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Chapter 128: Still loving you
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2024-12-29 07:00:39Gideon’s eyes locked onto mine, dark with regret and an intensity that I couldn’t quite escape. His chest rose and fell beneath me, his breath heavy, like the air between us was thick with everything unsaid. I could feel the heat of him, the pulse of his desire, and it made everything inside of me tremble—both with longing and fear.
“I never stopped loving you, Amethyst,” he whispered, his voice raw with emotion. "Not for a second."
I wanted to pull away. I wanted to shut him out. The memory of the hurt, the betrayal, all the times I’d been left alone with nothing but the broken pieces of what we had—that was still there, gnawing at me. This wasn’t just about a kiss or a touch. It was about everything that came before it.
I pressed my hands against his chest, trying to put some space between us, but the truth was, I wasn’t sure if I was trying to push him away or pull him closer. "I can’t, Gideon," I wh
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