"You say that love is nonsense. I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving one, by night or by day; a long strain on one's nerves like toothache or rheumatism, not intolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength."
Henry Brooks Adams.~Rory POV
.A cold breeze blew over my face and I shivered and glanced up wondering if this was a sign from God that I was slowly wandering into a cold path that I wasn't going to escape. At this point, I didn't think God was even interested in anything that had to do with me anymore. The church was awfully quiet and everyone was attentive and foc
"Something you need most might be something you turn away from, something you turn away from might be something you regret, and something you regret, in the end, might cost you the one chance you ever had." ~Brian Judge You owe me big time, Rory." She playfully hisses, blowing her hair and she walked towards me. "I still smell of puke." "I'm sorry." I apologized again since I now realized how terrible what I did was. I took a sip of the glass of water and dropped it on the desk close to where we were. She took a lazy stare at me. "You showered, you smell better." She smirks and stepped towards me. "Roleplay with me and I won't take my revenge." My
"Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something: they're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take."Anthony Robbins~We arrived at The Hilton private airport and while I went for Reign who looked so exhausted from the long trip, Taylor made her way out of the plane. The attendants help us with our bags and we walk out of the airport and to our waiting black limo. The driver gets down and opens the door for Taylor and she enters and I enter, helping Reign take her seat comfortably before closing the door. With the help of the driver, the attendants set our bags into the boot of the car and we stayed quiet.I feel Reign's soft and small hand on mine and I glance at her. Her green eyes are worn and weary and my heart goes out to her.It is o
"It is a curious sensation: the sort of pain that goes mercifully beyond our powers of feeling. When your heart is broken, your boats are burned: nothing matters anymore. It is the end of happiness and the beginning of peace."George ShawnWe arrived at the house which Taylor had purchased a few days ago and the servants there help carry our bags into the two-storey white mansion standing before us. I wanted to pick Reign up and carry her in, but she insisted she'd walk and so I let her and she hold onto my finger for support. We walk into the house and Taylor silently follows behind."We'll be living here?" Reign asks, looking around with wide eyes as soon as we enter the house."Yes," I reply and the two of the maids already waiting for us, in blue uniforms walk up to us."Good afternoon, sir." She greets and Reign and I looked at her.
"There are many persons ready to do what is right because in their hearts they know it is right. But they hesitate, waiting for the other fellow to make the make the first move - and he, in turn, waits for you."Marian Anderson~."Hello, brothers."Her voice seems to trigger something in the young men seated around the table as they all stared at their long-gone sister who had left without a reason, maybe they could finally get some answers after four years without having a disastrous dinner.Taylor can not help but marvel at the fine young men the three J's has grown to be in the last couple of years, although feeling a little sad she didn't get to be a complete part of that. Her three brothers didn't have the identical signature look they use to have as teenagers, and she doesn't feel like she is staring at the same thing in three differ
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up."Neil Gaiman~Third POVFlashback to a year ago"Where are you going?" Rory asked; walking into the room and seeing Paris stuffing her bag up with her clothes, her shoes and other things. He was a bit tipsy but not completely drunk and he can still make out a few things.Paris turns to look at him, "Welcome home, darling, it's three a.m. in the morning." she announced with a sarcastic tone of voice before she returned to arranging her bag, "and I am leaving, I can't stay in this marriage anymore," she zipped up her bag on the bed and turned to him with a pained look. Her eyes were glass
"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief... and unspeakable love."Washington Irving~She is Taylor, his Taylor. He declares as he stares at her.His eyes cannot be playing tricks on him, can they? He knew he didn't even have much to drink compared to other days, he just had a few bottles, but if he's seeing things, then that means he's doomed, lost without recovery. He prays that it will not be like one of the many dreams of Taylor he's had to wake up from in the past years, how frustrated he had been then.Longing for her, craving her, but not having her, he'd wake up some night certain what he'd seen was real, but only to be reminded of the reality that it wasn't. Those were his nightmare, his hell and his torture, being genuinely happy only to be thrust ba
"Sometimes you think you've gotten over a person, but when you see him smile you suddenly realize you're just pretending you're over him to ease the pain of knowing that he will never be yours."~UnknownKeenan's POVFour years ago, Four weeks after Reign's birth.Over the weeks that passed by after Reign's birth, I was able to secure admission for Taylor into the University of Rome so she could complete her study and attain a degree in accounting. She was more than happy those times than she'd ever been before, but never in those weeks did she bring up any discussion that Reign was involved in or even talk about her pregnancy or delivery and whenever I had tried bringing her up, she would either change the subject or shut it down completely. I d
“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.”Anais Nin~.Keenan's POV“We should go,” Taylor’s voice cuts our discussion short and we both turn to her, but her eyes remains on me, and I can tell she's getting bored out with watching me and Rory exchange greeting, “if we want to have lunch before picking Reign up from school.”Rory brow furrows as he gets a little lost in her words and like always his curiosity gets the best of him and he immediately asks. “Who’s Reign?”Taylor's eyes leave mine and move to him with a neutral expression and she replies. “She’s our daughter.”The blood on Rory's face vanishes and he stares at both of us in utmost surprise and even though my conscience is screaming to not partake in this outrageous act, there is nothing I can do about it now.Taylor is in the right place of telli
