Tammy
His lips are moving, yet everything around her it's frozen in time. Golden specs of dust fly in the air as complete void wraps them both in nothingness. Soon his mouth stops forming words, his bottomless eyes examining the vastness of the sky. His silence is compelling her to glance at him, yet the sight of Lucas touching the stars is something out of her imagination. He looks like a fallen angel trying to reach Heaven again. Her eyes are scanning hungrily all of his features when a particular mark on his wrist captivates her attention. There it is, blank ink on olive skin, the number 99 stands out above what looks like a part of a puzzle. Some of the shapes are thicker than the others creating intricate patterns down on his arm. Unaware she was gawking, Tammy sighs in frustration when he swiftly hides them all behind the thin fabric of his sleeve. He jumps to his feet, then puffing the air out from his lungs he invites her back inside. How can someone be
LucasI-DID-NOT-SEE-THAT-COMING. Pain radiates through my leg, crawling up my spine and sending icy needles along its way. It takes me a while to fully understand what happened, that I had fallen for such a low trick, especially one coming from her. I used to be the top of my class, for god's sake! The ache doesn't bother me that much as I am used to it by now, however, my ego has suffered the worst. And as if that's not bad enough, I let her go. Again. I press the heels of my hands to my eyes, then drag them both across my face hoping to wash off the shame and annoyance that rooted deep inside my mind.Stupid move Lucas, stupid move! I scold myself between curses as I follow her out the trapdoor and down the ladder. My leg still hurts like crazy regardless of how much I try to ignore it. She's fast, but not as fast as I am. I let the thought escape my mind while I slide down and jump off on the platform below. Hissing in pain, I
TammyWhile her body has become lighter than a feather, her mind weights the burden of an entire world. The walls around them are constricting, sucking up the air and leaving her breathless. Hundreds of questions are flooding her thoughts at once, unfolding various simulations, all cursed with the same tragic end her grandmother gone forever. With teary eyes, she sways her glance over to the trashed pictures around her on the floor, one, in particular, drawing her attention a family portrait. Two joyful parents, holding their daughter dearly to their chests, are smiling wide for the camera. She leans forward, barely keeping the salty tears that are invading her eyes and, with shaking fingers, she grabs the idyllic testament from the ground, careful not to touch the shattered glass.For a second, time freezes in astral creating a passageway to Grace's old words which, coming to life, are encircling her like a protective cloak. Swee
LucasMy legs lead the way to the only safe haven they know. I guess we are going back to the one place secluded enough to hide both of us, the depot. Tammy follows me blindly, lost again in her thoughts, dodging trees completely absent-minded and tripping over exposed roots. I would give everything to know what she's thinking right now. She looks devastated, however, the pallor in her cheeks is what's scaring me the most. Her condition is getting worse now that the adrenaline is leaving her body. My mind races looking for a place closer to our location, but even Matt's is all the way in the other part of the city. Good thing that the forest stretches beyond the fringe and almost near the station.The epinephrine in her bloodstream is keeping her numb for now, but soon she will succumb to immense pain from her sore muscles and stinging cuts. There is blood everywhere on her clothes, her beautiful face, on her bare arms. Hell, from
TammyThe biting air might calm the burning cuts on her flesh, however, the gust is feeble against the aching pain that's rooted inside her. She can almost feel her heart shattered into a million pieces, a torment like nothing she has ever experienced before.Numb to any physical torture, the ghost of Tammy's body sits defeated on Sesh's lawn, aimless and lost like the souls entrapped in the Spirit World. Who knew words can cut more sharply than daggers? And I thought maybe, just maybe, I might have another ending.' Her mind drifts away as she's weakly throwing pebbles at the shimmering window above.Yawning and still drowsy, Sesh pulls the silky drape apart only to gauge her eyes in surprise when she finally sees her friend outside. She rapidly covers her lips with her index finger warning Tammy her dad is at home. It takes only a blink of an eye until s
TammyFaint noises wake her up from what appeared to be the most inanimate and abrupt sleep of her life. It takes her a while until she recognizes the familiar surroundings, the immaculate walls and plush carpet. Yawning, she stretches refreshed, when the memories of past days fill her mind at once. Her heart skips a beat and the short-lived happiness fades away more rapidly than a blink.Sesh, who is already dressed up and looking as flawless as ever, startles her by throwing a clean uniform in her face.Morning sunshine, time to head back and dig the dirt for that notebook. Dress up. I'll wait for you downstairs.' She utters, then disappears behind the door, leaving Tammy staring baffled after her.How did my life become such a mess?' She questions, yet the words hang in the air, floating above her like a cloud.Grateful for having Sesh in her life, she decides to put herself to
