Pressure is one of the compensatory illnesses in the heart that may indicate a worse heart problem, high pressure is always the indication of something to worry about, and at this moment standing naked in front of Amber, I feel like I am having a high pressure within me...or I just simply feel pressured...her question is indeed squeezing me tight right now!"I-I don't know...I am not sure, I-I have been working for twelve years in different hospitals so I may bump into you somehow...I don't remember now, I am sorry"I said still controlling my arms from shaking while she is just staring at me that way, damn, I am not good at this, I manage to act normal and simple like I don't know her at all since day one but right now, her questions, somehow making me realize I am not really good on acting.Seeing her silent makes me really want to go to move and make a step a little and speak again."This has been a long day for me, can I just go home instead..."I said and then face the washroom a
Between two important things, how will you weigh which is which to prioritize? standing and staring at the patient in bed three, my mind is now playing with that thoughts, looking at my watch I can only have one and half hours for Frances's surgery, but this patient in front of me, without further tests yet, I already have the idea of what he is suffering from.I just swallow a deep breath and then walk toward the patient."Hi I am Doctor Esther""Hi Doc, I am Rina I am his wife, he is George""Okay, George, can you tell me how you feel right now? any pain?""Well aside from the sudden change of my color, I always feel pained in the back and in here, also I feel bloated at times"The patient said I am about to say something when his wife speak."Oh and I want to add, he seems very lethargic and low energy, you see he is the only one who works in our family, but these past days, he cants go to work anymore""Because there is something that causes him that and that is what we are going
"Charge 300!!! Clear!!!""Oh god Lisa please hold on!!!"And then I go back doing the CPR but the patient isnt responding anymore, the heart stops and so I need to call it.I look at the clock and then announce the time of death.I am still exhaust doing all I can but I guess not everything we want isnt entitled to happen, as doctors, as much as possible we need to avoid patient's death but the word avoid is overrated! dealing with death...or simply dealing with what we dont want to happen.At this moment when my patient die I just couldnt take hearing the relatives crying, yes I should be get used to it but I am not, I need to escape my ass from it.Still feeling exhaust I walk towards the cafeteria and have some sugar liquid, it really helps my brain to get relaxed.It has been four days after knowing what my bestfriend Monica tries to do with Amber, I dont know but I just couldnt believe she will end up doing that, stealing my position in Amber's mind, pretend to be me is just unfo
Opening my eyes felt like I have been sleeping for a hundred years, I feel tired and exhausted for some reason.I try to look around and it is dark, really dark, until she appears in front me, this woman without face, she keep on talking to me but I cant hear it, I cant even hear a sound, what is really going on!?My eyes starts to get wet, I feel like I am going to burst out in tears...hmmmm sob*sob*hmmm...why is this happening to me?"Dad..."I keep shouting for Dad but he isnt around until I heard it a sound..."Tooo...toot..tooo..toooot!"And then my eye open...shit! another dream again, or I can say nightmares or just a fractal of my memory that I have lost two years ago.That moment when I woke up in the hospital, I barely can move, I feel like I have something within me...my chest hurts, my heart hurts...I try asking myself what happen to me when Monica appear at my door, a person I dont even remember I met.She is all smile greeting me, I have no time for that, what I want is
When people say changes is risky considering you are afraid of disturbing of what you have used to be done, or what you used to see or feel, opening my eyes in a very different mood, damn, I feel happy, I feel not the one I am used to be, after that night with Amber, when we become open and I follow Vannie's advice, I just let what will happen and just see the outcome and here it is, I am smiling like idiot!Everything I have right now with Amber, I never had or felt before, this is really different, our initial time before our relationship happens is just so fast, we just go with what we think off, we never try to think first, we just had a small talk and then we are good until our relationship sucks, I never know the real Amber within, she never knew me as well within and now things is just...things seems to be in process...it isnt so fast but we talk a lot...we do arguments...I am not sure if this is for the better or not, but I like the flow...I kind of like the changes somehow."
