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2024-12-25 02:00:30It is day three of me going through my recovery journey and I hate every minute of it. I’m more or less being babied and everyone’s in my face. Oh and did I mention, I’m still fucking weak? It couldn’t be fever or dehydration. Maybe I’m being a baby.
Aside from all that, everyone’s walking on eggshells around me. I haven’t seen my brother because apparently he’s sick too. It might have been a lie, but there was a time when we both got sick at the same time. It’d freaked my mom out because according to her, it was some ‘voodoo’ shit, considering we’re born on the same day as well. We were like twins with an age gap between us. So I can’t rule out his sickness as yet. Just like mom, I can’t bring myself to see him. after my outburst, I don’t think I’m ready to open that can of worms again. I’m not ready to see the look on my little brother’s face. It could be pity. Or pain. Ludo’s sensitive, hence, why I was reluctant about telling him every
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Love You As You Are 36 | MR STARK
“My dad died in a car crash,” I murmured quietly, lost in thoughts. My hand kept rubbing Miles’ hip. I cleared my throat, avoiding his stare. “I pretty much lost all my family that day,” Miles’ hand rubs my midsection in circles soothingly. “I had a sister. A twin sister,” “You’re a twin?” he asked me, surprised. I nodded, allowing a small smile that seems to be reserved only for him. “That’s cool,” “It was,” I agreed quietly. “Emery. Her name was Emery. She was older than me by four hours,” Miles grimaced at that. “I know. I gave mom a hard time,” I smirked. “We were inseparable. I mean, I wasn’t always like this. Back then, I barely had any muscles, and I was hella scrawny,” Miles snorts at that. “That can’t be true,” he says his hand running over my naked chest. “I’d show you a picture, but I don’t want to embarrass myself,” I groaned while he giggled. “But it’s true. I wasn’t always this confident and stuff. Emery knew me and how to get
Last Updated : 2024-12-26Love You As You Are 37 | MILES
‘Hey baby…if you get this…voicemail, I want you to know that…that, uhm…I love you and I’ll always love you my baby. I just…come home. Please. We can fix this, okay? I love you,’ Beep. ‘Hey sweetie, mom tells me you just did your surgery. I mean…your top surgery. Congratulations. I hope you’re okay,’ silence. ‘I’m happy for you…Miles.’ Beep. ‘Hi baby…’ silence. Sniffle. ‘Uhm…I’m really sorry. I am so…sorry my baby. I’m sorry that things turned out this way. I’m sorry that you had to leave your home. I’m sorry that I’m not with you right now. I wish I could, but…things are complicated. But uhm…I love you,’ Beep. ‘Hi baby. Happy Birthday. Ludo says hi. He’s grown taller. Almost taller than me. He misses you,’ pause. ‘We all miss you baby. I got you a present. Well…there are three of them now, but…it doesn’t matter. You can always get them whenever you want. I l
Last Updated : 2024-12-27Love You As You Are 38 | MR STARK
“Mom, the business isn’t going anywhere,” I sighed, putting on my leather jacket to keep away the night cold air. “I just need to take care of things while I’m still here,” “Business related things?” she eyed me sideways. I held her gaze for a moment. “Yes,” I said. “Business related things,” “Do they require you to go out there when it’s midnight?” I fought back a groan. “It’s dangerous out there, honey. You should postpone it for tomorrow morning. There was a break in, and Mrs Sirenio died-“ “And you think it’s safe to stay here?” I turned to her after applying cologne and grabbed my watch to put on. “Mom, it’ll be quick. I’ll be back. You should get some rest. You have a long flight tomorrow,” “Maybe I should stay,” “The Romans need you to oversee things there, mother. You can’t afford to stay,” “Speaking of the Romans, have you set the date for the wedding?”
