When I wake up it's already shiny and bright, the early October sun adamantly piercing through the window drapes. My skin shudders as cold air blankets my skin, and that damn eerie feeling of being watched returns.
I rise up abruptly, panting. Lately I've become overly sensitive to everything and I feel like someone's right here in my room, ready to grab me and do whatever evil intentions they have toward me.
I cast my glance aside and my nose crinkle in disgust.
"Morning, butterfly." It's a very familiar voice.
Relief washes over me.
"What the hell?" I murmur, waving away the smoke of cigar wafting in my nose. "I hate that, Patrick. At least do your shit outside."
"Oh. My bad," he replies nonchalantly while straightening himself at the corner of the bed, eyes on my upper body that's covered with nothing but a lacy bra.
Instinctively, I pull the duvet up to my neck so as to distract his lustful stare.
"What are you doing here?" I croak while sitting up.
Wrong question. He lives here.
Instead of answering me, he plainly stares at me, a creepy gleam in his salient silver-gray eyes that search for aunty visible nakedness in my body.
"I'm talking to you? Aren't you supposed to be in Russia or whatever? Caring so little that I could be dead by now?" I yell at him, very frustrated inside.
Unknown people have been tracking me down like a bounty worthy millions. The gunshot memories from last night makes my breath heavy, and the sight of one fearless man fighting against a group of gangsters replays in my mind.
What if he wasn't there to protect me? My chest heaves as fear engulf me all over again. But I'm safe now. He saved me once again.
Patrick stands up, still dressed in his neat white suit with a black unbuttoned shirt, his hairy chest half-exposed in a senseless yet eye-catching design, and perhaps the twenty-years-old me would be enthralled to just jump on him and rip his shirt off.
Not anymore.
"I never get tired watching my beautiful wife," Patrick says, his smile filled with burning desire that I can read like a large billboard on the way home. "As stubborn as she may be, because I clearly told her to wait until I sort everything," he adds, his tone angered in milliseconds as he snobbishly takes another puff of his large, Cuban cigar.
I roll my eyes at him, exhausted. Sort everything? Just how exactly?
"I'm not in the mood, Patrick. Feed that nonsense to anyone interested to hear." I start moving from the bed, grabbing the duvet with me.
"What? You don't think I can find those bastards? You don't trust me?" he quizzes.
"Just leave me alone," I snap, even though I know he can do it as long as it has everything to do with him in the first place.
My husband is very rich. Being his wife has been an attraction for good and evil, but I still can't tell if these current attempts on my life have anything to do with him, or if it's just the enemies I've personally made. It's one blow after another, and now I'm even afraid of my own shadow.
I flounce away from the bed and he does the same, eyes fixed on me sternly. He's got a fit body for his age of forty eight, and saying he's the man who stole my heart in a single glance is an understatement. He was simply everything I never felt before. I just wonder what has gone wrong between us now.
"I heard what happened," he says. His thick southern accent makes him more priggish than he actually is. "Didn't I fucking tell you to stay at home? Do you realize what I had to postpone just so I can get back here?" he lashes, his face arctic.
Can't he just shut up!
"I didn't ask you to come back, did I?" I groan in pain as something strikes through my head.
Patrick glares disgustedly at my hangover face. He hates it when I drink, and I do it to spite him. I mean, where was he when I needed him the most? As always he's busy making more money and closing big deals, only to come home whining that I'm not the good little wife he expects me to miraculously be.
"Patrick, I don't wanna argue with you." I throw the heavy duvet aside and pull my bunny slippers using my feet. "I seriously don't."
Grunting, Patrick pitches his cigar on the ashtray lying on the table and seizes me briskly into his arms, hugging my body from behind. I shriek, for his touch feels like a punishment nowadays.
Breathing into my hair, he says, "I also don't wanna fight you, Mia. I missed you."
A bile rises in my throat. I wanna throw up.
"I need to shower and brush my teeth," I whisper, trying to free myself from this horny bastard I have for a husband.
He was probably banging some cheap model the whole night and now he's here trying to play his amorous card? Damn him! Not that I care whom he fucks everyday, I just demand my respect.
