Ophelia
“Spill the tea, girl. I know Kim-Kim’s done a thing or two in her past.” Diana smacked her glossed lips as we sped down the blackened highway into Eclipse City.
Chloe, the bubbly blonde in the back seat, laughed loudly.
“We won’t tell a soul!”
The surly, narrow-eyed Gemma mimed zipping her lips and throwing away the key. I knew what I told them would make the rounds throughout the entirety of Lunar Isle.
I rummaged around, sorting through memories that bubbled in my gut like acid. Without warning, they began to spew from my mouth. Word after word, I told Diana and her friends all about the kind of person Kimberly was.
Each transgression lingered in the air, and for the life of me I couldn’t stop talking.
First grade she’d pelted me with rocks and clumps of mud on the walk to school. Third grade she’d chopped my hair off and laughed as I cried. Fifth she shredded every article of clothing I owned, leaving them in tatters. Seventh and she’d already rallied the entire school against me.
On and on it went, and each time Lucille found some way to punish me for her wrongdoings.
None of the girls seemed the least bit phased. It wasn’t until I started spouting blatant lies that they seemed to hear me at all.
I chewed on the inside of my cheek, “She didn’t stop wetting the bed until she was seventeen.”
A chorus of dramatic gasps melted into the wind slithering over the convertibles windshield. I knew I’d eventually get punished for saying such a thing, but there wasn’t enough energy in my body to care any longer.
What could they do that they haven’t done before?
I blinked and we were no longer cruising down the winding backroads but were now traversing the narrow streets of Eclipse City, stopping at traffic lights as dozens of young adults passed in drunken groups.
How many were mere Lycan’s? How many possessed the gift of both magic and a wolf?
The clusters of skyscrapers, each shoved close together, began to distance themselves from one another. Within those small gaps were boutiques, restaurants, and other locally owned businesses.
“That’s the club, La Stella. It’s Italian, obviously.” Diane said, pointing a slender finger at a two-story brick building on the outskirts of Eclipse City.
There was something odd about the structure. It was too angular, too large to have originally been a nightclub.
Chloe leaned in from the back seat, her golden curls smelling of saltwater and floral perfume. “It used to be the old high school. Alpha Ryker bought the place from his old man and turned it into a nightclub.”
“Not just a nightclub,” Gemma chimed in, “the nightclub.”
The three girls shared a laugh, their giggles quickly fading into the night. Diana flicked her ebony hair over her shoulder, “It’s super hard to get in. Wearing an outfit like that would get you banned, but you’re with us.”
“Diana’s dad owns every gun range and shop on the island. Alpha Ryker and his enforcer show up at least once a week.” Chloe all but sighed dreamily, the apples of her cheeks going pink.
I watched through a haze of melancholy, ignoring the sharp ache of the dark bond on my wrist, as Diane handed a valet driver a wad of cash and slid out of the driver seat.
“His enforcer?” I asked.
Chloe ran her tongue along her lower lip and nodded, “You know, the one who does the Alpha’s dirty work. Gets rid of his enemies and what not. Funny enough, he’s also the Alpha’s brother.”
“Half-brother.” Diana corrected.
Following closely behind the group, I trailed my eyes down the long line of patrons, separated by a velvet rope, that wrapped around the side of the building. Chloe’s words quickly faded from mind.
Girls in bodycon dresses and razor-sharp stiletto’s sneered as I passed, their judgmental gazes bouncing off my icy skin. Each one had a full face of near-flawless makeup.
“Are you even listening to me?” Gemma snorted, those thick brows of her gnashing together as she scowled.
Two bouncers, whose scent I couldn’t discern for some odd reason, let us pass through a set of glass double doors. If they thought my outfit was strange, they didn’t let on.
“What?” I asked with all the grace of a raging bull.
I was pretty sure she said something about a basement level, though I’d quickly tuned her out when she started talking.
We stood in an antechamber, blocked off from the club by a wall of concrete and glass. A film lined the windows, making it all but impossible to see through, layered in graffiti that glowed beneath the black lights. The ground trembled, vibrating from the deep bass I could hear pulsating through the thick walls.
Gemma flashed me a smile that was all teeth. “You know what, forget about it. I’ll let you figure things out on your own.”
My reply was smothered by a thick mist sprayed into my face by a darkly dressed bouncer. I sucked in a breath and gagged at the chemical taste. Tears sprung to my eyes and my lungs burned, crying out for fresh air.
