“Amelia, can we please talk?” Jax’s question echoes again and again in my head, torturing me. Everything inside of me wants to lose any rational thought and simply give into him. My heart thuds hard in my chest, and my throat feels like it’s a desert as I rasp out the words I need to say. “No Jax. I’m not ready to talk to you.”In front of me, I see the strongest Alpha I have come across, but with those words falling from my lips it looks as if he’s just a shadow of the strong Alpha, broken, and totally defeated. My broken heart shatters a little more at this sight.“I need time. I need time to comprehend everything that has happened. So much has happened in such a short time, whether between us or the things that happened today. Before I can listen to what you have to say, I need time to sort myself out first.” Taking all the strength I can bring up, I look him in the eye, reading myself for the one thing that has been on my mind the entire time. The one thing I do need to know, bef
I try to brace myself for the inevitable impact that’s about to happen. The two guys are so blind in their rage that they don’t even catch on to me jumping in between. It’s only when both bodies crash into mine that they realise and try to back off worriedly as soon as possible.One of my ribs cracks audible from the force of the impact, causing me to wince involuntarily. Both of them shift back immediately and crouch down beside me, with shock and guilt on their faces. This isn’t their fault, I decided to go in between and knew exactly what risk I was taking. If I hadn’t done it, who knows how this fight would have ended? Even if it was only a decision within a brief second, I know if I had time to think about it, as stupid as it may sound, I would have done it anyway. “Oh my god, Amelia,” Jax calls out, horrified. “This is all your fault,” he looks up at Ben in pure rage again, accusing him repeatedly.“My fault?” Ben starts to argue back.“Stop it!” I scream from the top of my lu
Freddie’s voice is nearly inaudible, but the urgency within it is clearly to be heard. Jenny’s eyes look panicked over to her mate, and I can see the inner battle she’s having right now. Everything happens within split seconds, but it seems to be running on slow motion in front of me.“Leave,” he mouthes towards her, and they share a brief moment of depth, the look of not knowing if they’ll ever see each other again.“Come with us,” she pleads, but he shakes his head and urges us to run.Tonya shifts in an instant, just as Jenny. Ben still has me on his arms, I cling harder on to him as we take off as fast as possible.I’m not quite sure what’s going on right now. But I did see the door standing slightly ajar and could take in an unknown fragrance, which undoubtedly didn’t belong there. I have no idea if Freddie saw or sensed more. Whatever he did catch on was enough for him to go into full defence mode.“Let Jax know we need the safe house,” Ben calls out towards Tonya. The fact that
82. Bursting doorMy breath hitches as the hustle and bustle gets louder right in front of the door. There’s a sheer amount of voices out there. The door bursts open, and Jenny collapses into me.I’m torn between relief and utterly shock at the sight right in front of me. I automatically jump to my feet as Jax comes rushing into the room with a lifeless blood covered body in his arms. Freddie is barely able to be recognised. “Close the door,” he barks over his shoulders to a huge crowd of people right behind him, “and secure the tunnels.” As soon as we’re standing in front of each other, his facial expression changes to one of relief, but also concern. “You need to help him. He’s barely got a pulse left and is hardly breathing anymore.” Jax tells me, and let’s out a heavy sigh while his eyes shift to Jenny who’s crying on her knees right now.Trevor follows closely behind Jax, who’s spreading out Freddie’s body onto the couch for me right now.“I did what I could, but his injuries a
Jax’s POV:Looking down at Amelia, my incredible, strong, and yet so vulnerable mate, I wish I could freeze the time. Her chest is rising and falling steadily, with her being fast asleep in my arms. No sign of sorrow or worry on her face, just peacefulness, while her arms wrap a little tighter around me every now and then. In between, she mumbles incoherent things in her sleep, which is ever so adorable.It’s already eleven in the morning, but I don’t dare to move or wake her. Even my breathing is shallow. Yesterday was extraordinary exhausting for her. To be honest, it was for every one of us, but mostly for her and Freddie. Watching her sleep has been equally soothing to me.“This doesn’t change anything,” her words still replay on my mind over and over. Once she wakes up, we’ll be back to ground zero. She will be angry and hurt and I will have to go, as this time it can’t be her who will leave. I know I can’t keep her locked up and safe down here forever. But I hope that I can conv
Jax’s POV:Still holding my breath, I take in every reaction of her closely.For a moment, she looks confused, caught up in her adorable sleepy haze. But when she starts coming to her senses, I can already feel her drawing back, not just physically but mentally too. The peaceful connection from the last hours diminishes.I’m not quite sure what to do in this situation. Should I just silently get up and go? Shall I ask her once more if she’s prepared to talk? Or should I just wait for her to make the first move?While I’m still wondering what to do best, Amelia sits up and gets out of bed without a word or even as much as a glance back at me. Instead, she simply wraps one of the sheets protectively around her body but winces when she comes against her ribs. Knowing this was the deal last night, I hold back from saying anything, even if I want to beg her to come back.Her eyes dart searchingly around the room.“If you’re looking for the bathroom it’s out of the door and then to your rig
