Chapter 72

Adira

I woke on Friday more anxious than I had in a long time. I felt like something was wrong and I couldn't shake that feeling all through the first shoot. It made it harder for me to stay focused and even Charlie could feel it as he kept whining and leaning into me during the shoot.

When we returned to the hotel I tried some meditation to try and center myself. When that didn't help I went to the gym and ran myself through a workout hoping to sweat it off. Finally after being to anxious to eat I ended up having to take my medicine - something I hadn't needed in months. I hated when it snuck up on me like this and I couldn't pin point it.

I distracted myself while I waited for it to kick in my emailing my brother about my next show idea. I tried to make sure I sent him an email at least once a week while he was overseas and I sent myself a reminder to send him a care package when I got back home.

I laid on the bed with Charlie curled up right against my side as I felt my body