Flashing multicolored lights flash through my eyes as I wake up with my head resting on Daniel's broad shoulder, his arm around my waist, it's so unexpected that I jump up, nearly bumping my head into his chin. He moves super-fast, with the reflexes his wolf provides, and I narrowly miss my head. I slide away from Daniel's arm as he clears his throat, sitting up straight in his seat and running a hand through his thick hair. Rather than talk about the uncomfortable moment, I turn and look out the window, which has ice trapped around the edges, to see that we're driving up the hillside overlooking the glittering sea between Wales and Ireland. I came to this place only once when I was fifteen on a school trip to see where the mating ceremony takes place and what we should expect from the future.If anywhere in this world made me believe in magic, this was it. A place that has been in my dreams for many years. For most wolves, this is where they will meet their wolves and begin their new
I trip over a small boulder, falling onto the path and hissing as I cut my hand. I look up as Lacey looks back, and then she laughs, knocking me to my knees as she continues past the line. Tears fill my eyes, but I refuse to let them fall, I stand up, seeing that the dress is now dirty with sand and mud, I lift my hand to see blood dripping from a large cut, running from the palm to the wrist. Sighing, I close my hand and let the blood drip onto the wet sand, as I know I need to continue down this path.It feels like forever when I reach the beach and look up to see Lacey waiting behind three other classmates, just as one of them enters the water. Four before my fate was decided. I'm tempted to take my shoes off and enjoy the feel of the cool sand under my bare feet, but I stick with my boots. I don't want to lose them. I walk along the beach, feeling so many eyes watching and judging me. I refuse to look at the men from the other side, knowing the new alpha will be there, and seeing
“That you're monsters,” I say, remembering well how he said he might feel if he lied.Her lips curve into a dazzling smile.“Lies are so easy to tell for those who live in fear, and your alpha lied, Mairin. We were never the monsters, but our lives are very different from where you came from. Here we don't have destined partners, we just mate with who we fall in love with. Wolves are free to date, explore, do whatever they want, and we accept new wolves into the pack only if they are rejected or lost. We respect loyalty, and we welcome those who are nothing to others.— Are there other rejected partners? I ask.His smile disappears.“I meet more than one wolf a week on this beach. All rejected and thrown overboard because their partner couldn't convince the wolf to kill them.“I had no idea,” I whisper.“To answer your question,” Henderson says, moving me a little in his arms, “I don't live here, but I'm called to the lighthouse to check on everyone who arrives. If you had lied to me
RAGNAR“She doesn't remember us.Henderson's statement hangs in the air, giving voice to our thoughts with great speed. Very sore. But it's been aching from the second Henderson found her, from the second she looked at us like we were strangers and didn't grow up together. Mairin is so different from the last time I saw her, when she was almost twelve and my biggest crush since I realized girls were interesting. It was the same for all of us... until she disappeared.And then we all realized that we had everything with her, and without her, we were nothing.And she doesn't remember.In my mind, I see her on the sofa by the lighthouse, wearing a silk dress that isn't torn, stained with her blood and soaked from the sea. Blood and salt water couldn't hide her scent from me, nor how broken she was could hide how beautiful she was. Her long blonde hair, her bright green eyes that reminded me of the dark green trees in our old house, and her long legs caught my attention right away.She is
The sweet, wolf woman doesn't quite match the unfriendly way she just called me a dog, and I'm a little taken aback. She has curly red hair that is in two braids that fall down to her belly with small wolf barrettes tying them together. She's wearing a short black top, black leather pants that are very tight, and she really has a sweet face. On his back are two daggers, but I can only see the sharp points on either side of his head. The woman arches an eyebrow at me, her green eyes showing me that she's not the least bit sweet. This is exactly why I was taught not to judge a book by its cover.“Mai, this is Seraphim Fall, our lead beta wolf, and I'd say she's not that rude, but she is,” Ragnar introduces us.“What kind of name is Mai?” she asks, tilting her head to the side and placing her hands on her hips. "Actually, who is she and why is she here?""Since when do I have to tell you anything?"“Since the fact none of you could live without me, that's why,” she counters with a smile
Most disturbing of all, some of them still have blood on them, and have clearly never been cleaned, and the smell coming off them is metallic enough that my senses squirm with disgust. God knows what he's doing with his wolf senses. Silas goes straight to the other side where the dirtiest weapons are and pushes them aside. The loud clatter of them on the floor makes me jump until he grabs two long, thin swords from the back. He takes them by the wrists and comes back to me, gently tapping one against my chest, not caring if I drop it when I fumble to pick it up. The sword, although smaller than his, is much heavier than it looks. But it's clean of blood. A little bonus. Silas storms out, not waiting for me or looking back once.I grab the sword and carry it back to the main training room where he returned. Silas returns to the middle of the room, where he pauses and waits for me, curving his hand to beckon me to his side. The whole move is overly sarcastic, and I wonder if he's going
