I felt like I was finally free. I could no longer feel any of my body parts. It was like they had all found their safe haven and left me, like my parents, like my adoptive family… like Ethan.
“Hey, can you hear me?”
I heard a faint voice in the dark endless path I was walking on.
“Please, wake up.”
The voice had sadness in it and it ached me hearing them.
“I am sorry, please don't go.”
I knew that familiar voice, but I could not figure out its owner.
“Please Zayla, please don’t leave me.”
He sounded like he was crying, like he was pleading.
“I love you.”
Just then I felt like a fish who’d been caught on a hook. I was immediately pulled out of the darkness and all I could see was a blurred figure of a man until I realized I was coughing really hard.
“Zayla? Thank god! Are you okay? I am so sorry Zayla. I will accept all of your punishments, just don’t leave me. I love you Zayla. I love you.”
His words roamed around my head before I was dragged back into the darkness.
Flashback
I was already in my junior year. The long sophomore year ended very fast. The class monitor, Hannah, became my break buddy. She was from our neighboring country’s pack. Her wolf came a year before she joined the school and now she was a pro at it. However, even she could not avoid our natural instinct to sometimes shift without any control over our wolf. And here I was. My wolf seldom came like it just wants me to know about its existence but does not want to be with me. Nothing new.
Hannah’s father was the Beta of the pack and her parents wanted her to get an education where she could be safe. So they changed the entire country and sent her here, a place where none of her packs' potential enemies could harm her. Lucky Hannah to have such parents. We were always together. And when I wasn’t with her, I was with Ethan.
“Wow girl!” Hannah watched me like I was her new favorite piece of art. “All of this effort just to meet Ethan for a simple class project and yet you still deny having feelings for him.” She stated and I chose to remain silent.
She was the closest friend I had at school. Someone who, despite always sleeping and being absent during lectures, was always present for me. But I had never learnt to trust anyone.
I knew Ethan was not just another normal guy in my life. I knew my heart had placed him above everyone. Equal to Hannah if not above her. But even after knowing it, I still couldn’t admit my feelings for Ethan in front of Hannah or even Ethan himself. They meant no harm, I knew it. They would never mean any harm. I believed it but again, I had never learnt to trust anyone.
I saw my reflection in the mirror and Hannah was right. I was dressed a tiny bit too much to meet Ethan just for a simple class project.
“What, you are now ignoring my question?” Hannah questioned, rolling on my bed, hugging Mr. Calm. It was a stuffed pink pig toy that I bought after coming to this new school. In the first few days, I hardly interacted with anyone and even though I showed like I preferred loneliness, it was very lonely for me to continue to act normal. And one Saturday as I was visiting the market, I spotted this toy and bought it immediately. Ever since that day, Mr. Calm has been my cuddle buddy. The one who fills the void.
Later, indeed, I got close with Hannah and Ethan, but no one could ever replace Mr. Calm’s position in my life.
“You know you are spending a lot of your time in my dorm room more than your own right?” I asked in an attempt to divert her question.
“My room does not have Piggy and you know that.”
I sighed after hearing her answer. “His name is not Piggy.”
“He is one, though.”
“Don’t you have to prepare for the project too? Is Liam going to be doing the work for you both?”
“Whatever, I did not ask him to choose me as his partner anyway. He brought that load onto himself.”
“But still you could contribute a little.”
“I definitely could, but I don’t want to.”
“Hannah go.” I said, more like ordered.
She rolled the other way, ignoring me.
“No more Mr. Calm for you if you don’t.”
She grunted and lazily got up from the bed.
“If you weren’t my best friend, I’d kill you for using Piggy against me. You know that right.”
I chose not to entertain her anymore.
“Plus one last advice before I go.”
“This is the first advice you are about to give me,” I corrected.
“Okay, one first and last advice before I go. Even though you are not admitting the fact that you have feelings for Ethan, I know you do. And I know he does too. Or else he wouldn’t have chosen you to be his partner in the first place out of all the other girls who openly show their interest in him. So you better let him know too before its too late.”
