HAZELI look at myself in the mirror and hold my breath. I have changed so much since left my parents' home and moved in with Ramon. My mom and I hardly ever talk anymore, and when we do the conversation is kept short and sweet. Trevor and I never speak unless I call him first. I guess that's what happens when you get older. Everyone seems to forget about you.Quietly, I study myself. My hair has grown a few inches since I moved in with Ramon, and I think I may have even grown a few inches taller too. I know that I've gained a few more pounds since as well but there's nothing wrong with that.My fingers scrape over the crook of my neck where my mark is supposed to be. The bareness of my neck makes me feel so many types of ways. Most of all, worthless. Ramon had spilled his heart out to me a few days ago, but without his mark on me, I don't feel like we're complete. My wolf aches for him to claim her like he has claimed me. A mark is to show that I belong to him, to his followers. With
HAZELI wake up completely sore. My body feels as though its been thrown around on concrete while I was unconscious. Which, it probably was. My neck aches when I try and turn my head, and that's when everything comes back to me.Ramon! My head is heavy from whatever sedative they stuck in me, but I try to push past that I bring myself up off the new concrete floor. I'm somewhere else. Furrowing my eyebrows I bring my hand up to my head.Where am I? I look around and try my best to figure out this place. It's dark, but I can see just fine. The smell in my head reeks of sitting water and cigarette smoke. I try my best to get on my feet."No, baby girl." A deep voice says from my side. I snap my head in that direction and come into eye contact with an older man. His eyes are dark and a scar crosses his features. "The sedatives are yet to wear off completely, and I don't want you falling and busting your head open." He grins.I know this man. I swallow, hard. I can't exactly pin point whe
HAZELI don't think and I don't feel. My wolf gain powers through the pain of what Ramon gave us. Strength courses through my veins with every beat of my heart.The only thing on my mind is getting out of here. I don't care who or what stands in my way. It won't be standing for very long. I bolt down a quiet hallway, hoping that my first choice will be straight to an exit.Instead, I'm caught between taking a left or a right. I turn and go to the left, in the direction that I can hear something other than the sound of water. My paws beat against the ground, my nails clicking on the wooden floors.My breathing is heavy, and I stop in my tracks upon seeing a man. He is tall, and built like a muscle man. My ears rest against my head and my teeth bare at him.A low growl escapes me as I lunge forward. I make the first move. I shut my emotions away, and let my wolf do what she wants to do with him.He falls silent, lying in his own pile of blood. A sort of sickness makes my stomach churn,
HAZELThe only thing the entire world can agree on which is an important factor of the human race is Loyalty. The simple word alone can either bring people together or tear them apart. Loyalty is something that every single one of us relies on.Ramon has based his life around that factor. He trusts Jackson and his warriors to keep the Pack safe and under control. If only one of them breaks their loyalty with him, it could mean harm to him or the Pack. Loyalty and trust are the two most dangerous things that one has to put themselves through."Hello?" Jack waves a hand over his face and I blink, focusing my attention back to the blonde-bafoon in front of me. He makes a face, and I can't exactly tell what he's thinking."Hey, don't look so sour." He pouts, "I was hoping that you wouldn't start being as mean as Ramon after he marked you- but so far my hope is fading-fast." He grins. I just roll my eyes and don't take his comment to heart."Ramon is only mean to you, because you're annoyi
HAZELI quietly kick my feet back and forth as I sit in the porch swing. My head is buzzing from the amount of liquor I've put into my body, but I don't mind.Ramon digs into his pocket and pulls out a blue box of cigarettes. Taking one, he brings the stick to his teeth and flicks the lighter. I focus on the orange flame and pull my lip between my teeth."So, why do you think that Jackson is involved?" I ask, breaking the silence.Ramon turns to me and sucks in deeply before exhaling the smoke from his lungs. He makes sure not to get it anywhere near me."I've been around for too many years, and I've come to understand to pay attention to body language. I'm not accusing him of anything." Ramon shrugs his shoulders and brings the cigarette to his lips again."His body language?" I knot my eyebrows. "Like, I don't get it. If he was against you, would he have jumped from a building trying to get me out of it and back to you?" I scratch the side of my head."I don't know, Hazel. You may a
