HAZELThe drive to the hospital proves to be so long such that I end up being exhausted and bored.When we arrive at the hospital, I don't feel as excited as I was when we had left the house. Ramon's point of view on his world made me sort of numb.Sometimes I dream of what it will be like to be a grandma, and what I'd look like when I age. Ramon has never experienced anything like that. It's sad to think about. All he has ever wanted was what is best for everyone else, putting himself last each and every time.The sting from his words still resides in my nerves as they keep playing on repeat inside of my head. I had been pressuring him, but he didn't have to blow up on me. I can't blame him, but I'm appalled by the way he had acted on it. How was I supposed to react to that?The entire car ride here, I played cabd crush and picked at my fingers. I didn't come prepared to be lectured at four in the morning.My mind is quite heavy as the idea of everything sinks in. Finally, the eight
HAZELIt's already five in the evening when we finally leave the hospital. We have spent like the entire day in the room and Ramon has refused to let me eat hospital food, therefore I am starving.As soon as we leave the hospital, we end up at a local diner for dinner. It isn't anything fancy. Burgers, fries, pizza, chicken, the casual stuff, which I'm absolutely okay with."What hotel do you want to stay at tonight?" Ramon asks, sipping on his sweet tea. I look up at him and shrug my shoulders."We can just stay at my parents' place." I shrug. Ramon makes a face at my idea. "What?" I frown."Nothing." He sighs. "I just want to get somewhere soon and rest. It's been a long day.""Do you and Trevor have a problem with each other?" I ask, knotting my eyebrows. Trevor and Ramon had given each other glares all day today and I really want to know what's going on between them."It's not a big deal. He and I started off on the wrong foot." He says while shrugging his shoulders. But again, wh
HAZEL"Ramon?" I say, climbing into the bed beside him. It's late and all I want to do is sleep. He turns his attention to me and knots his eyebrows."Yes, cupcake?" He asks, looking me over. I don't ever really understand why he does that. It's fine though.I blow out a breath and look into his eyes. "Are you upset about me not changing in front of you?" I ask, knotting my eyebrows. Ramon looks at me and shakes his head."It's a little disappointing knowing that you don't trust me." He says gently, "but eventually I'll break you off that." He shrugs."Oh," I say, trying to think of something else to add. "If it makes you feel any better, I'm just shy. I don't even like changing in front of a mirror." I point out.Ramon sighs. "You're beautiful, and one day you're going to realise that." He smiles and kisses my forehead.I don't say a word. I choose not to argue with what he has to say. As much as I want to tell him that he's wrong, it will on infuriate him. Men don't realise how muh
HAZELI wake up to the sun shining in my eyes. Both my mind and my body seem to be as relaxed as I can possibly be. It feels as though I'm floating on air.My body still tingles from the sensations I had felt the night before. I didn't sleep for the better part of the night and I've never felt more awake. It's like I've renewed myself.Although my heat hurt, nothing could have been as painful as when Ramon took me. He didn't intentially try to hurt me, and he warned me about what was to happen. However, when the pain finally ceased, I was beyond satisfied.I shut my eyes and bury my head into the crook of Ramon's neck. His breathing is slow and even in my ear, and my movements doesn't seem to bother him.Slowly, his large hand slides up my bare back and rests right underneath my shoulder blades. He somehow manages to pull me closer, squeezing my body against his."Your heart is beating like you've just run a marathon." He says softly, taking in a deep breath. I feel myself heat up jus
HAZELWe got back from the hospital a few days ago and right now we're in our house, in the living room together with Jack playing like little kids. Ramon is beside us, seated on his chair working on some paperwork. "Ramon!" Jack yells. "Hazel hit me again!" He whines, holding his nose.Ramon glances up from his papers and furrows his eyebrows. "Next time, hit him somewhere where he won't be able to speak after." Jack's eyes go wide and he looks at me.I stick my tongue out at him, and he frowns. "If you weren't a girl, I would hit you back, brat." He pokes his tongue out at me. I roll my eyes and laugh."Quit being such a baby. I only flicked you in your nose." Jack mocks me, and throws his hands up in the air."Yeah, okay. Flicked. You punched me in the nose!" He whines in protest."You two are so annoying." Ramon growls, running his hands over his face. "Go outside and argue. I've got lots of things to do.""He was talking about you." I whisper into Jack's ear, making him to grumb
