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40 Berserk

Author: MaryahLu
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I let Rowan take care of my hair.

I actually have a lot of things to say to him, but I was quiet the whole time he was drying my hair. I just obediently sat on the bed while hugging my knees. Even though the blow dryer makes a loud noise, I still feel like our surroundings are quiet and still, knowing that no one is around except me and him.

I then flinched when Rowan suddenly said, "It's not your fault."

I was about to turn my head to face Rowan, but he held my head and said, "I'm not yet done drying your hair."

"Hmm, why?" I mused. "Why is it not my fault?"

"Everything I did is my fault."

He sounded grumpy as usual, but his words comforted me a bit. I gently smiled while I felt soothed by the warm air coming from the dryer, and I felt relaxed because of the gentle stroke of the comb. It's a rare moment for me and Rowan since we are always in chaos when we are together. My eyes feel a little heavy as the complete silence of the entire mansion of Rowan adds up to the mediating effect
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