"I don't have time, Mia. I'm flying to Geneva in two hours," he says, his voice intoxicated, and I feel his dick throbbing already.
I glower mentally, my libido deeply asleep. I no longer desire fucking him as I used to before, ever since I caught him banging his ex-wife. I'm disgusted by him.
And he's leaving again? I pull out of his arms immediately, glaring at his silvery, sultry eyes.
"Again to Geneva? Why?" My face crunches.
"A big transaction needs to be settled. I'm tired of incompetent assholes so I'm gonna see through it myself." His phone buzzes and he's quick to answer it. He frowns as he snaps, "What?" to the person on the call.
What kind of business is he dealing with that he always uses the Swiss bank? I ponder as I watch him casting an impatient glare on his gold and diamond Rolex, snapping at whoever is on the phone. He's pissed already.
But I know he deals with everything. He's into agriculture, technology, export and imports, real estate, and many other stuff that makes his bank accounts read so many zeroes after a decent digit. He's super loaded.
"That's what I'm paying you for!" he barks while tugging me back to his dominion. His hand crosses my chest so I stay put, squeezing my right breast. "Get the asshole and lock him up until he says who sent him!" He hangs up and throws his phone on the bed.
Am I even surprised? Not really. I've seen the weirder, and I've heard worse. Patrick is the type of a man who doesn't allow snitches, and much less traitors. I wonder if he's never killed someone.
"Are you going with your secretary?" I ask, for I'm sure he wouldn't miss the chance of taking his mistress with him.
I know he is fucking his secretary, but I've got no proof. A woman's instinct is hardly wrong—at least mine isn't—especially with all the cheating scandals involving him in my log.
"She's my Personal Assistant, Mia. So yes she's coming with me," he breathes, tugging the lace fabric of my bra cup lower, releasing my breast. "And don't start that boring old song please!"
My eyes clam as he kisses me roughly, his mouth demanding. The sadistic touch in his sexual advances are one of the reasons why I fell in love with him upon our first night together back in Paris. It was outlandish and I was a naïve little girl from the suburbs of New Orleans, attracted to danger.
I was just a nineteen years old model and designer wanna-be. And one eventful evening I met the thirty-nine years old hunk: very shiny copper hair, bright silver eyes that stared transfixed at my young body on the catwalk as though I was something he'd never seen before.
He drew me in like a tornado, strong and powerful. At my age I should have had a boyfriend, a young one, but I strangely was attracted to older, intimidating men. I couldn't think of anything when he went on his knees and asked me to marry him some many months later.
He was my first.
I loved him insanely.
But now… Only God knows what we have.
"Why aren't you screaming yet, huh?" he rasps, cupping my sex. I hold my breath tightly, the nicotine breath from his lips so revolting. "I want you to scream my name, Mia! Fuck, I don't wanna imagine someone else touching what's mine!" He clasps my panties and eases his finger into my pussy.
"Patrick!" I toss my head onto his shoulder.
"Yes. Like that. I love you screaming like that. And you're so wet for me, baby. So wet." He strokes me mercilessly.
Maybe I am. But it must've been a dream I had.
"No!" I whimper as his fingers thrust inside me. I want him to stop. "Patrick, no!" I yank out of his grip and turn around swiftly, no fun in my eyes.
"What did you say?" he asks.
"I said NO! I don't want this anymore!" I reply and his eyes glow.
He's startled. I've never said no to his sexual advancement toward me. I always fall easily into his ploy no matter how much we fight and argue over several unresolved issues.
"What the fuck, Mia!" he growls, shooting me the how-dare-you glare. I fix my bra, panting. He strides over and grabs my throat. He's menacing, his eyes dark and bemused, but he never hurts me physically. "You don't want me to fuck you, do you?" he demands, purely angered.
No, I don't. I don't even want him to kiss me. I simply want him away from my body.
I catch my breath. "Let's not pretend like everything is fine with us, Patrick. Putting on the public appearance that we're a great couple is enough! I don't have to put up with it, even in private!" I snap and pull out of his grip.
"Mia…" He stammers, fear replacing his recent anger.
