If I were to calculate how long have I been staring at my phone's screen---where Jasper's profile's been displayed, it has been almost an hour. When I went home, I sat on my couch first to prepare myself from chatting Jasper, in case Aspen's the one who's holding his phone at this moment. My grip on my phone tightened when it rang and Jasper's messenger icon popped out, meaning he's the one who's calling me. Out of my startlement, I nervously picked the call and put it on my left ear. I began trembling, thinking if it's Aspen who'll talk. And why am I doing this? I declined Jasper's offer earlier because I didn't want to disobey Wren's punishment. Then why did I answer the call?! And why am I waiting for him to talk? Why's no one answering?! "You sure you'll not talk to him using my account?" Thank goodness it's only Jasper. "No, I don't want to waste his time. He needs to focus on studying instead. Don't plot some tricks like this one anymore, Jasper." "I'm the one who's helping
As if there's going to be a chance for me to feel comfortable? Are my parents this serious? Of all places and chances for me to get away from the sources of my problems, why did it still follow me? Look, even if minutes alreast passed by, I was still getting suffocated by the intense ambience of the dining place. Despite the jolly presence reining because of the lively talk of our parents, I still could not make myself calm. I tried to swallow my food again and it's very, very hard to do it. Not because it's Kiana's not-so-pleasant cook but because of him. I dropped my fork and spoon before attempting to glance at him. He remained fixated on his food. Never have I ever caught him looking at me. And that's really suffocating me. I sighed again, I think I've been sighing for so many times since the dinner started. I caught Kiana who's already glancing at me and it's so clear that she could understand what's between me and the guy in front of me."Something wrong? Kiana?" Wren interrupt
A week passed by and the hassle examination finally ended. After the exam, sembreak's already waving and I am dead prepared for it. Gosh, if only I coud go out with my Grandma again to have a trip but I badly needed to find a way to talk to Aspen. The last time we talked was that night. When he confessed his feelings to me. When I realized I couldn't give him the perfect reaction. I was so dumb to run away out of the total startlement. Thank goodness I decided not to jump on the sea and just end my life happily when he finally said he like me. Gosh, that was so unforgettable, he didn't know how I didn't sleep that night! "You freak! Did you really study too much that you almost perfected all the subjects?!" Coraline complained. Of course, I was not surprised when I was one of the topnotchers in the exam's result in our batch! Who wuld I blame when I was too motivated in studying? I was recopricated! "That's odd for you to not believe! It's because I studied very well, unlike you."
"What? He's merciless!" I complained, Mezakiel and I met once again and went out to talk about how Wren's going to handle the punishment. Mezakiel finished his glass of soda first. "Yes, he's not going to change his mind, the punishment is still running." I sighed. "Why is he so rough? What's the sense of the gamble if he's taking our suspension this long?" I asked, annoyed. He shrugged, it irritated me to see his calm situation. "I don't know, I think he's obviously showing that he doesn't want you to end up with his brother. That dude you like? I mean?""Gosh, I'm aware of that. It's because Wren's going to marry my cousin sooner, for sure." He didn't answer me, he remained silent and enjoyed his meal. Mezakiel's already updated thay my cousin and Aspen's brother who leads this gamble would become engaged soon. And it's hard to stop that. It's not like Mezakiel and I would stop the wedding so I could freely have Aspen and win the gamble. That's funny.Funy enough to annoy me.