Phim walks into the kitchen and smiles as he places his hands on the curve ofyour hips. She's wearing a shiny black dress that couldn't be covered in glitter anymore if she wanted to.Her long red hair is wavy, falling to the middle of her back, possibly longer even than my hair, and she has weird markings around her eyes that make her look really pretty and bring out her eyes. Phim looks at me, taking in my casual jeans and black T-shirt, and rolls his eyes with a small sigh.“No, you can't go to the party wearing that. No one is going to pay attention to you, and everyone needs to pay attention to you, especially when you're living here. We need to make a stand tonight,” she says, crossing her arms. “You desperately need a friend, and I'm not the type to have friends, but I'm here.“I didn't ask for a friend, and you don't have to feel sorry for me,” I reply, looking at her a little confused.“Your problem, you're stuck with me now,” she replies, waving her hand. “You don't seem to
“Oh, the top of the mountain is where most of the adult parties are held. It's not far.As I ponder whether it's going to be cold at the top of the mountain, she practically drags me off the steps, down a path towards a staircase where several people are already climbing. Two men with dark brown hair walk behind a group of three women, all close to my age, and all equally beautiful. They look at us for a brief second before turning their heads and whispering to each other. When I look at her, Phim just rolls his eyes."Expect it for the rest of the night." This pack is so gossipy, I swear,” she laughs. “It's like a giant family when someone's new here, everyone has to know about them, even more so if they start living with the alphas like you did.I blush at the attention because I've never been the center of attention in a good way, and I have no idea how to accept or deal with it. Phim just smiles kindly at me as we climb the stairs to the top and step out into the cool night at th
esmerayKai stands up, unbuttoning his pants andpulling them down right in front of my face. I think he's comfortable enough around Stone thathe is able to do this.Your long dick jumps right into mineface, dripping pre-cum. I lick my lipswanting to taste it, but before I can, he orders me to get on top. He sits down on the bed, backing up against the headboard and waiting for me to sit on him. I look at Stone who moves so he's on themy vision.I straddle Kai's thighs. I pull mylip between her teeth, watching him for any signs that he might want to stop. He leans forward, kissing me and I can taste myself on his lips. Waves of heat wash over me.- He is sure? "I pull it back." —Are you two sure about this?"A little too late for that,"Stone says in a husky voice.Kai laughs, shaking his head, “I want to.be inside you, Esmeray.My legs shake with anticipationas I guide your swollen cock into my soaking pussy. Then I slowly push myself over him as he stretches me out. Once our
ZenoI got triggered blocked which is finebecause I didn't want to fuck her in the woods. Fortunately, my erection subsided when we returned home. I open the door for her, letting her in first. My eyes drop to the round curve of her ass. Fuck, I feel like a horny teenager again. ifI look for too long, I know I'm going to get a hard-on.My wolf moans to her, wanting to matewith her now. Shortly. Calm down, horn dog, I say tohe.Stone stays. “You took a long time. His eyes drop to her neck, the one I was biting. Did I leave a mark? “Oh. I see. “I can't believe he's actually okay with this. I can't believe I'm okay with this. Sharing her kind of turns me on more than I thought. I loved watching her interact with others, and even listening to Stone fuck her.sometimes it made me hard.Esmeray pushes away his hand that touches herneck and buttons his shirt. “Come on, Sugar Daddy. II need a phone!— Well-heeled crown? — Stone drops one.laughter. “We're all paying over the phone.She
I roll my eyes in my thoughts,leaving the house with Zeno. - I hate it when he spendsso much with me.- No you do not. women love to betaken care of.I mock Zeno. - I am a womanindependent black. I don't need Stone's money.He agrees. "You're right, but youYou're going to need to get a job if you're going to keep breaking phones.I push him. He smiles, tucking his handsin the pockets. We walk towards the woods next to the gym which has a stone path, and I run at night. — Phones look better when they're on the ground after being squashed by a mini hulk, onlysaying.He smiled. "I heard that youscolded.I look down at my sneakers. — I can'tremember right.He looks at me out of the corner of his eye. —Why?— I tend to faint when I get mad. I see black and I just do shit I can't remember ..." My mind thinks of grayscale darkness and the creatureI saw.He inhales. "So you don't rememberanything?I shake my head. "Kira said thatI didn't hurt him.He laughs. "Is that your concern