As I burst out in tears last time when Cara died, seriously I never got a good sleep after that, I was out of work for two days, Amber keeps calling me but I have no time answering it, I ask for chief Gilbert's approval of nightshift.Standing in front of the hospital after two days, I just let out an air...here we go...another shot Esther...you can do it! talking to my mind is enough to make me go on with the whole shift.Heading to the ER I can see that there are lots of surprises that I missed!"45 years male complaining a chest pain""Put him in bed four""Hi I am Doctor Esther, what happen to him?""He is my Dad and we just having a dinner and then he suddenly passed out after complaining a sever chest pain""Do you have a history in your family having a heart problem or suffering any chest pain?""I am not sure, but I never seen him complaining like this""Okay, we will run some test for him, we need to check what is going on the nurse will come her and then assist you, I will o
"So, what do you think Amber would like for dinner?""Hmmm she is a good cook than I am, well, I guess whatever you cook will do""Why it seems like you act distance on her at some way...you are friends there is no need for boundaries right?""I am not acting distance Mom...I am just trying to be cool with her I mean she is my boss""Oh god, you know how much I know you sweetie, you like her... a lot...now tell me if I am wrong"And now I am stop with that thought, the word like is not the issue now, she is wearing the face and the body of the person I am in loved with but she is not her...she is way different, so I am not sure if I like her, maybe, within me I am, but I cannot go far with this, she never mention to me that we can go far either..."I like her as who she is, as friends, she is nice mom but if you are asking about the other things, I dont think she is really what she tries to show me""And how would you know that, you both not even get there, you two never talk about it
"What do you want me to do? I said I dont like her! I dont want anything about my past!""But Amber honey, you cant escape the past! soon you will still remember everything and Monica can help you with that!""I will decide when that happens! and will you please, I am not the old me, I am still shock with what you all trying to say, I was as straight as pole as I am before, I never been what you all think of me! and I will sure that!"I said sternly and then end the call, I dont know why she needs to iterate that part on me, yes I feel like I want to be on with Esther but...I still have something within me, I know I am not what the world tries to tell me...If who really I am, I will be the one to discover that! I am now heading to their house to pick her up going to work when my cellphone rings and it is Dad."Hey Dad""Hey sweetie, how are you there?""I am doing good though mom never stops""Oh, what can I say, you know her, just dont get her words to your head""I know, so is the
No secrets can be hidden forever, truth is meant to be discovered, and that reality is what I am prepared for, I said I am willing to take Amber's hate towards me for not telling everything...but I am...I am scared...looking around me, I feel like I am at the deep of the ocean...I can't breathe and Amber is reaching my hand but I can't move my arm to hold her hand...and then I woke up..."Esther...! Thank god you are awake now!!!"Mom said and I roamed my eyes around and I can see that I am in the ICU.My head hurts so much and I feel like I have slept for how many years!Mom is in tears now until Vannie and Felisa came to me."Esth!!! Oh god!!! Hmmm sob*sob*hmmm oh my, I just can't believe this! Hmmm, you made it hon!!!"Vannie said with tears in her eyes, I have never seen her like this, she is crying so hard and hon? Are they seriously together? But...I am just, wait...Amber...where is Amber?"W-Where is...where is Amber?"I ask and I can see how they stop after asking where she is
After a sort of chaos and rumbling in our life, do we still know how to restart? Does anyone have able to have another chance? Looking at George and Hellen having a good time now, Hellen seems to be a piece of wonderful music in George's ear, right now, I just couldn't believe either that Esther can handle that very dangerous procedure with just Chloe on her side.For that, I have planned something great for her, about our deal, well originally she should fulfill it but I can't just let her do the thing, I need to give her what she deserves as well so I want to surprise her by going on a vacation.She is so busy at the ER right now so I call her mom to bring some of Esther's clothes and bag.I have already talked to Vannie and Felisa as well to take over everything here while we are away.Later Doctor Rupert arrives and handed me Esther's bag and then leaves, I quickly go to the ER to look for Esther and there she is, having a cool moment with the nursing staff."Hey love""Hey""Mhmm
How much can you do for love? Can you kill? Hurt others? Can you be a bad person? Almost everyone knows all that can be done by any person who is crazy about love but there is something even more strange than all, you change your personality as well as your gender just for the one you love.I can't believe what Amber share with me about George Victor who is one of the best plastic surgeons in the US, but he came back to the country for Hellen who was his childhood friend and dearest, he almost ran out of money for Hellen's treatment and had an offer a one million dollar from a gay mad patient that challenged him to something he could do and that changed his gender and he did it for money and treatment for Hellen.Seriously, I also can't believe that he would do that so even though he is a woman now and only a few people know, they just decided to keep it a secret that Georgie was a man then, her parents and Hellen accepted it, it's just too strong and unbelievable he did it for love,
