CHAPTER 4- UNLUCKY PERSON

CHAPTER 4- UNLUCKY PERSON

I went home and did not accept Mr. Anderson's condition. He wants me to live with him? For what? If in exchange for the job he will give me is my virginity, then no way. I will look for a job anywhere. Even if I become a strip dancer again in another bar, I will. Even if I work somewhere else, it's okay with me. Just not Mr. Anderson's condition. I don't want that. Yes, I undress in front of many men but I am not like other women. It's okay for different men to see my naked body, just don't let them touch it.

In the days that followed I always went out to look for work. I've already reached the other town but nothing-- it's like I just wasted money on the fare. I hear just the same reason from them; 'no vacancies' 'we're not hiring. I was losing hope, my savings were running low on fares and snacks, and searching for a job. I don't even eat at night anymore because.. there's nothing left. I only had two hundred dollars left because I had to go to another town to find a job.

How many days have I been looking for a job? Five? Or two weeks already? This kind of situation is making me sick! I'm crying right now. My brothers and sisters in the province are also calling because I haven't been able to send them money yet but I don't answer them. I'll wait until I can find a job before I talk to them. Right now I'm feeling guilty. I know they don't have money there anymore but what can I do? I have nothing too!

I don't want to call Manager Nora because I know she can't help me right now. My co-workers have returned to their respective provinces.

The next day I tried again to see if I could find a job. But I'm just annoyed to hear that:

"Sorry, the newly hired applicants just started their work yesterday and we're not hiring anymore."

"We're full."

"The boss isn't getting a new one."

I just sat on the side of the road feeling so tired and hopeless. Why am I so unlucky now? When I need a job, there is nowhere to go. I'm so unlucky! First, my parents were jailed for selling illegal drugs. Secondly, I was left with no choice but to become a strip dancer to finance the education of my siblings. The third is today, I lost my job because fck! The club closed immediately! Fourth, I couldn't find a sensible job because I was uneducated! I'm just an elementary graduate!

I could no longer hold back my tears because of what I was going through now. I don't know what to do anymore. I want to commit suicide but what about my siblings? They are still young. No relative wanted to help us because of the embarrassment our parents had inflicted on us.

I gasped when my cell phone rang. My second brother Lawrence is calling.

"W-why?" I asked. I immediately wiped away my tears and cleared my throat.

"Sister, Juno has a fever." Shit. Juno is our youngest brother. I still have no money, fck!

"I-is the last money I sent gone?"

"He's been sick for a few days, sister. Everything went to his medicine and our food. I've been calling you for a few days but you haven't answered." Shit! I'm so worthless!

"O-okay I-I'll send it now but I'm sorry if it's just a little .. W-we had a problem here. But I'll make a way to add that right away, don't worry."

"All right sister, thank you, and always be careful there." After that, I turned off the call. My brother is sick so I will improve my job search even more. I can't do drama and give up because there are children who depend on me. I must be brave.

After I sent a little money to my brothers, I continued walking and looking for work in the market. But the whole day passed and I got nothing again. It's been like this for a month but I'm still confident I can find a job. Maybe just a little patience.

Since I tried here in the other town and there was no vehicle to ride home because it was already eight o'clock in the evening, I decided to just sleep here at the bus terminal. I also want to get home early tomorrow.

When I found a good place to sleep I put my bag down there and lay down. I was surprised when a man approached me. I think he sells goods here at the terminal.

"Here, it's for you." He handed me the bagged food from a famous fast-food chain. I got up and looked at him and the food, he was handing out.

"N-no. Don't worry about me, I'm okay." He shook his head.

"C'mon, I bought it for you." He took my hand to hand the food there. "Because you look like my daughter, I remember when she was a child .. she wanted that food."

"T-thank you .." I said tearfully. First, I felt that there were still people who were willing to help others. The second is because I have been hungry all day. After all, I sent all my money to my brother. "T-thank you very much ..." He nodded before leaving. I watched him as he walked away from me. Even as an adult, he still does not give up working. If only my parents had done that, we wouldn't be like this today. I wouldn't be like this today.

I was very angry with my parents but there was nothing I could do. My anger cannot bring back what happened then. My anger can't take back the years without them.

The next day I went home to the boarding house where I was staying but when I got there.

