NIKOLAS
I wished I knew what to tell her. Alva probably already told her everything but for Doria, hearing it from my lips would be the only thing she would consider the truth. The easy way out would be to lie and deny it all but what tale would I weave when Alva arrived at my door with Samuel. There was a slim chance Alva might have rejected my offer though. Still, the look of dread Doria had on her face suggested she had pieced something together. Lying to her would be futile and if I broke her heart, she had to know it was never my intention.
"Samuel is my son," I confessed.
"I don't understand," Doria stammered, tears running down her cheeks like trickles from rooftops. "I was in Paris for just four months. How is this possible?"
"Doria, calm down and let me explain." I tried pacifying her but she had sunk too deep.
"Calm down! How do you explain that you have
KLAUSLilika stifled a laugh. The growl emanating from her throat continued to grow until she was cackling like a witch. I could tell this was her coping mechanism. She had laughed the same way when the doctor had told her the love of her life; the man who had danced with her at the balcony on her birthday had died from a heart attack the next morning. This was another of those many hollow laughs my mother gave when things were going awry. Soon enough, her laugh relapsed. Honestly, it felt like a Deja-Vu of the morning I lost Dad. Mom looked at Doria who had just returned to the living room playing the role of betrayed dutiful housewife to a fault and then back at me. I saw a drop of tear escape from the crevices of those eyes that always pretended to see all the bright and beautiful things of the universe. Mother was shattered."You are not kidding. You...have a son." I had never remembered her sounding so anxious. This s
ALVA I hoped he understood my plight. Probably not. But a part of me still believed he would come to an agreement with me. I was trusting a man I knew I should not be trusting with the life of my son and ensuring no legal case happened that would cause Samuel to wrenched from me. His pause on the line made me feel like I was fighting a losing battle. My mind would not stop making up scenarios that made my head split open. Had he figured something out? After all, I had cracked so easily when he suggested I reach a compromise if I didn't want him to fight for custody. He was a businessman. He was known to make gambles and oftentimes, they weren't wrong. "Mr. Sica?" I said, flagging down a taxi by the hospital road. "Are you still on the line?" "Of course." He retorted, breaking the static white noise that had almost become familiar. "I understand your perspective. Samuel is going through so much. I
NIKOLAS"You aren't serious." Doria scoffed. "You are really shoving me out of your life for some lowlife prostitute you fucked years ago?"My ears ringed at her assertion. She thought she was better. Oh, Doria had it easy. Every passing second stayed close listening to her spew bullshit made an inferno invite within with me. I had blamed Doria for being rash but heaven knew what I would do if I lost my temper. I pushed past her, returning to the living room only to see my mom prepared to face me with a scowl. Doria had succeeded in pulling her to the dark side. Ignoring the daggers she shot at me, I proceeded to spill the information I had."Alva will be coming here with Samuel."My mom erupted into another bout of laughter like she could not believe what I said. "Lemme guess, Alva is the whore you knocked up?"The blatant use of such a dirty word made me clench my fist.
ALVA The ride to his place was an awkward one. In fact, if there was a word to describe the way I felt, I was pretty sure the term would worse than awkward. The feelings that rushed through me ranged from fear; the fear that Nikolas would figure everything out to disgust; repulsion at myself and the man who drove us. I wanted nothing more but to end this. I just wished I knew how. I hated that I needed him. I hated that I could not figure out a solution that did not have Nikolas Sica in the picture. I pressed my hands on the necklace that graced my neck. The gold necklace was one of the few things I could remember my sister, Charis by. She would have had an idea if she was still around. Why wouldn't she? After all, if there was anyone who hated Nikolas Sica more than I did, it had to be Charis. “So,” Nikolas finally spoke as he continued to drive into the unknown. “Is this how the tension is going
DORIA "What would you like to order for dinner?" Lilika enquired solicitously, strolling into the kitchen where I sat, drinking a glass of warm milk while playing around with Nik's abandoned engagement ring. They were matching ones we had got when he joined me in Paris for a fundraiser project I was involved with. I could not understand how Lilika could be so calm about this. I was disturbed. Nikolas was my beacon. I had been an oddball out of the perfect mannequins of our beauty agency. If Nikolas hadn't found me, I would have remained unnoticed Doria. I could not let such happen. Not when I was so close to taking over the modeling world. "Something light," I said, "But aren't you worried Lilika? Nik's P.A filled me in on the gory details. He's gotten an apartment downtown and has gone to pick that bitch up. We should not just sit down and watch her destroy him." Lilika dropped a pan loudly in the sink
