Paloma~It's alway weird when the girl in high school who was popular because she was hot and because every boy had seen her ass as a rite of passage called the young prissy virgin (which was me, I'm the young prissy virgin) a slut.Well that was what Elena Furbray called me for the entirety of high school and I did pride myself that I wasn't a suck-up like her, who clung to boys and their dicks. But it turns out that there might be a bit of slutty-ness in me. There was nothing else to quantify myself as I melted like putty to his kisses. I'm ashamed to say that if he hadn't stopped of his own accord I wouldn't have either. We said nothing apart from that didn't think we needed to as we fell back to sleep.I had gotten quite used to the warmth he provided when we slept, it was another shame I'd like to forget, I wanted to remember the beast who'd broken that girl's heart all over the sidewalk, but with the helpful, suspiciously silent guy next to me, the memories refused to rise to th
Paloma~The faint knock on the apartment door had me tingling with something I didn't dare admit to myself. It seemed kind of ridiculous for me to pace about amd yet it was the only thing keeping me sane.My hopes were dashed once again, twice it should have been him and twice it wasn't. I send the pizza guy away with a rather meagre tip even though it was clearly not his fault that Orion was a no-show. Hours seemed to pass by perceptively but the clock said he was only minutes late. Each moment sort of taunted me and under the lush and beautiful girl in the black lush dress, a sliver of my old self stared back in astonishment.The long wait finally won over any sort of niceties and excitement I'd dreamed up, it'd been foolish of me to believe that he'd-The sound of a light faint knock had whatever thought that I had wrenched out of me, my feet quickened as I opened the door.There he was, rocking off the casual look with faint illumination of the moon echoing away in his eyes, eyes
There's something about the simplicity and elegance of everything that blows me away."It's, it's-" I began, my breath hitching in my throatHis fingers curl about the small of my back and the vivid image of my torn dress resurfaces and I feel the redness entangled with my skin. "Come on." He whispers in my ear. "Your date has lingered on enough."He leads me on to the candle lit table. It felt ethereal being right there with him in the middle of the room under the surprisingly starry night."Hope you can keep a secret?" He says as we sit. "Cause this has to be one of my hideouts."He smiles at me, a genuine clean smile this time, it felt good to see him do that for me, made me feel something stir in me, something that broke the boundaries of the faux pretence we had going on."Tell me something about yourself." He says digging into the chicken in front of him. "Apart from the crap."My eyes narrowed and he raised his hands in mock surrender, but yet I obliged him. "I like the color
It's been days since the incident with the 'crazy ex' as Casey and I had dubbed it and there wasn't a glimpse of him around, I'd gone out of my way to see him, even to his soccer game which was saying a lot considering I cared little to nothing for the sport, but it would seem that even then he'd gone out of his way to avoid me, disappearing with crowd before I could even get the chance to talk to him.Casey had been livid at first, at girl for being an 'obsessive bitch' her words not mine and at him for abandoning ne right after, it would be impossible for me recount some of the PG-79 words that she'd used on him, but nevertheless she passed on her usual message. Be careful, it irked me that she thought so little of him and even more so that his actions were proving her right.As for me, I'd been left slightly abused and confused and extremely bruised to my ego, the fact that he'd avoided me for so long only seemed to worse whatever feelings of dissatisfaction and doubt that I had to
Casey ended up being the hyper one among the both of us. After the incident at the mall with nude girl 101, the party seemed to be all that she could talk about, Strange how her eyes took on a mischievous glint whenever she talked about it, but I had to play the part and agree with her, wouldn't want my best chance of survival slipping away.There was little I could do too save for school, I tried to be nonchalant and not so hyper, it seemed crazy that there was this budding need and feeling that I needed to impress a man who'd be comfortable ignoring, the more I thought of it, the less I felt alright, It made feel less and I didn't really want to anymore."Case." I tell her on the night of the party. "I don't really think I'm in the mood for this anymore, maybe we should stay home?"She looked at me like I'd lost my mind, "I didn't spend all day planning to rub my pretty self all over some rich kid." She tells me. "And so help me God if you don't put on this fucking dress and start
A sudden ran through me as we stared continuously at each other, there was a shuffle of feet as big burly guards approached from behind her but I was deftly tucked behind Orion, his sister's enraged face quickly disappearing as i faded inconsequentially behind him."What is this nonsense?" He growled meancingly, tightening his grip on me. "That's the bitch who molested me." she growled. "Along with her crazy ass friend!"I positively cringed, Casey was positively having the best fucking time of her life compared to my current predicament. "That's not true." I whispered behind him, feeling my cheeks take on a bubbly red shade."You keep quiet." she snarls reaching from behind him to scratch at me. He pulls her back abruptly and at the same time casts a mean glare towards the approaching guards. "The fuck if I let you touch her." He says lowly to his sister. "Don't fucking cause a scene here.""Enough." Came a deep burly voice. "Remember whose name you represent." There was hush an