“It’s scent-blocker.” She said in a tone that told me it should’ve been obvious.
Chloe hid her snicker behind her hand. “The last thing anyone wants is to find their mate while they’re mid hook-up. This place is dangerous enough without adding all that into the mix.”
Out of curiosity, I lowered my head and sniffed my shirt. Sure enough, the tart scent of cherries was gone, buried beneath a layer of that chemical stench.
With a grunt, the bouncer opened the door to the antechamber, unleashing the deafening music within the club.
Lights of all colors flashed from the ceiling, spilling down the muraled walls and illuminating the black-light paint within the heavy strokes.
It was easy to tell the building had once been a school. The walls where the lockers would’ve been now held long bars, framed with shelves of alcohol. The lights behind them danced, making the bottles glow an array of colors.
I took a step toward Gemma and the others when Diana turned around.
“Look, it was great chatting and all, but we can’t exactly be seen hanging with you. I mean,” She dragged her eyes down my hole riddled t-shirt, to my torn jeans and beat up sneakers. “It would be downright embarrassing. You understand, don’t you?”
Gemma, who had been sour from the moment I’d slid into the passenger seat, laughed loudly. The three melted into the crowd, heels clicking quietly beneath the hurricane of music.
I quickly pulled out my phone and ran my finger over the large crack in the screen. After checking my bank account and confirming I had enough to afford a cheap cab back to the house, I released a sigh and walked head-first into the chaos.
The main level of the school consisted of a large circular corridor that branched off to the left and right, narrowing into smaller halls.
Classrooms without doors lined the wall, broken up by the strange mural splashed along the brick. Couch’s full of people filled the little rooms. Some drank from bottles of expensive looking liquor, while others smoked or snorted foreign substances.
I held back a cough as a plume of the herbal-scented smoke spewed into the hall. Whatever it was left my head spinning. A surge in the crowd sent me stumbling forward, towards the end of the hall where a staircase sat, enshrouded in a heavy blanket of darkness.
I didn’t spot the two bouncers plastered against the wall, scanning each soul brave enough to approach, until a hand shot out and grabbed hold of my wrist.
A screech roiled away in my throat; the dark bond carved into my wrist igniting in agony. The bouncer narrowed his beady eyes, scanning my own with the intensity of a bloodhound.
Without a word, he released me and gestured to the blackened stairwell.
I scurried towards it, too shaken up to bother looking back.
An aching sort of hollowness took root in my chest. There had once been this light inside of me, burning bright. Every year I spent with Lucille and my sisters that light began to dim.
That evening on the hill of the Goddess, when the mate-bond snapped in two, it had finally been extinguished. Now, I was slowly melting into the darkness that enshrouded me.
I didn’t realize someone was talking to me until they waved their hand in front of my face.
“Hey, you! Pretty girl, can you hear me?”
I blinked. A male, somewhere around my age, stood in front of me. His eyes were glazed, a bright amber shade that contrasted well with his tanned skin. Freckles covered his nose like flecks of cinnamon.
“Sorry, did you say something?”
“Got a lot on your mind, huh?” The guy nodded as though he understood, but how could he? How could anyone?
No longer interested in talking, I scanned the lower floor of the nightclub. Much like the upper level, groups of people danced wildly, flitting between the bar and dance floor.
The only difference was the massive metal cage at the far end of the room.
A fighting cage.
What the hell had I gotten myself into?
“Hey, pretty girl.” The guy tapped my shoulder, once again dragging my attention back to his swaying form. “My friends and I are sitting over there. Did you want to join us?”
A mop of chestnut hair hung over his forehead, seeming to get in his way as he stared me down. Flicking it back, he nodded to a cluster of sofas not too far away from the fighting cage.
“Not really.”
He rubbed his chest and hissed in pain. “Aw, come on. I promise to keep my paws off you. I’ll even buy you a drink.”
I ran my dry tongue along my teeth and sighed. A drink did sound nice. I couldn’t afford anything until I started working again.
“I’ll take a bottle of water.”
Doing a victory dance that had my eyebrows lifting, the guy strutted over to the bar and slapped his hand down dramatically. I watched, wondering if there was something wrong with him, when he turned and gave me a quick wink.
Once the bottle was in my hand, he nudged me along like a puppy with a new toy.
The moment my ass hit the velvet sofa; I was hurled a slew of names that I’d undoubtedly forget within the next hour.
