Victoria He leaned against the counter in front of me, crossing his tatted arms over his chest."Did you cook?" Mia asked as she entered the kitchen, not noticing Landon as her eyes were stuck to her phone screen."Yeah..." I responded awkwardly and she laughed slightly."Why did you say it like th-" She paused as she looked up, her eyes immediately locking onto his as he seemed to be waiting. He just looked back at her coldly as if he was waiting for her to leave and I smacked his back lightly, shaking my head."I left you some food in the microwave." I told her, peeking my head out from behind Landon and she quickly nodded and exited the kitchen.He turned around, looking at me. I wasn't entirely sure if he wanted to say something or not but if he did, he chose not to.I got off of the counter, turning toward the sink and rinsing off the plates. My mind strayed and suddenly, I felt like I was drowning in my own thoughts as I stared blankly at the running water.Maybe I was only ca
VictoriåI curled up on the floor of the bathroom, feeling as though I was drowning as the water from the shower poured onto my face, washing away the blood that came from my mouth.My eyes were glued to the wall next to me and my body shook. I had come into the bathroom to take a shower then suddenly, I was on the ground.I couldn't speak and I couldn't move, but I knew I'd have to try to get off of the ground. Trying my hardest to feel my limbs, I attempted to push myself off of the ground.But that backfired tremendously as my face hit the ground when my arms gave out. Taking a shaky breath as my body still shook, I rolled closer to the wall and with all of my strength, I sat up.I sat there for a while, my back leaning against the wall. I knew that a lot of time had passed because the light from outside became brighter and brighter.Finally, I could feel my limbs again and the shaking had stopped. Getting up carefully, I turned the shower off and grabbed my towel, holding onto the
Victoria My hand still held my stomach where it hurt the most and it honestly pained me a lot to breathe. I leaned my head against the seat and stared out of the window, watching as he began driving. "You're silent." He noted as ten minutes had gone by and I didn't utter a single word."Everything hurts." I responded quietly and he glanced over at me briefly."Is there um," He cleared his throat. "Is there anything I can do?" He asked and I was blown away, not even hiding the look on my face."Who are you?" I asked seriously, turning in his direction."Shut up." He replied and I laughed, leaning my head backward as I did. "I'm convinced that you don't need me anymore." I smiled, watching as he stopped at a red light and looked over at me, raising an eyebrow."I don't?" He asked nonchalantly and I shook my head."I think we met so that you could come out of the dark a bit." "And you have." I finished honestly and he looked away for a while."You're the reason I changed, Victoria,"
Victoriå"Bella." I jumped, quickly looking around and my eyes finally settled onto him. Groaning, I slowly sat up and rubbed my eyes with my fists."Landon? What are you doing here so early?" I asked, seeing that the sun had barely started rising and he sat on my computer chair in the corner."Treatment." He reminded me, a perfect eyebrow slowly and I remembered. I hadn't been asleep for long. Maybe twenty minutes or less because my toothpaste had barely even worn off yet. Landon was wearing a white t-shirt, black jeans and a leather jacket. He leaned all the way back, massaging his tensed jaw and his eyes shut momentarily as he did so and I noticed that his eyebrows were highly arched, telling me that he was agitated and I wondered..."Did I make you mad?" I asked, tilting my head slightly as I did.His eyes reopened, instantly landing on me and he unclenched his jaw. Instead of answering, he stood slowly, coming over to me then sitting at the edge of my bed.My heart began racing
Victoria I put my hair up as I walked into my closet, grabbing a nice dress and taking it into the bathroom with me. I didn't bother to lock the door, as I knew Landon wouldn't come in. Also, if something happened to me again, it'd be easier to get out or in.Then I stripped, getting into the shower and allowing the hot water to embrace me. I felt a lot better today, in comparison to yesterday and I was quite happy about that.After I finished showering, I brushed my teeth again and changed before stepping out, finding Landon lying on his stomach. I quietly put my towel away and went over to him, climbing onto the bed and sitting on his back."Ready?" He asked nonchalantly, obviously not sleeping and I placed my hands in front of me on his back."Nope." I replied honestly, sliding off and sitting next to his body.I laid next to him and he opened his eyes, looking at me. Then he grabbed me, pulling me and adjusting himself so that now, his arms were wrapped tightly around my waist an
VictoriåI stared at the ceiling as I thought, the smell of various medication and chemicals surrounding me. It had been a week since I started treatment and I was told that I wouldn't be able to go home for a few days.But exams were nearing and I wasn't about to fail, so after every session every day, despite how tired I was, I decided that I'd still try my best to catch up on the work that I was missing out on. Landon wasn't a big fan of this, even trying to convince me to stop by offering to get me into any college I wanted to go to. But I didn't care. That would be unfair to the people that actually worked hard to get the life they dreamed about."Rhee!" I heard from the doorway, looking up to find Ryder.I smiled, opening my arms for him and he walked over, carefully hugging me. Landon had to leave to go attend to 'Business'. "I missed you so much." I told him, hugging him tightly.He smiled, taking a seat next to me on the chair. I tried sitting up, but failed instantly when
