"Jill, how are you doing?"
I closed my eyes and sighed to myself at the question of Cathy. It's been months since Laurie's death but the pain is still here. I don't know when I will be able to move on from the loss of my best friend.
Maybe never. But life must go on.
I adjusted my sunglasses and nodded at the guard who opened the glass door for me.
"I'm still in the process of accepting everything, Cathe. I missed Laurie so so much." I bit my lower lip to keep myself from crying.
"When will you be back here? I missed you so much, Cathy. I need you here."
"I'll be coming home next month after I closed the deal here. I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you. Laurie has been closed to me too."
I pushed the elevator button and it started moving upwards.
"I know. She's like a sister to us. How I wish you're really here with me. Good thing Von was with
Trigger Warning! Blood and Suicide."It's so quiet. Is Sandy really here? Did you call her?"Von nodded at me while reaching for the phone in his pocket.We are outside Sandy's house but it seems like there is no one home. The gate is locked, the windows are all closed and there were no maid or any people in sight."She's not picking up but I'm positive that she's inside. I keep her in check in case of emergency and they told me that she didn't leave the house since yesterday."He put back the cell phone into his pants and reached for the handle of the gate. It's not locked. The design is just an illusion that it is locked.Von motioned me to come first before he followed after closing the gate. We approached the front porch of the house while I heard the sound of clanking keys."You have her keys?" I asked while I watched him put the key on the keyhole."I always have this in case of emergency
"Do you knowwknow you are asking me to do? No, Jill. I won't tolerate you this time. Enough is enough. Let the natural process of law take place."I did not blink and stayed still and then I raised my head in defiance."I wasn't able to save Laurie. This time, I'll make sure to save Von even if it means finally letting him go."I bit my lips and let my tears flow."Please help me, mom. Just this one last time, please."She closed her eyes and sat on a separate chair in our living room. After the police ask me questions which I'm too pale and shocked to answer, my mom pulled out some tricks and brought me home. I asked her about Von but she didn't give me any good answer.I sat next to her and held her hands as tight as possible."Please, just this once. After this, I'm going to do anything you wanted me to do. You want me to work in the company forever? Fine! I'll do it. I'll do anything you say just please help Von. I can't tak
"Thank you."My steps faltered when I heard the voice of Sandy talking to Von inside the room. My hands fell to my sides and I abandoned the plan of pushing the door open. I didn't come in as I wanted to."Don't mention it. I told you already that I won't let anyone harm you."I heaved out a sigh when I felt my chest constricts in pain."I'm sorry, Von. I'm sorry about your brother. Believe me when I say that I tried helping him but he became out of control these past months. I'm sorry.. it's all my fault. If only I have told you before then it wouldn't go as far as this."Sandy sobbed uncontrollably."Shhh.. it's not your fault about what happened to him. You don't want it to happen either. No one wants what happened. You only protected yourself. It's a self-defense. Don't worry. Brad is already conscious. I'll make sure that he faced his remaining years in
"Jill!""Cathy!" I screamed hard when I saw my cousin's figure emerged out from the arrival area of the national airport.Cathy's face seemed glowing when she saw me. Leaping forward into her direction, I hugged her as tight as I could before releasing her."I missed you so much, girl!" I exclaimed and scanned her face. Cathy lose weight which made her look prettier."I missed you, too! It's been what? Almost a year?" She outstretched her arms in the air and inhaled for air. "I miss my hometown! I miss everything here and of course, I miss you!"I giggled and hugged her again. We are attracting attention from the people but we do not care. I'm so happy to finally see her in flesh after how many years of being separated.With our arms on each other's waist, we walked to the exit where a car is waiting for us. Mom arranged for someone to fetch Cathy
"Cathy, I'll be there later after an hour. I just have to run some errands for my perfectionist mother. You know the drill about Madam Divina. She gets everyone so worked out."Cathy chuckled at the line and quickly dimissed me. She said that she will do the report first while waiting for me."I didn't know how you do it Cathy but I'm so glad I'm not you."Cathy laughed. "And I'm also glad I'm not you, Jill. I can't see myself being foolish just for a guy!""Uh-huh. You are not going there. I'll hang up. See you."Five minutes more and I am parking outside Von's residence to give him the paper myself. My mother said it's a very confidential matter so I need to take it myself. I didn't ask for any further questions. Even though I promised her that I will do everything she wanted me to do, I'm still having a tug-of-war relationship with working for the company."Sorry Ma'am Jill but Sir Von instructed us not to receive any guest for now."