Paloma~So where'd we stop?Yeah, oh shit.One minute I'm in the middle of orgasmic bliss and the next I am scrambling around for non-existent sheets. "Oh." Casey says simply, others words refusing to come out. "Wow."Dwayne and Orion hold bemused expressions on their faces, I try pulling away from him, but Orion tugs back holding me tightly to him. "Uh-I think we'll coke back when you wrap this up." She says demonstrating with her arms. "No." I yell waving frantically. "Yes." Orion says at the same time. "It's her apartment." I say. "Besides we weren't really, we didn't-, it isn't-"His hidden arm snaked around my waist delving into unseen places and abruptly shutting me up. "Give us a minute." Orion says. "We have unfinished business."Words died deep in my mouth as his fingers continued to play around me. "Have fun?" Casey says before Dwayne drags her off. We're alone again, and I am about to start a whole chain of berating but he's quicker, his lips find mine and it's as i
Paloma~"Stop!" I yell. "Orion, Jackson Stop it!"My orders fell on dead ears, the two men scuffled about trading blows and drawing blood amongst each other like it was no big deal and it was all my fault, I yelled again and I felt hot tears brim in my eyes, I wouldn't be that girl.Two guys finally intervened pulling the two enraged men off each other. "Don't you ever touch her again." Orion growls. "She's mine!""Let the girl decide." Jackson shoots back. "If you can shove your tongue down Amy's throat while she's there, I was trying to make her happy, she doesn't seem to have that with you!"There were more trades of angry words and Orion broke free and took another swing at Jackson who proceeded to headbutt him, the crowd looked onto us whispering and ice cold shame and embarrassment whittled it's way down my bonesI turned and ran, pulling a Cinderella I heard both men call after me and I replied none picking up the pace so that neither of them caught up with me, a taxi seemed t
Marcus MatthewsThe pen swirls between my fingers coming to rest between my index and thumb in rapid succession, One might say I was bored, but in reality, it was all I could do to still myself as the thoughts ran their wild course through my mind. My fingers jerk each time I think of Orion and the gun.“Take care of him” My brother Dane had requested simply.Giving him a 44 magnum pistol had not been part of what he requested and I’m pretty sure he’d have my balls on a stick flying high over his pool-house if he found out, but then again the crazed look in his eyes had been something I’d recongized. It was the same fire that had been in Dane’s eyes for Miranda all those years ago before he became a money conscious prick.The door bursts open as I oblige myself to a taste of scotch, and a burly looking guard I frankly don’t remember hiring walks in.“Sir,” he says simply waiting for my signal before he continues, I raise my glass to him and he steps back “The quarry has arrived and he
Paloma“You sure you don’t want to stay?” Casey asks for the billionth time that morning “I could as well just tell my parents to come at a later date or we could-"“It’s fine Casey” I reassure her again. “Besides you haven’t seen them in God knows how long, it would be selfish of me to let you pass up the opportunity.”“But-” she opens her mouth to raise another argument.My hands are faster and I raise it to silence her.“Enough Casey” I say, blowing my sweaty hair out of my face as I haul my suitcase from my room “I swear if you ask me one more time I’ll shove this suitcase so far up your arse you’ll sneeze bra, if you really want to help, then help me bring the luggage to the door.”She smiles and obliges me and I heave a breath as she takes the box off my hands.“It’s a two week stay,” she says huffing “Why do you need so much and how do you even have so much stuff, are you moving?”“Its stuff I need” I tell her “Just help me get it to the door would you.” Certain strings of exp
OrionIt had been a week since she was discharged and still my fingers has not learnt to uncoil the gun, I wonder how she will react if she found that I had been sleeping right outside her apartment with a revolver in my hands like some crazed paw patrol squad. I counted down the time until Casey’s parents would arrive, then she would have to stay with me for awhile and then maybe I’d finally get some shut-eye.It has been quite unmemorable this past week with some days leaving a bitter taste trailing down my throat like when I had to grovel back to join the team, the all too enthusiastic glint in the coach’s eyes made me want to vomit. I hated that he got to win like that but in the end I’d grovel before a thousand worlds if it will keep her safe.The night was awfully quiet save for the occasional hooting of the owl and the constant ticking of my watch, I should sleep even if it’s a little but I cannot bring myself to do so, even if she has begun to notice it, there’s too much on my
