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2024-12-11 02:00:21Me: Wear something nice today, sweet boy. I need something to look forward to.
I stared at the screen for a good minute or two before dragging myself out of bed. I’m almost to the bathroom door when my phones beeps with an incoming message. The race back to the bed is ridiculous but I don’t bother looking into it. Sweet Boy: Does something good include a certain white lace piece I got yesterday? “Fucking hell,” I jumped, spinning on the spot. Why did I fucking think Miles was innocent? Sweet Boy: My work clothes are pretty basic. Unless you want me to spice it up a little bit. My fingers are fumbling on the screen faster than I can think of my next response. Me: Humour me, sweet boy. When he doesn’t answer after a minute, I decided to hit the shower. I let the water run while I did my morning routine. Looking down at my morning wood, I groaned. “You better behave today.
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“Just make sure it’s a secluded area and…the staff needs to be gone by the time we come. I’ll handle the rest,” I spoke up. “Yes sir, we will do as you say,” the manager spoke on the phone. “And don’t put red roses. They need to be white roses, alright?” “Yes sir,” “I’ll see you tonight,” I said before hanging up, not giving him a chance to say goodbye. This date needs to be perfect. It’s my first date with Miles and I need it to be perfect. I don’t want anything less for my sweet boy. It’s only a few hours before he comes home. He’d mentioned by six in the evening, he’d be home. It’s only two in the afternoon, so I have time. Fuck, I feel so giddy. I probably am shitting rainbows right now. I can’t even keep still. I tried to get some work done. Instead, my eyes are constantly glued to the phone, waiting for my love to call. I want to call him so bad, but I know he’s driving. I don’t want to distract him.
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“Be careful, Miles,” Indra stood by the door, watching me pack my bags. I gave her a look for the thousandth time since my announcement to visit our old home, where I hoped to find Grandpa’s grave. “I’m not going alone, Indra,” I said rolling my eyes as I thought about the two bodyguards Emmanuel had hired for me. I hate being followed around. Makes me feel helpless. I’m anything but helpless. I know how to defend myself and besides, father isn’t coming anywhere near me… …not if he knows what’s good for him. “I’m serious,” I feel her hand on my shoulder. I turned to her and frowned, seeing her eyes glossing over. “I-“ she looked back at the door. “I have a bad feeling about this. Maybe you shouldn’t-“ “Indra,” I held her by the shoulder, watching her fight off the tears threatening to spill. She’s been rather emotional lately. Could be the pregnancy. Could be her. I know she worries about me.
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