To my left were two girls, one dark-skinned and the other milky white, currently exploring each other’s mouths with their tongues. A guy with a shaved head and lip piercing sat to the right of them, too busy staring at his phone to notice our arrival.
Coop, who had bumped into me, introduced the girls as Arielle and Sarah.
Clicking his beer against my bottle of water, he leaned into my shoulder and said, “The meathead on his phone is Denver. I’ll admit he looks scary, but he’s really just a little pussycat.”
I snorted. Denver didn’t look up as he flicked Coop off.
Unfazed, Coop drawled, “Don’t let his attitude fool you, I’m almost positive he’s in love with me.”
This time Denver did look up.
“Eat shit, Coop.”
Coop shook his head, and leaned back on the sofa, stretching his arms along the back. “One day he’ll be brave enough to admit it.”
He plucked something from behind his ear and leaned over my lap to wave it in the lip-locked girl’s faces. A faint whiff of something herbal and bitter flooded my nostrils.
The girls broke apart, wiping the stray hints of lipstick from around their mouths.
“Light it up already.” Denver grunted, slipping his phone into his pocket.
He stared me down, his golden eyes almost molten beneath the flashing lights. Reaching up to toy with his lip piercing, he sank deeper into the sofa, arms draped over the sides.
“What’s your name?”
“Not interested.” The words slipped out before I could stop them, bland as they rolled across my tongue.
Coop snickered. Denver flicked him off a second time. “Duly noted.”
I caught another whiff of that bitter herbal scent and looked over to find Coop rolling a joint between his fingers. Well, it looked like one.
Arielle, having caught me staring, flicked her fingers in Coop’s direction. “You smoke?”
“No.”
I hadn’t done much of anything, really. An entire life spent lying low, avoiding attention in fear Lucille or Kimberly would retaliate.
She settled into Sarah’s arms, allowing the fair-skinned girl to play with the thick braids trailing down her back. Pursing her plump lips she shrugged, “You look like you could use something to take the edge off.”
Coop snapped and I flinched as a tiny burst of flame exploded from his fingertip. For a long moment, all I could do was stare.
He had magic. Actual, honest-to-Goddess magic.
The tiny spark of wonder fluttering in my chest was quickly devoured by pain when the mark on my wrist began to throb relentlessly.
Sooner or later, I’d have to contact Hunter and update him on how things were going here. The mere thought of hearing his voice had my palms clammy.
Coop dipped the tip of the joint into the flame, holding it there until it caught fire. A thin tendril of smoke curled into the air, carrying that bitter herbal scent.
He took a long drag and released a sigh that was swallowed whole by the pounding music. Holding it out to me, he quirked a half-smile that spelled trouble.
“Go on, pretty girl, take a hit. It won’t kill you, I promise. You might even like it.” He waggled his brows.
In the back of my head, my wolf’s tail twitched. All her presence did was remind me of what happened. The rejection, the shattered mate-bond, the dark bond I was now trapped with.
All of it rolled over my head like an icy, salty wave.
I blinked and found myself staring down at the burning joint, clutching it between two trembling fingers. Would something like this help ease the pain? Would it help me forget?
What was the worst that could happen?
OpheliaI brought it to my lips and inhaled, immediately chucking the thing at Denver when my lungs seized. A cough tore at my chest, so strong that my eyes watered. No matter how hard I tried to breathe in, all I could do was hack and cough.It tasted awful. Like burnt grass and chewed lavender.The four of them chuckled, descending into laughter that rang heavily in my ears. Heat warmed my cheeks, carrying embarrassment that quickly faded when Sarah herself erupted in a fit of wet coughing.When I finally managed to stop, I realized I felt different.There was this odd sensation dancing along my skin, like little bursts of electricity. As they burrowed deep, they melted into a blissful numbness that had my shoulders drooping and eyelids growing heavy.Goddess, what was this stuff?Coop rolled his head my way, “Nice, isn’t it? It’s official name is Dark Matter. Think of it as the magical version of weed. It’s blessed by a witch with an earth affinity, so it’s extra potent.”I blinked
JudeRevving the engine of my bike, I peeled out of the garage and into the blanket of night enshrouding the idyllic neighborhood of Crescent Hills.Normally I’d tap into my nature magic and shift, either taking to the skies or forest, but I wanted to conserve my strength. Not that it mattered in the slightest. The opponents at La Stella were abysmal at best.Ryker was going to be pissed, but when wasn’t he pissed?After enduring that group spell with his preening girlfriend, I needed to blow off some steam. It was either that or I slit her throat and be done with it.Now, that would piss him off.It had taken us long enough to get our coven together and in line, and the last thing my noble half-brother wanted to do was hunt down his girlfriend’s younger sister to fill the empty spot.I didn’t particularly care what he wanted, but I also didn’t feel like dealing with his wrath. The guy was a thorn in my damn side, but he was probably the only soul on earth I gave a fuck about.Plus, w