Whenever I bring up the subject that lingers about my possibility of leaving him he cowers. I'm his little trophy, his most precious possession as he shamelessly declares, and he won't let me go easily.
But I want my divorce.
"I'm going to the country house for a few days." I pick my discarded shoes and dress from last night as I say this. He's still up to his feet, watching me. "I need a break, Patrick. Far from the media, I want to be alone." I gaze up at him.
"We're gonna settle this when I come back! I'll write you a cheque so you can solve your mess with the investors. Your bodyguard will be with you in the country house." He gets his phone from the bed.
"Don't bother. I'll solve my own mess," I retort.
He snorts.
"You're fucked!" He scurries toward the dressing room. And into the phone he snaps, "We're leaving. Tell Red to call me later. I've got no time to wait." He's out of my sight.
Red.
At the mention of the name my breath slides away. My life's a mess and I can't recognize who I am anymore. Everything is chaotic. A good shower and heavy breakfast is all I need.
Patrick is already gone when I return from the bathroom. No surprise here; coming and going like the wind is his style lately. I change and head straight downstairs, hoping that Butler Lucas has had the cook prepare something decent to cure this damn hangover.
Reaching the kitchen door, I suddenly hold my steps at the sight of my bodyguard standing near the fridge, uncapping the bottle of drinking water after a seemingly intense workout he's just finished.
The sweat smears his skin, his curly hair drenched, the muscles of his strong biceps rippling tensely, and that sexy Adam's apple tips as the water slides in his throat. My breath quickens.
Flustered inside, I clear my throat to announce my presence. He cocks his head stoutly in response, and oxygen finds its way in my lungs as our eyes meet. He caps the water bottle and sucks in a breath."Good morning," I greet him, taking my stride toward the marble breakfast table.Don't look, Mia. Don't look! I try my best to avoid his distracting frame, a pair of gray shorts and black loose vest covering his reserves. How hot!And his legs. Damn he's got amazing legs: hairy, strong, and firm."Morning, Madam," he answers gently, his voice carefully guarded. "How are you feeling this morning?"It's the question I should've heard from my husband when I woke up. But no, I get to hear it from my employee, who seems utterly concerned about my well-being."I'm good," I reply, giving him a small smile.And then it hits the back of my mind that I might've done something unusual under the influence of alcohol. What exactly did I do when we got home? Clearly I wasn't at my best behavior, was
I don't remember how long it has passed since I shut my eyes. The silence, the scent of wilderness, and the sharp breeze through the driver's door are what wake me from my unpleasant nap."Red," I breathe with difficulty, my eyelids heavy and stressed.But I can't see him even when I try my best to clear my sight. I'm all alone in the car, and we're no longer moving. Fear strikes through me like sharp blade in the flesh. Where is he? Why did he stop the car?I immediately unbuckle my seatbelt, my gaze wandering to the front, to the right, to the left, and when I'm free from the seatbelt my eyes are onto the back windshield."Red?" I call frantically while clutching the door handle to make a speedy exit. "Red?" I call again, seeing no sign of his presence at all.Please, God, not again! It's only yesterday he fought a gang to save me."Red?" I yell again, panting so heavily while looking around.The highway breeze blows my little shirtdress and a few loose strands of my hair, and green
I bang the glass on the table. "Another one!" I wipe my mouth after a long chug of chilled beer that ran smoothly down my throat."Wow! She's the girl!" One of the tough-looking men on the other side cheers, highly amused.I grin, feeling so refreshed."Refill the lady's glass," Mr I-give-orders-around-here says, laughing loudly at my expense.His name is Marlow, actually, and he's the owner of this place.Red's face twists into a displeased look. "You've had enough, Madam," he mutters, scowling at me."Shhh!" I hiss at him, leaning closer to his face. "Don't call me madam! You are my husband, remember?" I murmur, and my mood is at its sublime after the big glass of beer.We're seated across from one another, the worn-out, wooden table too small to serve us a decent space.Red sighs heavily, reclining back in his seat. Staring at me with his blazing eyes, he suddenly huffs a very tiny laugh, turning my eyes wide in utter stun.No, I didn't imagine it, did I? My eyebrows arch as I try