Amelia’s POV:“Do you think it has to do with the Black-Moon pack?” Those words leaving a strangers mouth punch me deep within my guts. Drake faked for me to think he’s my mate. He let someone cast a damn spell on me, and in the future we had, he took my baby from me before killing me. During the attack, he told us this isn’t over. Threatened that we’re far from done. I knew he was going to keep to his words. But I had expected an open attack. Not sneaking into the place I live without anyone even catching on that they’re on these grounds. My fists ball hard at my sides, my jaw clenches hard, and it’s taking everything inside of me not to shift and let the beast take control.The pure rage burning deep within is overwhelming my entire nervous system. “I’m going to deal with him,” I burst out with a growl, causing the entire crowd in this room to focus on me.“A little much for a little girl. Don’t you think?” One of them laughs about my small outburst.My powerful growl, in return
It’s been four days without a word from Jax. After that meeting ended, we got into a full-blown argument. He’s not prepared to let me go to the Black-Moon pack, and I made it clear to him that I’d go anyway.It’s not that I can’t understand Jax’s apprehension. He has every right to worry. But instead of deciding things for me and wanting to set boundaries for me, I would wish for his support. If I wanted to stay locked up forever from the world, I could have just as well stayed with Drake. I’m not a pretty doll you put into a glass cabinet for others to see. It's taken me long enough to understand that.Maybe it’s naïve to walk into dangerous grounds. Maybe it’s the most stupid thing I’ll ever do. But I can’t just stand down, sit back, and be a good girl waiting for my prince in shining armour to rescue me. Thinking about it, I probably actually did that when I was with Drake. Because I believed it was the only way. Because I believed I wasn’t able to do more than that.Now that I’m t
Hi everyone, I haven't forgotten this book.Covid just has been a real b*tch. While I thought I was getting better finally after 2 weeks of Covid, it suddenly spiralled down a lot again. Seems like my other ilnesses have made me very vulnerable. Even if this is my 4th time with Covid, it hit me nearly as bad as the 1st time.Currently, the high dose of cortisone and some oxygen are starting to help. The fever also has come down again. So I will try updating very soon.We're so close to the end of this story, and I feel really bad about not being able to update for so long decently. I hope you understand. Lots of love Jackie♡♡♡♡
My eyes still linger on Jax’s distraught face. Fear of what might have happened to Sybil and Emily or any of the others is nagging at me. But with the knock interrupting us, I know I’m not getting my answer from him right now. I huff slightly in annoyance.“Come in,” Jax calls out. I’m surprised that whoever is there even waited to be called in. Usually there’s only a short knock, and the people enter.Balloons, a huge amount of floating balloons attached to a string, get pushed through the opening door, covering everything behind it. I move left and right, trying to get a glimps of who this might be before the balloons finally move aside and give the view free to my best friends entering the room. Upfront is Ben with the balloons, then comes Tonya with a huge bunch of flowers, followed by Jenny with a tray of cupcakes, and Freddie holds a small teddy bear with "get well" on it. The last one to enter is Alex, holding a huge box of fancy looking chocolates in his hand, giving me the bri
Amelia’s POV:I wake up in an unfamiliar, dark room, but the smell of wounds and disinfectant biting within my nose tells me exactly where I am. I’m obviously at a hospital. Memories come flashing in on me. “Jax!” I sit up abruptly, with my heart thudding violently in my chest. I start throwing the blanket from my body. Panicked, I try to get out of bed until a voice and a hand pressed against my shoulder stop me, and the hand presses me right back into place.“I’m here. I'm here, my love,” I hear his sleepy, deep, and husky voice. “You need to stay in bed.”Without saying another word, I throw my arms around his neck and sob hard against his chest. “I thought……. I thought….I lost you. I thought you were dying,” I cry in relief and pain at the same time. The mere thought of losing him has me totally shook up and causes a pain in my chest, literally taking my breath away. My fingers dig stronger into his back, and I pull him harder into me, making sure he’s really here and not just an