“With that logic, are you saying Liam likes you too?”
She was speechless for a second.
“I hate you,” she left the room closing the door with a loud thud.
He likes me too?
We had to meet each other in the evening and we’d planned to work together in the school library.
After checking myself in the mirror for almost a hundred times, I was on my way to meet him. It was like I had forgotten that my life would never be happy and peaceful for too long. So, that day I was brought back to the painful reality.
Just when I was only few minutes away from the library, Nory and her soldier minions blocked my way.
“Going somewhere all dressed up huh. I wonder where,” Nory smirked and I froze seeing the evident rage and jealousy in her eyes, the eyes that were adament about destroying me.
I was petrified. I was too scared to retaliate. So all I could do was run away, like always.
But one vs many was a battle that could easily be predicted. I was caught soon after and was dragged to the school’s storage room, where not many people visited.
I never knew that it was then when the real humiliation started. Those girls started tearing my dress with their long nails, giving out evil laughter. I struggled, but was no match for them.
“You dare come in between us.” Nory slapped me hard on my cheeks and the claws scratched my face.
"Ahh!" the sound of pain escaped my mouth.
At that moment, I did not know whom to call out to, whom I should expect to come and save me. I was all alone and miserable.
Just when I was losing hope, dying at the humiliation and hating myself for being so pathetic, the storage room’s door crashed open and fell on the ground like it was a simple plain unattached wood.
Behind it stood a man with golden eyes that were sparkling with rage and thirst. Thirst for blood.
The girls immediately backed down and I ran away from them. Just when I was about to exit and run pass the man, his hard palm held my hand and pulled me towards him. It was at that closer look that I recognized him. The face of the man I had crush on for more than a year. The first ever person my heart fell for. Ethan.Ethan calmed down seeing me, his pupils were turning back to its natural color, but then again his eyes fell upon my scarred face and my disheveled clothes. My brassieres were clearly visible and the claw marks on my chest looked deep as blood stains were still fresh. Those thirsty golden eyes appeared again and I knew what they wanted.“Ethan. I am fine,” I touched his face with my palms and made those eyes focus my eyes and nothing else.Ethan was someone who hated fights, who hated blood and who hated killings. He was someone who preferred being locked and chained than being involved in violence. I did not want him to be the monster he loathed so much. Being the son
I was terrified hearing his words.“I am sorry for crossing your paths. I promise I will never do that,” I said, still shivering.“Oh baby! We are not at all disturbed by the fact that we met you. In fact we are glad,” he smirked and I felt disgusted.He picked me up and threw me on his shoulder like I was a sack of rice and immediately transported to an area I was stranger to. His other friends followed behind him.When he stopped, I immediately struggled. Trying to free away from him and started calling for help.“Help. Anyone please. Help me.”He started laughing. "No one’s around baby. No one ever comes anywhere near this place. It’s all booked for us.”He dropped me on the ground and I fell on my knees.“Please let me go. Please don’t hurt me. I am sorry,” it all felt like déjà vu. Two whole years have passed and I still had not escaped from hell. Before it was my adoptive father, now it was these bunch of a**h****.The muscular boy walked forward and jumped on top of me. The str
I was running. In the wild I was all alone. I could not see but I know I was being followed. I could hear voices, reaching near me, catching up to my pace.You will like it baby. *Endless laughter*I could not see the faces, not a single soul, but I was running on an infinite path like my life depended on it. I could feel my heart come up to my throat. I huffed, I was tired, but I did not stop.Those voices followed me no matter where I ran to, no matter which path I took, it lingered around until I tripped on a log of wood and fell.That’s when I woke up. I was still breathing hard, my heart still throbbing forcefully against my chest, my hands still shaking in fear. But I was all alone. Nothing that could possibly harm me was around, but that still wasn’t assuring, I was petrified.After a lot of debate, I walked out of the tent and went to sit near the fireplace. It was all silent. The other werewolves had still not come back.“You can’t sleep,” I jumped hearing the voice.“Oh! You
