"It grieves me to think there are people misunderstanding my heart on an issue.”
~♡~
I didn’t know what was wrong with him. He seemed completely fine when I talked to him last night. I was happy that things were going fine between us but he threw me out of his house in the morning.
I didn’t know if he even felt the need to help me when I fell. I thought he’d try to be a little more gentle and caring. I don’t know why he’s being like so mean again.
I decided to not go to school because I was going tired of all that was going on in my life. Moreover, I may have to face Parker, which I don’t want to do.
“You’re not going to school, sweetie?” My mom asked me when she saw me sitting in our backyard.
“No. I’m tired mom,” I said her.
She came to me and sat beside me. “You want to talk about it, Chloe?”
I looked up at her and smiled. “How did you know I need to share it?”
“I’m your mother, sweetie.” She said and smiled back.
I chuckled and took her hand. “I’ve been having a bad time these days, mom. And something really bad happened to me last night.”
“What is it?” She asked, worried, as she clasped my hand in hers.
I slowly pulled the long sleeve of my shirt and showed my injured hand. She gasped with shock and took my hand in hers to see it.
“Oh, my god. What happened to your hand?”
I ended up telling her everything that happened from yesterday till today morning. Initially, she was happy that Brett took care of me when I needed him. But eventually, anger built up in herself when I told her what happened today morning. I didn’t tell her that Parker did this to me. I just told her that I was going hurt while coming back home.
“I think I need to talk with him.” She said. “He should have stayed with you when he knew that he’s hurt you.”
“No, mom,” I said. “It’s not his fault. I stayed with him the entire night and he’s been really good to me. He took very good care of me. And I think he just needed some space today. I don’t want you to talk to him about it. If anything, just thank him that he took care of me last night.”
She nodded. “I’ll not talk to him if you don’t want me to. I just don’t want you to have troubles in your friendship. I want you to stay together.”
“I know,” I said.
Leaving the conversation at that, we moved on with our day. After a little while, I heard our doorbell ring. My mom was not home, so I had to get the door. Moreover, she said she’d not be here until late so I wonder who it is.
When I opened the door, Brett already had his hand fisted and hanging in the air, almost about to knock it again. When he saw me, he brought his hand down and shoved it into his pocket.
“Can I come in?” He asked when he found me rooted in my place.
“Yes, of course,” I said and moved back to make space for him. When he walked past me into my house, I locked the door behind me.
“I wanted to know if we could start working on that history assignment.” He said. “It’s a lot of work and we haven’t decided about anything yet.”
“Right,” I said. “I thought of the project and have a few ideas regarding it. We could start on it now.”
“Yea..”
“My stuff is in my room, so we better do it there. Wait for me in my room while I get something for us to eat.”
He nodded and started walking.
I said, “Take the stairs and turn right. Left side-”
“-First room with a pink striped door.” He completed it for me and the edge of his lips twitched.
“Yea.,” I said and nodded. He disappeared upstairs and the only sound that resonated was his fading footsteps.
I sighed and went into the kitchen to fetch some popcorn and a cranberry juice for us both. From what I remember, Brett and I always loved to have Cranny berry juice together. I just hope his preferences didn’t change.
When I went to my room with a tray full of food to eat, Brett was standing by my window, looking at the pictures of me. There were a few pictures of my mother, and a few when I was a kid and a few with him. I wonder if he remembers any of them.
Once we settled down, we started discussing the projects.
“So, what have you thought about the project?” He asked.
“Well, for urbanisation, I thought it would be great if we take something that no one has covered or most definitely wouldn’t have thought of. I thought we can take up the societies of young authors in the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries. We can show the progress of the stories, from oration to manuscripts, and plays too well-established novels.”
“It’s a good idea.” He said. “But how do you want to portray the terms of progress in this?”
“I wanted to show a picture of how the idea of storytelling began. It started in different parts of the world and established the commonalities of views in various segments. Stories were created as a product of imagination and vast knowledge. People liked stories because they always had a possible happy ending. It portrayed virtuous leads and ideal societies. With such different roots, stories evolved and today, we’ve come this far in literature because of the introduction of novels.”
“That’s correct,” Brett said. “But don’t you think it would be a tiring task for us to clear the questions that would arise in terms of the subject? Our focus would be diverted to the literature of various languages, and that is far from concerning our project’s major requirements.”
“True,” I said. “But we don’t have to indulge ourselves in the various dialects. We can surely avoid certain points and aspects that would focus on literature and language. We’ll show how novels or writing had become a major source of communication between various trading societies and businessmen. Trade expansions have been carried to various parts of the world through the different art forms and prints by the local men. That is a direct result of progress.”
