Valerie“I can’t, Aiden. I just can’t,” the words slipped out of my trembling lips, each word heavy with the weight of uncertainty and fear. “Think about me, think about how hard it is for me. How could I come out of something like this? I don’t want to be made a fool once again," Si sighed."I don’t know if you’ll be looking at me or Laura. God, Aiden, I’m scared that you might even pretend that our child is yours and Laura’s.” The doubt would always be there in the back of my mind. The room felt suffocating, the air was filled with unspoken pain. I waited for Aiden's reply but what I got was a broken sob, a sound that tore through the silence like a blade. It hurt that I was hurting me but he hadn;t cared to bits when he had hurt me. “Please stop, stop," he cried out. "I can’t. I can’t ever do this to you and our child, Val. Please don’t degrade my love for this child and you anymore. I know I’ve built these insecurities in you, made you like this, but please don’t say such things
Valerie I was on the fucking verge of blasting in anger. I knew it wasn't as hell good for my child and me, but I couldn't stop myself from getting annoyed. Really, I wanted to find a bat and beat the shit out of him. He just had to ruin my day and dump a heap of troubles over my head and shoulder. I felt my ears grow hot from the raging anger inside of me. He couldn't have just stopped himself from butting in my life.I gave him everything I could, and that fucker paid me back like this. "Fuck you, Aiden" I yelled in the close bathroom space. I was so happy last week. Things were going well for me that I had at times felt like that I had landed in heaven. I had everything I could have wanted. For once in my fucking life life was going on great. Dad was there, my best friend, Shay was, I was pregnant, Aiden and i were getting on the right foot. Everything was going on really smooth. I had gone out with Carmen, to the doctor she had set the appointment up with for me. I loved the
Valerie "Val, listen to me for a moment with an open mind. It is just for your betterment and your future." His voice gentle and calm. How the hell could he so calm while I was burning holes into him?"Hell, with it Aiden. How dare you try to control my life? How the hell did you think that I would be ready to do something like this? Who the hell allowed you to play god with my life?" My voice was rising with every word, enough to grab everyone's attention over us in the cafe.When I had come to the cafe on his begging, I thought it was to talk about our child or at most us but the blow I got left we aghast. He had called Travis to meet me at the cafe, and I didn't know shit about him. Laura's asshole, cunt face father couldn't fucking keep a secret and had spilled the truth. If I ever saw I would let bad beat him blue and black and even let use her baseball bat on him. He was a fucking cunt."I'm not trying to do anything like that Val. He is your biological father, and I look up to
Valerie "He is my father Aiden and don't you dare do a fucking thing against him. He is far better than Travis. You wouldn't know what it would have felt to be betrayed by the woman you loved the most. He had a lot of shit to handle, and he isn't proud to act the way he did. But now we are here. He accepts me as his daughter even though I am not his flesh and blood. He treats me as any father would do.Travis was my biological father, and he could have manned up and owned up to his responsibility, but he didn't, and he ran away. I wouldn't have ever come to know of his existence if it weren’t for Laura's father and neither would he have. Did he ever try to look for me? No. He never tried and who the hell are you to play as his messenger? Your own life is dangling, and you are fucking pissing me off. I don't think that we can even work out Aiden!" I had tried my best to control my voice, but it was of no use. I could feel strange eyes over us. I was fucking mad at him, and I wanted to
Valerie "So Aiden isn't coming today?" Shay asked sitting beside me. I had been like hell mad at Aiden and who wouldn't be. He was mingling in my personal business. It had become a daily routine for Aiden to drop by at my house every evening before he went to his. He didn't want to miss any part of our child growing, even if it was in my tummy but after what happened today had I had to cut him off. I swear, if I saw him, I would say things that I would definitely regret. I didn't have control over my emotions nowadays. I was a mess emotionally. Well, that is what pregnancy would do to me. I would feel hundred times more emotional than I normally did. The doctor had told me with sweet words, Welcome to pregnancy! Note the sarcasm. "Did you not listen to me, Shay? I told him to stay away from me, and you are still asking me that dumb questions." See, this is what pregnancy is doing to me. With a frown on her face, she looked at me without blinking. "I'm sorry, it's just the-." "Hor
Valerie"The fucked up fact was seeing and hearing my father fucking some bitch that night. It hurt back then, I loathed him and hated him then. You can't imagine how scared I was when his friends would come to the house, some eyeing me up. The house reeked of sex and alcohol. I didn't have anyone to protect me and keep me safe. I couldn't sleep with the fear that someone would come up my room. Even the lock on my door didn't assure me. Dad was always wasted or fucking some two dollar whore. The only thing I'm thankful for, was the fact that he was there to kick out his friend when he tried to come at me. Somewhere, I saw the dad I once had, but it vanished too quickly when he turned away from me and walked away. Two days later, I packed what little stuff I had, and hopped on a bus that would take me to my granny. A little me on a bus with the hopes that she would accept me and she did. That was the day I started again. I still can't fully blame dad, you know. He loved mom a lot and k