TammyThe next few hours drag painfully as her mind keeps reliving the heinous meeting of today's morning. Everything she knows is a lie. Everything she believed in is nothing more than a product of well-forged propaganda, a deceitful agenda of someone else's. Moving her carcass from one lecture to another, her thoughts are too busy to even notice the critical stares of the others. Harsh, judging rumours pass her by for no one has ever been called upstairs to be praised.The fog starts to dissipate only at midday, leaving her standing alone in front of an empty table that once had been the heart of the lunchroom. Tammy stares hesitant and brokenhearted at the window-wall in front of her, frozen and unable to feel the burning tears that are flowing down her cheeks. The right hand on her heart tries in vain to stop the hole in her chest growing bigger. However, when she feels the metal pin attached to the fabric she starts cho
NathanLet me out, Mommy! I promise I won't do it again. Please, let me out!' I beg and I beg long after I hear the basement door shut behind her.Silence and darkness. I'm all alone in the blackness. My hands are throbbing from all the splinters that got caught in my skin. The box is made of raw wood, but somehow it shrank since the last time I've been here. Now I barely fit and I have to lower my head every time I try to stand.Mommy says I have to be punished and think of what I've done. I am a bad boy. I made mommy angry. I told her I love her. Again. I wonder how long it will take this time until she lets me out. Days? Weeks? Last time it's been a month.But then she saved me....She looks straight into my eyes when she lies. I watch closely, absorbed by those beautiful and unique eyes of hers two different worlds, one more perfect than the other. Does she f
TammyGolden rays filter through her long lashes bringing the thin layer between reality and dreamworld to life. Darkness turned into a rather bronze-coloured veil, cut across by a bright golden halo. With the shimmering aureole growing bigger and bigger, the more absorbed her entity becomes into the present realm. Every single muscle and bone in her body twitches lightly as it lands where it belongs until she's completely awake.Her cheeks feel warm and she's ready now to let the morning light invade her being. As she slowly opens her eyes, the memories of last night start rolling one after another. Suddenly, the soft pillow becomes more rigid, moving slightly up and down to match her breathing. Then, his steady heartbeat cancels out all the bird songs and the leaves fluttering noisily in the wind, leaving her frozen and trapped in the chaos of her mind. Has she really fallen asleep on Nathan's chest? Remorseful, she gently raise
Nathan Come, Nathan, a few more steps. You can do it. Talk to me!' Grace's raspy voice keeps bringing me to reality. I am not sure how many times I've dozed off. Every move feels like the skin is tearing off from the bone. The pain is unbearable and I don't know for how long I'll manage to stay awake. Grace's weak body struggles to hold mine, still, she doesn't show any sign of giving up any time soon. The truck, a foggy illusion in the distance, roars abandoned for us to get in. Those monsters have kept their part of the bargain and left us alone. Tears start to pile up thinking about the price she had to pay for our lives. Tammy, our saviour. We leave a trail of salty droplets behind, feeding the scorched land with our sadness. She helps me with my mask, silent and mournful. Any words would be useless right now. I lay hopeless in the back as she steps on it, propelling us closer to safety and to a pointless life. I would have rather died t
TammyDon't do anything stupid!' Luther jumps off of his throne, shaking and visibly awestricken. You heard her! Bring them in!' He adds through gritted teeth, his eyes fixed on the gun pointed to her head.Soon the door slams open revealing two rebels carrying a barely conscious Nathan. His foot is still bleeding and the wound has doubled its size. He slowly raises his head towards the centre of the room, choking with blood when he sees her bargaining for their lives. Tammy gasps in horror at the sight of him, once a beautiful face now painted in bruises. A swollen black eye covers half of one side, while the other is bleeding, leaving out only the light blue in a sea of red. She tightens the hold around the grip as a burning wish of punishing everyone present flames her entire body. They lock their gaze for a second while she watches him being dumped at Grace's feet, his cracked lips begging her not to die. Tammy moves her to stare away, battling the tears that are gat
TammyWhere are you taking him?' Her desperate cries are growing louder and louder as the door closes shut behind Nathan's body.She's on the verge of losing her self-control. The adrenaline has made her muscles weak and soon her legs turn to jelly. This is not happening!', she keeps telling herself, yet the pool of blood at her feet is more than a cruel reminder her best friend just got shot. What's worse, is the crowd's noise only intensifies her meltdown and the lack of response drives her insane.Where is Nathan?' Tammy asks again, this time shouting to cover their cackles. Her hands are shaking and it feels like thousands of pinpricks are crawling up to her shoulders.The room turns into an uproar. Her pain entertains them and they are having a blast. Suddenly, Lucas's words fill her mind stopping her train of thought and bringing her to reality. They are not to mess with, Tammy. They are not stable.', he had told her