She smiles, pouring the tea. - Youis it normally an angry person or do you bottle it up? I roll my eyes. "I don't get bogged down,and I don't like to be angry. Doesn't get people tonowhere but in trouble."Did your father teach you that?"I shake my head. - No. II learned by myself.—“Anger is a perfectly fine emotion.normal to feel, but you have to feel it. Otraffic jam won't help your wolf get out,” Claire says. “I don't bottle,” I laugh.She leans against the counter, braids falling over her.the crystals. “You hurt someone today.I blink. "That's why I don't getanger. I don't like to hurt people.She touches my hand and I almost pull away. “You hurt yourself more today by denying yourself thehappiness.- What? “Stone deserves to be happy and I am.ruining it. Honestly, I wish they neverfind me.- Why? So that stocking wolfnight could kill her or something? You deserve so muchmore than that,” adds Kira.My eyes burn with tears, and I look atone of the huge crystals on t
Kira's eyes widen at mine.thoughts. "Damn, I'm so sorry you sawthat. Are you well?I shrug. "No one knows, II think. Stone is really cool, making me think he knows,but I do not know.She lays her head on my shoulder,comforting. — How much does it hurt?"He said... that I would be nothing more."for him. My eyes burn with tears, making me look down at the table to avoid anyone's gaze. - Hmm,so it doesn't hurt at all and I'm fine.Kira pats my hand. — the strongAlpha Esmeray.I sigh. “I'm not alpha. My menare separated more than ever and I have no ideahow to unite them. I think they would have been better off without me.Kira snorts. "Please, these boys."they fight all the time. Reed really knows how to piss people off.people and make them upset.I gave a low laugh. - Yes. He isgood at it. I just think... it all happened so fast, so fast that I didn't have time to figure out how to be one.alpha.She shrugs. - It is difficult. NobodyI said it would be easy, but for you it w
My chest hurts just typing this and sending it wasworse. It reads instantly, and the typing bubbles appear, but I put my phone on 'do not disturb'before putting it aside.I touch my sore chest before bedon the couch. Pressure is slowly building behind my head and eyes, warning me of a headache. Stone plops down on the couch behind me, wrapping his arms around me.back from me.- Are you well? The tea is next to yourstelephone.I twist, pressing my face to hischest to thank him. Krew is not my boyfriend and he is not my mate. So why does it hurt that he was going to fuck another girl? He should be free to find his mate. Yet here I am about to cry against my boyfriend because I'm hurt by Krewhave done it. Technically this is his fault I caughtfeelings. Don't flirt, be funny and hot.CHAPTER 21esmerayAs shitty as it sounds, I ignore theband for the next few days. I really couldn't help it. When Stone finally let each of them go home, seeing Krew made my chest hurt more. So I we
“No…” I pick up my phone, seeing amillion messages. Between Kira and Kia, there were a lot of them.There are some messages from Krew, but not many.Team: Esme.Krew: I'm sorry. I didn't mean anything thatI said.My body tingles with nerves. He wantedsay that?Team: Send me a message when you joinrise. I'm very sorry.— Send him a message, —advises Stone."Do you even know why I'm angry?"with him? He shrugs when I question him. "Do you care why?"He shrugs. "He seems sorry."especially this morning.I didn't need to hear this to senda message back.Me: Hi. Did you get into a fight? You aregood?It reads instantly.Krew: I'm fine. You are? I'm sorry and I wantedtalk to you this morning, but I started screaming and Stoneexpelled ."Did you kick people out?" - II ask out loud.— Rat! - Stone teases. - Tellhe that he is a mouse. Besides, you were sleeping andI didn't need them to wake you up.I didn't even hear them screaming. Smilinglightly, I text back to Krew.Me
krewThis hurt more than I thought it would. I watch her until she completely disappears into the campus darkness and the tightness in my chest grows. How could I do something like that here? I know we're not mates and we're barely dating, but seeing her hurt,it hurt more.A hand taps my back. - Goodwork. Hurt the bitch.- Sorry? I pull from Reed's grip. "What the hell did you call her?! ’ Anger rises in my chest. How can I let him get inside my head like that? How could I let him talk me into hurting her? My eyes look around us. People are inwatching. Cum.He laughs. "Do you really care later?"to have another girl's mouth on you? Esmeray is a bitchfuck, and that's all she's gonna be.I'm blinded by pure, red rage. Myfist flies slamming into his jaw, knocking him off his feet.butt. He gets up quickly, attacking me hard. Screams fill the air as our fists fly towards each other. Why would I listen to someone who calls herprostitute?Someone pulls Reed from my body, leaving him
I beg you if need be.He shakes his head, pulling back. —Time to go, Alpha. You're going to have fun tonight.I reach out, touching his chest. Your handmoves mine, down the steps.Fuck, that hurt.Krew's eyes light up as hewe see. - Let's go!I push him onto the couch. - Scream againand I will make Zeno punch you."Can you at least put oneshirt? Reed groans as he stands beside Kai.Stone shakes his head. - No. She seemsincredible."Thanks Stone!" - I tilt myhead, smiling at Reed to goad him along, but we ended up just looking at each other. sometimes i wonderwhat it would be like to have rough sex with him.The front door opens. “Bitches! Let's go! Kira screams.Krew jumps, running through the door. —Arriving!I can't help but smile. Idiot. Whatmade you so anxious? I grab Stone, pulling him out. The night air is already full of music. Holding Stone's hand makes me feel guilty about almost kissing Kai. Everything is so confusing. It doesn't feel wrong to have them near me, an