HAZELIt's already the following day early in the morning and I'm leaving Ramon's Pack.This really makes me feel sick to my stomach because I already know in my heart what I want, I just have to decide if he's what I need.As the car travels, the landscape changes. So does the sky. The sunrise has just began, and it's purples and yellows catch my eyes. It astonishing. The uneasy feeling doesn't leave though, it only seems to multiply.I look at the man driving the car. His eyes are focused on the road, but occasionally I catch him glancing at me."You look so sad." He says, his voice isn't as deep as I had pictured it. I'm taken off guard by it, and I jump. Throughout the hours we have been in the car this is the first time he is saying anything.I suck in a deep breath. "Yeah, just a little." It was my offer that I had brought up to Ramon. I just didn't think it'd actually come into affect, or that I would be this upset about it."You only just got here, why are you leaving the univ
HAZEL"So, tell me all about it." Bertha says with a huge grin on her lips. I already know what she's talking about, and I let out a slow breath."Bertha," I say with an eye roll. I can't help myself but smile. "There isn't anything to tell-" I say, casually shrugging my shoulders but all I receive is a slap to the back of my head."I know there's a lot for you to tell. Spill. I want to know what it's like to live with the king and what you've been up to." She says. I watch her cross her legs and lean forward. She reminds me of a pre-teen, gossiping about her crush.I blow out a quiet breath. "I don't know, Bertha. There's a lot." I shrug. "Ramon is great and he's dark and mysterious, it's like he comes straight out of a mystery book. He's strong, and intimidating, yet so gentle." I silently think about him. I wonder what he's doing. Where he is. Is he thinking about me?Bertha's lips curl into a grin. "So, you did it?""Did what?""IT?" I knot my eyebrows and look at her like she's s
HAZELI wake up to a coolness being pressed against my forehead. Slowly, I open my eyes and look into the dark bedroom."Ramon?" I ask, tiredly lifting my head from my pillow. I must be dreaming. He is standing on the side of my bed, leaning over me. Slowly, he carefully climbs into bed beside me and pulls me against his chest. "Go back to sleep, baby doll." He sighs out."What are you doing here?" I ask, cupping his cheeks and propping myself up on my elbows. Ramon's fingers run over my shoulder and he sighs. "I missed you." I can hear the pain in his voice, and my heart aches to fix that.I slowly bring my lips to his, and inhale deeply when I feel the sparks ignite inside of my body. I missed him. So much. Ramon's hands draw me closer as they attach to my hips. I pull myself away from him and rest my head in the crook of his neck.The ache I've felt since the moment I had left has finally dissolved. It wasn't the ache one gets when you lose something you've had. It felt like I lost
HAZELBefore Ramon had showed up at my parents' kitchen table, I never really understood the pull of a mate bond. Mom had always described it as a magnet. She used to say that the two destined wolves will always be drawn to each other, even when they want nothing to do with each other.That's exactly how it feels when I think about Ramon. Even though we haven't completely finished the mating process, the bond is just like mom had described no doubt. I always have this constant need to want to be by his side, to touch him, to keep him going. Being around him is possibly the best feeling that I have ever experienced, and I don't want that to end."What's on your mind?" Ramon wonders, curling his fingers around my chin and tilting my face to look up at him. Our lips are only centimeters apart, and the warmth of his breath fans over my face. This is where I want to be forever under his touch. I momentarily suck in the feeling of him. The tingles that shoot through me when we just barely b
HAZELI wish Ramon would have at least pointed me in the direction of the TV room before he had left me so abruptly. A little girl runs past me in a hurry, her giggles hit my ears and I can't help but smile. She's adorable. I watch her pigtails bounce until she's out of sight and I'm alone again. "Are you lost?" A woman's voice brings me out of my little dream world. I momentarily wondered if Ramon and I happened to have kids, what would they look like? Would they look more like him or me? How many would there be?The woman before me clears her throat. Meeting her icy blue eyes, I raise my eyebrow. She stands taller than I do, but, who doesn't? Her face is littered in tiny freckles and her hair has the texture of a spiral in a shade of brown that I cannot describe. Her eyes wander over me, appearing to do exactly what I had done to her. She smells different. I can't exactly describe the smell of her, but it's intriguing me. "I-uh, well a little." I sigh defeated. She smiles at me and