Valerie "Hello, I'm Aiden's mother, Rose. I really hope that you could really fit in some time for me." Aiden's mother had this hopeful look in her eyes that I couldn't say no to. I assure you it was all the fault of my hormones. I missed being me. The bitchy me to be exact, the one who didn't flow with the emotions. I stepped aside making way for her. "Who is it dear?" Carmen came asking. "It's Aiden's mother." My words came out dry. I really wasn't looking forward to this meeting and if Aiden would have sent her here I would be kicking him down from his penthouse. He was getting on my nerves. "Oh, come on in then." Carmen took over from there making Laura and Rose comfortable in my living room. I guess peace and me aren't going to exist in the same universe for awhile. We all settled down in the living room which I would say became too crowded for me. I waited for someone to say anything but nope not a word was uttered and it did really irritate me. I mean, talk if you want to r
Valerie What do you mean by that?" Rose questioned. "It means Aiden and I aren't getting married." "This is absurd." She said in disbelief. "How will you raise the kid all alone? It isn't fair on Aiden." "There is something called single parenting. I won't be alone, Aiden will be always present for his kid and please don't talk about it being unfair on Aiden. What he did to me wasn't fair too?" My words filled with rage and anger towards her. After taking a minute and taking in deep breaths she talked again. "What will be child's surname? Where will he live with Aiden or you? Who will be providing for the child? I mean how come would you raise a child like that without marriage?" She spoke without a breath. "This will be so confusing for the child and he or she will have to suffer because of it. People and his or her friends will make fun of him or her. How can you be so cruel? How can you even be a mother being a single parent is far away to even think?" Her words flared ange
Valerie Aiden never backed down from his promise. Every day he proposed to me even if he remembered it at an ungodly hour. There wasn't a day skipped. He pampered me, put me first and I kind of expected for it to go for six months and then come to an end but it never did. He never stopped loving me and spoiling me and our kid. Six months passed and they did very fast with Neal and everyone else just trying to be with him. The house was filled with someone or other and then mom and dad moved out but Travis moved in. Every day had been a new day filled with new experiences, some good some bad. One of them was Neal's first word which wasn't mama or dada but poop. I was really surprised when he said that, kind of laughed out loud at that but minutes later I didn't find it funny. He had really popped. I was kind of glad he learned that word first then any other word. At least he could warn us before bombing the diaper. Aiden missed his first word but Neal's first step was taken with him. A
Valerie "Hey, it’s just me," He said while standing up and coming close to me."You just scared me. What are you doing here the rest of the people are out there. They will be waiting for us." I rushed out on the last few words."They can wait for a moment. You know I have to do our daily custom right now." He said smiling. He took out a box from his pocket and went down his knee."Are you ready for this Val?" I nodded trying to seem normal as I always did."Valerie Crawford would you please marry me and give me the immense pleasure of being your husband." He proposed like he did every day from the past two years. You guys must be confused let me explain it to you and give you a recap.So I hope you might remember him asking me to marry him when our baby boy was born. Well, things didn't happen the way Aiden wanted."Please marry me now," He pleaded with tears in his eyes getting on his knees while our baby screamed for attention. I was on the verge of saying yes but the cries of the
Valerie "I think you should get changed, Val. You smell like vegetables." Carmen said to me laughing and I seriously smelled myself. I stink and reeked of spices and boiled vegetables. It wasn't a pleasant smell people."Thanks, you sure you won't need my help for a while because I seriously have got to take a bath," I asked her in hopes that she won't have more work for me. It was mean and bad for me to pray for something like that but handling a toddler while working and preparing for an event wasn't easy. I needed a relaxing bath."Sure honey, I'm mostly done here. The meat is cooking and I will be just taking that pie out and leaving it to rest. I myself would be heading to play with my grandson." She told me and I felt less guilty. I was so thankful for her handling everything like a pro. She shooed me away to my room to take a bath and told me not to worry at all. I entered Aiden's and my room. I had renovated it up to my and Aiden's tastes just a few months back with Neal's ro
