Chapter 4

*Monica's pov*

When I arrived at Baxter's chambers, the guard there informed me that he's at his study, still bubbling with excitement, I ran to his study.

I was about going in when I overheard his conversation with his beta Harry. I was quick to hide, so as not to be noticed.

"I don't care about her Harry. The reason I bought her was for her to give me a heir, it's been two damn years and still nothing from her!" Baxter spat, his voice held so much hate and bitterness.

"She's better off dead than staying alive and not being useful to me. Who knows if she's just a barren wolf, I made the mistake of choosing her."

"So what are you going to do? The other ladies aren't able to produce an heir either." Harry said.

"Then I'll keep searching for someone to carry my child. As for Monica, she'll keep facing hell on earth until she's pushed to take her own life, she's just a waste of time and is better off dead!"

My heart shattered hearing those words. I knew he didn't love me, but I didn't know he hates me to the point where he would even wish me death.

I'm nothing but a tool to him, all he needs is an heir and nothing more, when he gets what he wants, there's no guarantee that he will keep me alive.

The reality hurts so much, I placed a hand on my chest as I felt a painful sensation in my heart. Hurt tears rolled down my cheeks, I couldn't continue hearing more of his hateful words. I quietly went back to my room, feeling so dejected.

When I got to my room, Ruth hurriedly came to meet me, her eyes held so much joy and excitement in them, but the joy vanished when she note the expression on my face and tears in my eyes.

"Monica. What happened? How did it go? He wasn't happy about it?" She asked in one breath.

"I couldn't tell him." I cried. "I just couldn't, not after hearing what he said." I hugged Ruth tightly.

"Shh...It's okay, it's going to be okay." She comforted.

"I just can't live like this Ruth. I'm tired of this life, I don't want to stay here anymore, I just can't bear this anymore. My heart is in so much pain, I'm afraid I'll die if I continue living here, I can't stay here." I cried.

"Please tell me what happened.'' 

It hurts so bad to recall everything Baxter said, but I managed to explain everything to her.

"Oh no." She gasp in shock when I was done. "He said that!!?"

"My child and I deserve better, I want my baby to live a happy and peaceful life. I want to be there to see my baby grow and take part in every stage of his life." 

"Baxter feels nothing for me, he sees me as nothing but a breeder and since he believes I can't give him a child, he plans on doing worse things than he's been doing."

"I can't stay here any longer Ruth, I fear for both myself and child. If I tell him, I'm sure he'll send me away or worse still kill me when I have the baby. I just can't continue staying here and hoping that he was going to change when nothing like that will happen."

"Oh Monica, where will you go?" Ruth asked, her eyes glistening with unshed tears.

"I don't know Ruth, but somewhere far away, somewhere Baxter will never find me nor my baby. It's a good thing he doesn't know I'm carrying his child, I doubt my presence will be noticed." I said with a heavy heart.

"Will you help me Ruth?" 

Ruth looked at me for sometime before nodding. "You know I'll do anything for you Monica. I'll just..." She trailed.

"Miss you so much."

A sad smile spread across my lips. "I'm going to miss you too Ruth." I replied before hugging her.

"You're the only one who's ever shown me kindness ever since my father passed away. I thought I had no one but you showed me otherwise, you've been there for me during the difficult times and you're the reason I'm still alive."

"Thank you so much Ruth, I promise to never forget you and when this baby gets older, I'll be sure to tell him about this amazing aunt he has." I said, causing the both of us to laugh.

We both held each other for so long until Ruth pulled away.

"I'll go pack you some food and everything you'll need."

"We'll leave by midnight, I know a place where we can follow without being noticed by anyone."

"Thank you. I'll also get ready." I said and she nodded before leaving.

I went to sit on the bed. Baxter's words kept on ringing in my ears and each time tears dropped from my eyes, I kept on wiping it off. I made a promise to myself that I won't cry anymore, there's been enough tears already.

I'm going to become a mother soon and it's very important I stay strong for my baby.

It might not happen and there might be no possibility of it happening, but I do hope that a day will come when Baxter will regret every of his actions.

I placed a hand on my tummy as I made a promise to my child to shower him with so much love and care. The love I wasn't given, my child will get to experience ten folds of it.

Midnight came very fast and we quietly set off, if I had been doing this alone, there's no doubt that I'll be caught, but with Ruth's help, leaving the palace wasn't too difficult.

We went through a tunnel which no one visits, the tunnel leads to road I can easily escape from.

When we finally arrived, that was when I faced the hardest part of this journey. 

Saying Goodbye to Ruth.

There was so much crying and hugging and as much as I would have loved for her to come with me, I knew it wasn't possible.

"Do take care of yourself and the baby okay." Ruth said and I nodded.

"Take care of yourself too Ruth and thank you for everything."

"You don't have to thank me for anything. I'll do this a million times over, you should get going before anyone notice."

I hugged her one last time before turning to leave, after walking a little while, I turned around to look at her one last time and it took every of my will power not to run back to her again.

She waved me goodbye, but I couldn't wave back as it was too difficult for me.

I sharply turned around and continued walking. This time, I didn't look back and for the first time in forever, I saw hope for I and my baby.

Hope for a better future.