Out of my surprise and curiosity, I had no doubts from approaching them both. Good thing their eyes also caught me, there was a flash of shockness in their eyes. Jasper was more puzzled to see me, and let me catch them, dating. If they're dating. "Hey," I called. They both waved and smiled. "How are you, Karin? My, news tells me that you and Aspen aren't still open for communications." Oh, okay. Even she was aware from that issue until now. But I hope she's not aware of Aspen's confession, and our secret date. I nodded but I simply stopped when my eyes caught their hands. They were just holding their hands! I just saw it correctly! They immediately let their hands go when I noticed them so I pretended not to see it. I coughed. "Ah, yeah, haha! But I think we're both okay. This problem between us will pass by." But yes, no matter how optimistic I am from my words, they know almost everything. Maddison's aware that Wren and Kiana were soon to be engaged. That Aspen's still ground
He told me that there's no time to waste, so I dated him. I was affected by the pressure and fear he showed. Because I didn't want to regret that we didn't even have to go out properly before he'd transfer and live across a distance. Because I thought it's also the best way for us, to go out despite being in a relationship. But I was so lost, I was so confused and reckless that I accepted it knowing I've been yearning for a moment where there were no problems. Like, I just wanted to be with him where no one's stopping us. And the date was the only chance we had. But I thought it's too simple to let ourselves go with the flow before we're too late. I didn't even mind too much that we're just dating to not regret things even though we sincerely have feelings toward each other. That was so immature of me. And this time, I was kept on being bugged by his words that we need to stay like that. To keep what we're doing as secrets. And it stings me especially when I saw him with Maddison
As if nothing happened at all, like there was no misunderstanding. That we're okay, like normal friends who'd not look so sorry toward each other at all. That's what we looked like when we met by the van where we'd hop in for a ride. I did expect him to be here with the outing because it was Maddison herself who invited us all. She said it's a trip before they'd transfer and I believe I actually wanted to go because of the fact that I'd regret missing this one after sembreak. Knowing Jasper, Maddison and him would sooner transfer. And we didn't even talk properly to fix some sort of misunderstandings. And to fix what was needed to be fixed at the same time. So I hope, I could at least make a progress at this trip, as my opportunity."I have carsicks when I sit at the backseat," Coraline complained while paying the bags of chips. We're buying the snacks for everyone. "Then don't sit at that part. Try occupying one by the front part." "Will you sit with me?" she asked and why did she
After we enjoyed the speedboat ride, it was unexpected for the rest to try the speedboat and there, the awkwardness began. I introduced Mezakiel to them and Coraline was dead curious why I told everyone that he's a friend and not a frigging cousin. Great, because she knew Mezakiel as my cousin. "What on Earth? Liar!" Coraline pouted and darted me the darkest stare ever. "You lied, you said he's a cousin. Why?" "You know, why? Because it would be very hard for you to believe that he's just a friend to me that time. Who would believe that a random, stranger guy would be the one you'd see in my apartment?" And her lips twitched in annoyance. But I had a point, that time when Coraline caught Mezakiel in my apartment was very thrilling to the point that I just made up my mind, blurting out that he's a relative to me. So we would be far away from issues and suspicions."That still didn't sound good to me. That was a long-term lie," she added which made me very guilty. I held her hand. "I
Tomorrow morning, after we went back home with our farewells, I prepared myself to face Wren and tell him that I'd be quitting the gamble. Mezakiel and I had dealt about my decision and he said it's not on his part to decide because what he wanted was for my sake as well. And it made me appreciate his concern and understanding to my side. Even if I couldn't grant his goal to pay back Sadie using the prize, he still didn't mind his failure. He focused thinking about what's best for me. Since he's the one who involved me. Yesterday, I used all my time explaining the complete story to Coraline to fix my problem with her. Or if we ever called that as a problem since on my part, we didn't fight. There was just a mistake I didn't try fixing with her immediately.So I mended what was needed to be mended between us yesterday. And it also felt so light to share her all the things I've been through. This day arrived, and my plan to meet Wren wouldn't change. There're lots of things I need
Our last and third day in this outing arrived and today, my plan was to talk to Coraline and tell everything to her when we get back home. And of course, I have a plan to talk to Aspen before he leaves and transfers.I wanted to tell him all my fault regarding the gamble as well so I wouldn't be keeping secrets to him anymore before we could even rarely talk and see each other.Yes, things happened so fast and unexpectedly. They happened too instantly that I didn't even get the chance to prepare myself and my decision. Everything occurred too rapidly that we both happened simply, fleetingly and it's hardly acceptable for us. We all went up early to wander the beauty of some rock formations by the beach and to have some viewing of the greatly-built windmills. The windmills were so pretty that we almost stayed for a couple of hours to just stare on it and learn a lot of things about it from our tour guide. And ever since I left our room earlier, Coraline didn't talk to me. I understood