TammyThe underground is nothing more than a complicated maze of tunnels and quarries. Down there the oxygen is scarce and the air so damp soon their skin gets covered with sweat. They keep running, their boots splashing in puddles, and growing the distance between them and the guards with every single breath. Still, the deeper they get into the unknown, the more unbearable the smell. It started as a mixture of dust and grease and something vaguely metallic, only to morph into a defensive odour of sulphur and mould. The walls have long lost their human touch, concrete turning to hard clay and wood pillars barely holding up the roof. Whoever continued the digging must have been in a rush, determined to never coming back, for their sloppy work is a miracle it hasn't collapsed.They continue following the winding tracks and looking over their shoulders every time they hear the distinctive sounds of splitting and cracking of timber. The white beams of their flashlights captu
TammyYou need what?' He snaps at her, his whole body shaking in denial, shocked and unwilling to believe her words.Nat, listen to me, please.' Tammy starts begging and furrows her eyebrows at him. She truly needs him to focus. There's no time to waste.You must be joking, Ner. What the heck do your need dad's gun for?' He continues in the same harsh tone, ignoring her insane plea.Then, puffing out the air from his lungs, he moves away, pacing the room and combing his fingers through his golden hair when the locks fall over his forehead. He had shown her the weapon when they were kids, long before his father got promoted. He's seen it one more time since then but never dared to ask any questions. Why on Earth is she bringing it up now?Tammy walks to him and gently grabs his arm. Her touch compels him to look at her, in spite of his efforts to keep his stance. An instant later and all his barriers are shattered to pieces. One a luxuriant forest and th
NathanAnother flawless presentation, Mr Oaks. We wouldn't have expected anything less from you.' The chairman's adenoidal voice breaks the silence.I have always disliked him. There's an air of double-dealing and deceit hanging over his words. He would constantly praise my father's abilities during his fancy dinners, yet his face had betrayed his hollow actions every time. We started as poor and we will forever be tainted by our inferiority.Today's meeting is held in the old Library, a sign of power and fatuous attachment to our history. The room oversees the whole campus and it looks more of a vault rather than a boardroom. The glass wall that encircles us seems too fragile to protect all the leaders of the state gathered in one place. Still, I know better than all, the invisible shield is nothing more than a honeycomb mesh of trillions of nanites programmed to emulate the strongest material on the planet. Nothing comes in or out, other than air.Everyone
TammyGolden rays filter through her long lashes bringing the thin layer between reality and dreamworld to life. Darkness turned into a rather bronze-coloured veil, cut across by a bright golden halo. With the shimmering aureole growing bigger and bigger, the more absorbed her entity becomes into the present realm. Every single muscle and bone in her body twitches lightly as it lands where it belongs until she's completely awake.Her cheeks feel warm and she's ready now to let the morning light invade her being. As she slowly opens her eyes, the memories of last night start rolling one after another. Suddenly, the soft pillow becomes more rigid, moving slightly up and down to match her breathing. Then, his steady heartbeat cancels out all the bird songs and the leaves fluttering noisily in the wind, leaving her frozen and trapped in the chaos of her mind. Has she really fallen asleep on Nathan's chest? Remorseful, she gently raise
NathanLet me out, Mommy! I promise I won't do it again. Please, let me out!' I beg and I beg long after I hear the basement door shut behind her.Silence and darkness. I'm all alone in the blackness. My hands are throbbing from all the splinters that got caught in my skin. The box is made of raw wood, but somehow it shrank since the last time I've been here. Now I barely fit and I have to lower my head every time I try to stand.Mommy says I have to be punished and think of what I've done. I am a bad boy. I made mommy angry. I told her I love her. Again. I wonder how long it will take this time until she lets me out. Days? Weeks? Last time it's been a month.But then she saved me....She looks straight into my eyes when she lies. I watch closely, absorbed by those beautiful and unique eyes of hers two different worlds, one more perfect than the other. Does she f
TammyThe next few hours drag painfully as her mind keeps reliving the heinous meeting of today's morning. Everything she knows is a lie. Everything she believed in is nothing more than a product of well-forged propaganda, a deceitful agenda of someone else's. Moving her carcass from one lecture to another, her thoughts are too busy to even notice the critical stares of the others. Harsh, judging rumours pass her by for no one has ever been called upstairs to be praised.The fog starts to dissipate only at midday, leaving her standing alone in front of an empty table that once had been the heart of the lunchroom. Tammy stares hesitant and brokenhearted at the window-wall in front of her, frozen and unable to feel the burning tears that are flowing down her cheeks. The right hand on her heart tries in vain to stop the hole in her chest growing bigger. However, when she feels the metal pin attached to the fabric she starts cho