the possibilities of what could have been if you both could spend one more day down here. I know Marcus could use an uncle or aunt to vent too. He takes after his father, so handsome with his dark hair and strong mind but sometimes I feel as though a mother just won’t cut
Maria’s pov- Lucien circled his arms around my waste the warmth of his body against my back was calming as he placed a delicate kiss to my cheek, my eyes closing as his presence soothed me. “Are you ok?” he asked his voice soft and low. I hummed a response, wanting nothing more than to stay in his arms. I was yet again shamelessly avoiding what I came here to do. “We need to talk” I sighed opening my eyes, forcing myself to face reality. “Don’t give me a speech like the one you gave him” Lucien exclaimed, the cool air wrapping around me as he pulled away from me, the loss of his hold no longer keeping me composed. “It is nothing like that” I huffed turning to face him. It sounds crazy to say but this man, this big powerful man in front of me is so God damn emotional it’s unbelievable. “Take a seat please I need to tell you something and I don’t want you to freak out” I nudged his che
Maria’s pov- I was shamelessly killing time to avoid the inevitable confrontation of telling Lucien our news. I didn’t know how he would react, how he would take the news of becoming a father let alone the news that we can leave. He was always so defensive with excuses every time I brought up us leaving the current life that we live. And as for the other thing, I believe being a parent is something he has pictured before but no matter how hard he tries to hide how much that thought scared him I could see it. I have taken a shower and a bath, with a visit to Rocco and Dr Grim in hopes to avoid the conversation I am mere seconds away from having with Lucien, according to Marcel he was in the living area of our floor five minutes ago. I’m praying he is still there because all this walking to avoid the inevitable was killing not just my leg but my whole entire body. “You are not capable of keeping her safe, how many times must she suffer because of your blata
It hurt to think of Diego in pain, of him feeling lost or being lost in any kind of way. That was just not who Diego was, he is all humour, fiery and bright. “I shot myself” I laughed through a sob hoping to relieve some of his pain for even just a moment. “I heard” he strained a chuckle, clearing his throat he pulled back to look at me with his red eyes. They were not as bright anymore, they seemed dull like the brightness of a bulb dying out. “Only you could manage such a thing Angel” he smiled at me, his smile weak but I could tell it was genuine and that’s what I wanted. To see the smiling Diego not the Diego with the reckless look upon his face. “I’m proud of you, your strength is powerful Maria. you took on a fight all on your own and came out still standing” he praised “well standing on a limp leg” he added with a teasing grin. “Shut up, you have a limp leg too” I laughed pus
Maria’s pov- “I am not leaving her in the hands of the likes of you” “The likes of me?” I shot up at the sudden loud crash, my heart racing with panic and dare I say it fear.my body was in pure agony and with my head spinning I could barely focus my eyes. “You can’t keep her safe, none of you can” I whipped my head to the direction of the familiar voice to see Carlos and Lucien in an intense stair down, a mess of broken items at their feet the obvious sign of a tussle. “How I protect my woman is no concern of yours” Lucien fired “That may be but do not make the mistake brother, she is my concern she has been since the night I found her locked in my cousin’s bedroom” I closed my eyes, inhaling deeply in the attempt to calm my beating heart. The crash and the sound of fist to skin that I knew was coming after Carlos’s words echoed around the room. I winced opening my e
Diego’s pov- “Mail whatever is left of the pair to the Trevisani estate” I ordered, wiping my chin on the sleeve of my shirt. “Are you sure that is the message you want to send?” Marcel asked stepping away from the sink he was washing his hands in. “That’s what I said, was it not?” I fired stepping to the now vacant sink. The skin of my hands not visible through the coating of crimson red, fingernails stained with the blood of those animals. “Pack them up and send them off” he ordered to the two men present. “You understand that is a message of war” he said calmly, his eyes burning into the side of my face, like if he looks hard enough, he could read whatever my mind was thinking. “I am aware yes” I clenched my teeth tightly, my eyes focused on the wall in front of me. I don’t think I have felt this much emotion in a very long time. was it anger? pain? I don’t know but it is deafeni
Maria's Pov- Lucien gently tugged at my arms encasing me in his hold with a tight squeeze, pinning me to his chest and leaving no room for me to fight. “I’ve got you” he whispered. “I’ve got you now” he repeated over and over, and I broke into a million pieces as I cried into his chest to thoughts of the night, thoughts of Lorenzo, Aimee and even for some unknown reasons… Vince. A loud pain filled groan pulled me back to my surroundings and I shot away from Lucien’s chest my eyes instantly finding Rocco who was trying to roll his shoulder, the shoulder with the bullet wound. “Get him a doctor” I fired rushing to Rocco’s side, yet again being too caught up in my selfishness that I had let this man bleed for God knows how long while I so selfishly cried a meltdown. “I suppose I’m fired sweetheart” he winced. “Don’t move” I scolded panic stricken as Lucien silently came to my side obser
Maria's POV- “Are you hurt?” he spoke, and I knew he was talking to me, but I couldn’t decipher why he would ask such a question. Was it out of stupidity? Did I look ok? No. Did I look hurt? I sure as hell felt the pain. His eyes darted to Rocco before landing back on me “Is he dead?” he asked, his eyes dipping to the man at my feet. Was his question referring to Rocco or Vince? Either way even a blind man would know someone died in this room by the smell of the blood in the air. “You left me” I spoke, my voice leaving as a croak. He gave the order; I am here because he sent me on this path. “I know, I thought you were safe with Rocco” he said calmly his hands raised in surrender. His eyes for once not portraying his strength. Instead, stormy swirls stared back at me crumbling in an almost panic like as they pleaded with me. It was striking to see something so unusual coming from him I felt