It had been three years since I came to this school and it had been three years since I first met Ethan.“I don’t know.”“What do you mean you don’t know? You guys are literally a couple only waiting to make it official. Everyone in the school knows it that you both are a perfect match.”“I am not sure.”“Are you still thinking? If I were you, I’d confess him the very day incidents with Nory happened.”“Hm.” Hannah was right. I shouldn’t have waited so long.“It’s the prom and his birthday after midnight. What better setting to express your love?”“I am not sure. What if I am not his mate?”“You surely are. The way you guys met, the way you guys care for each other and the way you both look into each other’s eyes, there’s no way in hell you guys aren’t meant for each other.”“Forget about me and Ethan and focus on your date tonight.” I order in an attempt to change the topic.“Whatever, I am not going.” She rolled on the other side of the bed along with Mr. Calm.“Hannah Scott.” I sta
The prom was as expected; beautiful people and more beautiful attires. Hannah also arrived with Liam and I swear I’d never seen him so happy ever before.Nory and her soldier minions were also undoubtedly there and they glared upon seeing me with Ethan but didn’t dare to do any more tricks on me.I was glad and proud with the fact that I had him to protect me. Trust me, I don’t support damsel in distress characters, but I also know the importance of having someone who looks after your wellbeing. Ethan was that person in my life.There was still time before the couple dance and so I walked into the restroom to re-touch up my makeup. I looked at my own reflection and breathed hard. I can do this.When I walked out to the hall and it was exactly midnight. I looked around for Ethan but he was nowhere in sight. I asked few people inside the room but no one had seen him. Almost ten minutes passed by but he was still not around. I did not know what to think or what to expect. I wanted to be
Ethan’s p.o.vZayla. That was her name. I met her for the first time today and I don’t know why I felt the want to be close with her. She had just transferred to our school and I never knew I could be so jealous. I wanted to have all of her for me, exclusively. No, I am not the maniac who craves for physical pleasure and that is not why I want her. It is like she was a strange castle of treasure and I was the knight who had to guard it.I still remember that one day, we were supposed to meet in the library for the group project, I was waiting for her but she didn’t come on time. She was always the early bird type; always before time and never late, but that day, she was late by several minutes. At first I was thinking of all the ways I could tease her for being late and committing a henious crime, but my heart wasn’t enjoying the wait. It was telling me that maybe, she is not late, that maybe she was in danger.I walked out of the library and called her but she didn’t pick up her phon
We went back to the tent area and Hannah approached us immediately at sight. I felt uneasy and embarrassed with her questions so I straightly walked to my tent to grab another pair of shirt for myself.While I was in the tent, I used the werewolf power and heard their conversation. I heard Zayla shout. She was never the one to shout. I again felt angry at those boys for pushing her to her limit and making her like this, but then again, I knew that at some point in her life, she had to learn to speak out loud.I laid back on my mattress and stared at the clear sky through the transparent ceiling. I don’t know how long it had been but then I heard her tent chain open. I wanted to rush out immediately, but stopped with the thought that maybe she was going to the bathroom. But as I waited for a long time, I did not hear her come back. Negative thoughts reappeared in my head and I rushed out but was immediately calmed down seeing her sitting alone by the fire.I noticed she was still weari
Almost half of the people in the party were drunk and the other half were chatting, mostly with their date. But here I was. All alone. I regretted not running after Zayla, but Bethany’s words swirled around my head. I did like it when she kissed me, or precisely, my wolf liked it when she kissed me. The pleasure was far above the one I had when I kissed Zayla, but that was not love. It was crave for pleasure, not love. I loved Zayla, and I don’t know about my wolf, but my heart wanted her. “Hey Ethan.” My dad approached me and for a second I was happy I got a distraction. “Congratulations once again. I just finished my talk with Bethany’s dad in my office. Her was very happy that you were her mate.” Or not. “Dad? I love someone else.” I told him the truth. His support was one thing that could cent percent help me fight this mate thing and go back to Zayla. “What?” “Yes. I know Bethany is my mate, but I don’t want her. I don’t love her.” “You will Ethan. Give her some time. You gu