He called my name.He just called my name, didn't he? It's quite inexplicable how this makes me feel. I'm floating in clouds as my entire body lightens in his tantalizing hold."Say it again," I breathe huskily, my eyes and Red's locked tightly. "Mia . . ." Red repeats like a docile servant, tugging at the stubborn strands of my hair that frames my face.Lord, I melt when his strong fingers graze on my skin, the flames of his blazing ember eyes burning my every resolution to stay indifferent at his presence.Nothing seems to exist as his lips near mine, gently, a scowl on his face as though he's in the stiff battle between his uttermost desire and decorum.Kiss me, please.Oh fuck, what am I thinking of? I'm a married woman! I may have a crooked husband but I'm still branded as his and this shouldn't happen! But why do I crave for Red?I'm impatiently waiting for his lips to possess mine, to kiss me deeply with any vehemence portrayed in his eyes full of exciting, venereal desire.But
Gently, Red lays next to me in a zero distance. Jesus! My brain frosts when his big, strong arms scoot me to his side, sending a quick chill down my spine as he envelopes my slender body.My back is pressed onto his chest, my butt tightly against his . . . Holy fuck, Mia! How outrageous! I mentally chastise myself while catching a soft breath, my body still in his comforting brace.I did not see this coming. I'm unable to move or say a word; I'm suddenly taciturn, my petulant brooding replaced by this bliss in a blink. He's so warm. I could stay in his arms forever.It simply feels safe."Everything will be fine," Red whispers, his voice deeper and assuring, derailing my so-not healthy trance.I sniff, oblivious that I was in tears just a moment ago. Way to go, Mia! I take another deep breath to pull myself together, making sure I don't melt easily."Go to sleep now," says Red while fixing the covers on us both.Sleep? How do I sleep when my sexy bodyguard is holding me the way every w
I plop back in bed with my hand on the forehead. I take a deep breath and calm myself down. Red is no longer here which gives me time to think. Yes, in this very same bed I did it last night."Oh God," I whisper, reliving every detail of the crime scene. And like a fool I start, smiling, blushing even, everything Crystal clear in my head.It was beautiful.But you're a married woman, Mia! And he's your employee! Some voice snaps at me. I shriek inwardly. I've never cheated on Patrick and we've been married for eight years. I'm freaked out, but do I regret it?No, I don't.Now where is Red? I collect the big duvet to my chest and slowly clamber out of bed. Oh yes, I can feel the aftermath of a good fuck as I walk. My dress is on the couch, neatly placed.Smiling, I pace toward the window to regard the beautiful sunshine. The day has begun, and town folks are up and about. I lean onto the window frame, watching my car parked in the same place we did yesterday.And suddenly Red appears
A good shower restores my energy to at least half of its usual glory. I take the stairs down to the tavern and Marlow streams into my first view. The place is already packed and he's busy giving orders."Lady!" he greets me cheerily as I near him. I smile indulgently. "You slept well, didn't ya?" He grins down at me.I flush. I slept like a baby."Hmm." I nod my affirmation while glancing around. Some noises fill the air, and so does the smell of breakfast. "Are you good?" I ask him."As you can see." Marlow bows respectfully. "Your husband instructed us that we should treat you with the best breakfast we could possibly make.""Um, he said that?" I blurt out, a pang of disappointment hitting me as I desire having my breakfast with him instead. Marlow creases a single eyebrow, amused. "I mean, sure. I'll have everything good you make here." I force my enthusiasm."As you wish, Lady!" he replies and off he goes.I take my seat on the empty table and try calling Red on the phone. But I s
He doesn't regret it. I replay his words, gulping.I want to say something, but I'm too afraid to say anything. I shouldn't rejoice from any of this. This is pure fact yet my heart blossoms at this warm reveal from him. I'm inclined to be happy despite the situation."But you're right." Red frees my hand, sighing in defeat as my eyes drop about my same bereft hand. "It shouldn't have happened," he says and I look up at him stoutly.His eyes are filled with bemusement. He's clearly torn, but he's also very sure of his standing on the matter as he quickly masks the indecisiveness with a bold, unwavering look.Despite the heartache, I pull myself together and respond. "You're right. It shouldn't have happened." My voice is very low and I think I'm to blame for everything; I provoked him too much. "I'm sorry, Red. If I didn't—""Don't be sorry. Please don't ever say that!" Red admonishes and he sounds serious. He moves closer, holds my face and adds, "Because I . . . am not sorry, Mia." H