OpheliaOnly once I was far away from Jude’s intoxicating scent did I finally allow myself to breathe.One blink and I was no longer standing within the graffiti painted walls of La Stella. Instead, I was curled up in the passenger seat of an expensive car. Notes of leather and peppery cologne clung to the inside like a second skin.Denver grabbed my chin roughly, and for a moment I wondered if he was going to pick up where that strange man left off.The strange man whose neck I was almost certain Jude had broken.No, that couldn’t have been what happened. It was the drug messing with my head. There was no reason Jude would’ve done such a terrible thing unprompted. The oxygen in the car thinned even further as I fought for breath.The blocker was still suppressing my scent, so the bond hadn’t snapped into place for him. That meant it had to be my imagination, or a trick of the eyes.Denver snapped his fingers in front of my face. When had he become so pale?“For fucks sake, pay attent
OpheliaAlpha Ryker pinched the bridge of his nose. The look he tossed Jude’s way was nothing short of furious. Instead of scolding the guy or telling him to knock off whatever it was he was doing, he turned to Nova and snarled, “Explain things to her, will you? I do not have the patience for this.”Clearly, Jude had some sort of death wish because he threw his head back and laughed. Well, it was his version of a laugh. All ice and razor-sharp steel.“What exactly do you have the patience for?” He asked, folding his tatted arms over his chest.Nova, the only one who wasn’t sneering down at me or looking at me as though I were an unwanted piece of trash washed up on a pristine shore, lowered herself onto the bench at my side.Her pale-blonde hair floated around her shoulders, rustled by a gentle breeze.“We’re not a cult,” She said gently, as though she were talking to a wild animal. “We’re a coven. A coven of witches. You do know what witches are, don’t you?”I nodded slowly. Of cours
OpheliaRecognizing Kimberly’s voice, I shuffled closer to the door. Careful not to nudge it open, I flattened myself against the wall and listened.“She’s a backstabbing, conniving bitch. She’ll tear us apart and play with the scraps.” Kimberly sucked in a sharp breath as though she were on the verge of crying. “You have no idea what she’s done. She’s the reason I moved back here last year.”I bit my tongue hard enough to draw blood. She was lying, blatantly lying to Alpha Ryker’s face. Kimberly had moved back to Lunar Isle after receiving a scholarship to their university. Her decision had nothing to do with me. Not a damned thing.“Tell me what happened, mí amor.” [my love]Ryker’s voice was neither angry nor patient. It was flat, brimming with silent command that had my stomach twisting into knots.“She—She,” Kimberly took a steadying breath, “She ruined my marriage to Alpha Hunter. My mother set it up when I was sixteen, and the moment Ophelia found out about it she made it her l
OpheliaI’d been standing under the spray of the shower, drowning in the thick steam, for nearly half an hour when my phone buzzed from where it sat on the sink’s ledge.For a moment, my heart seized in my chest.The last thing I wanted was to speak to Alpha Hunter when everything was so fresh and raw. I’d have to tell him what I’d learned, and I wasn’t sure I could bring myself to speak the words aloud.‘My sister should’ve aborted you.’No, I wouldn’t think about it. Not right now.Perhaps not ever.Uncaring that I was sopping wet, I tore back the flimsy curtain and plucked my phone up, swiping at the screen with slippery fingers until it unlocked with a quiet click. Relief cascaded down my spine as I zeroed in on Lucille’s name at the top of the text thread.Wow. What had my life become that I was happy to hear from Lucille?Lucille: You’re expected at the lounge in one hour. Keys are on the hook by the door. Do not be late. I want the place ready to open by Wednesday.Well, that w
Ophelia“It’s not like I wanted to hear your super-secret conversation. I was coming downstairs for something to eat. Maybe next time you want to talk about me, try doing it somewhere other than the kitchen.”Ryker flicked an imaginary fleck of lint from his suit and said calmly, “If Lucille harms Kimberly in any way I will hold you personally responsible.”I couldn’t help but laugh. It burst from my chest without warning, dry as the tepid air whooshing down the length of Lunar Isle’s beach. My lips peeled back in a grin that had my bruised jaw throbbing.“Harm her? Lucille would never lay a finger on her darling Kimberly; I can promise you that.”His eyes, emotionless as ever, flicked down my face. Whether or not he noticed the bruise on my jaw, I wasn’t sure.“Out of the kindness of my own heart I gave you the night to process things. As it stands, you’ll start your training immediately. Nova will oversee it herself. This weekend we’ll preform the ritual swearing you into the coven
