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| 99 | Love Is Patient

Author: M.Z. Mauve
last update Last Updated: 2024-07-31 05:45:20
[ D O M I N I C O ]

The irony of pain is that you wanna be comforted by the person who hurt you.

But that's just the pain talking. The other person doesn't think it's their responsibility to make you feel better.

These are self-inflicted wounds, after all. My own doing. Therefore I can't demand anything from her. My comfort and happiness are not her responsibility.

I clench my teeth, fingertips paling around the wine bottle. I'm alone again. By choice for now. I'm sitting by the pool, just staring at the shiny ripples in the water.

Not eager to go to bed. I can't. Not yet. Sleep can wait.

She's probably crying in the guest room. Feeling sorry for me. Feeling awfully guilty for saying no.

I don't even wanna imagine the conversation we'll have in the morning, if I sleep next to her tonight. I just know it'll be too awkward, strained, and probably too painful for us both.

But it's not her fault. Whether I like it or not, her choice is valid. I have to respect it. Her reasons f
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