Jax’s POVI feel warmth and power flooding my aching body, relieving the pain and soothing all my senses. Taking deep breaths, my lungs finally expand and fill with air again decently. I was sure I was suffocating only moments ago, I was sure this was it, that I was dying. But then I could feel her, I could feel her love, her power, her body pressed to mine, pulling me out of the dark place I was captivated in. She’s the sole reason the pain is gone, and I’m able to breathe again.Amelia! Without having opened my eyes, I can feel something is terribly wrong. I stir and try my hardest to pry my eyes open. “Amelia!” I choke out and shake her limp body, which is still wrapped around me. “Amelia, wake up!” Nothing happens. It’s then that I notice all the others around us, at least a part of us.Memories of what happened crash in on me, and I remember being buried alive and a sheer amount of bricks coming down after an explosion. By the distraught look on the other faces, I know the situati
“Jax! Jax! Jax!” I call out repeatedly, verbally but also through our mind link, feeling like I'm going out of my mind.No reaction. I can’t even feel him trying to connect with me in return. All I can feel is pain and cold. With Ben and Alex hot on my tracks, I pace through the chaotic state within the arena as fast as possible. I don’t even take much notice of what Emily and Sybil are doing right now.“Amelia!” I feel a little relief seeing Tristan limping towards me. But my heart drops the moment I realise there’s no Jax at his side. They were together. Jax should be with Tristan.“Where is he? Where is Jax?” I question panicked as soon as I reach Tristan.“He…… I…….. He saved my life,” Tristan chokes out, but his words just make me even more nervous. “Then, where is he?” Don’t get me wrong, I am absolutely relieved that Tristan is alive and Jax saved him. But my guts twist into knots, seeing that Jax isn’t here next to him.“He…. He pushed me aside just on time before the bricks c
“The Gold moon Alpha is gone,” one of the warriors calls out, realising the same as I did moments ago.Jax pushes me further behind him. His eyes are scanning the entire place. The longer he’s scanning it, the more I feel him tense. We all know it’s a very bad sign. Drake steps towards Alana and shakes her, seemingly trying to get her back to normal, but I doubt he’s able to shake the possession out of her. Watching him act with her, I wonder if he loves her. If he ever truly loved her? There definitely has been more between them, but it doesn’t look like he cares in the same way for her as she did for him. I can see that now. They were both hungry for power and traded their mate bond for it. From what I know now, Tiffany did the exact same thing. She rejected her weak mate because he wasn’t good enough for her. Instead, she wanted the powerful Alpha with his pack. Drake and Alana both wanted my power. They somehow knew about it.My grip tightens on Jax. For nothing in the world woul
I’m startled by the loud roaring voice echoing through the arena. Jax, next to me, still seems to be searching for the source of the voice, while I am staring at the man causing it. He may be in his early fifties. I know I’ve seen that face from far off on some of Drake’s events. Even if I wouldn’t know him, the facial features are a dead giveaway of who he is.“This gathering is against any agreement we made,” he bellows across the arena angrily at Jax. “You declared an open war to me by dropping my daughter. This is your last chance to rectify the situation. Send that worthless mutt away. Banish her from all pack grounds, make her the rogue she truly is, and I will reconsider a war with you,” the Alpha of the Gold moon pack demands.The crowd, that had been cheering moments ago, now turns silent, looking back and forth between Jax and the Gold moon Alpha, waiting for what is to come next. Jax’s grip tightens on me.“I am sorry if I hurt your and your daughters pride. It was never my
Hi everyone, I had intended on finishing this story this year. Unfortunately, a lot has happened the last couple of weeks.My health has been quite bad. The surgery on my dog has taken a toll and a lot of time, as we've been spending every second at the vet for 3,5 weeks now. Last week, her stitches burst open again. Which needed further treatment. And when things go wrong, they totally go wrong. My electrical wheelchair device totally broke down, too. All of it is taking a toll on my health and is taking a lot of time. My head hasn't really been in the right place to write.As Christmas is also coming, I ofc also have those preparations, which are even more difficult with my broke down wheelchair. So I hope you'll understand that I need to take a little time off. The next update will come on January 1st. To those of you who celebrate Christmas, I wish you a happy and healthy Christmas time.But ofc to all of you others too, have an amazing time. Thanks for your patience. And if y
Jax’s POVI called in an urgent gathering. Most of my people have already met Amelia. The most important ones were at the safe house. But the situation has changed since. At that time, things were still a mess, but now we’re engaged, and she’s officially the future Luna to this pack.Amelia walks up and down the hall nervously, tugging at her clothes. She’s wearing a dark blue pencil dress, Tonya has picked for her. Making her look like a businesswoman. “Do you think they will hate me? I mean, they all knew about Tiffany. I don’t have all that money she can provide or the power of the pack……” she trails off while fidgeting with her fingers.A soft chuckle escapes my lips. “Are you serious right now?”She looks surprised up at my tiny outburst, unable to understand why I think this is funny. I take her hands in mine and gently caress the ring she just had been fidgeting around on. “Amelia, you have more power than any of us. You are the true werewolf queen, the true Luna to all of us.