He nodded. “Right.” He rubbed his face. “My idea was similar to yours. But, I guess yours is perfect for our assignment.”
“I’d like to hear what you thought.”
“Well,” he started. “Mine is closely related to yours, but I thought of entirely a different segment. What you included was writing, showing the prowess of the local men, but in my terms, I wanted to project the idea of progress through print culture.”
“That’s interesting.”
“We can discuss how the written evidence could be portrayed in the form of many scripts, letters, wall arts and paintings. With the development in various sciences, new inventions introduced to us different forms of literature, as in the opera, theatres, cinemas and of course, lyrical ballads and plays.”
“I think I have a better idea,” I said. “It would be perfect if we could mingle these two segments to show the product.”
“You want to interlink the novels and printing cultures?”
“Yes,” I said. “We can project the impact of the spread of technology and how social life and cultures changed with the coming of stories and print culture.”
“And how these two industries were interlinked, just like trade, and how this allowed employment and thus, leading to urbanisation of the locales,” Brett said.
“Yes,” I said.
We kept talking and discussing the projects until it was almost 9. We didn’t realise we had so many strikingly different views and how we even managed to find the similarities in our ideas. We noted down the points that were important and promised to put in the effort to make this work.
But the problem arose when we had a clash of how we’re going to present it.
“I still think it would be better if we write it, Chloe.” He said. “Almost everyone is going to type the text and submit and since our ideas are unique, our project would look impressive if we can write the whole thing.”
“I.. I can’t,” I said.
I can’t tell him why I couldn’t write. I can’t let him know the reason for my failures. He’d judge me.
“Why?” He said. “Why don’t you just write a few pages. I’m sure it’s not going to take a lot of time.”
“My.. my style of writing... It’s not impressive..” I said.
He looked at me for a while. Then he pulled out a piece of paper. “Write something on this paper. I’m sure your handwriting wouldn’t be that bad.”
~♡~
Brett.
I don’t understand why she’s not confident about her handwriting. I’m sure the matter is something else because we have been arguing over this matter for the past fifteen minutes. In our course of the discussion, she hasn’t been this insistent. But now, she’s almost against my idea of writing it. It’s not like I don’t value her opinion but she’s hiding something from me.
And I need to know why she is hell-bent on not writing the thing. What is wrong in it?
When I forced her, she pulled out a piece of paper and wrote whatever I narrated her. When I saw her paper, it was like I hardly understood anything she wrote. Her handwriting was a mess and she was often confused with certain alphabets.
Instead of d, she wrote b and for certain spelling that was similar to others, she ended up writing them. Her frequency was inaccurate and her words ended up in different patterns. I knew she was thinking that I’d judge her so I didn’t respond.
I simply said that we can talk about it tomorrow, to which she agreed. I carefully took the paper in my pockets and headed out.
While leaving, she asked me to inform her mother that she will be going to sleep and will skip dinner for now. I agreed and went down. I found her mother in the kitchen.
“Hello, Mrs.Morgan,” I called her. “Can I have a minute with you?”
She smiled. “Of course, Brett. But where is Chloe?”
“She said she’d go to bed now. She’s not hungry.”
“Oh.,” she said. “What is it that you wanted to talk about?”
I showed her the piece of paper where Chloe wrote. Mrs.Morgan frowned when she saw it but when I informed her about the whole thing, she nodded as if she understood.
“I don’t know why Chloe is doing this, Mrs.Morgan,” I said. “She will be going to university next year and this careless behaviour of hers wouldn’t take her anywhere. She should at least try to improve her writing. She can’t be this irresponsible.”
“Brett,” she said. “It’s not that she’s not trying to improve. You don’t know what she’s suffering from.”
“I want to know it, Mrs.Morgan,” I said. “Why is Chloe being like this? Her grades have fallen and she’s almost careless about it. It’s like she is not even worried about her life.”
“Don’t speak whatever comes to your mouth, Brett.” She said. “You don’t know how hard my daughter works and how broken she is right now. She is always worried about her career and despite working so hard, she never gets good grades. But she is trying her best. So don’t ever judge her.”
“I’m sorry, Mrs.Morgan,” I said. “But tell me what the problem is.”
She had a look on her face that clearly said she was in an inner battle with herself. But anyway, she gave up, “She’s dyslexic.”