"Oh, Tanya! Maybe you can pay now? I've been coming back here for a few days but you're always not at home! Are you hiding from me?!" Aunt Lorna. The landlord. Given that I live in a squatters area, a lot of people are listening and curious about us now. After all, Aunt Lorna is already yelling at me. Is this really how rich people treat the unfortunate ones? Can't they understand people who have nothing?

"A-Aunt Lorna .. let's just talk inside," I said softly.

"No! I want you to pay now because I've been coming back and forth here for two weeks but you're always not at home!" Shit, I feel so ashamed right now. Why does she have to do it in front of other people when we can talk about it peacefully? "Or maybe you don't have any money because the bar you're working at is already closed? Didn't you save anything from working at the bar?"

"Aunt Lorna ---"

"Stop the drama, Tanya. Where's your payment?!"

"I haven't found a job yet--"

"I'll give you until tomorrow, Tanya. If you can't pay me until tomorrow afternoon, you'll pick up your belongings right there where you are standing." She said before leaving. I could hear the whispers of the neighbors but instead of noticing them, I just went inside the boarding house.

I went straight to my bed and lay down. My tears kept coming. I can't stop crying, it's so unfortunate that this is happening to me! It's not funny anymore! Fck Mr. Tyson for closing the club immediately! I want to rush to him and blame him for why I'm having a hard time right now. But I can't blame him either, he owns the club and he will do everything he wants to do there. This life sucks!

I got up from lying down and took a shower. I can't cry like this while my brothers and sisters are waiting for the money I will send. They need me so I also need to be brave for them.

The next day after I took a bath I got dressed and went out again to take a chance.

"Excuse me, are you still looking for a waitress? Or a cleaner? I need ---"

"I'm sorry, there are a lot of us here." I shrugged and hid from the woman I was talking to. This was the last cafeteria I saw here in our area.

I was surprised when my cell phone vibrated and saw my neighbor Mela calling. I answered it.

"Where are you ?! Aunt Lorna is throwing your belongings here! Go home now!" Shit! This is what I'm saying. She was right about the threat she made yesterday!

I found her outside the boarding house standing and holding a fan. She said a lot of bad things as I approached.

"That's what I'm saying when you have a job you spend so much money. Now that you don't have a job anymore, you don't have any money either!!" I just quietly arranged my clothes that he scattered on the road. "As far as I know there was a lot of money in the bar right? There was a rumor before that rich businessmen keep on coming back to the bar because you were a total performer. Then, where's the money you earned?" When I put my things in the suitcase and bag, I stood up and faced her.

"I'll just look for a job and pay my debt. I don't have anything right now. I won't run away from you, I'll come back and pay you, Aunt Lorna."

"Hah! And if you can't get paid?"

"Put me in jail, if that's what you want to do." After that, she turned her back to me and left. I just sighed. Aunt Lorna was not like that before. Maybe it's true that people will treat you depending on how much money you have.

My cellphone rang and my brother Lawrence was calling again.

"S-sis.." He said while crying so I suddenly felt nervous.

"Why, what happened?!" I asked confusedly.

"W-we rushed Juno to the hospital just now sister. He had a very high fever and had a convulsion .." Shit! My tears started to flow because of what I heard. "T-they are suspecting him of having dengue fever." I left with my anger and while walking, I couldn't stop crying so the people around me were looking at me. "S-sis .. please go home .. I-I'm scared, I don't know what to do .." My brother said, crying.

"Shh .. shhh .. Lawrence, be brave. If I go home there, where will we get the money to pay for the hospital bill? Where will I work? Where will we get food every day?" I said, crying. I couldn't see the road well because I was crying so much but I didn't care anymore. I was so hurt, I couldn't do anything for my siblings!

I'm very worthless -----

*Beeeeeeep !!!!!!

I was startled by the very loud horn from the car. I thought I was going to be run over! And to my surprise, I couldn't stop crying even more. Fcking shit! I'm an unlucky ass!

"Damn! Is nothing really good going to happen in my life? Is it just misfortune and suffering?!" I shout to myself. It's too heavy-hearted. And very painful.

"Everything's gonna be fine .." When I lifted my head I saw him. He was on his knees and I could see the concern in his eyes.

"M-Mr. Anderson .."

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