HAZELIt's already the following day early in the morning and I'm leaving Ramon's Pack.This really makes me feel sick to my stomach because I already know in my heart what I want, I just have to decide if he's what I need.As the car travels, the landscape changes. So does the sky. The sunrise has just began, and it's purples and yellows catch my eyes. It astonishing. The uneasy feeling doesn't leave though, it only seems to multiply.I look at the man driving the car. His eyes are focused on the road, but occasionally I catch him glancing at me."You look so sad." He says, his voice isn't as deep as I had pictured it. I'm taken off guard by it, and I jump. Throughout the hours we have been in the car this is the first time he is saying anything.I suck in a deep breath. "Yeah, just a little." It was my offer that I had brought up to Ramon. I just didn't think it'd actually come into affect, or that I would be this upset about it."You only just got here, why are you leaving the univ
HAZEL"So, tell me all about it." Bertha says with a huge grin on her lips. I already know what she's talking about, and I let out a slow breath."Bertha," I say with an eye roll. I can't help myself but smile. "There isn't anything to tell-" I say, casually shrugging my shoulders but all I receive is a slap to the back of my head."I know there's a lot for you to tell. Spill. I want to know what it's like to live with the king and what you've been up to." She says. I watch her cross her legs and lean forward. She reminds me of a pre-teen, gossiping about her crush.I blow out a quiet breath. "I don't know, Bertha. There's a lot." I shrug. "Ramon is great and he's dark and mysterious, it's like he comes straight out of a mystery book. He's strong, and intimidating, yet so gentle." I silently think about him. I wonder what he's doing. Where he is. Is he thinking about me?Bertha's lips curl into a grin. "So, you did it?""Did what?""IT?" I knot my eyebrows and look at her like she's s
HAZELI wake up to a coolness being pressed against my forehead. Slowly, I open my eyes and look into the dark bedroom."Ramon?" I ask, tiredly lifting my head from my pillow. I must be dreaming. He is standing on the side of my bed, leaning over me. Slowly, he carefully climbs into bed beside me and pulls me against his chest. "Go back to sleep, baby doll." He sighs out."What are you doing here?" I ask, cupping his cheeks and propping myself up on my elbows. Ramon's fingers run over my shoulder and he sighs. "I missed you." I can hear the pain in his voice, and my heart aches to fix that.I slowly bring my lips to his, and inhale deeply when I feel the sparks ignite inside of my body. I missed him. So much. Ramon's hands draw me closer as they attach to my hips. I pull myself away from him and rest my head in the crook of his neck.The ache I've felt since the moment I had left has finally dissolved. It wasn't the ache one gets when you lose something you've had. It felt like I lost
HAZELFive years are over since Ramon marked me and turned me into a Lycan. For the last three years, my body has been responding and I've been slowly turning into a full blown Lycan and on the fourth year, I finally fully transformed to a Lycan and that's when Ramon and I decided to start trying for a child.However, I sometimes keep on reminding my mate about his mistakes which happened around three years ago. Whenever I remember how he fooled me into believing that both of us were unable to have a baby of our own, I feel like swallowing him alive.He has been apologising since then and even now that I am three months pregnant with his heir. So far, we've been taking the necessary precautions as adviced by the doctors so as to give birth to a fully developed Lycan. Both Ramon and I do not want to lose our child just as he lost his son with Paloma.At least, Ramon's heart is at rest now that I am carrying his child and he keeps on hoping that everything will go well eventually.He n
HAZELWhat the hell? Why would Ramon do that to me? I know that I may have gotten off on the wrong foot and came at him a little aggressive- but he shut the door. On. My. Face. After I brought him food and everything!"Are you serious?" I grumble aloud. Quiet. I can hear the crickets chirping outside. I clench my jaw and reach for the doorknob to open it. As soon as my fingertips touch the knob, the latch clicks and he locks the door.Wow. Just...wow."Fuck you," I mutter and walk away from the door. 'It's quite unlike you to make the first move, little wolf.' Ramon says through the link. I groan and stomp myself back down the hall. Who does he think he is?I stop in my tracks when I hear Ramon cough. I pause for a moment longer, waiting for him to open the door. He never does. My frown grows.I get that he's all emotional and on his man period, but this is just dramatic. Why are men like this? I remember the time that I made my dad cry and he was mean to me for a whole week! This is
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZELShe was beautiful. Her eyes sparkled like the night sky. Her hair fell down her back as if it were made of silk. I'm sure her skin was soft, and I bet she had the warmest laugh.'Stop it!' She grumbles, inside my head. I can't help but compare myself to the person he had before. She got him. Not me. She was the one who got to carry his heir, not me. She was the one who got told she was the love of his life. Not. Me. I am nothing more than a blueprint that had been lost for ages that had sloppily been built back together. I am not me. I am just a replacement of her.I've always felt this empty void in me, could that be it? Has it been because of her this entire time? I cannot blame her for any of this, as much as I want to. I stare at her picture with a thousand questions in my head. I don't look a thing like her. There is something about her that seems familiar- but I know that's just the wolf's spirit that had resided in the both of us.I think about how much her heart must hav
