For days I’ve been practically locked up in this apartment. It’s been twelve days since the attack, and I’m starting to feel bored out of my mind. Jax has been busy with pack issues most of the time, totally locking me out of any of it. Ben’s mood has been up and down like a rollercoaster. In one moment he’s sitting with me and joking, trying to cheer me up. We keep talking about random things. Ben talks about all the adventures we could get into. All of them would get us into hell of a trouble with Jax, which Ben simply shrugs off. “He’s not here. Right?” He’s told me several times, causing me to laugh.Ben has become my ally in crime, what I like to call it. One day, he helped me sneak out to the fitness room before Trevor had given me the all-clear. But in other moments, Ben seems so angry with everything and shuts totally down. Whatever is on his mind, he doesn’t want to share it, but it seems to be eating him up.Tonya has been going on and on about my genetic test, nearly driv
“Amelia? What are you doing here?” Jax questions a little shocked, the anger from moments ago, fading away until Alex comes into sight.“Didn’t I order for you to keep her safe in the apartment?” Jax growls angrily at Alex.“Actually you ordered anyone but me. So I thought I’d take a chance. You took her as your mate, so she deserves more than being locked up the entire time and needs her mate, too. And before you fully blow, the staircase to this floor is locked, and I punched in our security code into the elevator. So no one but you or me will be able to access this floor right now.” Without another word, Alex turns on his heels, only giving me a tiny wink before he disappears.Suddenly, feeling insecure about being here, I stay standing in the doorway, rubbing my arm, waiting for some sort of reaction from Jax. His eyes soften, and he starts to scan me from head to toe, heat starting to rise within my body the moment he licks his lips subconsciously while he drinks me in.Feeling m
“A surprise for me?” I question, looking up at him, while keeping my head against his chest, listening to his increased heartbeat.His fingers gently tug a curl behind my hair and then caress my cheeks while he looks into my eyes. “I’ve got your new apartment set up. I want to take you there tonight.”“Oh,” is all I’m able to reply. I close my eyes, trying not to show the pang of disappointment hitting me.All along, I knew he’s been saying, I’m going to have my own apartment again soon. So this shouldn’t come as a surprise to me. This might sound ungrateful, but I wish he had left himself more time with it. Kept me here in his apartment a little while longer, close to him. If it had gone according to his wishes, I know he would have found a place for me the next day after the incident of my old apartment. But due to the entire issues and many houses at the shore being damaged, there was a lack of free apartments, taking it longer than he had intended.“You’ll be able to go out again m
Waking up, I feel like I’m in heaven. Jax’s arms are still tightly wrapped around me. If it wasn’t for my urgent need of the bathroom I’d stay right here in his comforting warmth.Once I return, Jax is already sitting up in the bed in all his glory, with the sheets slipped down to his waist, showing off his perfect torso, while he’s looking out of the window seemingly lost in thoughts.“Can we go to the mall together today?” I ask him excitedly while crawling back into bed to him.“Why?” He scans me and then the room.“I just thought maybe we could have something to eat there together and then buy a couple of things for this apartment?” I really do wish to get out a bit and have some fun time.“We could order anything you want right here,” he replies much to my displeasure. “I’m sure Ben and Tonya won’t mind. And I’ll just stay here for a couple of more hours, before I need to return to my office.”“Then I’ll simply go with Tonya instead,” I tell him quietly and step right back out of
“Get inside.” The words echo off the buildings from the empty street. Trying to blink away my tears, I see Jenny looking at me with a worried expression on her face as she holds the door to the car open.“I’m not going back to him,” I call out determined, thinking they’re here because of him.“We’re not taking you back to him if you don’t want to. I have told you before, we’re here because of you,” her voice never wavering. Everyone I know has lied to me. Everyone I trusted lied. Why should I trust her?“Did you know?” I question, with my voice breaking.“No. I promise we didn’t. I’m not going to lie, I had the feeling something was off, but I couldn’t put my finger on it. Sybil and Emily warned us, though, that you might need us as your friends at some point. We would know when the time has come.” She looks down at her fidgeting hands, obviously feeling guilty, not having told me this part now that she knows the extent of those words.Still standing in the pouring rain, drenched to
Jenny’s POV“This can’t be normal,” I whisper towards Emily, worriedly, while looking across the room, watching Amelia’s body shivering and shaking violently. “It’s been two days. She’s got fever, she’s shaking all over and is barely keeping the fluids down I’m trying to pour into her. Despite her not reacting to anything at all. All she does is murmur some incoherent stuff, cry, and stare at the wall in front of her. I’m not even sure those eyes have closed a single time.”Walking up to her with a cup of tea, I try to convince her to drink again. But it’s as if she doesn’t even take me in. With the help of Freddie, I again hoist her up into a slight sitting position while pouring the fluids into her. I think the way she swallows it down is totally subconsciously, everything on automatism. It’s as if I’m looking at a hollow corpse that is alive, but anything making her Amelia is totally absent.When I first ushered her into the car, she was still fully conscious, even if unaware of he