HAZEL"I'll be sure not to have Damian watch over you ever again." Ramon says softly, holding my hand in his and rubbing his thumb over my knuckles. His attention is on where ever he's leading me. That's all he has been doing lately. Thinking... so have I."I don't need anyone to watch me." I reply softly. I don't want to be the reason that he gets angry again, so I try to keep my voice low and my comments restricted. Ramon is the last person you want to put in a bad mood."But you don't like being alone," he mumbles. "I know you don't like being watched, but I do know that you don't like being left by yourself." He says softly. I hate being by myself for long periods of time. I don't know how Ramon knows that, maybe it is just a feeling. I enjoy company, and always try to be around at least one other person."Can you just, not say it like I am being babysat then?" I ask. Ramon pauses and looks towards me."I can try," he looks me over. "If you think I'm bad now, I wouldn't recommend
HAZELI wake to the sun brightly shining in my eyes. The images of what happened only hours before fills my mind and clouds out everything else. I roll onto my side and bury my head into the covers. A few more hours of sleep won't hurt.To my disappointment however, I cannot go back to sleep. My muscles throb and my core aches from Ramon completely taking my innocence. As much as I hate the way my body is aching at this moment, I don't regret what I let him do to me.It was going to happen eventually. He and I both knew it. That's what mates do. That's what people in love do. I quietly sit up in bed and rub my throbbing neck. Ramon likes biting, probably more than he should, but I don't mind."Good morning," Ramon says softly. His eyes glance at the clock and then they rake over me. "I figured you would sleep in." His hair is wet from a recent shower, and he's wearing nothing but a pair of boxers."Trust me, I would if I could." My eyes slide from his eyes down to his shoulders, red w
HAZELMy heart aches as I fall asleep against Ramon's chest. I didn't mean to, but crying as hard as I did has drained all of my energy.People tell you to never go to sleep upset, or angry since it messes with your dreams, and you tend to wake up still in that very mood. Which, I could agree on completely.However, it's the only closure one can get for the time being. Sleep is something I run to, to try and get away. It's what my dad always told me.'Go take a nap, and dream of the one place you want to be.' He would always tell me. Especially when my grandma passed. 'Go and dance with her in your dreams.' Oddly enough, my dreams would be something like that.The sound of a beating heart against my ear pulls me awake. Wrapped in the warmth of Ramon's embrace, I let out a sigh and realize that we're in his bedroom. The letter Ramon had given me is still in my hand. The smell of my own heat hits my nose and I frown. No wonder I'm so emotional.I shift and rub my dried out eyes. "Go bac
HAZELFive years are over since Ramon marked me and turned me into a Lycan. For the last three years, my body has been responding and I've been slowly turning into a full blown Lycan and on the fourth year, I finally fully transformed to a Lycan and that's when Ramon and I decided to start trying for a child.However, I sometimes keep on reminding my mate about his mistakes which happened around three years ago. Whenever I remember how he fooled me into believing that both of us were unable to have a baby of our own, I feel like swallowing him alive.He has been apologising since then and even now that I am three months pregnant with his heir. So far, we've been taking the necessary precautions as adviced by the doctors so as to give birth to a fully developed Lycan. Both Ramon and I do not want to lose our child just as he lost his son with Paloma.At least, Ramon's heart is at rest now that I am carrying his child and he keeps on hoping that everything will go well eventually.He n
HAZELWhat the hell? Why would Ramon do that to me? I know that I may have gotten off on the wrong foot and came at him a little aggressive- but he shut the door. On. My. Face. After I brought him food and everything!"Are you serious?" I grumble aloud. Quiet. I can hear the crickets chirping outside. I clench my jaw and reach for the doorknob to open it. As soon as my fingertips touch the knob, the latch clicks and he locks the door.Wow. Just...wow."Fuck you," I mutter and walk away from the door. 'It's quite unlike you to make the first move, little wolf.' Ramon says through the link. I groan and stomp myself back down the hall. Who does he think he is?I stop in my tracks when I hear Ramon cough. I pause for a moment longer, waiting for him to open the door. He never does. My frown grows.I get that he's all emotional and on his man period, but this is just dramatic. Why are men like this? I remember the time that I made my dad cry and he was mean to me for a whole week! This is