Victoria After a while, he pulled up to the front of Dino's and I slowly got out, basically waddling across the parking lot and going inside. "Hi, How are you?" I asked the cashier, who seemed surprised that I came in bubbly at this hour."I'm doing alright, Ma'am. What can I get you?" She asked, sitting upright and giving me a small smile."I'll have a blueberry muffin, some orange juice and a chocolate chip cookie." I told her, watching her put in my order before stepping back and allowing Ryder to get something.As he dug in his pockets for his wallet, I took that opportunity to pay with my own money. Then I grabbed my stuff and walked toward the booth I always sat in. Ryder slowly strolled over with a blank expression on his face after realizing that I had paid."You're so nice it hurts my heart." He grumbled jokingly and I laughed, grabbing my cookie from inside the bag."I can't help it." I responded honestly and he shook his head, putting cream onto his bagel."What's really
Landon"Slater." I leaned against my car again, stuffing my hands into my pockets before pulling out a cigarette with one of them. I didn't respond, knowing that they were testing their waters by approaching me at this hour."Didn't know you had such great taste in women." He chuckled, stepping forward.His men hung back, watching me carefully as their boss approached. I'd kill him right here, right now and just get this over with but I knew she'd have a problem with that."I see her face everywhere I go. Tv, magazines, Billboards," He chuckled, adjusting his jacket and I wasn't fazed."And when I saw her body," He paused, his eyes drifting behind me to see her through the glass and he licked his lips even though I knew that he couldn't see through the tint. "Those nice legs and that small waist has my name written all over it." He said more to himself than to me before looking at me again."I want her." He finished, stopping and standing with his legs apart, telling me that he was e
Landon"That's how I met her."His eyes glistened as they looked back at me, a look of curiosity washing across his face. His eyes drifted toward the water, then made their way back up to mine. "My mommy?" His little voice asked, a smile growing on his face as he thought about her and I nodded. "I miss her." He looked down and I rolled my eyes."What have I taught you?" I questioned, staring back at him emotionlessly and he nodded."No weakness." He said and I nodded, standing up. He got up as well, looking at me for a while before he hugged my legs tightly. He wasn't like me. No matter how much I tried training him to not show emotion, he always seemed to do the opposite. He was like her in every way. The excessive kindness, the everyday happiness and the random affection. He'd hug everyone and everything in his path and there was no stopping him. His eyes were a greenish grey and his hair was dark and he had most of my features"Come on." I told him, placing my hand on his head. H
LandonI stared at the painting in front of me, wondering how I got to this point. The house felt empty now. There was nothing to come home to other than our son. I couldn't even sleep in our bedroom anymore. Her things there had stayed the same. Her blanket was still in the same spot she left it and everything there smelled like her.Everytime I looked at the baby I saw her, hating the fact that she wasn't here to help me. I didn't get any sleep as he constantly needed to be fed or changed and I had to do this all on my own. I didn't trust anyone to care for him, knowing that he was the last thing I had gotten from her. No one knew what he looked like. I kept him hidden from people that were just looking for another story. I got off of the chair and walked up the stairs to his room. As I entered, I found that his big green eyes were now opened and he was just moments away from crying. His legs kicked the air as he laid on his stomach, his hands grabbing at the blanket. I watched her
Victoria The door opened again and I looked up to find Landon walking in, his eyebrows arched more than usual and I knew that he was angry. "What's wrong?" I asked, pulling the blanket further up onto my body and he looked at me."I can't do this." He shook his head almost frustratedly. I pointed to the chair next to my bed and he stood there for a while before sighing and running a hand through his hair. He came over and sat, crossing his arms over his chest and I knew he was trying to suppress his emotions.I motioned for him to lean closer before cupping his face in my hand, my arm too weak to even lift properly. I stroked his cheek with my thumb and gave him a small smile."You have your whole life ahead of you, Landon," I paused, another sharp pain hitting me in my chest. "You have to move on, okay? For me.""No." He replied curtly, his tone dark and I sighed, expecting nothing less from him."Landon, you can't hold onto this forever. You'll torture yourself." "No, Victoria."