RykerI arrived at the Hawkin’s house around mid-morning.As I entered the foyer, I wasn’t greeted by the sound of my girlfriend’s preening, as Jude called it, rather the muffled blow of shouting. It was so loud, so very shrill, that it permeated the walls and filled the entirety of the villa.For good reason, the servants had scattered.As did most living things when Kimberly’s voice began to rise in both pitch and volume.Pushing my frustration down beneath a layer of cold calm, I began to pace. My mind wandered to Kimberly’s sister—ah, not sister—cousin, I meant. The girl, who was only a few years younger than myself, would soon be a part of the coven.And I, as always, would have to manage the inevitable chaos that would ensue.It helped not that Kimberly loathed the very breath that left her cousin’s lungs, nor the fact that Sterling found her intriguing. What made the matter that much worse was Jude’s involvement.By fleeing from his hold last night at the beach, the girl had al
OpheliaAfter that night at Edwards I realized that alcohol helped chase the nightmares away. It wasn’t sustainable, and I knew that, but it at least bought me a few nights’ sleep while I tried to figure something else out.Sneaking out to the library again was becoming an impossibility, so I had no way to look for my own alternative. I had no clue how Ryker managed to run an entire island, when I could barely manage a hundred. There was always someone who needed something from me, and even with Aisha’s help I felt like a child playing at being an adult.I quickly became tempted to accept the potion Jude offered instead, which he left outside of my door every single night, but why should I?He agreed to give me that potion, not some replacement. He could deny it and twist my words however he wanted, but I wasn’t going to give in. He couldn’t walk all over me just because we shared some bond.When Nova’s ‘friend date’ rolled around later that week I was almost relieved. That was until
OpheliaI was never going to forgive that asshole.Dashing through the forest, the earth steady beneath my paws, the warm wind rustling through my fur, was the only thing that kept me sane. I focused on my muscles coiling, on the tension that came when I launched off the ground, forcing myself into a sprint.It was better than thinking. Anything was better than thinking.The forest gave way to soft dunes as I neared the coastline. My paws sank into the sand, slowing my pace. I walked, my chest still heaving from exertion. Part of me wanted to keep running, to lose myself in the thrill, but exhaustion was creeping in, and I knew Ryker and Jude would only come and hunt me down. This way I could say I was with Edward, and they’d back the hell off for a little while.Edward’s beach house sat in the distance. The lights on the first floor were on. They cast an amber glow onto the surrounding foliage that felt welcoming. From where I was standing, I could see the winding pathways that circl
JudeOphelia was furious.Considering I was the one who made her feel that way, and she was my reason for existing, I should have felt guilty, right?Really, I blamed her father. He was the one that introduced her to that potion instead of getting her the help she needed. I wasn’t exactly the biggest spokesperson for mental health, but I made a promise the night I lost Ophelia and that was to never ignore the signs. Our girl was struggling, and if we could see it then surely her own flesh and blood could.I read Morningstar’s body language the few times we saw him and either he was a damned good actor—as good as myself—or he genuinely felt something for Ophelia. That didn’t fool me though. I also knew that love was both a tool and a weapon, and it didn’t discriminate against who it harmed.He might care for her in his own fucked up way, but he had no issues with using her either.My dove never failed to surprise me. She glared down at the potion in her hand, her lip curled in a silent
OpheliaAfter one last game we returned to our table for another round of drinks and for some crappy bar food.“Cheese fries.” I moaned, not caring that the waitress had given Jude the food whilst completely ignoring me. My stomach let out a snarl, the vicious kind that came when you had a few too many drinks. “At least there’s one good thing left in this world.”Jude took a drink of his whiskey. “Is that what you think? That there’s nothing good left in the world.”I licked some cheese off the tip of my thumb. “It’s what I know.”“If you’re here that means there’s good left in the world. That’s what I know.” He said, simply put. This wasn’t him trying to be charming, it was just Jude.The laugh I let out was one I didn’t recognize. “I’m not good anymore.”“That’s a load of shit. Since when?”“Doesn’t matter.”“No, you said it, now follow through. You’re not good anymore, fine. When did it happen? What made you go full dark side? I’m going to assume it wasn’t Ryker and I, because you