**** 4 days earlier at the mall: Jax’s POV****“Back the fuck off. All of you,” her words come out with so much force, it throws me back against the wall, without her even noticing it.My back hits the wall hard before I sink down to the ground. Entire shop windows directly around us burst at the power, lights flicker and burst. People all around this area try to cover themselves from the bursting glass. The only two who don’t are Amelia and me. Amelia, because she seems to be totally unaware of the glass shards flying at her like millions of little daggers and me because I’m frozen into place. Her words hold so much power over me that I’m unable to move a single inch or utter a single word.With desperation and fear, I’m only able to watch her walk away from me. She’s leaving a trail of blood, which only adds up to my pain. Doesn’t she feel the glass digging into her flesh? Or is she that strong to not let it show? Either way, it scares the shit out of me and breaks my heart at the s
Jax’s POV:It was his job to make sure Tiffany had no chance of getting anywhere close to Amelia, and by the looks of him, he deliberately let this happen.I’m absolutely seething with anger as I try to speak up without killing him on the spot. “You had one, job. Why did you do this?”Tonya stands panicked next to her brother, trying to keep him from saying the wrong words or at least act remorseful, but there’s not a single inch of remorse on his face.“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” he tries to pretend as if Tiffany had surprised him just as much as me. As if he hadn’t seen her coming on time to be able to warn me, causing me to growl at him. The way he leans leisurely against the wall, with one knee bent and the one foot stemmed against the wall, his hands in his pockets, the entire posture in this situation is driving me insane. It seems like he couldn't care less or feels like I deserved this.“Not only as your Alpha, but also as a friend I trusted you,” it hurts me eve
Hi everyone, I haven't forgotten this book.Covid just has been a real b*tch. While I thought I was getting better finally after 2 weeks of Covid, it suddenly spiralled down a lot again. Seems like my other ilnesses have made me very vulnerable. Even if this is my 4th time with Covid, it hit me nearly as bad as the 1st time.Currently, the high dose of cortisone and some oxygen are starting to help. The fever also has come down again. So I will try updating very soon.We're so close to the end of this story, and I feel really bad about not being able to update for so long decently. I hope you understand. Lots of love Jackie♡♡♡♡
My eyes still linger on Jax’s distraught face. Fear of what might have happened to Sybil and Emily or any of the others is nagging at me. But with the knock interrupting us, I know I’m not getting my answer from him right now. I huff slightly in annoyance.“Come in,” Jax calls out. I’m surprised that whoever is there even waited to be called in. Usually there’s only a short knock, and the people enter.Balloons, a huge amount of floating balloons attached to a string, get pushed through the opening door, covering everything behind it. I move left and right, trying to get a glimps of who this might be before the balloons finally move aside and give the view free to my best friends entering the room. Upfront is Ben with the balloons, then comes Tonya with a huge bunch of flowers, followed by Jenny with a tray of cupcakes, and Freddie holds a small teddy bear with "get well" on it. The last one to enter is Alex, holding a huge box of fancy looking chocolates in his hand, giving me the bri
Amelia’s POV:I wake up in an unfamiliar, dark room, but the smell of wounds and disinfectant biting within my nose tells me exactly where I am. I’m obviously at a hospital. Memories come flashing in on me. “Jax!” I sit up abruptly, with my heart thudding violently in my chest. I start throwing the blanket from my body. Panicked, I try to get out of bed until a voice and a hand pressed against my shoulder stop me, and the hand presses me right back into place.“I’m here. I'm here, my love,” I hear his sleepy, deep, and husky voice. “You need to stay in bed.”Without saying another word, I throw my arms around his neck and sob hard against his chest. “I thought……. I thought….I lost you. I thought you were dying,” I cry in relief and pain at the same time. The mere thought of losing him has me totally shook up and causes a pain in my chest, literally taking my breath away. My fingers dig stronger into his back, and I pull him harder into me, making sure he’s really here and not just an