"Stop meddling with my affairs, Jill. Go home or go to work. You will never get anything worthwhile from involving yourself to my life."He stood up and walked to me to get the envelope but out of my frustration, I tore the document into two pieces and handed them to him. Von gritted his teeth and threw the papers on the floor."What is wrong with you?!" he roared.That's when I knew that I can't take it all in anymore. With my eyes blazing hot in tears, I stood up and faced his wrath."What is wrong with me?! You! What is wrong with you?! Why can't you see all that I've done for you! I've done everything for you Trevor just so you could give me a part of your heart! I've done everything for you but your eyes are still glued to Sandy! Can I ask what did she do for you to love her that much? Can you compare it to what I have done for you? Can she die for you? Can she help you like I did? Is she willing to give up eve
"I told you already, Jill. I warned you the first time you told me about your fascination with Von that you should never expect your feelings to be reciprocated by someone who still has hang-ups for his ex."I poured myself another whiskey and drank it all out."I know, Cathe. I know! But what can I do?! I'm stupid and madly in love! How can I caution myself to be out of his life when all of me is screaming for him! I love him, Cathy! I fucking love him!"I wept and howled at the same time while thinking about the disaster that had happenedCathe sat by my side on the floor on her room and snatched the glass away from my hand. What was supposed a visit to the newly opened spa turned out to be a crying session in her pad."Jill, I will tell you a secret only your mother knows.""What is it?" I asked in a ragged voice while I put the bottle on my mouth. To hell with the glass."Von and I had a past. We had a relationship dur
I am definitely back where I began but this time, it came with another twist.I'm now imprisoned in the promise I made with my mother to work in the company. I did not have the luxury of time to cry for another day because she put me on the front line out of the blue.I'd like to think that she did it on purpose but I know she doesn't know about what happened between me and Von. I don't want to tell her at all because I'm done asking for her help. What I want is to prove to her that I can do this starting now.It's also a good thing that I'm too absorb in the work. No time to think about how hurt I am.Sometimes I get myself astonished. There are days when I would stay up until the wee of morning crying until it's impossible to close my eyes while there are days when I felt like it all happened years ago. I tried to maintain my latter's disposition but the minute I wake up in the morning to go to work, the voi
He smiled which melt my heart."I know you have heard me offer it to you countless of times. Only now did I realize what an asshole I was for doing it but Jill, this asshole will shamelessly asked you now if you could spend your life with him for the rest of the days?"He got down on his knee and offered me the ring on his necklace. "Will you be my other half for the rest of our eternity, Jill?"I choked on my tears. I don't know why but something is telling me to give in, that this is the time I was hoping and praying for.Without further ado, I nodded and offered my hand to him. His tears fell which made the whole proposal more emotional than ever."Thank you, Jill. You will not regret it. I promise you."With shaking hands, he put on the ring to my equally shaking finger. We both looked at it with sigh and contentment in heart."Finally, you are mine again."He closed our gap and kissed me sweetly. He didn't try to open my m
The coast is as white as snow and the water is crystal-clear like it's waving at me to take a dip. The scenery is very beautiful. Everything is sparkling. There were just a few people around since the resort is a very exclusive one. I met the owner earlier who is a friend of Trevor.The father and son tandem were all long gone from our beach room and were enjoying swimming at the waters. I can see them from the terrace of the house. Trevor was teaching Zeus how to swim. I smiled when he put Zeus into his shoulders and swam.This is the greatest sight to behold. Seeing these two guys having the best time in their lives, just simply having fun.It's just sad how I can't be with them now. Earlier, they convinced me to swim but I refused because I'm not really feeling well. My head is throbbing with pain. I took a pill already so the pain is subsiding. I didn't tell them about it because I don't want to spoil the fun.