NIKOLASToday was a great day. Mom had called to apologize for how cold and insensitive she had been. She was sure to mention that she wanted to see her grandson. I told myself it had something to do with the results I had gotten concerning Samuel's paternity but I still suspected she was only calling dinner to involve Alva. It was why I had suggested the brunch. It was a cover. I was sure Alva would dress like a nun because I had to face it, she still didn't feel comfortable around me. I had seen how she held her breath when my eyes went her way and what my touch did to her. Telling her we were going shopping would be suicide. If she did dress like a prude which I was certain she would, I was sure it would be easy to convince her to shop. I needed tonight's dinner to go well.I dropped Samuel at the backseat, swiped a seatbelt to keep him in place, and proceeded to the front seat. When I started the engine, I felt Samuel'
ALVA "What exactly are they looking for?" I asked Ruby while trying my best not to give away too much to Nikolas. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. My secret. Someone wanted to dig it out. There was no leap of logic to it. someone who would benefit from discovering something shady about me was involved in this. I found it hard not to suspect Nikolas. He was the only one who stood to benefit from learning my secret. But, he had somehow learned of my legal trouble with the child welfare services. It was an easy opportunity for him to rip me out of the picture but instead of doing so, he had chosen to help me gain full custody of Samuel. As much as I wanted to blame Nikolas. He wasn't the one. However, it had to be someone he knew. "Anything really but it seems someone might have told them about your adoptive parents and they seem super interested in knowing more. Are you sure there isn't something you are not telling
NIKOLAS "What would mother like?" I pondered as I scanned the pieces of jewelry adorning the necks of perfect mannequins scattered across the store. "...what would Alva want?" It had been strange of Alva not to resist me when I brought the idea of managing her. I suspected she was only being considerate considering I had the power to take Samuel away from her. I picked up a necklace that caught my fancy. The necklace was a simple silver chain with an Amber stone as big as a grape dangling at the end. It would match Alva's hair perfectly. "I'll be taking this," I told my guide, dropping it into his delicate hands before setting off to another circuit of the accessory store. Minutes went by as I scavenged for something my perfectionist of a mother would be appreciative of. It was usually easier than this, I had to admit. I glimpsed at a gold-plated watch that reflected my worried demeanor. I picked it up because it s
ALVA The sound of the car engine roused me from my half-sleep as Nikolas pulled up in front of me. That was what I got for insisting I made breakfast for all three of us despite staying up super late the night before and playing a game of 'we aren't really strangers' with Nikolas. For me, it was some sort of escapism. When Nikolas got through to me, it always felt like I was betraying Charis' memory. At the same time, it felt wrong to continue to judge Klaus by actions he committed in the past when it was crystal clear he wasn't that sort of person anymore. I patted an equally sleepy Samuel and carried him in my arms. He had an appointment today, and while I wanted to follow him, I had school. Nikolas was more than capable of taking care of Samuel. I allowed myself to trust him that much. I rubbed my eyes with my free hand and groggily got into the car, barely managing a mumbled "Good morning" as I set Samuel into his seat and latched his seatbelt in place. Nikolas simply no
ALVA His eyes popped against the bright yellow light. I stared, trying my possible best to swallow the lump that had formed in my throat out of nowhere. "I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me.""Well," I began. "It was wrong in all manners considering you have a fiancee. You are a businessman and she is a model. Both of you are public people and that makes your business people's business. I don't want to surround myself with a scandal. I can't risk putting Samuel in the spotlight. Not with his treatment commencing.""No scandal will come of this," Nikolas promised me. I knew he meant it because this was not the first time he had done it. Killed a scandal. He probably didn't even realize that I knew. "Are you talking about your brown envelopes?" I sighed. "I know you have been paying the press and whatever tabloid you can to hush about the existence of Samuel.""How do you...""People see Nikolas. People talk. Your money and influence cannot contain everything."Nikolas paused, s
ALVAArriving back at the apartment, I proceeded to the room to find Samuel sleeping. To think I was afraid to leave him to a babysitter. Whoever the woman was, she had outdone herself. Nikolas walked in soon after. He sloped by the door and watched us. I found it unsettling so I spoke first to ensure that things stopped from ending up weird."You should go to sleep." I urged."You wanna know what I think?" Nikolas asked as he strode closer."What?""I think you should take your own advice. You look like a single mother micromanaging everything. Give yourself some space to breathe.""Except I can't. Samuel's health is my priority."Nikolas sat next to me, his hands reaching out for mine. It was stupid to accept it knowing what had transpired tonight. I wanted to get him out of my head but his presence refused to let me forget. However, he was being nice. I had to tell myself that not to mention that he sincerely cared f