I slowly walked back towards the bed and knelt down beside her. I don’t know if what I was feeling was because of the mate things or if it was truly me, but I felt deep resent towards myself for everything. Maybe she did deserve this hate and pain or maybe she didn’t but I couldn’t get myself to leave the past the way Alex wanted me too. I couldn’t pretend as if everything was okay. I couldn’t be the Gabriel that Zayla had first met. And I would forever hate myself for that.Zayla’s p.o.vI opened my eyes feeling immense pain in my head, like someone had hit me with a metal rod. The surrounding around me looked all unfamiliar. It wasn’t my room.I could feel something pressing my hand down and when I looked for what it was, I saw a large beautiful manly hand placed on top of mine and then… I saw his face.Sitting on the floor with one hand gently holding mine and head resting peacefully on the bed. He was the man I wanted to call mine until yesterday, until yesterday he was supposed t
Gabriel’s p.o.vThis morning when I woke up, the first thing I saw was her face and the wounds on her forehead and lips. They were still fresh. I was too drunk last night and I couldn’t recall anything. But still I knew that it was because of me. I was the one who hurt her. And as much as I wanted to have her in my arms and treat those wounds myself as I beg her for forgiveness, I couldn’t do that. I couldn’t forgive her first. I couldn’t forget Albert.“Drinking on an empty stomach so early in the morning huh?” Alex pulled the chair beside me and sat on it, breaking my musings.“No one called you here.”“I am aware. And this is a public bar. One can come uninvited. This is how this place runs.”“I am not in the mood Alex.”“Whatever… you just got married yesterday and here you are drinking like a complete loser.”“I said I am not in the mood.”“Forget the past Gabriel. You loved Zayla without knowing that she was related to Albert. And he is gone now. So forget the past and move on.
I was done fighting back. I was done wishing for happiness. I was done with life and everything I ever believed in.I did not know what it was but I felt like my life was cursed. I must have committed a heinous sin in my past life to suffer so much in this one. But still, never in the past have I ever had the urge to give up. I had always hoped for a good future for myself. But at this very moment, I knew I had none in my destiny. I was born to suffer. And I knew I would die the same way.As I was thinking about the cruelty of life, I felt a heavy load drop on top of me.Gabriel had lost his consciousness.I felt a little sense of relief that I was not taken by force. That I still had my purity with me.I pushed his heavy body on the other side of bed and breathed the air of relief. But then again I slowly turned towards him, towards the face I had trusted my life on, and now towards the face I would resent forever.Seeing his sleeping face, I recalled all those night we’d spent toget
I didn’t realize for how long I was asleep until I heard loud commotions downstairs. I could hear it was Gabriel’s voice and it felt like he was scolding the maids. I was startled when I heard glass breaks. So I sat up and got out of bed. When I reached to the door and opened it Gabriel was already approaching my way. I was shocked seeing his attire; he wasn’t wearing the coat from this morning, the shirts weren’t tugged in properly like before, his neat gelled hair was all messy and he wreaked alcohol. “Did you seriously get this drunk on our wedding night?” I asked him as he entered the room. “Oh I am so sorry Zayla. Did you want be to be sober for something?” he said with a smirk. His sarcasm wasn’t hidden. “Let’s just talk tomorrow.” I closed the door and walked pass him but he grabbed my hand. I tried to break free but he grabbed them even more tightly. “Gabriel leave. You’re hurting me.” “Oh did I hurt you?” he left the hold and raised his hands up in surrender. But the
