After over an hour of trying to feel my wolf, I was getting angry and over it, but Brax just kept pushing me to keep trying. He told me repeatedly that if I could get a hold of it and control it, it would benefit me in the long room and apparently not hurt as much when I shift into one.I was starting to lose control of my emotions again, frustration and anger fighting their way through."I can't do this" I stood up, throwing a rock at the water in a fit of rage. "I do not have a fucking wolf. This is a waste of him."Brax stood there staring at me. "You're right. This is a waste of time because I've been going about this all wrong. Your wolf is driven by your anger," he grabbed my hands, holding them in his. "I need to make you angry for you to connect to your wolf."I stared at him in disbelief, feeling confused and apprehensive. "What do you mean, make me angry? How is that supposed to help?""You are a naturally nice person who doesn't like conflict, so it only makes sense that yo
He grabs my hand, pulls me to my feet, and leads me out of the room and down the hall to a staircase I hadn't been up before, but I'm only guessing leads to his room. I let him guide me up there, coming to two big double doors. He pauses in front of them. "You don't have to, but I'd love it if you spent the night with me."It wouldn't be my first night with him, but his question made me nervous for some reason. I hesitated for a moment, unsure of what to say. But then I looked into his eyes and saw the way he looked at me; his eyes were filled with love and want. Seeing that he wasn't trying to hide his emotions made me want to stay with him. I would have to get used to sleeping next to him if I was going to be the mother of his child and, hopefully, one day, his mate again."I would love to," I replied with a smile, feeling a wave of excitement wash over me.He opened the doors and led me into his room, which was even more beautiful than I had imagined. The bed was large and inviting
I felt at peace that night, falling asleep in his arms. Every worry that I had faded away, and I was back to feeling how I had before Kane had ripped me away from Brax. The sun was rising, and when we finally went to sleep, we spent most of the night entangled in each other's bodies. When I woke up, Brax was gone. I knew that he would have had to go and tend to some pack business or something. I pulled myself up, grabbed a shirt, and put it on before heading to the door to see if the coast was clear so I could get back to my room without being seen. I opened the door and got a scare because Eve was standing on the other side of it with her hand up, ready to knock, scaring us both. "I um", she clears her throat. "brax asked me to bring you some clothes".I nodded, feeling a bit embarrassed at being caught by Eve. She handed me the clothes, and I quickly changed them before heading back to my room. As I walked through the house, I couldn't help but feel a sense of contentment and happ
As soon as I was done talking with Brax, I headed to the library to start working out a way to bring Ava back; Pearl joined me. She thought having two people reading would be better than one. I had to promise her that I wouldn't zone out and let my powers overtake me, which was a lot easier said than done. It also meant reading was a lot slower than it could have been, but I accepted the help, knowing this was not something that I could do on my own. We spent hours pouring over books, researching different spells and rituals that could potentially bring Ava back. Drawing her spirit out of my necklace was the easy part; the hard part was going to be finding a way to put her spirit into something since we didn't know where her body was, and from everything I had read, it wasn't a good idea to use her body anyway every book that spoke about bring people back from the dead made it very clear that using a body that had been dead for some time lead to horrible things. Pearl offered her in
The feeling of Brax gently kissing my forehead woke me up. With a smile on my face, I slowly opened my eyes to see him standing there, staring down at me."Good morning, beautiful," he said with a warm smile. I couldn't help but blush at his words, feeling butterflies in my stomach.I sat up and wrapped my arms around him, pulling him close for a hug. "Good morning to you, too," I replied softly, enjoying the warmth of his embrace.We stayed like that for a moment, just basking in each other's presence before finally getting up to start our day together. I had a feeling that today was going to be a beautiful day.Brax sits down on the bed next to me, gently brushing away the hair that's covering my face. "I have to go to the pack house today to do some work. I've arranged a doctor's appointment for you. Nick will take you, then he'll bring you to the pack house to have lunch with me."I only just noticed that he was wearing a suit, which he always does when he goes to the pack house,
I stay there for a few minutes, pulling myself together, before gathering my things and going out into the waiting room. The lady at the front desk handed me all the paperwork I needed, giving me a warm smile as she did. Nick stood up and came over to me. "Come on, let's get you over to the Pack House to have lunch with Brax." I could tell by the way he looked at me that he knew I was struggling with my emotions. I didn't speak in the car; I just sat there staring at the papers on my lap. I had so many other things to worry about, and I couldn't let myself stress over this when it was something I had no control over. I had to pull myself together before I sore Brax. I knew that if I walked into his office sad and worrying, he would fuss over me, and right now, I didn't want that. Nick walked me into the pack house, taking me to Brax's office. "Alpha has been called out, but he won't be long. He told me to get you to wait here for him." Nick pointed over to the lounge in his office.
As soon as we pulled up out the front of the house, both Dillion and Nick jumped out. Nick came opening my door. Both he and Dillion stayed at my side as we walked into the house, both of them on high alert. Once inside the safety of the house, Nick called all the guards and gave them their orders before coming back to sit in the living room with all of us. I couldn't stop worrying about Brax, praying that he was safe and unharmed. Nick sensed my anxiety and placed a reassuring hand on my shoulder, giving me a small smile."he'll be okay. He deals with this kind of thing all the time," he said softly. I nodded, trying to believe his words even though the fear was still gnawing at me from the inside.I looked around and saw that my family wasn't there. "Where are Mum, Dad, and Jack?"Nick looked around the room, noticing the same thing I had. "I'm not too sure where they are" he looked back at me, seeing the worry in my eyes. "I'll have something. Go find them and let them know what's
I couldn't go to sleep that night. The thought of the strange wolf wouldn't leave my brain; I didn't bring it up to Brax I didn't want him to start worrying over it. I knew that Nick and Dillon would have told him everything they knew. As the sun started to rise, I looked over to Brax, who was peacefully sleeping next to me; I felt guilty for having a connection with another wolf, like I was cheating on him, even though it felt nothing like it did when I first met Brax. Letting out a loud sigh, I rolled over my eyes caught the book from my pack that was sitting over on the bench next to my window. It called to me again like it had when I first laid eyes on it. Getting out of bed, I made my way over to it, sitting down in the window, picking up the book, and opening it to the page where I had left off. The words seemed to dance off the pages, drawing me in once again. It was a distraction from my thoughts of the mysterious wolf, but it also brought up more questions about my own abilit