I took a long sip from my coffee cup while feeling the soft material of the chair, especially designed for me, touch my aching back. A satisfied groan escaped my lips as I let the caffeine consume me. My schedule is packed which means I have a long day ahead of me. I could feel the sheer regret inside me as I silently chastised myself inwardly for staying up too late last night. There's a brand new rom-com gay show streaming in the biggest movie site right now and I am certainly in for the current trend. It was worth it, though. I genuinely enjoyed the show and I wish I could star someday in films of that kind.But then... that's like flying to the moon. Unless I find the courage to come out of the closet, it'll remain a ridiculous thought inside my head.I stretched my limbs and let out a yawn, putting down my paper cup on the coffee table beside my chair. My eyes then landed on the lit up phone perching on my lap. I'm currently stalking the actors of the show I was fangirling to th
Matteo dragged me back to my dressing room after walking out and saving my crying face from those nasty women. I wiped my cheeks and sniveled, irritated and partly annoyed of myself. I'm sure they'll pick on me even more for what I did."Don't let those women get into your head, Astra. You know you're better and way above them. And they're perfectly aware of that fact as well," Matteo patted my head after I sunk down on my chair.I nodded softly and sniveled on the tissue paper one last time before looking up at him. "Thank you, Mat. But can you leave me alone for a while?"He nodded, flashing me a gentle smile. "Of course. I'll talk to the production team that you couldn't make it to the first round. But be sure you'll be back and ready for the second walk, Astra.""I will. Thanks.""No prob!" He playfully winked at me before finally exiting my dressing room.I let out an exhausted sigh as I fumbled for my phone inside my shoulder bag. After sitting for a while, staring blankly on t
"You wouldn't believe what just happened to Astra Fontanilla.""Huh? W-what do you mean?" Curiosity and slight anxiousness immediately filled my chest. The look on his face is different. Something is telling me that whatever news it is about Astra, it's definitely life or career-threatening for her...I sauntered closely to Johnny and quickly peeked over his phone. One of his palm was covering his mouth to express his shockness over the news. JUST IN: Actress and model, Astra Fontanilla, skipped Prada rehearsals and pushed a fan off a twenty-storey building. The man, who has been identified as Devin Willson, was confirmed to be dead on arrival in the hospital. Below is a short sensitive clip of what happened that was caught on camera this morning..."What the actual fuck..." I mumbled in utter shock. There's a video attached on the post but I couldn't bring myself to watch it yet as the caption was already enough to shock me. Is this for real?! Must be a fake news!Why would Astra
ASTRA"Y-you..." I gulped, taking a step back until my back hit the double doors. "What... what do you want from me? Where d-did you even got my number in the first place?"The man took off his hat and I noticed the few grey hairs on his head. He's a grown ass old man! "I've been a fan for so long, Miss Astra." He said, now smiling calmly at me. "I do enjoy watching your works and buying your magazines. I hope you'd allow a few pictures with me?"He looked calm and genuine, as if knowing my current location and following me up here in the rooftop isn't a bothering behavior at all. And texting me?! I blinked multiple times and swallowed, trying not to panic even more.Fine. Maybe he's really just a dedicated fan who wants my picture and autograph. But will he leave me alone once I give those things to him? "Uh... s-sure. Let's hurry up 'cause I have to go b-back downstairs for our rehearsals," I croaked out.The calmness in his face slowly vanished, replacing it with a dark expressio
SIRIUSAstra snatched the paper bags in my hand as we headed towards the living room of her apartment. Which, by the way, looks like a total mess as if a tornado just passed through the place. My eyes watched her took a sit on the white stained sofa in front of the television playing a Nickelodeon cartoon show. So this is what's keeping her busy these past days? Unbelievable woman!"When was the last time you took a bath, dumb ass? It seems like a lightning just struck your hair," I shook my head in disbelief as I took a sit on the much cleaner single couch beside the sofa. "And what is this place? Can you call a fucking room service? You pathetic woman!"I heard her snorted at my ranting. Her eyes were fixated on the television while one of her hand was reaching inside the paper bag. A silent grunt escaped her lips when she found a burger in there."Really? This is what I've been eating for the past days, Sirius. Couldn't you have bring anything else aside from this? A fancy meal fr
ASTRA I fell down weakly on the concrete floor, teary eyed, catching my breath, and gripping tightly on my phone. I whimpered pathetically as I furiously blinked away the tears clouding my eyes. With shaky hands and blurry eyes, I pressed the dial button and rang Matteo's phone.There was an immediate response after two rings."Astra! I left you for ten minutes and you're already out of your dressing room. Where did you go? The first round of rehearsals will be done in a few minutes.""Matt..." I sobbed weakly after he was done talking. "R-rooftop please. I'm sorry."I pressed my eyes tightly, biting my bottom lip, trying my best to suppress the sobs wanting to break free from my mouth. I'm a killer...Matteo didn't take too long to arrive. The rooftop door burst open, and my sobs and whimpers burst free as well. I remained lying there on the ground, crying in utter frustration as I heard his loud curses of confusion, and worry.He ran quickly towards me and held my weak body. I fel
