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I Want You

Author: Psalm Matonni
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She kept her eyes on him too. "I do not mean to, but you kissed me in front of so many people and left. Why?"

Something in his gaze shifted. "I left to speak with one of my men." She knew immediately that he was telling the truth.

"I…" He let go of her wrists and stepped away. In that instant, she realized she had hurt him. She would give anything to return to what they had. No! She would give it to attain more.

She missed the warmth his hands provided her wrist, missed his closeness and she missed him. He was standing before her and she missed him. Her love for him was overwhelming and it was starting to frighten her. She would never demand him to love her, still she wished he would.

His hands returned to his pockets. "Did you come to quarrel? As charming as it is to always quarrel and reconcile, Beth, I am not in the mood to entertain it." His voice was unkind. He started away, back to his table.

There had been pain when Eric died, pain so great and paralyzing she could still not fo
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