DORIA "Hello Katherine," I croaked. "What the fuck do you want?" "You sound pissed. Have you seen the link I sent you?" "The one with that bitch leeching off Nik? Yes. Yes, I have. Abundantly so if I must add." I looked over at Lilika. She seemed so unfazed and that tiny detail pissed me off more than the fact that my ex-fiancee technically cheated on me and broke up with me barely minutes after. "Katherine, if you are here to gloat or mock me, I really don't have the energy. I have my own issues to deal with so relish in my misery all night because you have nothing better to do." "Stop it!" Katherine retorted. "I am not that shallow. I sent the link to you only because I cared and I am calling right now for the same reason. I do not intend to mock you for what Nikolas Sica has done. It is the nature of rich men and trust me DORIA, I have had my fair share of heartbreaks in the hands o
DORIA The dinner was a disaster. Playing prim and proper was not me. Not when Nikolas kept passing me looks like I was the monster. I wasn't even sure what Nik's mother was doing anymore. Her vile disposition towards Alva had completely settled. With Lilika involved, one could never be too sure but the act of kindness bothered me all the same. I however got a reality check when Lilika threw the bomb. "I wouldn't mind if he could visit sometime or maybe come stay with us." My eyes lit up and for the first time, I looked at the Attica rat with hope reeking in the depths of my soul. If Nik's son came to the family house, Nik would do. I hoped the peasant girl considered it. Knowing her social standing, I was sure she was going to try to please Lilika which was precisely what we needed. Once we had Nik and his son, it wouldn't be long before this Alva girl was out of the picture. She looked in my direction,
ALVA "Eh..." I managed, fiddling my cutlery with fingers whose tips were now beautifully shaped with varnished nails. "That would be a last resort. Finding a donor in this big city should not be difficult." "But would it not be safer to make another child with Nik?" Lilika inquired. She looked serious and it frightened me. I doubted the woman who had looked at me like I was less than a human being the second I stepped into the house and was actively looking for a way to kick me out of her son's life would suggest I make another child with her son? Wouldn't that solidify what she was trying so hard to break? Her unpredictability caused me concern. She was practically impossible to read as I remained in the dark about her motives. "Maybe but I don't want to," I revealed. Nikolas's sloe dark expressive eyes darted in my direction in accordance with my response. This hurt me more than it would hurt him con
ALVA Accepting Lilika's preposition seemed to be the bigger mistake. I realized that the moment Lilika passed me a generous slice of Almond and dates cake. The room was a battleground before but now there was no solace. Nikolas would not stop studying him. I made sure to avoid looking in his direction but that did not stop him. I hated that I was the one feeling guilty for the kiss. Nikolas kept his eyes on me like he expected an answer from me. He made me feel excruciatingly self-conscious! More because Doria, his fianceé kept serving me glares like she knew very well the sin we had committed and a little because I couldn't get the picture of Nikolas's kiss out of my head. I felt my core warm up just at the thought of it. It was wrong, I told myself but the more I seemed to hammer the mantra into my head, the more my biology seemed to debunk it. It told me the stark truth I had subtly realized over the days I had spent with Nikolas. The
DORIA My world collapsed and threatened to swallow me along as it all came crashing down. I felt myself stumble and fall against a wall. The thump my hands made when they hit the wall didn't even distract them. They were too deep into exploring themselves that everything else ceased to exist. The image in front of me was no longer tucked in with the rest of my nightmares. I could pinch myself all I wanted and hope this was another one of my nightmares but the cold wall that coursed through my fingers told me differently. What would Lilika do, I asked myself. Rational questions like that did not apply to me when I lost it but it was all clear now. My Nik was under her spell. Any wrong move would be the finale of 'us'. I stepped back despite the overwhelming urge within me to wretch that whore away from Nik because it was exactly what Lilika Sica would do. I had messed things up with Nik at the dinner table. I couldn't let whatever this Attica trash win.
DORIA "Really?" Nik attacked me the second that money-hungry rat was gone. I kept my eyes out of the tabloid on my screen for a split second. It had been the reason for my flare-up. Tonight was supposed to be all about getting Nikolas back to my side. I had no problem playing my role if Katherine, a bitch from my modeling agency had not spilled the tea that would probably make front pages tomorrow. Some photographer had caught Nik taking that slum rat to our special place. My special place! The way the picture was taken, it was bound to spread rumors about me and Nik's temporary break. I just couldn't take it. "What?" I retorted, trying to keep my calm. It was only juicy paparazzi news for now but if I messed tonight up with Nik. There would be no chance of us getting back together. I finally put my act together and spoke. "Alright, I admit it. I was out of line. I just couldn't control myself." &n