SIRIUSAfter making sure that the water was hot and boiling enough for my liking, I began pouring the pasta and filling the pot that would make a meal just enough for three people. Well, me and Astra... and an extra plate that she can reheat for later.Beside the pot was a frying pan where I'm cooking a well marinated chicken. I wanted to serve her real food that she can enjoy for tonight... and well, maybe for the next following days if I'd still be in a kind mood to keep paying her a visit.I put away the frying pan cover and flipped the chiken once I'm sure the other side were already cooked. I could feel Astra eyeing me from behind and I wanted to roll my eyes and shout at her had she just not finish crying a few minutes ago.I know she's still baffled at the niceity I'm showing right now. But she needs to know that I, myself, is quiete confused with my own actions, too! Astra cleared her throat and I turned to look at her after covering the pot and pan. Our gazes lingered for a
ASTRAI scooped a spoonful of cereal and shoved it in my mouth, merely tasting its sweetness 'cause my head and attention were focused to somewhere else.After another spoon, my eyes once again darted back to my door. It's nearly ten in the evening! What's taking him so long? I thought he'd be here earlier than he was yesterday. Now what?!I rolled my eyes in irritation before dropping my cereal bowl on the center table of my living room. Whatever! It's not like it is his obligation to come here every night to pay my ass a pitiful visit. Who am I anyway? I'm just a friend!A friend...I giggled on my seat, still utterly amused remembering his friendship proposal last night. I couldn't believe we can actually be something else other than enemies! And since I'm pathetic and I have no other friends right now, who am I to decline his offer? Even if his concern and kindness were out of pity, I'd gladly take out. I am in a very desperate position right now for someone else's company.Not th
SIRIUS"You know you can fool anyone here but not me, Sirius." Johnny blurt out of nowhere. We were in my room and he's helping me to pack up my luggage since tomorrow is my flight to Munich with Astra. My forehead creased at his vague accusation. "What do you mean?" He chuckled maliciously before zipping up my travel bag. "You like Astra."I froze for a moment before arching a brow at him. "I do, yes. You won't catch me hanging out with someone I don't like. Duh?""Hmm... I meant romantically, idiot! You like her more than you're supposed to like her!"I shook my head and headed towards the door, trying to escape his bullshit. "You're imagining things in your head now, huh? Can't a closeted gay man be friends with a dumb annoying woman anymore?""Oh, please!" He tailed behind me, laughing manically. "We both know— oh, wait! Maybe you don't! Oh, poor thing! Maybe you have yet to confront your own feelings. You're in the confused and in-denial stage just yet!""You sound ridiculous.
ASTRAI was about to call our family driver when I saw a familiar red car zooming in to the parking. I immediately recognized it was Sirius' vehicle and I rolled my eyes when he stopped in front of me. The window rolled down and I looked at him sharply before opening the door to the passenger seat and sliding in.I threw my bag to the back seat and glared at him."Where were you? You went out to grab a barbecue?""I need to take you home quickly. I have to go somewhere," his voice sounded urgent and my forehead crumpled in curiosity."What? What is it? What happened?" I said in panicked. Is there a major emergency? Life and death situation?"Reclaiming my image back because Harrison just delivered the best news ever today."My eyes widened and a joyful squeal came out of my throat. "Oh my! I want to be there!""No, Astra. I'll take you home. We're heading to the police station today. I'll just tell you about it when I get home." "But-""No buts! Let's go!" And the car zoomed fast out
ASTRAThe conference room was empty when we arrived in the floor. We went inside and sat in silence before Michelle stood up to finally say her farewell."Do you need anything? Perhaps I can bring you something to drink while waiting for the old hags to arrive?" I stifled my laughter before nodding my head. "Indeed. I'd love some soda right now."She smiled at me before finally leaving me alone in silence inside the meeting room. I looked around the place and sighed reminiscing the times where I used to sit here before to discuss the positivity of my career with the executives. The huge glass-made walls of this room and the neighboring buildings surrounding us were a witness to that. Now, it is time to say goodbye to everything. I sighed deeply and shifted anxiously on my seat when I heard the door creaked open. A sigh of relief escaped my lips when I saw Matt walked in, and behind him was Michelle carrying two cans of orange soda. Matteo glared at me before taking the seat beside m