Victoria I laid on the bed, looking at the ceiling blankly. A tear rolled down my cheek as I finally allowed myself to cry because I was alone. There was no one around to be strong for. I was in so much pain. My brain screamed for it to just end and I sniffled as another tear fell. The surgery was scheduled just mere minutes away as they didn't want to risk me passing and the baby dying as well. I knew that this was it. It had to be.There was this bitter taste in my mouth as I laid there. The only sound heard was the beeping of the monitor and my breathing which was loud due to the oxygen mask. They had prepared me for surgery already and my friends were here. They'd be allowed to come in soon to say their final goodbyes and it was this moment that made me realize that I didn't want to go. I prayed and hoped that by some miracle I'd survive this but I knew better. There was no way.Landon was outside making a call and I wiped away my tears quickly as the door opened. Mia and the o
Victoria I was still strong despite my condition. My body was weak and my stomach was heavy but I still managed to build enough strength to walk. It was hard, but I didn't mind. At least I was still around for now. I was supposed to be moving around in a wheelchair but frankly, that just made me feel worse. I continued to do interviews and there were tons of articles covering my life. Even the news kept up with it because it was genuinely a really rare thing to happen. I wanted to see the ocean before I went to the hospital, knowing that this would be the last time I see the world.He walked back into the Living Room a while later and turned the TV on for me. Then he handed me the Jello Cup with a spoon and a napkin before he sat on the other couch and opened his laptop. He buried himself neck deep in work and I ate with my eyes shut, listening to the TV."Let's go to the park." I suggested randomly and he looked up from the screen.He shut his laptop and took it with him as he walk
VictoriåMonths laterToday was December 23rd, one day away from Landon's birthday. One day away from the end. I was surprised that I had made it this long. I laid in bed, my eyelids too heavy to lift. The oxygen mask on my face had been a constant thing since last month, as I couldn't really breathe on my own for more than an hour at a time.I was in more pain than I had ever been in, in my entire life. My stomach was huge now and my body was too weak to even handle its weight. I was already dealing with the pain of my cancer and the constant kicking and punching going on in there wasn't really helping.Tomorrow was the surgery. The baby would be here at just eight and a half months and that wasn't too bad. Definitely not preterm. I just prayed that everything went well. I knew the chances of me surviving this were literally zero and that was okay in my book. I knew that Landon was physically prepared.Over time he'd grown into a really great guy. He did everything for me before I ev
LandonI ran a hand through my hair as I sat in my bedroom, not knowing what anxiety felt like but if I had to make a guess, this would be it. She was out, spending time with her friends and I was on edge the entire time.The air around me smelled like Coconut and Vanilla, a scent I'd grown rather accustomed to. My dresser was now filled with her things; various different products which contributed to the room's scent. I got up, walking to the door and grabbing a shirt on the way out. I pulled it over my head as I descended the stairs, going to the kitchen. I sat behind the counter and checked my phone, seeing as there were still no calls or texts from her."Boss. Permission to speak?" Theo asked from behind me, staying where he was."Granted." I replied, taking a sip from my drink and listening as he approached."Mister Santos is outside." "My office." I got up, walking out of the kitchen and going into my office. I sat behind my desk just as they walked in. He hadn't changed much
She didn't need to tell me that. She made her decision a long time ago. I sighed, taking her hands off of my face and bringing them to my lips. "I want, what you want." I said and she smiled, smacking my cheek."Thank God. Because you didn't actually have a choice." She replied jokingly. She opened her arms, scooting to the edge of the bed and hugging me tightly. "What if I'm not a good father?" I asked nonchalantly as I placed my head in her neck and she breathed out a small laugh."Nobody's perfect." She tried reassuring me and I held her tightly, knowing what was to come in a few months."Would you hate me?" I questioned further and her arms around my neck tightened slightly."You're my wife, Landon. I can't hate you." She assured me and somehow, I felt better about everything. She managed to drag me into something new each month. Things I didn't think were possible for me suddenly began happening and I couldn't complain. "Now help me to the bathroom so I can let all of this hosp
LandonI sat, staring at her sleeping face as she laid on the hospital bed again. There was an oxygen mask on her face to help her breathe and even then her breathing was shallow. She had been asleep for a few hours and showed no signs of waking up any time soon.I took her hand, looking down at the ring on her finger. Her skin was pale now, every little scar she had turning purple. Her long eyelashes casted shadows on her cheeks. She looked peaceful as she slept and I sighed, leaning back in my seat.For the first time in my life, I felt hopeless. I could only watch as she got worse and I couldn't do anything about it. I was tired of seeing her in this room for weeks at a time. Tired of seeing her in pain everyday. She couldn't die. There was no way things would ever be the same without her. There'd be nothing to look forward to every day; nothing to look forward to in the future. No more excited smiles when I visited, no more late nights listening to her dreams, no more buying her