HAZEL"What was the meeting all about?" I ask Ramon, curious as to what they were discussing. He looks over at me and gives me a glare. Clearly, he doesn't want to talk about what ever it is that they were discussing. I blow out an annoyed breath and buckle my seatbelt. I had held off from asking him until we were done eating. His eyes roam over my face quietly before he buckles his own seatbelt and turns on the car. Something is aggravating him, that, I can tell. His grip on the steering wheel tightens as he starts to drive. I chew on my bottom lip. "Will you at least tell me what's bothering you?" I ask so softly I cannot even feel it come out.Ramon glances at me and then turns to the road. "Are you not angry wth me?" He asks. It's obvious he has been beating himself up over what had happened. I mean, yeah, it did bother me, but Ramon didn't do anything or say anything, his wolf was just attracted to an unmarked female simply because he is yet to mark me. I quietly look at the way
RAMONMy fingers dig into the backs of Hazel's thighs. Her soft skin is set on fire, and the smell of her is absolutely intoxicating. I want her. All of her. My wolf is itching to claim her as his own, and show her exactly why she's mine. I'd like to bend her over every piece of furniture in this house, and so many other places.The strain in my pants is getting harder to ignore, and seeing her like this is making it worse. I shouldn't have waited this long. I should have claimed her the night I met her. Pressing my nose to her panties, I hear her take in a sharp breath, and it satisfies me. Hazel will never admit it, but she's afraid. I can see it in her eyes.My tongue darts out and wets my lips. Slowly, I trail my eyes up her body. I crave her. I desperately want to see her exposed and underneath me, baring herself to me. Our eyes lock, and I watch her tremble as I inch closer to where she's aching. The aroma she's putting off is enough to drive any man to his knees for her. I want
HAZELI wake up to the sound of the front door opening and shutting. I had ended up falling asleep on the couch while waiting for Ramon to come home. Standing to my feet, I tiredly head around the corner to the door, colliding into a rock hard chest."Hey baby," I say tiredly rubbing my eyes as he wraps his arms around me in a tight embrace. I hug him back and rest my head on his chest, loving the tingles that come with his touch. "Is everything alright?" I pull back and look into his eyes.A wave of relief washes over him as he looks me over. He looks completely sick with worry, and I wish I could read his mind, because I know he won't tell me everything that's wrong. Ramon gently caresses my cheek before pressing a soft kiss against my lips."Yeah, baby. It was just some rogues." He keeps his explanations short and sweet. inhale deeply and relish in the warmth of his breath fanning over my face. "Are you hurting?" He asks."No-" I shake my head, "I mean, I was but I took some medicin
HAZELFive years are over since Ramon marked me and turned me into a Lycan. For the last three years, my body has been responding and I've been slowly turning into a full blown Lycan and on the fourth year, I finally fully transformed to a Lycan and that's when Ramon and I decided to start trying for a child.However, I sometimes keep on reminding my mate about his mistakes which happened around three years ago. Whenever I remember how he fooled me into believing that both of us were unable to have a baby of our own, I feel like swallowing him alive.He has been apologising since then and even now that I am three months pregnant with his heir. So far, we've been taking the necessary precautions as adviced by the doctors so as to give birth to a fully developed Lycan. Both Ramon and I do not want to lose our child just as he lost his son with Paloma.At least, Ramon's heart is at rest now that I am carrying his child and he keeps on hoping that everything will go well eventually.He n
HAZELWhat the hell? Why would Ramon do that to me? I know that I may have gotten off on the wrong foot and came at him a little aggressive- but he shut the door. On. My. Face. After I brought him food and everything!"Are you serious?" I grumble aloud. Quiet. I can hear the crickets chirping outside. I clench my jaw and reach for the doorknob to open it. As soon as my fingertips touch the knob, the latch clicks and he locks the door.Wow. Just...wow."Fuck you," I mutter and walk away from the door. 'It's quite unlike you to make the first move, little wolf.' Ramon says through the link. I groan and stomp myself back down the hall. Who does he think he is?I stop in my tracks when I hear Ramon cough. I pause for a moment longer, waiting for him to open the door. He never does. My frown grows.I get that he's all emotional and on his man period, but this is just dramatic. Why are men like this? I remember the time that I made my dad cry and he was mean to me for a whole week! This is
