Chapter 12

Theo has lost his appetite. He was so hungry and now, sitting with the tray in front of him, he couldn't take a bite. It was his own fault and his emotional needs, which made his heart sink when he read that a friend had brought lunch for Sebastian.

Sebastian was straight and the lunch guy was just a friend. Just that, a friend. He had friends too. He had Sarah right there at Cornell.

Despite not seeing the logic, Theo was jealous of Sebastian's friend. He wanted to be the one to bring Sebastian his lunch.

He couldn't be in love with Sebastian. He had only seen him one day. But in just one day, he faced his bullies, he took him to lunch, hand in hand, he introduced him to his friends, he had dinner with him and even saw the room problem solved. A day that felt like a month. A day that makes Theo's heart skip a beat every time he remembers it.

He had to get his head straight. Convince himself that it was impossible. But what his head told him was very different from what he felt.

Taking the tray whose food he didn't touch, he puts it on the carts, to go to the kitchen helpers to be washed.

He leaves and goes to the library, but first, he goes to the restroom to pee.

As usual, he avoids the urinals and closes himself in the last bathroom stall.

There wasn't a student inside, and the silence took him back to Sebastian. When he's done peeing, he doesn't groom his cock, but closes his eyes and starts massaging it. In his mind, Sebastian was smiling at him, wiping his tears, holding his hand. In his mind Sebastian was holding his chin and pressing his lips to his. In his head, Sebastiam held his cock and gave him a handjob, never stopping kissing him, pressing his body against the wall, tasting his mouth. The restroom door opens and two boys come in to take a piss, wash their hands and leave, unaware of his presence.

Theo couldn't stop rubbing his cock, imagined that Sebastian had run his fingers along the edge, along the entire length, and imagining him whispering “I love you” in his ear while sticking a finger up his ass.

Theo comes. Panting, he looks at his cum on top of the toilet seat. “I shouldn't have done this”, he thinks, but there was nothing he could do now, and he felt it wouldn't be the last time.

He grabs some toilet paper and cleans the toilet, throws the paper in and flushes. Composing himself as best he could, he went out and washed his hands and face to clean the orgasm from his eyes.

Sebastian shuts down the computer, straightens the papers on his desk, grabs his coat, puts his cell phone in his pocket and looks at his watch. 5 pm. He shakes his head, picks up his suitcase and leaves.

On the way that takes him to the Tesla, he leaves many employees amazed, unused to seeing him leave before them.

He starts the car, and goes home. He doesn't know what's going on with him, what makes him not want to work. Where was the workaholic Sebastian?

When he enters the house, he throws his suitcase on a chair and throws himself on the couch while pulling his tie off his neck. Completely lying back and looking at the ceiling, he feels unmotivated. Where was the feeling of rejuvenation he had had yesterday? He really must have been in need of a vacation, and he couldn't wait to take it.

Slowly, he gets up and, undressing along the way, goes to take a shower.

Underneath the water, he closes his eyes and feels the heat melt away the tension he feels in his muscles. As happened so often, he empties his mind and grabs his cock, to jerk off and relax. That's what he needed, some hand to cock love

He runs his fingers along the tip, shuddering at the contact, and strokes slowly, feeling himself get harder and harder. Empty mind and hands on the cock. It was the best time of the day. But his mind wasn't empty for long, and without realizing it, Theo materialized in his thoughts. Standing in front of him, watching him touch himself and smiling. Theo's image approaches him and caresses his chest, going down to his cock. Then he brings his mouth close to his chest, and with his tongue, he licks down, slowly, until he kneels down and licks the tip of his cock. “I'll take care of you”, Theo says, and he's mouth swallows his entire length. Sebastian feels the tip hit Theo's throat, and hears him gag. Sebastian's hands grip Theo's curly hair and he forces his cock into Theo's mouth, fucking his mouth violently.

Sebastian comes and when he opens his eyes, he realizes what has happened and panics.

-What the fuck did I just do?

Sebastian gets out of the shower, puts on his pajamas and lies down on the bed, not hungry or wanting to do anything at all.

He didn't understand how his usual hand job turned into a nightmare. He wasn't gay. Even if he had some curiosity, which he didn't, it wasn't about a kid he wanted to help.

Sebastian comes to the conclusion that this must be the reason. He knows the kid is gay, Sebastian's an ex-jock, his head knotted with being too lazy to work and the result was him jerking off thinking about things that had never crossed his mind before.

He needs to do everything he promised the kid, hope the kid finds a boyfriend, and be happy. Only then could Sebastian rest and stop worrying. Too much worry about Theo, add with Sebastian's personal sex life, Sebastian handjob personal sex life, it's the reason for that shit.

The big problem now will be when he finds Theo again. The shame he will feel for unwittingly using Theo to do a handjob.