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Mixed Feelings

Author: Emthegem
last update Last Updated: 2024-09-04 14:59:57

-Karen-

I waited a few more minutes and got up slowly. I crossed the short distance from the bed to the small window and watched as the sun dipped behind the ocean, allowing darkness to cloak the sky. I could see Taurameras high above the town, and the stars started to dot the darkened heavens. I love the light of Taurameras at night. Its soft light is so beautiful! The city was eerily dark below the palace. It left me with a relatively empty feeling as I thought about the many people who must have died in the attacks. I shook my head as the sadness continued to eat at me.

'I could just throw you to the soldiers. They would love to get a piece of you…' The words echoed in my head as my throat became tight with emotion. And that is precisely why I don't expect to have a happy ending. I could hear yelling down the hall but ignored it while I cried silently by the window. I wrapped my arms around myself as I stared out into the darkness. He is just like Lewis, but he was more than okay w
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