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZEL"Did you love her?" I break the silence. Ramon runs his fingers over my face and tucks a chunk of hair behind my ear. It isn't angry. It isn't forced. Everything is calm."Who?" He wonders, scrunching his eyebrows. His eyes search mine for some kind of answer, and he eventually realizes who I am talking about. He lets out a breath and responds."I did." He says softly. "We fall in love with many people in our lives. You are the last love I will meet, for now." He smiles. I knot my eyebrows at him."So eventually you'll move on?" I wonder. "Why didn't that work out?" Ramon shrugs his shoulders."I will never find anyone that compares to you. The only person I can ever love besides you, has to be like you." He kisses my forehead. He doesn't say another word."Can you at least tell me about her?" I wonder out loud. What was she like? What made Ramon want her?"What is there to tell you?" He wonders back to me, confused. When I do not answer him, he speaks up. "I figured you already
HAZEL'Do you really think that I will be loyal to an animal?' I growl, managing to scratch his face with my claws. He stumbles and loses his balance.'You are weak and you need me. Don't forget that.' I hiss. Things have escalated quickly. His wolf is being extremely dominant right now. I continue to test his patience.Ramon growls and it echos through the house. 'The only thing I need from you right now is between your pretty little legs. If not that, you have no other use for me!' he confesses and I immediately tense.I lunge at Ramon, sending us both flying into a table. The sound of glass crashing fills my ears. I snap my teeth at his face, missing it by only a few millimeters. Instantly, it turns really violent, very quickly.I cannot believe that that's the man who I decided to marry. I really thought that he was better than what he actually is. My mind is racing and my body is aching, but he has hurt me for the last time. I will either come out of this by myself, or dead.Ramo
HAZELThe car ride home with Ramon is silent. Other than when he tried to start a conversation with me by asking me what the hell I thought I was doing out running while I'm in heat. It really isn't the kind of thing you say to someone who you just left with your friends. Ramon's grip on the steering wheel looks like it's going to break it, and he's going unreasonably fast. I must have pissed him off.When we pull into the driveway, Ramon puts the car in parking mode and turns to look at me. His jaw is clenched, and his hair is a mess. "Please never run off like that again, Hazel. I was worried sick about you." He goes to reach for my arm and I jerk away."You were worried about me?" I furrow my eyebrows. "You didn't call or anything while I was staying with Jack and Bertha. You didn't care how I was doing, so don't you dare say that you were worried sick about me after you got what you wanted from me." I growl loudly. "You, the first time you see me all you want to do is to sleep wit
HAZELI wake up feeling the worst I have felt in months. It isn't a sickness in my stomach making me need to throw up. It's the type of feeling where you know what you have done is wrong and you just want to punish yourself in any way possible. My body still tingles as I roll over, feeling the warmth of the body next to my own.The heavy breathing next to my ear warms my neck, and the grip Ramon has around my waist is like that of a cobra's. I try my best to keep my heavy eyes open, but exhaustion is beating me right now. I shut my eyes and tell myself just five more minutes.I lie there in my thoughts, wondering why I have just let him in so easily. Maybe he would have changed his mind and taken me back? No. Ramon doesn't get influenced by that. He wouldn't. Maybe it's the fact that I desperately wanted him in ways that I shouldn't have, and I cannot blame it on my heat either. I wanted it even before I went into heat. Does that make me an awful person?I shouldn't have given in as e
HAZELAs the days drag into weeks, and the weeks into months, the only thing coursing through my veins is sadness and the thought of Ramon. I would be alright without him, but the truth be told; I am nothing without that man. He was the one who brought out my happiness, in it's most pure state. The feeling of his embrace was what kept me asleep all night long. Now I find myself waking up every hour of the night, reaching for someone who isn't there. Bertha and Jack always try and keep my mind off of that man, but nothing works. It comes in spurts: I am okay but then five seconds later my mood completely changes. I don't understand how one man can change my life completely.My heart yearns to be with the man that I love, the one who has changed me into a wife, a lycan, and most of all a woman. It was so childish of me to put my own wants before his needs. All he ever wanted was for me to be happy, and I wouldn't even let him get that. I would love to hear from him just one more time. I