HAZEL"Did you love her?" I break the silence. Ramon runs his fingers over my face and tucks a chunk of hair behind my ear. It isn't angry. It isn't forced. Everything is calm."Who?" He wonders, scrunching his eyebrows. His eyes search mine for some kind of answer, and he eventually realizes who I am talking about. He lets out a breath and responds."I did." He says softly. "We fall in love with many people in our lives. You are the last love I will meet, for now." He smiles. I knot my eyebrows at him."So eventually you'll move on?" I wonder. "Why didn't that work out?" Ramon shrugs his shoulders."I will never find anyone that compares to you. The only person I can ever love besides you, has to be like you." He kisses my forehead. He doesn't say another word."Can you at least tell me about her?" I wonder out loud. What was she like? What made Ramon want her?"What is there to tell you?" He wonders back to me, confused. When I do not answer him, he speaks up. "I figured you already
HAZEL'Do you really think that I will be loyal to an animal?' I growl, managing to scratch his face with my claws. He stumbles and loses his balance.'You are weak and you need me. Don't forget that.' I hiss. Things have escalated quickly. His wolf is being extremely dominant right now. I continue to test his patience.Ramon growls and it echos through the house. 'The only thing I need from you right now is between your pretty little legs. If not that, you have no other use for me!' he confesses and I immediately tense.I lunge at Ramon, sending us both flying into a table. The sound of glass crashing fills my ears. I snap my teeth at his face, missing it by only a few millimeters. Instantly, it turns really violent, very quickly.I cannot believe that that's the man who I decided to marry. I really thought that he was better than what he actually is. My mind is racing and my body is aching, but he has hurt me for the last time. I will either come out of this by myself, or dead.Ramo
HAZELThe car ride home with Ramon is silent. Other than when he tried to start a conversation with me by asking me what the hell I thought I was doing out running while I'm in heat. It really isn't the kind of thing you say to someone who you just left with your friends. Ramon's grip on the steering wheel looks like it's going to break it, and he's going unreasonably fast. I must have pissed him off.When we pull into the driveway, Ramon puts the car in parking mode and turns to look at me. His jaw is clenched, and his hair is a mess. "Please never run off like that again, Hazel. I was worried sick about you." He goes to reach for my arm and I jerk away."You were worried about me?" I furrow my eyebrows. "You didn't call or anything while I was staying with Jack and Bertha. You didn't care how I was doing, so don't you dare say that you were worried sick about me after you got what you wanted from me." I growl loudly. "You, the first time you see me all you want to do is to sleep wit
HAZELI wake up feeling the worst I have felt in months. It isn't a sickness in my stomach making me need to throw up. It's the type of feeling where you know what you have done is wrong and you just want to punish yourself in any way possible. My body still tingles as I roll over, feeling the warmth of the body next to my own.The heavy breathing next to my ear warms my neck, and the grip Ramon has around my waist is like that of a cobra's. I try my best to keep my heavy eyes open, but exhaustion is beating me right now. I shut my eyes and tell myself just five more minutes.I lie there in my thoughts, wondering why I have just let him in so easily. Maybe he would have changed his mind and taken me back? No. Ramon doesn't get influenced by that. He wouldn't. Maybe it's the fact that I desperately wanted him in ways that I shouldn't have, and I cannot blame it on my heat either. I wanted it even before I went into heat. Does that make me an awful person?I shouldn't have given in as e
HAZELAs the days drag into weeks, and the weeks into months, the only thing coursing through my veins is sadness and the thought of Ramon. I would be alright without him, but the truth be told; I am nothing without that man. He was the one who brought out my happiness, in it's most pure state. The feeling of his embrace was what kept me asleep all night long. Now I find myself waking up every hour of the night, reaching for someone who isn't there. Bertha and Jack always try and keep my mind off of that man, but nothing works. It comes in spurts: I am okay but then five seconds later my mood completely changes. I don't understand how one man can change my life completely.My heart yearns to be with the man that I love, the one who has changed me into a wife, a lycan, and most of all a woman. It was so childish of me to put my own wants before his needs. All he ever wanted was for me to be happy, and I wouldn't even let him get that. I would love to hear from him just one more time. I