I'm constantly fiddling with my phone. She doesn't even answer my calls. Even if I wanted to forget what happened, I couldn't. My wife is pregnant but I let her go. I suddenly thought that it might be good for her to get away from Samantha. But later I thought that maybe they were right, that she had nothing sensible to sleep on. Maybe she's having a hard time outside. She has nowhere to go. Even with Ameline, she doesn't give a hint where she is. I scratched my hair near the nape of my neck. I looked at my phone again and checked if someone had texted me. What I expected was Athara. I hope that she will suddenly text me to pick her up or else she will at least tell me where she is now. "Fuck! Where have you been, Athara?" I asked myself. I threw my phone on the bed. Just as I threw it on the bed, it rang. I immediately took it and answered the call without checking the registered name of the caller. "Hello? Athara?!""Darn it, dude! What Athara your ass is mumbling? I'm not your
I visited Samantha a while ago because she said that her anxiety is attacking her again. We had sex but I was not happy with what happened to us. I haven't been in the mood to have fun these past few days. All I could think about was Athara. Every night and day that passes, she's always running in my head. The house is possessed with loneliness again because I'm with no one. Tears flowed when I entered my house. I was temporarily happy because of my parents, the maids and Athara who only smiled and laughed during those days. I sighed heavily. I thought there would be no room in my heart for that woman. I thought I wouldn't be worried when she disappeared from my side. What I thought would be good for her to distance herself from me may turn out to be bad. Now I can no longer watch over her and I don't know what happened to her time after time. I didn't feel like going to the sofa but still my tired feet walked to it and sat above it. I leaned back. I looked at the small table. It's
Samantha called the next morning. Even though I don't want to answer her call, I can't do anything because I wonder what else that woman can think of doing. Her mind is unreadable. "Sam?""Theron, I'm confused. I want to die, Theron," she cried. I looked up and stroked the nape of my neck gently. "Samantha, what's going on with you again? Are you taking your medicine?" I asked. She just cried. I didn't think Samantha had an anxiety disorder. I used to think that it was because of that tragedy that he had anxiety, but it turned out not to be the case. Behind our relationship before, being good friends, she hid from me the fact that her anxiety disorder started when she was just a teenager. We were always together before but I couldn't even once notice that she had symptoms of anxiety disorder. "Theron, I'm disgusted with myself. I feel useless. We lost our child because of both of us," she said. "I am disgusted with the world because it did not let me be a mother to the child tha
I am almost there. I can't wait to see Athara again. I never thought the day would come when I would find myself looking for her. Who is she to me? She's a total stranger to me. She was only at my house then so that someone could suffer as a payment for the sins of her parents to me. She is the replacement for the life of my lost child and a large amount of money they owed me that has not been paid. I didn't let her rest even just a couple of hours. There is no day and night that I do not hurt her. I also rape her when she doesn't want to have sex with me. I feel bad for her, realising that I am too cruel to do that. The actions I show Athara are not fair. I was so annoyed with her then. The money her family owed me should have been for my charities. My child would be a big one now if that tragedy hadn't happened that night. When I see her face my blood boils with anger. She reminds me of her bullshit parents. Now, when I stare everywhere, all I see is her. Even in the office, a
Richmond baid goodbye and told me to see me here after the next two days. I agreed with him. I roamed around and still haven't found where Athara is. I blew out air. I thought about what Richmond said. I was impressed with that boy. Even at such a young age, his opinion on things is so deep. He even had a great view of life. He is such an amazing kid.A child like him shouldn't think or say that. He should just play and enjoy his youth. I have a loose grip on the steering wheel now. I turned on the stereo but immediately turned it off because the song was too sad. I don't want to break down here.It's late. I'm leaning against my car right now with my arms folded. One of my hands was holding the canned beer. I'm tired of looking. I almost went all over Syracuse just to see my husband but I never saw him. I straightened up when I saw Richmond approaching me. He has taken a shower and changed his clothes. "Sir Idol, how are you? Have you seen your wife? I haven't started looking fo
I woke up early because my back hurt. I'm also not used to sleeping in a small bed. I stretched before I stood up. I took out my wallet and pulled out a few pages of money. I folded the blanket and put it on the pillow. After that I put the money I took from my wallet under the pillow. I hope the money I left at Richmond will be able to help him and his mother. I got out and immediately went to my car. I decided to roam around early and maybe I could see my wife walking on the street at this early hour. As I was driving I thought of calling my friend Keigan. "Yes? It's too early to call, Theron. What now? What do you want?""I almost circled Syracuse but I didn't find my wife here. Are you sure she's here?"My friend gasped. He doesn't want to wake up too early. He's always partying even when he's alone. Partying is his life so he is always up. When he's not partying, he's busy taking care of children at his charity. "Dude, look for it thoroughly.""Keigan, look, I've been to all
140 Westbrook Hills Dr. #34-5. I saw an advertising poster and that's the address I saw on it. I have never been to that apartment. Now, I am hoping to see Athara there because that's the last place I never search. I immediately drove to the location of the apartment. It took me a while to get there because I was hungry so I ate for a while. When I was in the apartment I immediately looked for the owner. An old man came out with a cane in his hand. I went to his way. "Good afternoon, sir. I just wanted to ask a question.""If you're asking if there's a vacant apartment here, I'll tell you yes. The woman who rented here just left. She's only been here for a few days but she left just before dawn," he told me. I have a hunch that Athara is the woman who rented here. I immediately took out my phone and looked for Athara's photo. When I saw her photo, I immediately put my phone in front of the old man. He fixed his eyeglasses and came closer to my phone screen. "Sir, is she the wom
I didn't feel like going out of the apartment that Athara had rented but I have to. I was carrying her clothes slung over my lower arm while her letter was in my left hand. I knocked on the door of the old man's room. After a while, the door opened and old man looked at me straight to the eyes. "Come in, sir," he invited me. I smiled a little and immediately entered. "Take a seat," he said. I nodded and sat down on the soft sofa. I looked around and noticed that the apartments had the same design. It's small but comfortable inside. I even tried to spy to find out if the old man was with someone inside his apartment. "I know you are wondering why my home is so peaceful, sir," he said. I cleared my throat before I spoke. "I'm sorry," I said. He placed on the small table the tray he brought with a pitcher with only juice and two transparent glasses. "You don't need to be sorry. We just buried my beloved wife three days ago, so I will am alone now. Our children are in another c