I thought I'll never be healed again. I'll never trust anyone ever again. And most importantly, I'll never give myself to someone again, atleast not willingly. After my first heartbreak with Jason. When everything he did to me, I never thought to found this beautiful life ever again.But here I am, tonight, in totally different place. With a complete different person. Having the most beautiful experience of my life. The person I have love the most with my everything. And I was truly ready to give him My everything. Both emotionally and physically, wanting nothing in return but him.Everything about him made me feel alive. I can't see him but I can feel the way he looked at me like I am the most beautiful girl he has ever laid his eyes on. The way he touched me like he wanted to saviour me. And the way me made me feel... loved, it was just so overwhelming.He made me forget all my worries. All my self doubts. He made me wonder 'why was I scared again?' And most importantly... he made
I don't why I felt a fear in my mind all of sudden thinking about my past and Brandon's sudden change of tone. "It was always beautiful and those were my most happy days. But after my accident everything changed. I changed, people changed and so did the circumstances." I said to him. Whenever I think about my past, I automatically start to think about Jason and how he treated me. But my Brandon is not like him. Jason called me useless and pathetic but Brandon calls me Sunshine. His Sunshine. "And your friends. Any special friend." He asked me again. Why is he asking me all this? I can't tell him about Jason, he is not a good memory to share. He is also dangerous now. "I have some close friends. Kelsey, Grace and I even attended Grace's wedding. It was the last time I met her." I told her, thinking about what happened after her wedding. Sometimes I think about her also. Where would she be? How would I be living? Does she also hate me?I felt his hold getting tight all of sudden. I
Lightning bolt followed with thunder roaring from outside broke my trance of thoughts. I open my eyes and tilted my head to the side of the closed floor to ceiling glass window to look out. It's completely dark outside and it's getting windy. The night sky is cover with even darker clouds. And the storm is probably on it's way. Maybe it's going to rain tonight.Guess, even the weather is describing my feelings....I have no idea what time it is, or for how long I keep standing there, in the same position, against the wardrobe, thinking about nothing and everything. But with my legs shaking terribly, and my body almost getting numb, I know I needed to sit down.With another bolt of lightning it finally started to rain, and not within a minute, the heavenly smell of wet soil reached my nostrils, giving somewhat peace to my unsettled mind.I wish my life would have been normal. A little atleast. Then I would have been enjoying the rain outside, maybe with Brandon, like normal couples do
You know what's the best part about kissing Brandon? It's the feeling that comes with it. The feeling of kissing someone you love, with your everything. It's always like the first time. Like our very first kiss. I can still feel the sparks in the kiss, the butterflies everywhere inside my stomach. Exactly like the way when we have kissed for the first time, on the terrace garden of our school. Our lips moving slowly but passionately against each other with my hands circled around his neck while I think about old days. And the thought of our first, clumsy, and awkward kiss have me smiling against his lips. How stupid and naive we were... "What's making you so amused, babe?", Brandon adjusts his weight on his both hands over the mattress as he finally leaves my lips to meet my eyes. A small amused smile playing at the corner of his own wet and swelled lips as well, which I know is exact replica of mine– Thanks to all the kissing we have had done today. "I was thinking about our f
There is a time in everyone’s life when things change. For the better and for the worse. Changes in friendships are always a bad one. And there is no person reading this who has not been heartbroken or distanced in friendship. The distance comes either when you grow apart, someone changes or there is some misunderstanding. Well, in all the cases, there is one thing in common: it hurts.How do you feel when people who you considered close to your heart, no longer behave or make you feel that way? It's not something that they say which upsets you. It is often that something someone "does" that upsets you. It is not always that you speak to them about it because, well, everyone is an adult!Things can change within a blink of an eye. It can be that someone whom you called your best friend, backbitched about you. Or your buddies did something that was surprising to you in a bad way. The funny part is, you see people doing things and acting strangely, which for them is absolutely normal,
I grabbed her arm in an iron grip. And she sucked her breath when I tug her and swirled her into my chest and held her progressively like she was going to fade.She stood rooted to the ground, frozen because of my sudden movement. I was holding her wait possessiveky and our body was pressed against each other with her hands on my chest.I leaned to her just let myself drowned into her intoxicating and pleasant scent. I could hear her harsh breathing. I kissed her head so passionately, that I forget everything around us. That only matter is us. She snuggled into my arms even more. Taking in the overwhelming comfort it gave me, it felt like my heart is about to explode. I felt so secured. It felt home. She is my home.I pressed my lips so passionately against the top of her head. "You are my home, Sunshine." I murmured softly. I blink my eyes and pulled her a little, her heart pounding loudly in my ears, overwhelming joy flowing through out me. I made a stepped back to looked into he
Claire's pov Yesterday night was different. It was not like our usual passionate love making, it was kind of rough. Like Brandon wanted to tell me or himself that whom I belong too. He doesn't have to say it or show it. Without his any demand I have surrendered myself to him in his love. Because he took me back to life, so he has all the rights in my life.Yesterday when he asked me about my past life, it had two aspects. One I don't want to remember and another I miss many times. I miss going out by myself, I miss seeing the bright sky, shining sun, people, gloomy flowers, going to the mall, meeting new people and my friends. Thinking about my friends….I am still thinking about Grace, ...how is she? What must she be doing? Maybe she has kids by now?Is she also blaming me for what happened with her family?Truth be told, I sincerely think that there’s no getting over losing a best friend, especially a best friend whom you’ve loved so much, was there with you through the best and
I dialed Brandon's number again but he was not taking my calls. I don't know why I'm not feeling good. I kind of feeling nervous, a kind a fear in my heart. Or it just happens everytime I saw the same dream or the same nightmare. One can never get his past behind him because the memory of the past is always in someone's mind.Soldiers who have fought in various wars many years ago occasionally dream that they are still fighting in the wars because the memory is still in their mind.People who have gone through bad childhoods and bad marriages still have the memories of them and would like to erase those bad and painful memories but unfortunately they cant.As long as you have those bad memories of the past that bad past will always be with you because it is still deep inside you.I think all of us wish we could get rid of these painful memories but unfortunately they are there to stay.We may try our best not to focus on them but they are still there and often come up in our sub - consci