Determined To Die (Part 3)

-Karen-

I slowly woke up curled up to a wet pillow again. I cry even in my sleep… How have I not dried out from all these tears? I tossed the pillow to the foot of the bed and watched it fall off onto the floor. I’ll hold onto this one. I pulled a different pillow from behind my back and latched on to its semi-warm fabric. I had the feeling that I was being watched. I sat up slowly trying not to use up the small amount of energy that I had. I looked over at the center of the room and saw Joanne watching me silently with a sad yet concerned look on her face. “You should leave, Joanne.” I ordered plainly. Sister or not. “I don’t want you here.” I don’t want anyone here. I just need to be alone.

“I can’t leave you Kay... Roger put me on suicide watch last night.” She replied sighing sadly. Lovely. I just need to find something sharp so I can cut the big vein in my neck. I should be able to bleed out in a minute… “Everything is going to be just fine Kay.” I scoffed at her. No, it’s not!!