My mind was stuck in a whirl of conflicting thoughts as I looked upon my father, who I had never seen before. He seemed like a completely different person from the one I had imagined.My throat went completely dry, and all other things around us faded away - he was the only figure in clear sight in that room. Suddenly, my mind draw a vivid picture of how my mother used to treat me, how she would always resort to abuse. I couldn't help but realize that it was because of him. He became that one common denominator that connected all these events throughout my childhood.I'd managed to have an okay life without a father figure when he suddenly showed up and claimed to be the one who had been helping me all this time, it threw me for a loop.“Hey…”He took his hat off and held it close to his chest as his eyes met mine. His smile stretched from ear to ear, radiating pure joy.While I, on the other hand, found myself unable to process my own emotions. I felt myself withdrawing from the pres
Days have passed and I am feeling better physically, now that the hospital staff has been taking such good care of me. But mentally, I'm struggling to face reality after everything my mother did to me.The thought of not knowing what the future holds is almost unbearable.It's almost as if my mother has some magical ability to make the impossible seem possible. She can take on any challenge that comes her way and find a way to make it happen, no matter what the odds may be.“What are you thinking?”I caught Adam's eye when he suddenly grabbed my hand, his grip strong but gentle. He gave me a warm smile and I felt a flutter in my stomach. We were the only ones in the room at that moment since Father had gone to the nurse station to check on my record here at the hospital. The room felt strangely peaceful, filled with an odd sense of familiarity despite it being unfamiliar territory.I let out a deep sigh, my gaze dropping to the floor beneath me. It took me a handful of seconds to try
It only took me a few days to be discharged from the hospital and it all happened because of Adam’s help.To be honest, without him, I don’t know what would have become of me. His kindness was overwhelming and filled my heart with gratitude, it was just what I needed at that trying time.Even after realizing that he was not the father of my unborn child, and understanding that he had no real involvement in my life from then on, he still chose to remain by my side throughout.I owe him an unfathomable debt of gratitude that is beyond any verbal expression. Words alone will never be enough to truly convey how much this person means to me and how he has helped and supported me.“Leilani, this would be your room.”Adam swung open the door and I was astonished by the sheer size of the room, not at all what I was expecting from a guest room. It's no secret that Adam is well-off; it's hard to forget when you're regularly surrounded by his luxurious possessions. However, this magnitude of spa
I left Adam alone in his room to ensure that everything for the arrangement was looked after.As I paced back and forth, my fingers were crossed tightly while my mind was spinning with worry. Anxiety rose within me as I continued on and on without pause. My heart beat erratically in anticipation of the outcome, and sweat began to accumulate against my forehead. Despite these worrying signs of distress, I couldn't stop myself from pacing back and forth in hopes that all would turn out alright in the end.I know I should not expend too much energy worrying about my father's case, and that Aiden is also somewhere out there. In order to try and gain some sort of peace of mind, I shut my eyes closed and take a few deep breaths. The past few days have been an immense strain on me both physically and mentally, but here I am still standing tall even if it feels like the walls are closing in around me.“Leilani…”Before I could be fully swept away by my own thoughts, the door suddenly slammed
Deciding on my own has always been a struggle for me. I grew up with a mother who treated me harshly, always telling me I was useless and too dumb to make any sound decisions. Even now, I could feel the sting of those words echoing in my head. It's something that will never fully go away. The tears streamed down my face as I told Adam to drive us to where my father was. Aiden was expecting our reunion, and it hurt me that I wasn't able to fulfill his wish. Adam’s car seemed to almost take off with the speed he was driving. I was a bundle of nerves, my eyes focused ahead of us on the road. We had driven for what felt like an eternity before we came to a stop at the scene of where my father had previously been seen. I was dreading what we might find, not knowing if he'd still be there or what state he'd be in. I almost had to force myself to make it out the door. As soon as my feet stepped out of the house, I saw a large number of officials and witnesses encircling the area. Despite
There was a long, unyielding silence on the other end of the line. My heart began to race as I realized that the seconds kept ticking on with no response. To make matters worse, all I could hear was his loud breathing coming through into my ear. It was an oddly uncomfortable moment and I wasn't sure what would happen next. As soon as I thought I couldn't take it anymore, he finally spoke up.“L-leilani, is that you, darling?”I clamped my hand over my mouth in a vain attempt to calm the sobs that were threatening to spill out. When he called me darling, it felt like an earthquake had rocked the entire foundation of my world, leaving me feeling disoriented and vulnerable. I wanted more than anything for this moment to be a dream, but alas, here I was...talking with him and attempting not to cry.My heart ached so much that it seemed like there wasn't enough air in this place for me."F*ck, if this is really you then please listen carefully, my love. I am going to find you, no matter wh
I don't loosen my grip on my phone for one second, clenching my jaw and gritting my teeth as I search the road ahead. My knuckles are getting more and more white as I tighten my fingers around the steering wheel, and all that comes out of me is a string of profanities.“F*ck…”I can’t seem to help it, my overwhelming anxiety always gets the best of me. The unbearable news of our child’s death rocked me to my core, and every ounce of guilt and remorse for what I had done only intensifies with each passing moment.F*ck, and it’s all because of me!My tears are splashing against my cheeks, blurring my vision and making it difficult to drive. I forcefully shake my head to clear away the thoughts that had caused the tears. I focus all of my attention on driving and refuse to let myself cry.“Wait for me, Leilani…” I whispered to myself.I cannot believe how naive I was! Why did I allow our relationship to end in such a way?! What was going through my head when I left her alone, knowing ful
It’s late, and the day is drawing to a close.I take a deep breath and set off, heading towards my house. As I do, my mind is running with all kinds of thoughts.I know it is my own fault that I lost her and that I am the one who needs to take action to find her, but there is no need for that as*hole to rub salt in my wounds. It's a situation of guilt and regret that I have put myself in. Guilt over these mistakes that led me here, regret for not doing enough to prevent it.I sighed in defeat as I met my own gaze in the rear view mirror. The entire situation was bizarre since she'd vanished without a trace and left me overthinking how it had all happened when only Adam and I had known the place to meet.It was impossible that anyone else would have known our rendezvous, yet she'd somehow still managed to disappear from sight without a single clue or indication of where she could have gone. The possibilities raced through my mind.After the long ride home that felt more like a foggy dr