After we enjoyed the speedboat ride, it was unexpected for the rest to try the speedboat and there, the awkwardness began. I introduced Mezakiel to them and Coraline was dead curious why I told everyone that he's a friend and not a frigging cousin. Great, because she knew Mezakiel as my cousin. "What on Earth? Liar!" Coraline pouted and darted me the darkest stare ever. "You lied, you said he's a cousin. Why?" "You know, why? Because it would be very hard for you to believe that he's just a friend to me that time. Who would believe that a random, stranger guy would be the one you'd see in my apartment?" And her lips twitched in annoyance. But I had a point, that time when Coraline caught Mezakiel in my apartment was very thrilling to the point that I just made up my mind, blurting out that he's a relative to me. So we would be far away from issues and suspicions."That still didn't sound good to me. That was a long-term lie," she added which made me very guilty. I held her hand. "I
As if nothing happened at all, like there was no misunderstanding. That we're okay, like normal friends who'd not look so sorry toward each other at all. That's what we looked like when we met by the van where we'd hop in for a ride. I did expect him to be here with the outing because it was Maddison herself who invited us all. She said it's a trip before they'd transfer and I believe I actually wanted to go because of the fact that I'd regret missing this one after sembreak. Knowing Jasper, Maddison and him would sooner transfer. And we didn't even talk properly to fix some sort of misunderstandings. And to fix what was needed to be fixed at the same time. So I hope, I could at least make a progress at this trip, as my opportunity."I have carsicks when I sit at the backseat," Coraline complained while paying the bags of chips. We're buying the snacks for everyone. "Then don't sit at that part. Try occupying one by the front part." "Will you sit with me?" she asked and why did she
He told me that there's no time to waste, so I dated him. I was affected by the pressure and fear he showed. Because I didn't want to regret that we didn't even have to go out properly before he'd transfer and live across a distance. Because I thought it's also the best way for us, to go out despite being in a relationship. But I was so lost, I was so confused and reckless that I accepted it knowing I've been yearning for a moment where there were no problems. Like, I just wanted to be with him where no one's stopping us. And the date was the only chance we had. But I thought it's too simple to let ourselves go with the flow before we're too late. I didn't even mind too much that we're just dating to not regret things even though we sincerely have feelings toward each other. That was so immature of me. And this time, I was kept on being bugged by his words that we need to stay like that. To keep what we're doing as secrets. And it stings me especially when I saw him with Maddison
Out of my surprise and curiosity, I had no doubts from approaching them both. Good thing their eyes also caught me, there was a flash of shockness in their eyes. Jasper was more puzzled to see me, and let me catch them, dating. If they're dating. "Hey," I called. They both waved and smiled. "How are you, Karin? My, news tells me that you and Aspen aren't still open for communications." Oh, okay. Even she was aware from that issue until now. But I hope she's not aware of Aspen's confession, and our secret date. I nodded but I simply stopped when my eyes caught their hands. They were just holding their hands! I just saw it correctly! They immediately let their hands go when I noticed them so I pretended not to see it. I coughed. "Ah, yeah, haha! But I think we're both okay. This problem between us will pass by." But yes, no matter how optimistic I am from my words, they know almost everything. Maddison's aware that Wren and Kiana were soon to be engaged. That Aspen's still ground
"What? He's merciless!" I complained, Mezakiel and I met once again and went out to talk about how Wren's going to handle the punishment. Mezakiel finished his glass of soda first. "Yes, he's not going to change his mind, the punishment is still running." I sighed. "Why is he so rough? What's the sense of the gamble if he's taking our suspension this long?" I asked, annoyed. He shrugged, it irritated me to see his calm situation. "I don't know, I think he's obviously showing that he doesn't want you to end up with his brother. That dude you like? I mean?""Gosh, I'm aware of that. It's because Wren's going to marry my cousin sooner, for sure." He didn't answer me, he remained silent and enjoyed his meal. Mezakiel's already updated thay my cousin and Aspen's brother who leads this gamble would become engaged soon. And it's hard to stop that. It's not like Mezakiel and I would stop the wedding so I could freely have Aspen and win the gamble. That's funny.Funy enough to annoy me.
A week passed by and the hassle examination finally ended. After the exam, sembreak's already waving and I am dead prepared for it. Gosh, if only I coud go out with my Grandma again to have a trip but I badly needed to find a way to talk to Aspen. The last time we talked was that night. When he confessed his feelings to me. When I realized I couldn't give him the perfect reaction. I was so dumb to run away out of the total startlement. Thank goodness I decided not to jump on the sea and just end my life happily when he finally said he like me. Gosh, that was so unforgettable, he didn't know how I didn't sleep that night! "You freak! Did you really study too much that you almost perfected all the subjects?!" Coraline complained. Of course, I was not surprised when I was one of the topnotchers in the exam's result in our batch! Who wuld I blame when I was too motivated in studying? I was recopricated! "That's odd for you to not believe! It's because I studied very well, unlike you."
As if there's going to be a chance for me to feel comfortable? Are my parents this serious? Of all places and chances for me to get away from the sources of my problems, why did it still follow me? Look, even if minutes alreast passed by, I was still getting suffocated by the intense ambience of the dining place. Despite the jolly presence reining because of the lively talk of our parents, I still could not make myself calm. I tried to swallow my food again and it's very, very hard to do it. Not because it's Kiana's not-so-pleasant cook but because of him. I dropped my fork and spoon before attempting to glance at him. He remained fixated on his food. Never have I ever caught him looking at me. And that's really suffocating me. I sighed again, I think I've been sighing for so many times since the dinner started. I caught Kiana who's already glancing at me and it's so clear that she could understand what's between me and the guy in front of me."Something wrong? Kiana?" Wren interrupt