FEELINGS

CHARLES POV

I tightened my grip on whatever I was holding as the sun rays tormented me through the opened binds of my window.

I finally gave in to its crave for attention and forced my eyes to open, it was then i realized it was already morning and the 'whatever' I was squeezing tightly happened to be Crimsons waist.

After our long conversation last night, she fell asleep and looked way to comfortable to be disturbed at that time so I let her sleep.

Over the years I had of course monitored my Crim but I did so from afar, I could never let distance block me out from her life.

Although I knew the answers to almost everything I was busy asking her, I still felt the need to hear from her and be certain there weren't things I as yet to know.

I knew she had no boyfriend and had never confessed to having any romantic feeling for a specific somebody.

Nevertheless I still had to ensure Brenna who was literally always with her was nothing but a friend.

That is how possessive I could be when it comes to the woman I loved, she was mine and mine only and I would easily do my worse if it meant protecting her..... yeah you heard me right, I was in love with Crimson.

At first I didn't know how to explain my feelings especially since it took effect the moment I first laid my eyes on the five year old Crimson whose smile sent rumbles through my chest.

I thought it would go with time but it only grew, I blamed puberty and went around f**king for relief but it didn't change what I felt at all.

I finally caved in and accepted my feelings at the age of seventeen but then and now, I still have no idea how to tell Crimson I loved her more than a sister, she was the reason I kept f**king all around and never settled down and thinking of what the result would be after I confessed terrified me a lot.

I was about to sneak out of bed when I heard her voice "don't leave", I really didn't enjoy leaving that way but how could I stay when the temptation to touch her was taking control of my movement as my member pushed aggressively begging for some sort of relieve.

She was sleeping so peacefully with her long hair strapped into a loose bun, she had a baggy top on but something about the way her nipples pushed against the fabric made me wonder if she wore anything beneath.

I was at the peak of giving into the unbearable temptation when my phone rang.

"Hello, prepare the files I will come to the office today", if going to my office was going to distract me from these crazy urge then I would gladly run to work.

"Hey Crimson, I need to go to work", "work? but I thought you were doing it from home this month" she replied with a sleepy voice while stretching her hands lazily.

"I am but I need to handle something urgently, I will see you later. you can sleep back".

CRIMSON POV

I woke up feeling a strong hand strap my waist tightly, I was about to go into full panic mode when I heard Charles voice.

He seemed to be speaking to someone on the phone and I guess I dozed off in his room as usual.

"Hey Crimson, I need to go to work" I was still really sleepy but I remembered Charles had told my dad he would work from home for now so why the change, or was he planning to run away and disappear again.

He said it was an urgent matter he had to look into, I felt a little bit relieved.

"you can sleep back" if only he knew I didn't need his permission to do that, I would have escorted him to work or at least stop by to see one of his many companies that was surprisingly not too far from our house but it was Saturday; a day to sleep, rest, watch movies, probably go out and just lazy around all day.

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The next week went by so slowly, my dad was happy Charles and I had reconciled although I would still steal moments to pressure him into telling me the unfinished explanations for five years ago, I totally enjoyed this holiday and it was a shame I had just two weeks left before resumption.

"Miss Bold please don't trouble your brother, I will be gone for just a week", "Dad I am the peaceful one here, you should be telling him not to trouble me not the other way around".

"Darling his the responsible one here and you are the adult that have refused to grow up", "Dad!!", "I love you too and don't skip your meals".

My dad was travelling for some business to Africa and according to him he would spend just a week but at the end he would always make sudden extension.

At least this year I would not be totally bored like other years since Charles was around, before I only had Brenna to keep me company over the phone then I would spend my remaining time watching movies, reading or having a conversation with my neighbour dogs about noise control.

We spent the entire day having fun and trying different flavours of ice cream after Charles came back from dropping my dad at the airport.

"So Charles since you wont tell me about anything that happened to you in the last five years can you at least tell me who the luck girl is, I am so eager to meet my nephews and niece but you are delaying".

"you are the luck girl" Charles replied starring at my lips for some reason instead of my eyes.

"Very funny, do you think you can avoid the questions forever. I am very good at investigating these things so I will find out soon, wait and see",

"don't waste your time, i'm single but I have someone I love. Its just that she's got no idea" he took a deep breath like he was pained, i'm sure he was I mean I cant imagine loving someone who wont reciprocate.

"and those five years away were the most painful years of my life, it was hard and I did a lot of evil things that I don't want you to ever know. so please don't try to find out"

His tone had changed from painful to unimaginably painful and regretful, I can't help but wonder what really happened all those years.

The next day he went to work again for some urgent issues he had to handle personally, but I wasn't too bored as Brenna called to update me about her crazy clubbing experience and things happening in school.

It was announced that from next semester we would be taking more practical courses and be exposed to lessons from prominent tourist characters, that was the exciting part of the course I had been waiting for since forever.

Brenna also felt I would be happy and interested in knowing about her one night stand experiences so she felt the need to update me on ever disgusting adventure she was busy enjoying.

I envied her a little because even with being a single ass I still could not exercise as much freewill and enjoyments as she did.

Well after hearing Brenna talk all day I was totally exhausted but grateful for the company.

"Girl you are single you need to enjoy it while it last" Brenna's words kept ringing in my ears so I pulled out my laptop and decided to do something crazy after all no one was home and Charles said he would be coming in late.

I turned on my laptop and decided to try something new and exciting like watching some porn.

The first time I watched one was in highschool when I accidentally transferred some from my friends flash drive and I had never felt the need to watch one again, at least not until now.