ValerieAlmost 2 Years later............"Granpa!," Neal squealed running towards the door just to be picked up by Travis and hauled up in the air. Every time he did that I could feel my heart in my mouth. It was only when he would catch him I would breathe a sigh of relief."Dad, what did I tell you about doing that to him?" Travis looked almost guilty under that smile of his. Over the past two years, I have decided to call both of them dad. I was so tired of calling them by their names. At first, it was confusing but then they certainly got the hang of whom I was calling."He is fine Val and he loves when I do that. Don't you champ?" He asked Neal who only gave me a big smile. That boy was getting spoiled bad. I shook my head and saw Carmen and Bryan coming behind Travis."Neal!" Bryan yelled with excitement and that boy was moving from Travis's arms to Bryan's who kissed him all over his face making him laugh. Carmen and Bryan got married six months after Neal was born. It was real
"Are you alright?" Shay asked with worry etched over her face. She had been ignoring her work for past few weeks to stay with me as Aiden had some important project having him stay at the office for a while. Travis was at his office and Bryan with Carmen had gone to the restaurant to check the new supplies that were coming in today. It was only me and Shay and I really didn't want her to worry about me a lot. She was going to develop wrinkles."Yeah, just catching my breath. You know getting up straight is also a tiresome task nowadays. How about you help me sit straight I feel like going to the bathroom. My bladder is going to blast." I laughed trying to ease her worries as she helped me stand I felt the pain again but decided to ignore it. With a slow pace like that of a snail, I reached to my room and walked into the bathroom. As soon as I sat on the pot I felt water rushing out of me. I thought I just peed and was thankful of reaching bathroom on time until the pain hit me making
Valerie "I feel like a whale," I told to Shay, who sat at the end of the sofa while I laid on the couch with the remote for the tv. I was going to be around nine months pregnant in a week and this little buddy was going to come out soon. A lot has changed in last six months. I was no longer living in my apartment. Bryan had bought a new house which was closer to Travis and Aiden's house.The nursery was ready with hues of yellow and blue. Aiden and I had grown close but there had been nothing more than kisses and holding each other. The new house had many rooms and one of them was Aiden’s but he usually slept with me. He didn't go to his apartment often and just stayed here with me. He didn't want to miss any part of the baby and me being pregnant. He had warmed up to my heart, but hadn't been able to get that place back in my heart. His relationship with his mother was still rocky but they were at least talking. Whereas Laura and Aiden had drifted worlds apart.Laura had a breakdown
ValerieGod, this had to happen with me only. I groaned internally. this was right embarrassing. I felt Aiden sleeping on my legs with his hand feeling heavy on my belly. Besides it, I realize one more thing which was that I was going to puke. I felt it was coming, I knew it was and before I know I quickly pushing Aiden away and rushing to the bathroom kissing the porcelain seat. I puked and puked then brushed my teeth, gargled with mouthwash to get rid of that vile taste of bile. Being pregnant was not an easy task. "You have been caught red handed Aiden." It was Shay who was talking when I reached back to the living room. Aiden was on the floor rubbing his head. In my run to the bathroom, I might have pushed him a little too hard. Carmen stared at him while Shay busy staring at his share of uneaten food and smoothie. "I think we should have clicked the picture of the two together first," Carmen spoke without caring about the food. "Carmen she was eating mozzarella sticks and d
Aiden held my face and kissed me. I was stunned. I should have pulled back but I couldn't. I just couldn't. I was responding to his kiss, tasting our tears in it. Our kiss was passionate, our lips hungry for each other. It was a kiss filled with love and passion but yet soft. I could feel every part of my body needing his touch. It was wrong and yet it felt so right to do it. I was being lifted and pushed on my back. Our kiss never breaking. His torso in between my legs and my legs wrapped around him. His face in my hand and he took control over our kiss. Our tongues danced in sync. I was breathing heavily, I was feeling a need and then suddenly out of nowhere Laura popped up in my mind and the moment was lost from my side. My body stilled. My lips no longer responding to his and we break apart from our kiss. His eyes looked into mine searching for what stopped me. "What happened Val?" He asked concerned and worried. I closed my eyes and touch my lips. I knew that kiss we just had wa
Valerie "You... you what?" I finally managed to choke out."I didn’t know what else to do," he said, tears streaming down his face. "She was crying, Val. She was so upset, and I just wanted to make it better. I thought if I agreed, she’d be happy, and things would calm down. But I didn’t mean it. I don’t want to marry Laura. I don’t want to be with anyone but you."His words swirled around in my mind, but I couldn’t make sense of them. He had agreed to marry Laura? How could he do that to me, to us? I felt a surge of anger and betrayal."You agreed to marry her?" I repeated, my voice shaking. "How could you, Aiden? How could you do that to us?""I didn’t mean it," he pleaded. "I was just trying to calm her down. I don’t want to marry Laura. I love you, Val. You and our baby are everything to me.""But you said yes," I said, my voice rising. "You told her you’d marry Laura. Do you have any idea how that makes me feel? Do you even care about what I want, what I need?""Of course, I car