ASTRAAfter all the long hardwork these past years, and the previous predicament I've entangled myself with, I've decided that a cute long month break is more than what I deserve.I sighed deeply while sitting anxiously beside Sirius in his car. He insisted to drive me to my destination today; and the said destination is my entertainment company. This is actually a surprise visit. I never told anyone, not even Matteo, that I'm coming today. I would like to discuss my final decision about my contract renewal.And I hope they understand my decision, the fans as well..."Hey! Stop sulking," Sirius said as he started the car engine. I sighed for the second time before turning to him."What do you think I should do after this? How do you think the fans will react once the management put out an official announcement?"He shrugged. "Go out and have fun. For the latter question, of course, the real ones that stick with you during your darkest moment would be sad and disappointed. And it's nor
SIRIUS"Goodness! Wake up!" I groaned sleepily before forcefully opening my eyes to find Astra glaring hard at me."Get up and move to your own sleeping space which is the floor. I already made your bed, your majesty. Now move away 'cause I would like to rest," she demanded with a hard glare."Huh?" I said absentmindedly as I was too consumed by sleepiness. "What time is it?""It's one! The nurse just left to check on Dad. And you slept throughout the third episode! Remind me to kick your ass in the morning.""Oh, please. Cringey ass show," I mumbled as I groggily get off the sofa and straightly launch myself on the floor where my bed mat and pillows are already waiting for me."You're welcome, dummy.""No probs."It was too late. So of course, it's only reasonable I'd wake up later that morning as well. I felt disoriented and utterly shock to open my eyes to Astra's father already in his conscious form and even glaring down at me!I quickly rose to my feet and hurried to the bathroom
ASTRAIt is what I deserve. Have fun and have a good time. Or at least that's what I keep telling myself. "Your boyfriend seems like he need a ten hour sleep," the man said out of nowhere while wrapping up my order. It's been three hours of constant walking and stopping by in every shop we bumped into. And now, I'm hungry. I decided to buy us a burger meal while Sirius sat down on the bench nearby as he's been repeatedly complaining about going back to the hotel. Annoying! I want to stay some more! I chuckled at the man's assumption about my relationship with Sirius. I handed him my payment while I grab the tray of food from him."He's my husband, actually. But you're right, he looked tired as always," I giggled at my own lies before turning my back from the stall and walked towards Sirius. As I expected, he began complaining about his aching feet and the shopping bags. Of course, I'm not that heartless so I let his complains won this time. We can always go back in the following d
SIRIUSAstra snatched the paper bags in my hand as we headed towards the living room of her apartment. Which, by the way, looks like a total mess as if a tornado just passed through the place. My eyes watched her took a sit on the white stained sofa in front of the television playing a cartoon show. So this is what's keeping her busy these past days? Unbelievable woman!"When was the last time you took a bath, dumb ass? It seems like a lightning just struck your hair," I shook my head in disbelief as I took a sit on the much cleaner single couch beside the sofa. "And what is this place? Can you call a fucking room service? You pathetic woman!"I heard her snorted at my ranting. Her eyes were fixated on the television while one of her hand was reaching inside the paper bag. A silent grunt escaped her lips when she found a burger in there."Really? This is what I've been eating for the past days, Sirius. Couldn't you have bring anything else aside from this? A fancy meal from a steakho
SIRIUS I glanced at Astra beside me. We’re at the dive bar and drinking for a bit. But it seems to me that she’s not very good in handling her alcohol. My forehead creased watching her eyes blinking slowly. “Dumb bitch. Go home,” I whispered to her after taking a sip on my canned beer. Why did she even have to tag along with me?! I’m here to find myself a guy right now! She shouldn’t be getting in my way! Now I’m sure everyone here thinks she’s my girlfriend! I snatched the beer in her hand and grabbed her on the arm, getting up on my sit. “Let’s go, I’m walking you back to our villa. Go to rest now.” “That sounded dark,” she joked chuckling, and just letting me drag her without any protest. “You’ll come back here?” She asked as we finally stepped out of the bar. I shook my head as I glanced at the louder pub just two shops away from the bar. There’s a dance club, too. That’ll be my target. “No. I’m going to see the club.” She giggled and clung onto my arm, a gesture she’s alwa
ASTRAI dove straight on the soft mattress of my queen sized bed after taking a long shower. My body feels drain from all the shoutings I did today in the ride park. It was honestly a very fun experience with Sirius, and I hope it isn't the last time we'll hang out.A satisfied and contented sigh escaped my lips. I feel refreshed. For days, all I did was cry and feel anxious about everything. Nobody was there for me so I'm truly grateful having his sassy ass with me right now, even though I'm not sure how long he'll be staying to tolerate my presence.I yawned sleepily when I slowly felt the heaviness creeping up on my eyelids. I turned to face the other side of my bed and switched off the lamp on the bedside table, then I pulled the blanket up to my chin. The loud ringing of my phone woke me up the next morning. I groaned and tried to sleep through the noise but it just won't stop until I'm irritated! With a sigh, I sat upright on my bed and scratched my eyes while blinking rapidly.