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZEL"Did you love her?" I break the silence. Ramon runs his fingers over my face and tucks a chunk of hair behind my ear. It isn't angry. It isn't forced. Everything is calm."Who?" He wonders, scrunching his eyebrows. His eyes search mine for some kind of answer, and he eventually realizes who I am talking about. He lets out a breath and responds."I did." He says softly. "We fall in love with many people in our lives. You are the last love I will meet, for now." He smiles. I knot my eyebrows at him."So eventually you'll move on?" I wonder. "Why didn't that work out?" Ramon shrugs his shoulders."I will never find anyone that compares to you. The only person I can ever love besides you, has to be like you." He kisses my forehead. He doesn't say another word."Can you at least tell me about her?" I wonder out loud. What was she like? What made Ramon want her?"What is there to tell you?" He wonders back to me, confused. When I do not answer him, he speaks up. "I figured you already
HAZEL'Do you really think that I will be loyal to an animal?' I growl, managing to scratch his face with my claws. He stumbles and loses his balance.'You are weak and you need me. Don't forget that.' I hiss. Things have escalated quickly. His wolf is being extremely dominant right now. I continue to test his patience.Ramon growls and it echos through the house. 'The only thing I need from you right now is between your pretty little legs. If not that, you have no other use for me!' he confesses and I immediately tense.I lunge at Ramon, sending us both flying into a table. The sound of glass crashing fills my ears. I snap my teeth at his face, missing it by only a few millimeters. Instantly, it turns really violent, very quickly.I cannot believe that that's the man who I decided to marry. I really thought that he was better than what he actually is. My mind is racing and my body is aching, but he has hurt me for the last time. I will either come out of this by myself, or dead.Ramo
HAZELThe car ride home with Ramon is silent. Other than when he tried to start a conversation with me by asking me what the hell I thought I was doing out running while I'm in heat. It really isn't the kind of thing you say to someone who you just left with your friends. Ramon's grip on the steering wheel looks like it's going to break it, and he's going unreasonably fast. I must have pissed him off.When we pull into the driveway, Ramon puts the car in parking mode and turns to look at me. His jaw is clenched, and his hair is a mess. "Please never run off like that again, Hazel. I was worried sick about you." He goes to reach for my arm and I jerk away."You were worried about me?" I furrow my eyebrows. "You didn't call or anything while I was staying with Jack and Bertha. You didn't care how I was doing, so don't you dare say that you were worried sick about me after you got what you wanted from me." I growl loudly. "You, the first time you see me all you want to do is to sleep wit
HAZELI wake up feeling the worst I have felt in months. It isn't a sickness in my stomach making me need to throw up. It's the type of feeling where you know what you have done is wrong and you just want to punish yourself in any way possible. My body still tingles as I roll over, feeling the warmth of the body next to my own.The heavy breathing next to my ear warms my neck, and the grip Ramon has around my waist is like that of a cobra's. I try my best to keep my heavy eyes open, but exhaustion is beating me right now. I shut my eyes and tell myself just five more minutes.I lie there in my thoughts, wondering why I have just let him in so easily. Maybe he would have changed his mind and taken me back? No. Ramon doesn't get influenced by that. He wouldn't. Maybe it's the fact that I desperately wanted him in ways that I shouldn't have, and I cannot blame it on my heat either. I wanted it even before I went into heat. Does that make me an awful person?I shouldn't have given in as e
HAZELAs the days drag into weeks, and the weeks into months, the only thing coursing through my veins is sadness and the thought of Ramon. I would be alright without him, but the truth be told; I am nothing without that man. He was the one who brought out my happiness, in it's most pure state. The feeling of his embrace was what kept me asleep all night long. Now I find myself waking up every hour of the night, reaching for someone who isn't there. Bertha and Jack always try and keep my mind off of that man, but nothing works. It comes in spurts: I am okay but then five seconds later my mood completely changes. I don't understand how one man can change my life completely.My heart yearns to be with the man that I love, the one who has changed me into a wife, a lycan, and most of all a woman. It was so childish of me to put my own wants before his needs. All he ever wanted was for me to be happy, and I wouldn't even let him get that. I would love to hear from him just one more time. I