Chilly wind flips the soft, white binders of the great window in my bedroom. I shudder, my own arms proving a great failure in keeping me warm. Tentatively, throwing the sketching book lying in my tummy aside, I rise on my elbows and sit up. My body feels torpid.How long have I been sleeping? It's still afternoon . . . Or evening? I can't clearly tell as it's a bit cloudy outside. It's raining once again—just lightly this time. My mouth stretches into a long yawn as I drop my bare feet down the fluffy rug, ready to face the music.My gaze settles on the T-shirt I'm wearing, barely covering my thighs, and somehow the guilt lashes on me. Why did I raise my voice at Red? He didn't do anything wrong, did he? God, what have I done? I sigh remorsefully at the realization of my mistake.I take my sketching book from the bed and peek a quick glance at the few designs I made before I fell asleep. Holy cow! Did I just do this? A smile touches the corner of my lips as I behold the drawings of se
I'm catching a heavy breath after collapsing in Red's arms. He chuckles mildly at the way I'm hugging him as though I've run a marathon and in need of balance to not fall. He kisses my lips harder to seal this awesome moment we've just shared."I can't get enough of you," I breathe shamelessly, feeling his erection buried deep inside me as I'm seated on his lap, my skin moist from sweat.I fucked him on the chair. Good Lord! What have I become?"Me neither," Red replies and trails his kisses down my neck up to my shoulder. Gently he is caressing my back underneath his T-shirt that I'm still wearing. "But I still have to finish what I was doing before you seduced me into this.""What? I didn't seduce you!" I deny stoutly, my voice hilarious as I definitely seduce him every chance I get."Pretty. Little. Liar." Red flexes up his hips at every word so I feel him deeper."Argh!" I giggle at his playfulness. Jeez, am I starting to see the naughty shade of Red? I blush, pulling back so I se
Why should I leave my own house? Care to explain?" Fear hides behind the bold voice I make as I talk to Patrick on the phone."Because you're one hell of a hard-headed woman I've ever met! Fuck you, Mia! What were you thinking going to that fucking cabin in the woods with your bodyguard? Just the two of you, Mia! Are you fucking kidding me?" Patrick goes ballistic, anger reverberating through the speakers of my phone.I swallow hard. How the fuck does he find out about everything I do? Well, maybe not everything, but most of them. Who did he talk to this time? Red? No, I doubt. Maybe he spoke to Bill."And so what?" I retort. "What difference does it make whether I'm with my bodyguard or any other person in this place?" I open the balcony doors with too much pressure than actually needed."Oh, it surely does, Mia! I cannot let my wife stay under the same roof with some fucker, you hear?" Patrick lashes. "You sent Bill away just to be with him, didn't you?"What the fuck! I feel angere
Sleep with me. The words play a salacious tune in my already dancing heart. A soft nod of acquiesce shifts my head from his solid chest as I gaze up at him through the darkness, his blazing eyes gleaming down at me.I do want to sleep with him. Wishes do come true, apparently.Without speaking further, Red closes the door to my bedroom and leads me toward his bedroom, still holding me on the small of my back. Oh, we're sleeping in his bed? I flush. It's even more exciting this way.Intense astral lights bathes the room."I got you, Mia," Red whispers when I jump subtly upon another thunder strike. Damn it!"I don't know why you're saying that, but I'm not scared." My hand is holding his arm tightly as I'm bragging my lies.Stifling a laugh, Red remarks, "Yes, Madam. You're totally fine on your own. You are not scared at all.""Really? You've learned sarcasm now?" I recoil, feeling safe despite the odds outside the house . Why didn't the realtor warn me about this place? Yeah, it norm