“You nervous?” Hannah looked at me through the mirror, her hands gently rubbing my shoulder.“I am.”“You sure about this?”“Hannah," I turned away from the mirror and held her hand. “I love Gabriel. Not because we studied together and he was only guy who cared about me, but because he would risk his life to protect mine. I love him. I am sure about this. We both will be happy.” I assured her.“Does he know about the prophecy?”“No. I haven’t told him anything. I don’t want to-”“But Zayla-”“Please Hannah. I want this. Please just be happy for me.”“I am. And trust me, I will be the happiest when you prove the prophecy to be wrong.” She hugged me and I hugged her back.“I will finally have a family I can call my own.” Tears over took my emotion.“I wish you a happy life with Gabriel.”I had no one to walk me down the aisle so Hannah asked her dad to accompany me and he happily accepted. He’s always called me his second daughter.“You look beautiful Zayla.” Hannah’s dad hugged me and
The lunch went smooth from that point onwards except for Aunt Anna leaving early without eating anything. She gave her blessings to Hannah and Liam and left. The food barely went in my mouth and down the throat.Hannah’s mom tried to divert my mind but that was not possible. My mind would never get over all of Aunt Anna’s words. I knew about the prophecy before, I did but back then it was just a story for me, like a bedtime story for a child. But after knowing what happened to her, I couldn’t let go off this bitter feeling in my stomach.But still the thought of parting from Gabriel never occurred in my mind. I was slowly getting used to him in my life. He was one person who’d think of my safety before his own. I might be the weak one but Gabriel would make sure to nothing happens to me. I was sure of that. I trusted him. I loved him.I took my leave from everyone and headed back home with a downhearted face.First Gabriel had ghosted me and then all of the things that was said at Han
For the next one week Gabriel’s behavior towards me was becoming more and more suspicious. I felt like he was drifting apart but when I confronted him, he swiftly denied me and gave a peck on my lips every single time. I wasn’t convinced but I did not suspect more too. “Gabriel?” I asked lying on the bed in his arms. “Hmm?” “This Friday Hannah’s parents are coming to the city and she has invited us for dinner together with them. Her parents have always been very sweet to me and I would love for you to meet them.” “Sure love.” He agreed but he had no any excitement in his voice. “If you are busy that day then I can say no.” “No need love. They are important to you and you are important to me.” He gave a peck on my lips and turn around, facing his back against mine. I felt odd yet again. The Gabriel who used to hug me, cuddle with me all night was now sleeping right next to me facing the opposite direction. What changed Gabriel? I wanted to ask him that question but I couldn’t.
Without wasting any more time, I got dressed and we both went to the Julia’s fashion house.The minute we entered, we instantly knew that it was the best wedding decision we could’ve ever taken. The way the beautiful dresses worn by mannequin welcomed us and seeing all those white wedding dresses hung on the cloth bars as we walked further into the store and watching all the other high-class to-be-bride trying on their bridal gowns was a view one could never get tired of.“Hi ma’am! Do you have an appointment?” a lady in a neat black suit and pencil skirt greeted us with a tablet in her hand.“Yes. It should be under the name Zayla.”“Zayla?” she started scrolling through the tablet screen but frowned. “I’m sorry ma’am. We have no reservation under that name.”“But that is my name. My fiancé booked an appointed today.”“Then could you tell me your fiancé’s name please?”“Gabriel.”“Sorry ma’am. We have no reservation under that name too.”“Are you sure Gabriel told you to go here TODA
“Hannah just left and you are already taking to some other girl?” Ethan had a teasing tone. “It’s Zayla.” I did not speak. I wanted to hear how he’d react, but even he did not reply afterwards. Maybe even he does not want to talk to me. After all, after all these years, we indeed have nothing to talk about. “Amm Liam, I think I will hang up the pho-” “Zayla?” I heard my name... from his mouth... in his voice. “Hey, I could’ve given you the phone if you’d asked me politely. No need to snatch.” Liam sounded frustrated. “Zayla? You there?” I heard his voice again. “Yeah.” I managed to speak. “Hi… Ethan.” “Hi Zayla! How have you been?” I was searching for words to reply to him when the doorbell rang. “One second, there’s someone at the door,” I asked Ethan to wait as I went to open the door. It was Hannah. “You don’t know what happened girl-” I covered her chatter box like mouth, hinting her to be quite. “It’s Hannah... Could you tell Liam that she’s here? He must be worried