Last Updated : 2024-12-28Love You As You Are 39 | MILES
I slowly begin to wake up, feeling hands roaming my body and warmth on my forehead. I found myself smiling while nuzzling further into the warm touches. “Good afternoon,” “I think it’s morning, Mr Stark,” I said quietly, peeling one eye open to look at him. He stole a quick kiss. “It’s just after twelve, sweet boy,” raising my head to look at the time on the nightstand, I groaned, my head dropping on his naked chest.“Why did you let me sleep this long?” I asked groggily, yawning a second later. “Do you have anything to do today?” “Yeah, I need to speak to my aunt,” I said stretching my limbs that happened to be tangled with Mr Stark’s. “We need to discuss the way forward…about Sirenio. I don’t know what she plans to do,” I shuffled around until I’m lying on my back. “She might want to give it a chance or…I can just distribute the remaining money to the employees, whilst they pretty much look for another job,”“You know, I have ab
Last Updated : 2024-12-29Love You As You Are 40 | MILES
“I’ll keep you posted, so keep your phone closer and just…look out for yourselves,” “Thank you,” I said fighting back a groan. “Well?” Indra inquired, anxious like everybody who’s looking to me for answers. “Allison and her daughter-“ I eyed Ludo, who’s cradling Enrique in his arms, sitting down at the bottom of the stairs. “-are nowhere to be found,” there are a series of gasps. “This gives us leverage. They wouldn’t run away if they didn’t do something wrong, right?” I said trying to look on the bright side. “That’s not helping,” Mirabelle says with concern. “What if they come for Ludo?” “We have extra security,” I said pointing at the four men and one lady Augustus sent for us. The man is going above and beyond for my little brother and I’m grateful for it. “From Augustus and…the Russians,” Vincent gave a curt nod. “Who are these people?” Indra inquired, eyeing the five people dressed rather casually, as opposed to
Last Updated : 2024-12-30Love You As You Are 41 | MR STARK
Things between Miles and I are okay. Or that’s what I think. Still, I fear. I fear that I’ll once again fuck everything up. I’ll end up hurting him again. Fuck, he had me believing that he could handle all of this, and I just believed him. I should have known better. I know I would have a hard time accepting that he was to get married to another whilst he’s with me. It’s unfair that I’m asking the very same thing from him. I have to find a way to fix this. I have to end this marriage. It doesn’t help that I hired fucking snobs. I’m on edge and I feel the need to explode. “I leave for a month, and this is what I find!” I slammed the file on the table, startling half of the employees sitting in the boardroom meeting. “What the fuck is this? Who verified it?” I looked at everyone, livid. “One month! Is this what’s going to happen every time I leave,” everyone flinched. I can fee
Last Updated : 2024-12-31Love You As You Are 42 | MILES
After a whole fucking two months of house searching, we’re finally settling in our new home. Ludo and Indra had finally come to a mutual agreement on this house. I’d specifically asked them to make sure the house had ten bedrooms, ensuite bathrooms – because I sure as hell am not going to wait in line to use the bathroom when my brother has the tendency to take his time. I’d pretty much wanted the house to accommodate all my friends, should they want to visit. Good news is that this is a twelve bedroom house, with ensuite bathroom. I’d pretty much cringed at how vast the house was when we got to check it out, but it has grown on me. We also have a gym, for Ludo. There is a mini theatre room for Indra. I think the reason they both agreed on this house is because they each got what they wanted. Surprisingly, I love the interior design. The one room I was happy to get in the end, was the sunroom. I’d basically claimed that room. Cody seems to
Last Updated : 2025-01-01Love You As You Are 43 | MR STARK
“Emmanuel!” Anthony called out while I was just getting out of the shower. I wrapped a towel around my waist, walking out of the bathroom. “Emmanuel!” “What?” I groaned, grabbing the door. “Someone’s at the door for you,” he said walking back to the kitchen. I frowned, about to ask who but I see Miles standing by the door. A smile makes its way onto my face, and I walked out. “Hey baby,” when his eyes found me, they lingered on my naked torso. “Okay, we’re going to leave you two lovebirds,” Anthony says grabbing the car keys. “Don’t wreck my car, you idiot,” I said watching him and his sisters leave. Turning to Miles, I eyed him closely. “Didn’t you say you were staying with Indra? Since she’s not well,” I pointed out, wondering why he’s here. I’m a little sad that he won’t be with me, today out of all days. Everyone seemed
