LUCREZIA"What is the problem? Is everything okay?" Letizia rushes in my room a few minutes after Pietro had left.With quivering lips and a broken heart, I took a few steps backwards until the back of my knees touched my bed, making me sit there, feeling at a loss. Letizia rushes beside me upon seeing my distressed state. Without any idea of what has happened to me, she could only sit beside me in silence, with worry covering her entire body."I knew it! There is no other reason for you to come here alone unless something is going on between you and your husband" Letizia voices out with her eyes squinted together."Why didn't you tell me? why did you chose tohide things from me?" Letizia bombarded me with questions.Even I were to inform her about it, I doubt that it would bring us any help. As much as possible, I do not want to involve her in my situation, not just because it would be more troublesome, but also because I don't want my sister to worry about me too.She already has a
LUCREZIAI shut my eyes tight after the words escaped my mouth. I suddenly felt bad when I felt Letizia turn rigid beside me."W-What?" Letizia slightly stuttered as she asks me in a weak voice. Knowing the weight of my words too well, I lowered my head and bit my lower lip in shame upon telling her the truth.Getting a divorce as an Italian-American who is known for filial piety and holds marriage as a sacred thing is immoral for us.Divorce is even a topic of conversation that shouldn't be discussed for us.In all the marriages that happened in the Italian-American families whether they were successful or not, no one ever got divorce after marriage.People in the mafia looks down on divorce, especially on divorced husband and wives. If Pietro and I got divorced, not only will people close around us will look down on us, but it would basically be self destructing our reputation in the mafiaBeing a divorced husband or a divorced woman"W-Why?" Letizia asks softly, still slightly st
LUCREZIAIt's been more than a month since I last saw Pietro. Ever since he came to visit me and I yelled him to leave, I had never seen him since then and I haven't tried to contact him too.As I stayed true to my words, I drowned myself with my work, helping Letizia in her job and fulfilling my duties as her consigliere.With the amount of things that we had to handle, I had no time to think about Pietro and spare thoughts about my decision of divorcing him.Since the last time I opened up to Lucrezia and talked about the my relationship with Pietro, Letizia and I never had any conversation about Pietro since then.We were handling so many problems at the same time that we had no room to think about our personal problems.Even though the amount of work we had to do daily is heavy, I'm still glad at the heavy workload for it helped me to divert my attention to somewhere else.Not having Pietro in my mind and overthinking about the things between us is refreshing for my mind."Are you
I must have gone crazy because there is no way that I would have grown over confident enough not to bring anyone with me to face Pietro and hand him the divorce papers.Even Agrippa needed to have someone with her when she faced her in laws to ask them for help in teaching her husband and keeping him from his cheating ways.However, I did not bring anybody with me when I drove all by myself to Pietro's mansion. I even refused to bring Letizia with me even though she was very insistent on wanting to come with me.For some reason, I just felt that this is something that I should face courageously on my own, but now that I am already nearing Pietro's mansion, I couldn't help the dread slowly succumbing into me as I thought of finally doing it and not just imagining facing Pietro all by myself.I held the steering wheel tightly until my knuckles had turned white. I had never held the wheel as tightly as this before. I turned off the AC when the car turned much coder than it was for no r
LUCREZIA I fell in silence when I heard the maid’s reply that Bianca did not actually stayed that long in the mansion with Pietro. I was expecting that she would still be here until now, living with Pietro which will be the reason why he is staying more at home than in the office unlike when I was the one who used to live here with him. I thought he was enjoying Bianca’s company, reliving about his past, talking about secrets that she knows of which he couldn’t share with me.Before leaving, Bianca made it clear to me that she had feelings for Pietro. Without me hanging around them and having Pietro all by herself, spending all her days living with him in the same place, I was expecting that something might have flourished between them. Bianca already wasted his chance to be with Pietro once before. Now that she’s back and has regretted leaving Pietro’s side, she would surely value this second chance that was given to her. There’s no way that she would lose this chance again and l
PIETROLucrezia told me before that she would only live in her father’s house temporarily to help with her sister and to fulfill her role as the consigliere of the Rocchi family.She even told me that she is going to come back and live with me again as my wife after things are already resolved in her family.She said it so herself that she would come back after Letizia had found a new replacement for her and that I am free to visit her anytime that I want.Even though I did not want her to leave, I was understanding enough to let her do as she wants because I believed her words.I thought she’s just leaving temporarily to help her family and I believed it when she said that she’s going to come back after their family business had stabilized and her sister wouldn’t need her help anymore.I thought everything was fine between us when she left. I did not know that she was hiding grudges from me. I did not know th
LUCREZIAPietro fell speechless upon hearing my words. I want love, but it was love that he couldn’t give. Seeing how he fell silent upon my question, I no longer felt disappointed and hurt as I did before.I was expecting to be hurt by his words again, but when I felt nothing, I felt proud for myself for turning into someone this strong.I feel proud of myself for this time, I no longer expect love from him and I am strong enough to be able to handle that reality.No one knows how long it took me to reach this level of maturity where I no longer care if Pietro loves me or not, where I no longer need to have Pietro in my life.After so many years I had finally accepted that Pietro will never love me, he is not capable of loving me and that there is more to life than him. I shouldn’t be forcing myself on him and my life shouldn’t be circling around him.Now that I had reached the level of acceptance, I could finally let go of Pietro a
LUCREZIAI stared at Pietro with surprise fleeting in my eyes when my mind had finally processed his sudden confession.“Y-you love me?” I asked, my voice weak and stuttering feeling like I was living in a dream. Hearing Pietro say that he loves me was a dream that I thought would never come true. “Yes, Lucrezia. I love you. I always had.” Pietro spoke with all his heart. I stared deep into his eyes staring at the pool of sincerity in the depths of his irises. My heart turned erratic inside my chest and my breaths turned faster as tears sprang up my eyes. “I love you more than my heart and mind could comprehend. I love you more than I could realize. I love you so much that I couldn’t breathe at the thought of losing you.I know I am a jerk for lying to you and not showing you how much I love you. I do not deserve to be with someone like you, but I beg of you…Please do not leave me. Don’t demand me to let you go.” Pietro spoke in a broken voice. Hearing the pain in his voice als