Chapter 3: Inconsiderate

I expect too much from him. I thought that because of my situation he would never walk away from this room.

I rattled because he slammed the door.

"T-Theron! Theron! Please," I muttered with fear.

I am afraid to be left here because of the situation I'm in. There are stains of blood in my clothes and in my palm. I still could feel the pain inside my womb. It hurts. Every part of my body hurts.

"T-Theron, p-please."

I tried to make my knees firm but failed to do so. I heard unusual sounds inside my head. I can even Identify the tiniest sound that my heart created.

"H-Help," I uttered.

I fall on my knees. I am like a drop of water falling to the ground. I'm slowly losing consciousness. My fingers crawled to the direction where my wicked husband walked away.

I pity myself even more because of this. How could this be? How could his heart be as hard as rock when it comes to me?

I couldn't even find a valid reason for the treatment I received from my husband.

My vision went blurry until I saw none. My nose pushed out breaths in an unusual manner.

God, if this is my end, forgive me for all my sins. Forgive my husband too if he became too much in putting me in this difficult situation.

I slowly opened my eyes. I lost strength. I slowly got up when I realised that I was already on top of the bed. There was a pole standing next to me on which a bottle was hanging.

I gasped as I saw how the liquid dripped into a small bag connected to the small hose that was the conduit for the liquid to my vein.

"What's the matter?" I asked myself.

I know that I miscarried my child. But, I don't know how I ended up in bed. The last thing I remember was that I was begging my husband to stay but he just left me.

The door opened and a nurse who was unfamiliar to me entered. I rolled my eyes. Theron has definitely nailed this girl. I know that man. He's a pussy-hunter.

"You're awake, ma'am," the nurse said and immediately took a thermometer and inserted it into my armpit.

"How did I end up here on top of the bed?"

"Honestly, I don't know, ma'am. The doctor at the hospital where I work just called me to say that you are needing a home-service here," the woman explained to me.

I don't believe Theron helped me get here. It's also hard to believe that he cleaned me. I just wondered because I'm neat right now. I became curious so I made a sound to make the nurse look at me who was busy looking at the paper inside the black folder.

"M-Miss, when you got here, am I dressed already or not?"

The nurse made sure no one heard her. She bowed near me.

"Ma'am, I was told that my job was to make sure that your condition improved and not to inquire about what happened around. But, ma'am, when I got here you were in bed and there was no blood on your clothing."

The doorknob made a sound and signaled that someone was coming. The nurse stood up and immediately took a deep breath.

"I just want to tell you that your body is doing well. The Dilation and curettage procedure performed by Doctor Roicecraine was successful. All you need to do is rest and make sure that you eat properly at the designated meal time. Drink medicine. Also, you should avoid things that cause you stress," said the nurse. "Your body temperature has returned to normal," she added.

I just nodded.

We both looked at the man who entered. My husband came in. His forehead was furrowed and he stared at the nurse evilly.

Since he must have fucked the woman, that's why he treated her so badly. It's not new about Theron. When he has used you and is tired of you, he will throw you away like trash.

"I have to go, ma'am. Just follow the things I told you. E-Excuse me," said the nurse.

The nurse left the room immediately. Now, I stare at the ceiling. I still can't forgive myself for begging to someone who has no heart. I can't look at him because I think and feel even more useless if I saw his face. How could he left me that time?

It's like he's not human. If I were in his position at that time, I would have turned away from the hatred in my heart and would have thought that there was someone who needed my help. But Theron is not like that. His heart seems to have been conceived in rock. He doesn't feel pity to anyone.

Suddenly, my heart ached because of what I remembered. He left me even though he knew I needed someone to hold on to.

"Because of your stupidity the child is gone."

I just kept quiet. How could he say that to me? Am I the only one to blame?

"I know well that you want to be a nun but you let your own blood and flesh just disappear!"

I just took a deep breath.

"No nun is a criminal, Athara!"

I dare to stare at him.

"Theron, you didn't even ask me if I am okay. You really put the blame on me? Really, Theron?" In the first place, it's your fault that we lost our future child." I couldn't stop myself anymore. So, I spoke.

"Shut the fuck up, Athara! You are the reason why everything happened! If you only told me about your pregnancy, we would still have the child!"

I blinked before I stared at the wall.

"I want to rest," I muttered in a calm way.

"Do recover today because we are going to attend a party tomorrow, Athara!"

My eyes widened because of what I heard. The nurse said I need to rest to restore my strength. Now, he's demanding me to be fine today. Am I a magician? Is he alright?

"I am tired. I need to rest." I even accentuate those words to make him understand what I want.

Ge seemed to be firm in staying inside this room. He held my chin and forced me to face him.

We are now looking at each other.

"You have to pretend that you are fine in the eyes of the people at the party tomorrow, Athara. You should act like nothing happened! Did you get it?"

"I better stay here and rest than attend that party where I need to cover everything. Why don't you just hire a woman to be your date at that party? Isn't it you're good to hook women and use them?"

I saw how he clenched his jaw.

"You know me, Athara. You fucking know me! If you try to act like a hard-headed shit, I will make you regret the consequences."

He squeezed my cheek hard and pushed me hard.

What am I going to do at that party?

Even though I didn't want to and my body almost couldn't take it, Theron forced me to go with him to the mall.

I found out that I slept for a month after my miscarriage.

We are now inside a store where clothes were so expensive.

"Give my wife the most expensive dress in your store," Theron said.

I just stood by his side. I feel like I'm going to fall because I'm dizzy. I just woke up this morning and he immediately took me out.

"Sir, we have three brands that are the most expensive—"

"You've heard me, haven't you? I said, the most expensive thing you can give to my wife," he said.

"O-Okay, s-sir," the saleslady said in fright.

"Theron, maybe I can wear anything. It's just a party," I calmly suggested to him.

"You know my friends are coming! They can't be more than me. I'm supposed to be above them and they're below me!"

I was right in my suspicion that he would use me again to make his friends look like he was just above them. He will dress me in expensive clothes and glittering ornaments to show how wealthy he is.

"And you? What are you standing in front of me? Didn't I tell you to give my wife the most expensive cloth in this store of yours? The employees here are stupid! Fuck!"

The saleslady immediately left. Theron has absolutely no respect. He owns this mall and the woman is his employee. He didn't even think that his staff was making a way just to sell the products inside his mall.

I almost fell when I suddenly felt dizzy again. I held Theron's arm.

"Athara, what happened to you?"

"I'm dizzy, Theron."

"Fuck! Why can't you stand properly? I'm by your side! You shouldn't entertain sickness, Athara! Get settled!"

I was sweating even though it was cold inside because of the air conditioner. He let me hold his arm until we got the cloth he demanded.

"Theron, let's go home. I'm tired," I said.

"No way! We need to buy you a bag to show off for tomorrow, Athara! I don't want my friends to think I don't love you and treat you well! I don't want my name to be ruined!"

I breathe sadly. He did give me things but not because they were for me. He just wants to show his friends that he's at a high level and that they can't match him.

He's cruel and inconsiderate. He was aware that I am not yet totally recovered but he still forced me to fulfil the wants of his selfish mind.