Warm water cascades down my skin as the shower does its magic. I rub my hair gently, my head tilted heavenward, letting myself get lost into my world of bliss and sexy fantasy.My God, I fucked him again!First time was a mistake. But what about this time? I ponder. And yet my profligate, shameless face twists into a million roses, smiling at the marvel of Red's kisses and all the things he did to me earlier.You're in deep trouble, Mia.Fresh from the shower, I slip into the closet. I need something simple and homey to suffice my evening that's just begun. Holy shit, I've got to cook dinner. The thought makes me wary and excited at the same time."What should I cook, huh?" I mumble while skimming through the hung up clothes in the open wardrobe. "And what should I wear?" I sigh, glad that my troubles right now are all sleazy and mundane.I've casted aside all the bigger ones. I want to feel normal.A red sundress draws my attention right away. Is it the color? I flush. Decidedly, I p
feel like a child in a pair of brand new shoes as we make our way inside the supermarket. I haven't stopped grinning like a fool ever since Red slid the sneakers on my feet. Really, I'm having a break from my normality.I do love shoes. Well, maybe it's because of my job and all, plus having a husband with kinky for long legs in high heels. I wear them more often than any other type of shoes. But Red is right; I should free my legs at times.Naturally, while thinking of this, my eyes find my bodyguard's, and his stunned eyebrow makes me chuckle. He's become less uptight after our little tête-a-tête outside the car earlier. No more awkwardness and I believe it's much better this way."Do you need help?" Red asks when we finally walk in, his face casual and relaxed."Yes. Hold the cart for me please," I say and he nods.This is probably the largest supermarket in the town. I find everything I need for the kitchen and bathrooms, for it's what needs the most attention. I fill the cart wit
He doesn't regret it. I replay his words, gulping.I want to say something, but I'm too afraid to say anything. I shouldn't rejoice from any of this. This is pure fact yet my heart blossoms at this warm reveal from him. I'm inclined to be happy despite the situation."But you're right." Red frees my hand, sighing in defeat as my eyes drop about my same bereft hand. "It shouldn't have happened," he says and I look up at him stoutly.His eyes are filled with bemusement. He's clearly torn, but he's also very sure of his standing on the matter as he quickly masks the indecisiveness with a bold, unwavering look.Despite the heartache, I pull myself together and respond. "You're right. It shouldn't have happened." My voice is very low and I think I'm to blame for everything; I provoked him too much. "I'm sorry, Red. If I didn't—""Don't be sorry. Please don't ever say that!" Red admonishes and he sounds serious. He moves closer, holds my face and adds, "Because I . . . am not sorry, Mia." H
A good shower restores my energy to at least half of its usual glory. I take the stairs down to the tavern and Marlow streams into my first view. The place is already packed and he's busy giving orders."Lady!" he greets me cheerily as I near him. I smile indulgently. "You slept well, didn't ya?" He grins down at me.I flush. I slept like a baby."Hmm." I nod my affirmation while glancing around. Some noises fill the air, and so does the smell of breakfast. "Are you good?" I ask him."As you can see." Marlow bows respectfully. "Your husband instructed us that we should treat you with the best breakfast we could possibly make.""Um, he said that?" I blurt out, a pang of disappointment hitting me as I desire having my breakfast with him instead. Marlow creases a single eyebrow, amused. "I mean, sure. I'll have everything good you make here." I force my enthusiasm."As you wish, Lady!" he replies and off he goes.I take my seat on the empty table and try calling Red on the phone. But I s
I plop back in bed with my hand on the forehead. I take a deep breath and calm myself down. Red is no longer here which gives me time to think. Yes, in this very same bed I did it last night."Oh God," I whisper, reliving every detail of the crime scene. And like a fool I start, smiling, blushing even, everything Crystal clear in my head.It was beautiful.But you're a married woman, Mia! And he's your employee! Some voice snaps at me. I shriek inwardly. I've never cheated on Patrick and we've been married for eight years. I'm freaked out, but do I regret it?No, I don't.Now where is Red? I collect the big duvet to my chest and slowly clamber out of bed. Oh yes, I can feel the aftermath of a good fuck as I walk. My dress is on the couch, neatly placed.Smiling, I pace toward the window to regard the beautiful sunshine. The day has begun, and town folks are up and about. I lean onto the window frame, watching my car parked in the same place we did yesterday.And suddenly Red appears