"I love you, for all that you are, all that you've been, and all that you're yet to be."~♡~Brett"Dyslexia?" I huffed out in shock."Yes." She replied, unsure of whether the choice she made was wise or not. "She is a dyslexic child.""How long has it been?" I said."I found out about 2 years ago. But she did, just a few months ago." She said. "I knew she had difficulty in grasping things but it's not like she isn't intelligent. She's a brilliant student. But I failed to understand why her talent is never shown in her grades. That's when I got to know that she has dyslexia.""How.. have you been able to do something about it?" I asked."I don't know how to." She said, helplessness written all over her face. "I've been told that Chloe's condition isn't really that bad and she can correct it with professional help.""That's why she wasn't able to write properly?" I asked."Yes." she continued. "She does have any clarity about the alphabets. She needs special training for that, Brett. A
“Here’s to new beginnings.”ChloeI didn’t know if I was supposed to stay mad at mom or not. I never thought that she would tell everything to Brett and explain to him about my daily battles. I had convinced myself that my life is no less than a battlefield and I need to fight it myself. It’s not just for now, but I believe that you shouldn’t be hoping for someone else’s support all the time. You need to be well equipped, physically and mentally. We need to realise that nothing is constant in this transforming life. And we’re the only ones that can go through what life offers to us.And I’m not completely satisfied with the idea to blame my mother. If anything, she’s been an amazing mother. I couldn’t be happier to receive such an amazing human being like my mother. She has no one to share her grievances with. My dad is dead and she hasn’t been looking for any other man to marry. I asked her to focus on her marriage but she always swayed the advice by saying that she can never give me
“All you need is someone who joins in on your weirdness.”~I saw Brett as he set my study up. He laid out a few books in front of me and asked me to pick the ones I liked to study now. And then, being the nerd I am, I picked history. He sighed as a sign of discomfort flashed across his face as he wasn’t as good in history as I was. I smiled at his reaction and sat erect.“Okay, so... read this paragraph. Aloud.” He said, giving me the open book, with his index finger pointing a paragraph.“Why?” I frowned.“Just do it.” He insisted and nudged me by my arm with his. I shrugged and started reading.And obviously, it wasn’t great. I was struggling for words in between and had halted for a lot of time to read certain lines. But he patiently listened to me and watched me. When I was done, he spoke.“You did well.” He smiled. “I guess you’re just confused with certain words. Apart from that, it’s perfect.”I smiled sadly and stared down. I knew it was a bad decision. No matter how hard I t
Brett(on)’s POV.Seriously, this girl gotta be crazy from what it looks like. She risked not just going out at this time of the hour but also taking Anna with her. I don’t know why she would even think of taking Anna with her, seeing neither of them would act sensibly if they are in trouble.I sighed and checked my wallet again if some money appears miraculously but no. That is not going to happen. Bless my mind for emptying the rest of the money in my drawer into that dratted wallet. And now I don’t have a single penny with me.I cursed and clutched my hair between my fingers. I took my phone out and called her. But it kept drifting away to voice mail. I threw the phone into one of my pockets and got out of the house.I got into my car and hit the gas. Since Anna was upset about the pizza, I’m sure Chloe has taken her to one of the places that have great pizza. And the only place near to our house is Domino’s.I smiled at the thought. Girls can’t outshine guys. At least, they can’t o
“What is it with the band-aid?” Sapphire asked once we settled down with our trays on the table.Sapphire had invited me to sit with her folks, Nina, Brett and Sean. Nina was the girl who was rumoured to have dated Brett. I was pretty jealous when I heard of it but was relieved when I got to know that they were merely rumours. Which held no truth.“Ah, long story,” Brett said.“Ah, long day.” She played along, to which she earned a roll of eyes from him.“I went to a party, last night,” Brett said.“Like every other night,” Sean said, sipping his drink.Brett ignored him and continued. “So I met this girl-”“-Who kicked me in the groin,” Sean said and Nina and I burst out laughing.Sapphire and Brett glared and Sean while he was completely oblivious to it. “Stop interrupting.”Sean just shrugged his shoulder.“Ignore him,” Sapphire said. “He has a mental problem that he’s dealing with.”I wonder how a person like Sean could have so much patience to deal with Sapphire. He is the kind o
I never spoke anything while he carried me to his car. He opened the door of his car and put me on the passengers seat. After securing me with the seat belt, he closed the door and walked around the car and got inside.All the while he drove, I dared not speak. I hadn’t uttered a word and he never asked anything more. He increased his speed and slammed on the brakes occasionally when he saw a bump or speed breaker. I was apprehensive of his next move and let my hands move to his and clasp it tightly. He noticed my gesture and slowed the speed.I never took my hand off of him and he never tried to get rid of it. He let me hold onto him.Brett brought me to his house and put me on his bed. I clung onto him and clutched his shirt tightly. He tried to remove my hands from the grasp but I only tightened it furthermore.He sighed and wiped the tears off of my face. He pulled away and removed his shoes. He slipped his feet under the covers and joined me inside the bed. I finally let go of hi