Jax’s POVI feel warmth and power flooding my aching body, relieving the pain and soothing all my senses. Taking deep breaths, my lungs finally expand and fill with air again decently. I was sure I was suffocating only moments ago, I was sure this was it, that I was dying. But then I could feel her, I could feel her love, her power, her body pressed to mine, pulling me out of the dark place I was captivated in. She’s the sole reason the pain is gone, and I’m able to breathe again.Amelia! Without having opened my eyes, I can feel something is terribly wrong. I stir and try my hardest to pry my eyes open. “Amelia!” I choke out and shake her limp body, which is still wrapped around me. “Amelia, wake up!” Nothing happens. It’s then that I notice all the others around us, at least a part of us.Memories of what happened crash in on me, and I remember being buried alive and a sheer amount of bricks coming down after an explosion. By the distraught look on the other faces, I know the situati
“Jax! Jax! Jax!” I call out repeatedly, verbally but also through our mind link, feeling like I'm going out of my mind.No reaction. I can’t even feel him trying to connect with me in return. All I can feel is pain and cold. With Ben and Alex hot on my tracks, I pace through the chaotic state within the arena as fast as possible. I don’t even take much notice of what Emily and Sybil are doing right now.“Amelia!” I feel a little relief seeing Tristan limping towards me. But my heart drops the moment I realise there’s no Jax at his side. They were together. Jax should be with Tristan.“Where is he? Where is Jax?” I question panicked as soon as I reach Tristan.“He…… I…….. He saved my life,” Tristan chokes out, but his words just make me even more nervous. “Then, where is he?” Don’t get me wrong, I am absolutely relieved that Tristan is alive and Jax saved him. But my guts twist into knots, seeing that Jax isn’t here next to him.“He…. He pushed me aside just on time before the bricks c
“The Gold moon Alpha is gone,” one of the warriors calls out, realising the same as I did moments ago.Jax pushes me further behind him. His eyes are scanning the entire place. The longer he’s scanning it, the more I feel him tense. We all know it’s a very bad sign. Drake steps towards Alana and shakes her, seemingly trying to get her back to normal, but I doubt he’s able to shake the possession out of her. Watching him act with her, I wonder if he loves her. If he ever truly loved her? There definitely has been more between them, but it doesn’t look like he cares in the same way for her as she did for him. I can see that now. They were both hungry for power and traded their mate bond for it. From what I know now, Tiffany did the exact same thing. She rejected her weak mate because he wasn’t good enough for her. Instead, she wanted the powerful Alpha with his pack. Drake and Alana both wanted my power. They somehow knew about it.My grip tightens on Jax. For nothing in the world woul
I’m startled by the loud roaring voice echoing through the arena. Jax, next to me, still seems to be searching for the source of the voice, while I am staring at the man causing it. He may be in his early fifties. I know I’ve seen that face from far off on some of Drake’s events. Even if I wouldn’t know him, the facial features are a dead giveaway of who he is.“This gathering is against any agreement we made,” he bellows across the arena angrily at Jax. “You declared an open war to me by dropping my daughter. This is your last chance to rectify the situation. Send that worthless mutt away. Banish her from all pack grounds, make her the rogue she truly is, and I will reconsider a war with you,” the Alpha of the Gold moon pack demands.The crowd, that had been cheering moments ago, now turns silent, looking back and forth between Jax and the Gold moon Alpha, waiting for what is to come next. Jax’s grip tightens on me.“I am sorry if I hurt your and your daughters pride. It was never my
Hi everyone, I had intended on finishing this story this year. Unfortunately, a lot has happened the last couple of weeks.My health has been quite bad. The surgery on my dog has taken a toll and a lot of time, as we've been spending every second at the vet for 3,5 weeks now. Last week, her stitches burst open again. Which needed further treatment. And when things go wrong, they totally go wrong. My electrical wheelchair device totally broke down, too. All of it is taking a toll on my health and is taking a lot of time. My head hasn't really been in the right place to write.As Christmas is also coming, I ofc also have those preparations, which are even more difficult with my broke down wheelchair. So I hope you'll understand that I need to take a little time off. The next update will come on January 1st. To those of you who celebrate Christmas, I wish you a happy and healthy Christmas time.But ofc to all of you others too, have an amazing time. Thanks for your patience. And if y
Jax’s POVI called in an urgent gathering. Most of my people have already met Amelia. The most important ones were at the safe house. But the situation has changed since. At that time, things were still a mess, but now we’re engaged, and she’s officially the future Luna to this pack.Amelia walks up and down the hall nervously, tugging at her clothes. She’s wearing a dark blue pencil dress, Tonya has picked for her. Making her look like a businesswoman. “Do you think they will hate me? I mean, they all knew about Tiffany. I don’t have all that money she can provide or the power of the pack……” she trails off while fidgeting with her fingers.A soft chuckle escapes my lips. “Are you serious right now?”She looks surprised up at my tiny outburst, unable to understand why I think this is funny. I take her hands in mine and gently caress the ring she just had been fidgeting around on. “Amelia, you have more power than any of us. You are the true werewolf queen, the true Luna to all of us.