Chapter Four

Vanessa. 

I woke up to the sound of chirping birds, a warm breeze, and a bright sun. I found myself sitting in a Pavillion, staring out onto a large grassy field, covered by a carpet. Butterflies and bees danced about, squirrels chattering amd birds flew from tree to tree. 

Where am i? I questioned myself in my mind, the last time i checked i was bleeding to death. Oh no!

I was bleeding to death. Not possible, am i dead?! 

I can't be dead, i thought to myself before a voice startled me. 

“I thought you were stronger than that Nessa, so where is the fighter?” the question startled me as i tried to open my heavy eyelids and look around. That voice was too familiar or maybe i was really dead if i am hallucinating now. Then i saw her, my mother. She was sitted a few feet away from my bed sipping on her tea.. 

“Whaaa…” is all i could master to say. My mother died when i was ten, so how is it possible that she is here with me in my hospital room drinking tea. 

“I didn't raise you to be no punk Nessa, where is the fighter i raised you to be? Why did you stop fighting baby?” she said calmly. 

“I.. I..how...are..you here...you are dead.” i managed to mumble. 

“Breathe baby, breathe.” she said smiling and i found myself pulling in a breath of fresh air then exhaling slowly as instructed. 

It was rather calming, and the scent was muvj more welcoming, compared to the stuffy smell of the cell where i was being kept. 

“Now tell me Vanessa, where is the fighter baby?”she asked again holding my eye contact. 

“She is taking a break.”after a long silence i finally managed to say. “Where am i anyway? Where is this place? Am i dead?” i asked her looking around. 

“No baby you are not dead. This is a place you made up in your mind, it's your safe space where you come to whenever you are too overwhelmed by the real world.” i immediately raised an eyebrow, clearly I was finally turning crazy. 

“I know what you are thinking, you are not crazy.” she said smiling as if she could read my thoughts. “This is just a safe haven, am guessing your recent run in with the alpha took a reallyi big toll on you physically and emotionally. It brought up your hidden dark memories that you bury and now they are ravaging your heart and mind.”she said looking at the horizon. My eyes followed hers, and i didn't notice until now, a dark cloud was brewing. Loud thunder could be heard and lighting struck out on the ground. 

“Tell me about Marcus baby.”she finally said while observing me. 

“There's nothing to tell.” i said defensively. 

“Am your mother Nessa, talk to me.”she said standing up and heading over to my bed. “ you need to let all that stuff that happened to you go baby, they are taunting you, haunting you. So tell me what happened on you baby?”

“I don't need to let go of anything mum. Am in the hospital with three broken ribs and a broken nose. You already know what happened.” i replied curtly. 

“I do, but you need to let it out baby. Talking will help.”

“I don't want to talk about it, i have absolutely nothing to talk about especially to you.”

“oh yeah, and why is that Nessa?”

“Because you died mom, you died and left me all alone with no one, you left me with him and he sold me off to oje of the worst alpha's on earth ” i finally manage to say tears streaming down at my face. “He beats the crap out of me, he hates me and i don't even know why. He almost killed me this time is that what you want me to tell you?”

“What else did he do to you Nessa, say it.”

“No!”i say holding my head, the memory of that dreadful day coming back to life. The brewing storm on the horizon growing stronger and darker.

I felt myself floating in between consciousness and unconsciousness. At time i would hear voices while other times, it was complete darkness and total silence,no signs of life. This one point i felt as if i was in a dream, no pain no worries. The next my body was screaming at me and aching in so much pain.