I set the living room up with everything we needed. We just did our history and Brett is starting to be a great helper. He helped me read the text and also was patient enough in correcting me. He tried to deal with me in the most unoffending way as possible and tolerated my blunders as I went on.After that night, Brett and I never found ourselves in that kind of conversation again. We simply let the past be in the past.As promised, we were going to have a movie night so Brett and Anna were invited. But Linda politely declined the offer as Anna was going to have a sleepover at one of her friends houses. Anna was beginning to acquire new friends and Linda is super excited about it since Anna always took a lot of time to open up. The only people she’s free to talk to is her mom, Brett and me.I didn’t push it any further and said we could always have another movie night together with Anna. Brett had to run errands for his mother so he left a while ago and promised to be back in an hour
The music played as the credit scrolled down the page. By the end of the movie, I slept on Brett’s shoulder with my drool all over his shirt. I woke though he didn’t mean to wake me up. And when I realised how I drooled on his shirt, I couldn’t have been more embarrassed about it.“I didn’t know I was capable of drooling so much,” I said, grimacing at myself.He chuckled. “It’s fine. Anna does that too.”“Anna is like a decade younger than me and it’s fine,” I said. “This couldn’t be more embarrassing.”He smirked. “I have your little secret, don’t I?”I narrowed my eyes at him. “You’re not going to tell this to anyone.”“Like I’m going to obey you.”“You’re not making me feel better!”“Okay, how about this..” he chuckled. “I have a picture of you drooling. Does that make you feel better?”“You took a picture!” I yelled.“Yes.” He smiled hanging his phone low. “Which will eventually end up on my Instagram.”“Which will also ruin my life for the better.”“Hey,” he grinned. “It won’t ru
His lips came crashing on me and knocked the air out of my lungs. Does that really happen to anyone, I wonder. For a few second, I could think about anything. My brain was in a mess, what was I supposed to make out of this?When he said he wanted to end my misery, I convinced myself that he was finally breaking up with me - for real. Although I was pretty sure we ended our thing the night I came out clean in front, I was still hoping that things would work in my favour and I'd never have to break our thing.But this - this insane act, the most unexpected one - this never occurred to me as a possibility. After what seemed like a few seconds, he finally let go of me."We're going to be late." He mumbled, looking at his watch. After a displeased frown formed on his face, he looked over at me and cupped my cheeks. "I want to make things right with you right now, Chloe, but I'm afraid we don't have the time. And I couldn't have waited until after the test - you were miserable and there was
"I'm sorry honey, but he already left." Brett's mom said with a saddened expression her face. Little Anna was stilling hugging me by my legs and kept jumping about how she missed me."He left?" I asked her, unable to believe what she had told."Yes." She said, her lips forming into a thin line. "I'm sorry honey. He wasn't actually in a great mood. The test was stressing him a lot and with everything going on..""It's okay, I understand." I tried to smile, but I don't know if it appeared like one. "I just wanted to see him one last time before I go for it. He was the one that wanted me to write it in the first place.""I know." She said. "Can I ask you for something?"I looked up at her with at frown. "Of course you can.""If you still care about him after everything, which I know you do, please give your best today. He might not be here to wish you good luck but it's so obvious that he is anxious about how you're going to perform. Please, just remember that he would love to see you go
After a month"Are you listening to me?" My mother narrowed her eyes at me, slightly knitting her eyebrows together to let a frown form on her forehead.Her eyes had bags underneath, and a few dark circles brushing her skin. She hadn't slept well lat night. Well, to he very honest, she hadn't slept at all. It was evident by how many times she almost fell asleep on the table while we were having break fast."I am." I said, almost rolling my eyes at her but resisted my urge before I could throw myself in a situation that would earn me a good amount of scolding.My eyes burned too, partly because they released more tears and completely drained themselves of any liquid and also because of the many sleepless nights I have been having with everything going on."Where's your bag?" She asked, trying to test if I was really attentive in the conversation.The conversation was getting routine. She constantly reminded me that I should stress myself and that I should get nervous before the actual
