Being married so far had many disadvantages. From being woken up too early, just so he could enjoy breakfast with me to the dozens of times my husband wanted to explore my body throughout the day. Not like I was complaining about that last one, is just that most of the time I was left hot and bothered while he went about his day and all I could think about was when was the next attack. Right now, we were enjoying a quiet Sunday afternoon with his friends out on the deck, a lot of beer, food and music. This was different from both the first time I met them and also my wedding. The weight, the pressure of social interaction left my body the moment Dickie wrapped me in a bear hug, lifting off the ground and then twirled me. I saw the panic go off in everyone around us. Giggles bubbled up inside my throat and I decided to just go with it. My skirts were long enough to keep everything covered so I just let myself be twirled. Dickie, Benedict and Logan took turns teasing m
The rainy season has made my husband grumpy. A series of events had made him leave the house at irregular times for long periods. The overflow of the river lost cattle, fallen fences and the drowned crop has made it hell for the workers. They are tired of fighting mother nature. This season they expect a more forgiving mother nature but that’s one of the many repercussions. The power has gone out for the third time tonight so instead of secluding ourselves inside our bedrooms Carla and I have taken camp in the living room. Candles and gas lamps fill the room with soft light, are pretty cozy with the fireplace on and weighted blankets keeping us warm while outside rainfall heavily. “Do you think they will be safe out there?” Andreas has been away for far too long, a glimpse of him since yesterday is all I got. “He’s going to come home soon.” Her tone no longer reassures me that he will. She’s worried too. Home. After so long I’ve begun to think like it, t
“Oh, you.” I pushed him away, or tried to, he barely moved an inch. “Don’t tease me, I’ve been alone all this time.” “I came back as soon as I could.” “You could have done it sooner.” “The men were guarding the house, I left a few too, in the barn with the young coals and pregnant cattle.” He explained as he wrap his arms around me. “They told me you sat by the window since dawn.” With an effortless move, I was in the air, my face under his chin and my legs wrapped around him not caring that my clothes were getting wet. “Are you going to be this needy whenever I leave?” He asked as he kneeled in front of me. He took off my socks slowly. “Yes.” I said without hesitation. “Hows the leg?” “Doesn’t hurt.” I lied. “Good, I’m gong to
We woke tangled in bed, my back to his front. The curtains were drawn, the only light coming in was barely enough to differentiate our surroundings. His arm and leg were dropped over me, keeping me locked in. My human made jail breathed deeply behind me as his arm tightened. “You slept like the dead.” I said softly. “Look who’s talking.” “You passed out right away, I had to stay here awake all by myself.” “All by yourself.” He turns me around to watch his the astonished expression on his face. “Woman, I’ve been working non stop under the pouring rain. Pushing cattle, lifting weight and helping families.” I struck some type of nerve. “I was right next to you. Alone, come on.” “Yeah, well.” It was hard to come up with something. And when the corners of his mouth curved I gave up. “Oh shut up big brute.” “I’m not even saying anything.” Annoyance filled me. Whatever I had been trying to do failed. I didn’t even understand my constant neediness and expressing it had been worse. B
The nights turned colder now that winter was upon us, sleeping alone in that big bed made it worse. Endless nights I wait for him, and he doesn’t come to me. Missing his warmth next to me was nothing at all, I suffered in the darkness while he did god knows what with who knows what. That name, Cythia, kept hunting me. Fighting to fall asleep was my newest struggle. One more to add to my long list of first world problems. Replaying over and over again what happened still left me wondering whatever I did for him to turn to frost. A creak coming from the door made jump. The light coming from under the door shifted, he was standing outside. Hope filled me, air filled my lungs and stayed, the tension was palpable, a knife could cut it. I was afraid to move, to make a single sound. Anything that could spook him but it wasn’t even a couple of minutes when his shadow disappeared and I heard him walking away. “So he just ignores you?” “Yes.” “What did you do?” “That’s what I don’t kno
Andrea’s POV She’s a small lump under the covers, only her hair is visible from where I stand. Even from this distance her presence awakens something in me. The little game she had tried to pull on me, the way her eyes darkened when I treated to punish her. My little lamb, so innocent. She had no idea what she was doing. Stirring the darkness, the hidden desire in me. There wasn’t any way that I could introduce her. And then the call. That goddamn woman kept pestering me. Word had gotten around about my sudden nuptials. I didn’t fall for the story, her wanting to congratulate me was nothing but her way to try to get it. I had wasted too much time with mindless sex, that was in my past and I made sure it stayed there. This was my chance to build a family for myself, for once in my life to do something right and for the look of it Rebecca was the woman for me. I just had to find a way to stop myself, to get my head out of the gutter and learn how to be the right man for her. Sta
Something is smothering me, I’m no longer cold so it doesn’t bother me. The warm is so inviting that can’t help but move closer to it and I find myself engulfed with a scent that I already know and alcohol.He must have come in late at night and for the look of it drank himself into oblivion. Must have forgotten the reason that kept him away for weeks. Half his body lays onto of me, his face is buried in the crook of my neck breathing deeply.“Andreas.” I call his name but all he does is groan deeply against my skin. I try again, but he barely moves, dead to the world.I can’t move, he’s too heavy but is not like I want to either.Laying flat on my back with a man on top of me isn’t what would call comfortable, not when he’s been keeping me at bay. When he hums I fell my toes curling at the sound. Never in my life I would have thought that I would develop feelings for McKinnon. He’s like a force no one can reckon with and from the moment he stepped into my life, well nothing has worke
Is a recurring theme, some time overnight he crawls into my bed and lays on top of the covers. He pulls me close to his body and falls asleep. I’m never awake when he comes or goes, I just wake up with him wrapped around me and then go back to sleep. Maybe he pretends that he can’t feel or hear whenever I try to pry myself away, and there’s the smell of alcohol. Not a lot but enough to know that he’s been drinking regularly. This time I don’t care about his well-being, I don’t care that I might wake him up. He’s smothering me and almost choking me with his arm pressed to my neck. Prying his arm up and off so I can finally breath normal. He’s literally sprawled over the mattress, fully clothed, even with boots. I should kick him off, wake up and ask him to get out. The bottled-up anger makes me want to pinch his handsome face. The sun is rising, and the warm colors are seeping in through the open curtain. I bet my good leg that he’s about to wake and for the first time both will