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I must have hallucinated my mother. Or maybe I died and came back to life. Either way, it’s impossible and I would never know. I’m grateful though. That I will be seeing my mother in that manner and not like how I last saw her in London. What I wish I was hallucinating right now was Mrs Stark trying to feed me and actually being fussy about my wellbeing. That one, I wished I was hallucinating. This woman unnerves me. I’ve always known her as the controlling, demanding and entitled type. Never this caring for someone as low as a PA to her son. I don’t even think she did this for her son, Emmanuel. Oh Emmanuel. It was so good to see him. I’d convinced myself I was going to die, and I wouldn’t see him again. He’d be alone and I would have made him sad. “Are you sure you can’t have any more?” Mrs Stark, aka Mrs McDevil, asked me when I gently pushed away the tub of yoghurt she brought for me. Amongst a whole lot of other things I couldn’t possibly eat in my state. “Doctor said
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The boardroom is dead silent, as everyone looks at me expectantly. I looked at each of the faces, silently brooding and wanting to get this over and done with. Neither of them say anything, but I can already detect uneasiness in their eyes. William, on the other hand, is still a prideful bastard, sizing me up with a look that stinks of entitlement. I presume he has no clue that he’s been caught. Kevin, on the other hand, looks like a mouse trapped in the corner with no way out. A mouse about to shit on my floor, if he doesn’t stop with the constipated look on his face. He knows. Good. Indra sits quietly next to me, looking between me and the Roman family. It isn’t long before my phone beeps, letting me know the people I was expecting were here. “Sir, should I-“ “It’s fine. They’ll find their way here,” I said. Indra sits back down. True to my words, the door swung open to reveal my legal advisor, Augustus Stone, followed two policemen. Ther
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FOUR DAYS LATER It was just as the two Mafia doctors told us. No hip fracture, no broken ribs, just a lot of bruising and blood loss. Miles had suffered greatly and he’s still breathing. The only thing that keeps me from going crazy is watching his chest rise and fall, letting me know that he’s still fighting. And he’ll come back to us when he’s ready. I just need to be strong. That’s all. Be strong and stick by his side. Sticking by his side was proving to be harder than I thought. The amount of visitors he is getting is astounding. I didn’t realise he knew this many people. I didn’t realised that Miles was loved by many. And those that didn’t love him, he’d somehow touched their lives in a certain way. Genevieve had made her way to the hospital as soon as I gave her the address. Miles’ uncle, Desmond was also here. Apparently, he was working abroad, but he flew all the way to be by Miles’ side. They’d brought one of their daughters with
Love You As You Are 49 | MR STARK
The house is in pretty good shape, I have to admit. Seeing it from the outside, it looked like it might collapse. And with a house full right now, I was afraid that might actually happen. It’s designed to looked like a cottage house and it only has two bedrooms. “Would you like some water, sir?” I looked down at the little girl, Faith, holding a glass of water for me. “Thank you,” I smiled at her, taking the surprisingly clean glass. I basically chugged the whole thing. It might have been the nerves. It’s been hours and it’s getting dark outside, but we’ve had no news from either Aaron or the doctors. Wesley had gone in there as well. “Man, this is killing me,” Hae-Jin groaned, stretching himself as he stood up, walking about. “What’s taking them so long?” he eyed the door. “Uncle Aaron said not to let anybody in there. It’ll distract the doctors,” Faith spoke up, offering the next glass to Indra, who thanked her softly. “Yeah, b
Love You As You Are 48 | MILES AND MR STARK
Serenity. Defined as a disposition free from stress or emotion/ The absence of mental stress or anxiety. Or to put it in one simple word… Peacefulness. The one thing I’ve been searching for my whole life. This serene feeling of…floating in the clouds, shoulders free of any burden or pain. It’s just me and the quietness. It’s addictive. The more I dwell in it, the more I want to stay there. If humanity knew what this felt like, it’d be like a discovered drug. Good for your mental health, but toxic when abused. When you’ve lived your whole life in chaos and you suddenly get a taste of this, you can’t help but want more of it. Is this what death feels like? Or am I just…hallucinating? What’s the worst between the two? Knowing you’re dead and you might never be able to see your loved ones. Or…hallucinating this quietude and knowing it’ll be ripped from you any second and you’ll be plunged back into the chaos.