"What do you means it's me?" Brett spoke, as he got up straight to face me. I was involuntarily fidgeting with my hands, and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get any words out of my mouth. It was that moment of silence we were having where both of us are confused to process what's running in our minds. The temperature of the seemed to increase with the slow anger in Brett's face. He's definitely not the guy who jumps to conclusions, but there is nothing that is not known here. He heard what I said perfectly, and he is judging the situation right. "I'm sorry.." I said. That was all I could say after looking at how his face was emotionless and stern. "You helped her get with me?" Brett asked, almost in frustration. "You thought we dated? For fuck's sake, I didn't even know her until I saw her that day!" "I didn't know she was lying.." I said, trying to sound as convincing as possible. What I did was stupid. And I realised it after really long. I know I don't stand a chance
The damp cloth was still resting on my waist, treating my unhealed wound. It was supposed to reduce the burning sensation there and I think Brett is pretty good at nursing my wounds since I don’t feel the intensity of pain anymore.He went off to meet Linda, who was forced to not come to the police station so that Anna doesn’t know of her brother being arrested. My mom helped Linda with convincing Anna, so both of them had to let just me to go fetch him. Sean tagged along until he was sure I could handle the situation alone, since Sapphire was still in the hospital.She will be discharged tomorrow morning. Sean will probably just be there by her side until she goes home safe. Brett and I can go meet her tomorrow and thank her loads from our side.Brett promised to come back home and sleep with me tonight, because according to him, I don’t know how to take care of myself.Well, I’m not going to argue with him on that. But I’m pretty sure my mother knows how to take care of me better th
I held my forehead against the cold metal. It stunk of iron, of dust left uncleaned for a long time now. The region where my skin was stuck to it was beginning to lose sensitivity. i felt numb as the coldness almost froze that part of my forehead. Yet, my forehead didn't cease to sweat.It was hot, and since my nerves were not trying to calm down, my throat almost burned due to the raspy breathes I've been receiving. I felt a warm hand clasp mine, that was resting on the cold metal. I felt warm breath fanning my cheek, and y forehead rested side ways."Go home, Chloe." He said, pushing a few strands of my hair behind my ear. "It's late.""I won't go home until you take me." I said, looking at him through the cell.He was currently locked up in the cell, and I was standing outside it. It was almost infuriating to know that the police had accused him without acquiring proper evidences. They just have a witness, but until they catch hold of reliable evidences, they can't lock him up.See
I was sweating profusely. Suddenly, my limbs grew weaker than usual. I stared wide eyed at the person before and gasped.Sapphire ran a hand through her hair and roughly pulled them back. She came to me and hurriedly brought me to my feet."Are you okay?" She asked, her face drained of the blood. She palmed my face and searched for injuries. Knowing how I was almost harassed by him, she would obviously be worried about how my present state is.My mouth felt dry to reply. I opened my mouth to say something that would escape from me, but before anything could happen, Sapphire fell back on to the ground. I gasped when I realized that Parker had yanked her back by her hair."You bitch." Parker gritted the words out angrily, yanking her back. "It clearly looks like the both of you need some taming to be done."My eyes widened as he grabbed her and yanked her back angrily. She groaned in pain and struggled under his monstrous treatment. I didn't know what to do. I needed t help her from the
I was worried.Worried about how things were going to be. Worried about how Vicki was going to take it all. Also worried about might be happening to our friendship when she takes things in a different way.Although she's going to hear it from me before from anyone else, I don't think she's going to entirely happy. I should have told that I couldn't help her when she asked. I love Brett, and I knew it would be very difficult for me to let go off him. I shouldn't have taken the chances.But then, if I told her that I love Brett, she might have told it to Brett too. I didn't know if Brett had feelings for me back then. It would ruin everything we had. Even the friendship.Vicki is my childhood friend. And she is a very good person. Maybe I shouldn't be so worried about telling it to her. Maybe I should just let her decide and tell her everything. It's for the best.I nodded my head for myself, taking renewed strength from within me.I can do this.I mumbled to myself, walked through her
The wind was blowing in my face, numbing my cheek bones and nose in the ice-cold atmosphere. We let the windows down as we drove alone on the deserted road, my head sneaking out into the air.I closed my eyes for a few brief seconds, as relief flooded through my entire system. I could hear the gradual roar of the engine as we sped up, and the demeaning silence it was bringing when we occasionally stopped to surpass the bumps.The rustling of leaves under the tires, and the distant growls of animals were the only noise in the silent weather, and the only thing that subsided against the slow music of the car.We are on our way back to Boston. After packing our things up and meeting up with Sean and Sapphire, we headed back to our home. Brett and I had no awkward moments, much to my relief, and Sean and Sapphire could thankfully not think about anything going on between us.I was glad, that I'm left free of explanation because I know that Sapphire is the first person that will be excited