Trevor did stand true to his words. He proved to me that he is worthy enough to give my trust back to. Day by day, he showed to us his true colors. He was there in our life every step of the way especially for Zeus.I also saw the video clip he gave me. True enough, it was Sandy who initiated the kiss, not him. I was just too angry that time that I failed to believe his reason.Every day, he is the first person I would see first in the morning because he drives from his home to mine every dawn to drive me to the office afterwards. Sometimes, he cooks breakfast for the three of us whenever he arrived too early in the morning.And this morning is one of the many days that I woke up to the aroma of his cooking.“Good morning,” I greeted him when I was at the entrance of the kitchen. Trevor is in front of the stove, mixing whatever he’s cooking in the pan from which the mouth-watering fragrance is coming from.He looked up to me and smiled
I barely had any sleep during the remaining hours of the dawn so I just rose from the bed to start my day early. My mind was still left to Trevor. Why can’t he just drop it all so we can each live a peaceful life? Everything would be easier from then on.In the end, I still chose to understand him because I know the feelings. I was once in his shoes back then. I know how hard for someone to be yours. If there's anyone in the world who can truly understand him then it will be me. Actually, I have been thinking and trying to understand him and now, it’s all gradually sinking it to me.I was just sitting on the porch having my coffee while waiting for Zeus to wake up when the man in my mind appeared in the doorway carrying a bouquet of flowers in his hand and a box of chocolates in the other. He looked so fresh and handsome in his casual shirts and pants as if he had not cried and begged to me a few hours ago. He walked to me and kissed my head like nothing happened a
I can’t sleep the whole night. I was just tossing around my bed staring at the wall clock. The rain is still very hard outside. I also lost count about how many times I have peeked through the curtains to check if Trevor’s car is still outside. He is still there and he won’t stop calling me so I have to block his number and tried to go to sleep but the voice in my head won't stop bothering me.At two am, I can’t really stop myself. I picked up an umbrella and went outside. I braced myself for the gustiness of the wind and the heavy pouring of the rain butJbut I braved through it. I opened the gate and I saw Trevor emerged from his car and met me halfway.“Why did you go out? Go back to sleep. I’ll just be here. We will talk tomorrow,” he said when he stood inches from me soaking in rain. Exhaustion and sadness are what characterize him now.He didn't touch me. He stepped back and put his hands on his pockets not minding the strong pouring of r
"I shouldn't have put the idea in your head. That was so stupid of me. I'm sorry. It's all my fault. I should have thought about your history with the man.""No, Cathy. Don't blame yourself. It was all on me. I made my own decision. I was an adult who is very capable of deciding on her own."She sighed and caressed her growing tummy. Sadness is all over her pretty face."I really thought that everything will be going as what I wanted. I am secretly hoping that you guys will make up and then get married before this year ends. Jill, I don't want to leave you like this. If I could just stay here forever for you, I will gladly do so.""Cathy, you have a life you need to live, too. If you are only doing this because you don't want to leave me alone then forget about it. I have Zeus. He's all I need. I'm a grown ass adult who runs a multi-billion business. This is just a passing moment for me. I have surpa
I was brimming with so much hope in my heart when I came here. I was so ready to tell him that maybe we can all start over again. I will tell him that as I have thought it all through, I realized that I wanted to give him a second shot, that I wanted to give our son a complete family.But all that has been shattered in an instant when I saw him kissing not just any other girl but Sandy, the woman whom I have been always insecure and wary about.The hope I am feeling earlier went out of the window instantly upon witnessing this heartbreaking scene. I can feel my heart breaking and being blown into pieces. It's like all my energy has been sucked out from my body and I cannot even lift a finger to them.I took a step back and gasped. The two heard me and looked at my direction quickly. Trevor's face was remarkable. His mouth just opened wide and his face is so pale I could paint something on it. There was a considerable fear in his eye
“Zeus, do you really want your daddy to live here in the house?”“Of course, mommy. I want daddy here with us.”My son took a car out of his piles of toys we bought yesterday courtesy of Trevor. That guy even rented the whole space so Zeus could have all the toys for himself.“But baby, this house will be smaller for us now. You won’t have the whole place for yourself. Do you like that? Are you okay with that?”He nodded and broke the leg off the toy.“It’s okay for me, momma. I want dadda here.”“But dadda is so noisy. He will wake you up all night.”“No, momma. Dadda is not noisy.”“Really?” I put him on my lap and pinched his cheeks. “But daddy will take some of your toys. You okay with that? Hmm?”&nb
“Cathy, what do you think?”“I think it’s perfectly fine. It’s about time you stop pretending and give your heart a break from all the restraining that you do. I don’t see anything wrong with being happy, Jill.”I wiped off the sweat from my head using my wrist and continued working out.“What if it’s just another trap, Cathy? I can’t risk my heart for the second time around, Cathy. I will lose my mind.”Cathy got up from her stretching routines to drink water from the bottled water on the floor of my personal gym.“Everything is a risk, Jill. Every decision we make is a risk. On my side, you know how I was protective of you. if I have sensed any tiny irregularity with his intention to you, then I will be the very first person who will be on his way. But I can feel and see that he is very sincere of you Jill even before knowing about Zeus. We can’t say that he just did it for Zeus. He loves you, Jill. You know in yourself that it’s true this time.