PalomaA string of expletives escapes from my lips and he winced, with a strength I did not know I possess I leap from the confines of my bed and rushed headfirst towards him, my fists raised high up in the air, he did not stop me but he sure did not expect as my arms wraps around him, crushing myself into his chest.“Thought you weren’t coming back.” I whisper into him, “why the fuck didn’t you come back, you had left, I could not-”In that moment he lifts my face up placing a deep kiss on my lips and silencing me, it was right, something I was hoping for, like an addictive drug that I had gone too fucking long without, it was relief, we finally break away from our kiss, his hands still cupping my face as we stare into the endlessness of each other, he opens his mouth to say something but a deep clearing of someone’s throat kills off whatever words were to come out.“Orion in love.” A deep voice says from behind him. “Never thought I’d see it come, your father must be absolutely livi
PalomaWe have lived almost everywhere before, from shanty houses to trailer parks, things kind of got awry when dad left and having little next to nothing.Didn't seem to help matters. I vaguely remember her now but for all the mystical things in the world, things didn’t come close to Mama Lupé.It was a dark time for me with dad gone, I was nine and Mom’s habit of drugs and drinking had begun to become less of a hobby and more of a daily routine, it was expected that without a job that we would be kicked out and the landlord had been lenient enough, mom was not picking up her act and soon the need for money had us out on our backs and into the streets.This was perfect scene for Mom anyway and I only remember him as Luca but he was one of the worst moments of my life but still I had nowhere to go, stuck in a trailer park with Mom’s dealer and new love interest, it was in the next trailer I met one of the most interesting women.Her skin was what drew me to her in the first place, I’
Chapter Twenty SevenOrionFocus on her smile.Focus on her smile.Focus on her smile.My eyes betray me once again and my gaze drifts over her, I wince annoyance and a gain the cloud of annoyance falls so much so that her voice seems far off, drifting off with the cold air that blew from the air conditioning."Orion,” she calls to me. “You seem off, I'm fine you know, you really don't have to-"She stops when she catches my gaze and for a moment our eyes linger telling the truths that our lips were afraid to say, I knew her enough to know when she put up the fake facade, that show of strength when when really it was all jelly underneath the iron facade, it didn't make feel better, it made me feel worse and I feel her cold hands against mine, she notices my looks and squeezes my hand, looking up to the ceiling, she blows a breath."Fine, it's stupid to say I'm fine," she says. “Any idiot can see I'm not fine, is it your fault? Could this have been avoided? Maybe.” I grunt interruptin
Chapter Twenty sixOrionIt keeps replaying on and on in my head, one minute she's screaming my name,the next she's bleeding away from a horrible gash in her head, I shake in fear because a strange part of me keeps telling me that's it's my fault and another part agrees with it.I stare at my bloodstained clothes, stained with her blood, my hands are trembling shivering with heavy emotions, a whole lot of anger is embedded inside of me, some of it is towards myself and the other I really do not know who to direct it at, I want to hit something and scream till I lose my voice, instead I sit all too calmly in the emergency room praying she turns out fine.I have formed up a rhythmic motion of simultaneously twiddling my fingers and shaking my legs, I do not remember how long since I've been this nervous or if I ever have been like this, my mind is constantly screaming the fuck at me to do something but I'm helpless and I sure as fuck hate this feeling.I should have been there, insisted
Paloma-I touch the gash across my head, my hands comes streaked with red and the faint metallic smell of my blood sickens me slightly, my ears ring and my assailant fades away from my vision, retreating faster in the shadows of the coming night.To say it smarts when I move is not explanation enough, every step I take is pure agony and I my ribs scream in agony as I move the side where he'd barreled into me, my vision was fading and the lights were becoming woozy, I had to move, if I didn't Orion would not find me, I'd bleed out in a dirty alley and like hell was I going that happen.Muscles screaming at me to stop and still I move forward, dragging my all to tired body one inch at a time, the seconds ticked by agonizingly slow and yet it was all it could hold onto to keep conscious, one inch at a time and the I could feel my dress caked with dust, that wasn't my problem anyways up ahead I saw Orion glance at his phone, I wasn't going to make it at least not before he drove off, I f
PalomaI slither into the house an exhausted mess and I meet Casey too in the same frazzled state with her perfect hair splayed everywhere and little bits of it coming down to fall over her tired and gaunt face."I take it you had no sleep," she says to me yawning for further effect. "I think they're on steroids y'know, how could anyone have such a sex drive, even the quickies aren't as quick enough, fuck I'm sore, I need me some caffeine."I should have laughed but God knows I only had about as much energy to keep the bland look on my face the way it was."I take it you don't want to sleep?" I ask quizzically. “Are you guys on a marathon or something? When next I see your boyfriend-""Whoa," she cries, raising her hands to stop me before I could say anything else. "He's not my boyfriend, we're banging a lot but that's just what it is, banging. And by the way I have a paper due really soon so I need to be up.""How soon?" I ask."In about four hours, if life goes on like this I might