I am really not a fan of being happy literally! I mean it always comes to my mind that once you are happy then sadness comes next but after releasing myself from the hatred that I have been with for a decade, I guess having a peaceful mind can also be called happiness for real.And with that being said, damn! Chief Gilbert is now returning and that means, gosh! We need to face him! I am not sure how to explain things to him but this is Amber's idea so how can I say no!The good thing is that Mom is already fine and I let her go home though her best friend aunt Aida who is a psychiatrist as well finally reaches mom so she will help her with the store and stuff if I am not around, I mean isn't full well to do the heavy stuff.A few minutes and we are now here at the hospital, and I am so nervous about how he is going to react, I mean we had a deal after all!We both head to the chief's office even though I am feeling nervous so much!"Hey relax!""I am scared! What if he won't understan
They say that when you study well, your understanding will expand, and you will be able to understand things and situations more easily, but what if the situation itself is the one that drives you not to be understandable?When I finished crying so hard in Amber's car, I could hardly forgive myself when I saw the tragedy that befell mama's store, the neatest and most beautiful convenience store you'll ever find. here in our area.I just can't believe that's what happened because of those bad people, the Sandoval family, even though I wanted to strike them too I restrained myself, mom was the only one who faced all their allegations and all the shits they did to the store."Everything is my fault, if only I follow her instruction, dad would still be alive today""No one wants that to happen, things happen for a reason, but all that Sandoval's rage to your family isn't right! They should be punished, ask. your mom to file a case and I will support you""That is what I plan to do, I will
When things got broken, we fix it, when a torn paper we buy a new one, when it already cannot be used, we replace it, we can all do something for everything, all our mess can always do something about it, but in reality, in people's lives, not all broken can be repaired over a night, especially if it is a broken soul...a damage heart and mind.Looking at Millie talking to mom, I know she needs it, after all, she has been through, she needs comfort, and she needs a very good psychiatrist that can somehow fix her traumatic experience, though it comes to my mind, is there someone can fix a broken heart and mind? How about a broken soul?"--love! Are you okay?"Amber suddenly asks while I am in my thoughts."Yeah! Of course! Ahem, why?"You are zoning out, I am telling you something but you don't seem to listen""I am sorry, maybe I am just tired, it is just almost one hour left before the end of the shift""Yeah and that is exactly what I am trying to say, I need to go back to the office
They say anything sharp, heavy or fast things can kill you aside from having an illness or being sick. but what if you don't have all the description but rather the feelings you have...Trauma, depression and anxiety that when it will mix all means creating a poison that will easily kill you within.I am looking right now at these couples with sadness on their faces and tears in their eyes. I can feel the mother's pain while explaining what happen to Millie."W-What are we doing here Ma'am?"Mr. Dollan asks which cuts me from my thoughts."Right! Ahem okay, I just want to ask you if you really know or not about what is going on with Millie, because the way we see it, Millie is suffering more than an illness""What do you mean?""This might be very hard to hear and to accept but we think that your daughter is a victim of a bully in the school, this is an act of violence especially if it comes to a point that they will seriously injure her""Bully? Hmmm, I guess you are right, the way th
Determination and pain, they say once you aim for something you need to be determined in doing it but be aware of pain along the way, because not everything we want we'll get...and for that idea, I am now in the middle of deep thought so I seek my girlfriend's advice!"You mean her husband knows that every time they do it, she is in great pain yet he doesn't bother about it?"Amber said."Kind of like that, all this time Kelly believes that her husband doesn't know about it yet she is willing to bear all the pain for him""And once she knew, it may hurt her more""Yes, this isn't about being hurt or what, her life is like a ticking bomb right now, anytime it will explode and that is the end!""I get that part Love but, you can't just tell her he knows without proof that he knows! Medically and physically proof as much as possible!""Should we go investigate first?!""You are being sarcastic! I am just trying to be fair here and to save you from impending patient complaints!""I am not
"I miss this!""I am fucking miss this too!"Amber whisper while pressing me on the wall and kissing me hard on my neck down to the collar bone, she is sucking my skin that made me moan and ask for more!Slowly taking off my shirt and bra and both my mounts are now showing, Amber squeezes it hard and I love it!Sucking and licking my nipples is what I really miss, now she is totally making me naked and lifting me as I hugged my legs on her waist, she starts moving to go to her room and gently put me down on the bed."Faster love...I do miss it when you make me cum!"I said in a very seductive voice looking at her while stripping in front of me, she quickly make a move especially when I open wide my legs."Damn you, woman! You really love doing this to me huh?"She whispers while crawling herself going to me kissing my skin going up and then stopping between my legs.Before doing what she wants to do she gives a spare second to look at me first."It going to be wet"She whispered."I p