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“Just make sure it’s a secluded area and…the staff needs to be gone by the time we come. I’ll handle the rest,” I spoke up. “Yes sir, we will do as you say,” the manager spoke on the phone. “And don’t put red roses. They need to be white roses, alright?” “Yes sir,” “I’ll see you tonight,” I said before hanging up, not giving him a chance to say goodbye. This date needs to be perfect. It’s my first date with Miles and I need it to be perfect. I don’t want anything less for my sweet boy. It’s only a few hours before he comes home. He’d mentioned by six in the evening, he’d be home. It’s only two in the afternoon, so I have time. Fuck, I feel so giddy. I probably am shitting rainbows right now. I can’t even keep still. I tried to get some work done. Instead, my eyes are constantly glued to the phone, waiting for my love to call. I want to call him so bad, but I know he’s driving. I don’t want to distract him.
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“Be careful, Miles,” Indra stood by the door, watching me pack my bags. I gave her a look for the thousandth time since my announcement to visit our old home, where I hoped to find Grandpa’s grave. “I’m not going alone, Indra,” I said rolling my eyes as I thought about the two bodyguards Emmanuel had hired for me. I hate being followed around. Makes me feel helpless. I’m anything but helpless. I know how to defend myself and besides, father isn’t coming anywhere near me… …not if he knows what’s good for him. “I’m serious,” I feel her hand on my shoulder. I turned to her and frowned, seeing her eyes glossing over. “I-“ she looked back at the door. “I have a bad feeling about this. Maybe you shouldn’t-“ “Indra,” I held her by the shoulder, watching her fight off the tears threatening to spill. She’s been rather emotional lately. Could be the pregnancy. Could be her. I know she worries about me.
Love You As You Are 45 | MR STARK
I’d debated with myself for about a good thirty minutes or so before actually willing myself to get out of bed and go make the call. Miles was right in every way possible. I was angry. Felt even betrayed, but… …she’s still my mother. I owe her a chance. At everything. Maybe I’m overreacting. Maybe I’m being a dick. Maybe I’m being too hard on her. I don’t know the whole story anyway. I just can’t help but want to kill that bastard William, for betraying his own best friend. The one person that made him everything that he is today. The cold night air was rather harsh on my bare skin, but I couldn’t care less about it as I stared at my phone. It’s almost the end of my birthday and I haven’t spoken to my mom. What kind of a son does that make me? To think she could be crying and all alone, wherever she is. Emery is gone and she s
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“Just give me a second, I gotta take a call,” I watched Miles wiping his hands before grabbing his ringing phone, officially leaving Indra and I in the kitchen alone. They were both washing dishes after we all had dinner. Aside from Liam’s ‘unalarming’ news, my day has been pretty amazing. When it started pouring outside, we’d decided upon a movie. Miles’ theatre room had makeshift beds, with pillows and warm blankets to keep us warm. Plus he pretty much brought snacks that everyone munched on whilst we all watched Ludo’s movie. I have to admit that this day has been weirdly unfamiliar but oddly relaxing and comforting. It isn’t something I’d normally do. Hanging out with everyone. Having lunch and watching a movie thereafter. It used to be Liam and I at his club, drinking the night away and fucking random girls. During the day, I’d be at the office. That was my celebration day. Miles has shown me