"And that, of course, is the message of Christmas. We are never alone. Not when the night is darkest, the wind coldest, the world seemingly most indifferent…” ~Taylor Caldwell"Remember there is always enough love to go around, especially today," I say smiling at the little kids looking at me, their smile widens and it warms my heart.I had discussed my Christmas plans for this year with Rory a week ago and I told him how I wanted to change the tradition of only celebrating with family which was just the three of us. I wanted something different, something new something that was more than just us. Rory then asked what I had in mind and I told him about reaching out to at least three orphanages this year and he was more than happy to support me all the way throughFlashback to a week agoThe snow falling on the trees as I star
Check out my book Hell Of A Marriage if you want to know what happened to Keenan.“You leave home to seek your fortune and, when you get it, you go home and share it with your family.”~Anita Baker"We know that though she's gone, her memory still lives on and we are assured that she's now resting in the bosom of the Lord." the priest officiating the funeral session says, after reading out the Bible and everyone replies."Amen," in unison."Ashes to ashes, dust to dust," he concluded and made a crucifix sign on the casketRory steps forward and drops the flower in his hand into the already lowered casket and then steps back, his eyes swimming in unshed tears. Taylor takes his hand into hers and gives it a reassuring squeeze, this is indeed a trying time for him and he needed support more than ever.Their honeymoon trip was cut short after they got a call that his mother, Melinda Gate, fell from the stairs of her home and died and they had to cancel the rest of three weeks they had ahea
"Damn, you're certainly my nightmare!" Rory ~Rory chose an old Gate's mansion in Scotland for our honeymoon. He had concealed the place we were supposed to have our honeymoon from me and only revealed it on the plane to Scotland a week later.I was surprised, curious and excited about our trip like a little girl because I had only been able to travel to a few places I wanted to. Places like China, France, Nigeria, and Australia and all those trip were on official bases with Keenan. I had never been able to come to Scotland since. Those feelings however were nothing compared to the ones I developed when I saw our cottage on arrival at our destination.The old mansion was magnificent and I couldn't help feeling giddy as we got down from the car. It felt like a fairy tale came alive."Mrs Gate, we've reached our destination," Rory announces in a Scottish accent as if he were my guard and he gives me his hand.I decided to play along, "Oh, thank you," I blush and accept his hand and he t
"I want all these things too. I want to wake up close to you, make love to you at night and also in the day. I want to call you mine in the face of the world, I want your beautiful moments and times when you feel insecure. I want you to be mine forever, body, mind and soul. I want to own you, and I want you to own me too. I want you to be my wife, the mother of my future children. I want a lot of things, but most importantly, I want you."Rory John Gate~.The teardrop from my face at the doctor's last words and I can't help the rasped cry that leaves my mouth and I take to my heel, running as fast as my legs can take me out of the hospital, past the host of reporters and onto the side of the road. I have no idea where I'm running to, all I know is I have to get away from here as far as possible. I just keep running and not stopping for any reason even as my breath grows faint, I just need to get out of the hospital, the state, country and if possible the world."Taylor!" I hear Keenan
“If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.”Anonymous~Rory's POVFour years ago Flashback "Let her go." Ginger said, hurrying over to me as the door shut, "you don't need her.."She was wrong, I needed Taylor I needed her like the air I breathe, I needed her 'cause I realised I was dead without her."Come, let me help you get cleaned up." She took my hand and began pulling me with her towards the bathroom, but I yanked it away from her hand and stepped back from her."What you need to do is help yourself out of my house an
“You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.”Anonymous ~Rory regained consciousness at the early hours of the day and the first faces he sees aren't those he had expected, nevertheless, he is happy to see Phoebe at the side of his bed with her hand in his. She's resting her head on the side of the bed and she seems to be sleeping.On the other side of the room is a long resting chair and on it is Jack, Keenan and his father Henry, each preoccupied with their own assignments. Jack is wearing white long sleeves and brown trousers, his eyes are fixed on his wife as his right fingers roll the ring on the left ring finger, Keenan who's wearing a red T-shirt and a blue Jean seems to be watching something on his laptop which is currently sitting on his laps. Henry's head is resting backwa
"The act of forgiveness is the act of returning to present time. And that's why when one has become a forgiving person, and has managed to let go of the past, what they've really done is they've shifted their relationship with time."Caroline Myss~Keenan's POVWhen I return to the hotel an hour later, I do not see a trace of Rory in the hotel room after searching everywhere he could have possibly gone to, I know I was crazy to think Rory wasn't going to do something crazy like visit Taylor again.Every time I think that he's changed, he manages to prove to me that he is still the same stubborn and crazy bastard I've known him to be all these years.Why is he so stubborn?! Why can't he just listen to me for once in his goddamn life?He's in love, and desperate, you will do the same if
"There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief... and unspeakable love."Washington Irving~Her eyes flare angrily, but there is still surprise and awareness that I know the truth about Reign now. "Reign will never be your daughter." she spits out in disgust before going upstairs and the men drag me out."Let me go! Hey! Let me go!" I struggle and I yell at the men who were pulling me out of my house, but they don't listen to me, neither do they stop until I am brought outside the gate. Without uttering a word to me, they return inside and shut the gate to my face.I slam my hand hard on the gate yelling "Taylor!!!" at the top of my voice, and "I know you can hear me, we can talk about this, we need to talk about this please!" but no one se
"When I gaze deep into your mind, I am met with the beauty of a thousand diamonds. As I let that love and beauty flood over my body, I knew that there was nothing that I would ever trade our relationship for."~AnonymousI see who had taken her focus and concentration is none other but Keenan.He's standing, having a casual talk with Dad and looking like he's getting the thrill of his life from whatever their conversation is. Beside him is a beautiful, black woman, whose hands are wrapped around his and I'm not sure if it's from fear or the fact that she's nervous but still, she's not the type of woman he'd go for. She's is wearing an orange mini gown and she seems to be having the time of her life too and once in a while Keenan would look down at her with a smile I know so well. Scratch that, she's his type in every way.Why haven't I seen the lady before?