OpheliaAs we stepped inside, the scent of leather, whiskey, and cigarette smoke assaulted my senses.I was enveloped by the low rumble of conversation and the clinking of glasses. In the background I could hear the squeal of an electric guitar from the classic rock music playing from a jukebox in the corner. Men and women of all shapes and sizes filled the dimly lit space. Several of them, though not all, had tattoos and leather vests full of patches. A motorcycle gang, then.Jude's hand rested on my lower back as he guided me through the crowd. I could feel the heat of him through the thin fabric of my jacket. The phantom caress of sparks licked up my spine and I shuddered. His lips twitched and I knew he felt my reaction to him, the bastard."You brought me to a biker bar?" I asked, more than happy to change the subject.He looked downright sinful in his long-sleeved Henley. It clung to every ripple of muscle across his broad chest and arms. The sleeves were currently pushed up to
OpheliaPlot twist, it meant Ryker was full of shit.When I finally received Edward from Jude’s greedy clutches he was battered to hell and had a broken wrist. The broken wrist, as it turned out, was from Ryker. He didn’t even bother to be gentle as he grabbed him by the back of the neck and hoisted him off Jude.The bond was thrilled. I was annoyed and had a mild case of heartburn.When Edward trudged up to me with his shirt torn and stained with blood he did so with his nose in the air. I wasn’t sure why I thought he had the decency to at least act ashamed. I still had a lot to learn apparently.“Come the hell on before I kick your ass too,” I snarled under my breath. Spinning around, I began to storm off in the direction of his car. Anger had my blood boiling. When paired with this heat it was a deadly combination. “I can’t believe you both just did that, and over what? Over your own silly egos! You’re worried about what my father will think. Well, what’s he going to think about th
OpheliaCome on, baby. You’re smarter than this.They were wrong, the two of them. They didn’t know the truth. All they knew was what we were shown the day we scried. I was sure I could’ve found a way to show them the truth myself, but was there a point? Did I really want them on my side?They weren’t on it before. Why would they be now?Just two days later I managed to evade Edward and shift into my wolf to run to the library. I needed to research what might’ve happened to my mother’s soul without him hovering over my shoulder. Surprisingly, Jude and Ryker had been busy the past couple of days. Neither one bothered to tell me what they were doing, but I didn’t care.A twinge started in my chest.Correction, the mate-bond cared.As soon as the library’s door closed behind me I shuffled behind the nearest stack and followed it deeper into the room. There were a few students seated at tables in front of the librarian’s desk. I’d have to avoid them. Word traveled fast when you were a par
OpheliaIt was tempting to change into something flat and lifeless. Some black scrap of fabric that would act as armor between me and the world. I was going to conjure something along those lines when I turned and caught a glimpse of the sunset through the window.The sun was hovering just a few inches above the ocean, painting the waves in such vibrant color that they looked like a sea of living flame. It was life and beauty, and I wanted to hold onto that even if it were for just a night.I conjured something simple. Something that wasn’t quite the old me, but also wasn’t quite the new me either.The sundress had thin straps that tied at the shoulders, along with a square neckline that showed off my chest and throat. The fabric was a rich green and soft to the touch, with a lace overlay embroidered with black roses. A slit ran up the side, exposing my bare foot and part of my calf.I held my breath as I emerged into the kitchen. There were warriors everywhere, lounging and grabbing
OpheliaThe ripples in the water fell flat and the herbs began to float to the surface. I stared at them, watching them swirl around and around, while my silencing spell slowly crumbled.Edward walked back in as the final shards of it disintegrated. He leaned against the doorframe, arms folded over his chest. The picture of wealth and good genetics. His lips quirked up into a self-satisfied smirk as he caught me staring.I didn’t have it in me to tell him I wasn’t checking him out in that way.I tried to picture myself standing by Edward’s side—by any male’s side that wasn’t Ryker or Jude. It wasn’t just the bond that revolted at the thought, but my very soul. I wanted to tip my head back and laugh up at the heavens. I wanted to demand an audience with the goddess. With the damned deity who gave me three Alpha-hole mates.Even worse, I was fairly sure I’d never be able to feel anything for another man in my life. Wait … that might be a good thing.I was halfway through planning my lif